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On the way home, Li Meixiang held her son's hand tightly, as if afraid of losing him, and dared not let go.

She talked a lot about her life in the past few years, the changes in the community, and finally she mentioned her hard-spoken and soft-hearted husband.

"Your father is the one who worries about you the most. When you had an accident, he went to so many places and begged so many people. No matter what others said, he never believed that you would do those things. Wan Chen, you have been in it all these years, He always looks like he lost his soul. He often pops up out of nowhere while working, wondering how you are doing and whether you have been bullied. Several times, he sat in your room, staring at your photo in a daze The former colleague's son got married, he went happily, but came back full of ridicule. Even so, he didn't blame you. He always believed that everyone in this world would make mistakes. As long as you know your mistakes and you are willing to correct them, He will definitely forgive you. Wan Chen, your father worries about you no less than me. When you get home, you have to admit your mistake to him and don't make him angry again, ah "

Wan Chen lowered his head, raised his other hand to rest on the back of his mother's, "I'm sorry."

For more than four years, the bustling city of S has changed rapidly. Several projects he promoted during his tenure have now been completed. Looking at the high-rise buildings and large shopping centers in the city center, it feels like time has passed.

Locked in prison, he missed too many things.

When he returned to Wanjia, it was almost the same as when he left.

It's just that the names and types of flowers in the courtyard have changed, and the iron screen door that always makes a creaking sound has been replaced by a thin gauze curtain.

The photos on the wall of the entrance have been wiped fresh, and the father is sitting in the living room pretending to read a newspaper.

Li Meixiang called "wife", but Wan Hui didn't agree. She raised her chin and pushed her son forward.

Wan Chen stepped forward, bent and knelt in front of his father.

"Dad, I'm back."

Li Meixiang covered her mouth and turned her face away.

Wan Hui's hand holding the newspaper trembled slightly.

Wan Chen lowered his eyes, and said softly: "I'm sorry, I have caused you to worry about it for so many years. My son is unbelievable and has done too many wrong things. Dad, I have always thought that in this world, it is worth my effort to fight for and pay for it. The things that I do my best to work hard are reputation and status. In order to pursue the never-ending heights of others, I destroyed a family and a person who once loved me deeply. I know that four years in prison can’t pay off my crimes. Sin, whether it is for you or for those who have harmed me, cannot be redeemed in a lifetime. It took me more than 30 years to realize what is the most important thing. Dad, Mom, in the future, I don’t want to take that hard road again. Lu. Just stay with the one I love and you, be an ordinary person, be a son who can't make you proud, but will play chess and talk with you every day."

Li Meixiang knelt down beside her son and hugged him tightly into her arms.

Wan Hui put down the newspaper and picked up the cup on the coffee table, but he couldn't hold it steady with trembling hands, and the water in the cup spilled on the ground.

The old man who pretended to be calm was already in tears.

At noon, Li Meixiang cooked a lot of Wan Chen's favorite dishes and kept putting them in his bowl.

Wan Chen turned his head, "Enough, Mom, it's too much, I can't eat it."

Li Meixiang nodded with a smile, Wan Chen picked up the chopsticks, and there was another rib in the bowl.

The silent father withdrew his chopsticks and continued eating without saying anything.

Wan Chen lowered his head, picked up the rib and put it in his mouth.

Full, is the taste of home.

In the afternoon, Wan Chen went out the door.

In a cafe near his home, Mr. Lin's confidant lawyer pushed a document bag in front of him.

"This is the condition that was negotiated back then. Accept it. By the way, congratulations on your release from prison."

After ten years of hard work in the mall, Mr. Lin couldn't figure out what was going on in his mind. He pushed the document bag back to the lawyer with a blank expression, "No, I don't need these things anymore."

The lawyer smiled, "You make it difficult for me to do this, and Mr. Lin can't rest assured."

Wan Chen, "Lawyer Cheng, you're joking. I just want to reassure him that I can't accept it."

The meeting place was at a cafe near Wanjia, and the old man's warning was obvious.

The lawyer put away the file bag indifferently, "I like dealing with smart people very much, and I would like to advise you in the end, stay away from S City, it is not wise to hang around in front of the elderly all the time."

Wan Chen stood up, "I know."

Walking out of the cafe, Wan Chen came to the bus stop, and took a long time to figure out the route on the stop sign before getting on the No. 78 bus.

From now on, he is just an ordinary person.

After one stop in the car, a woman came up with a three or four-year-old child.

Wan Chen stood up and gave way, and the child said to him in a sweet voice, "Thank you uncle."

Wan Chen smiled back.

Without the capital to stand up, even ambitions and desires can only be suppressed, and they live a life of being watched all the time.

The reason why the old man in BIC was able to let him go temporarily was only because he was an inconspicuous piece of trash.

He knows too much, and when he makes a move--

When the car arrived at the stop, Wan Chen got out of the car, and when he looked around, there were only buildings he was not familiar with.

In four years, this area has been built into a bustling shopping plaza.

Kang Lin stood in the crowd, still paying attention.

A black jacket with a stand-up collar, and handsomely trimmed short hair. Seeing him, he smiled slightly, raised one hand, and waved at him.Kang Lin is the only friend left in his more than 30 years of life.

When he was proud, he made friends with many people.

When frustrated, who is left by his side?

They met at a Chinese restaurant. The old friend who had been reunited for a long time did not have much greetings, and asked him about his future plans.If there's anything you can help with, just ask.

Wan Chen picked up a piece of tofu and put it in the bowl, "He, is he okay?"

When he was imprisoned, he had entrusted Kang Lin to help take care of Shen Xu.He was afraid that he would not be able to protect him with his own ability, and it was always good to have more strength.

The hesitation in Kang Lin's eyes flashed away, "Well, very good. Are you going to find him?"

Wan Chen: "Let's go tomorrow."

Kang Lin bit half of the shiitake mushrooms and dropped them into the bowl, "I said, you are too anxious, you just came out today, at least you should spend more time with your uncles and aunts."

Wan Chen lowered his head guiltily, "I can't wait any longer, I don't want to wait for a moment, I feel that every second is a waste. Twenty years is really too long, too long."

If possible, he hoped that he could go to Shen Xu's side in the next second.

Maybe that person won't accept him so quickly, maybe a lifetime is just a luxury, so let him stay by his side.

Get closer, get closer...

It is happiness to see his smiling face without any worries.

Kang Lin looked at him thoughtfully, Wan Chen today is completely different from the person he knew.

Wan Chen, who has flesh and blood and soul, should be something to be happy about.

Can----

When Kang Lin's words reached his lips, he swallowed them back abruptly.

Life is too cruel for this old man who lost everything, let him dream for a while!

When they parted, Kang Lin said to him: "If the ending is not as good as you thought, come back! I dare not say anything else, I still have the ability to help you find a job. Wan Chen, thinking of your father Mom, you have to live well."

Although Wan Chen was slightly puzzled, he nodded without saying anything.

On the way back, he was in a good mood, thinking about the meeting tomorrow and his future life.

Even though the road ahead is dark, there is always a light in my heart that illuminates everything.

Shen Xu...

When he got home, his mother prepared chrysanthemum and wolfberry tea that had been removed from the fire and brought it to him.

Wan Chen pulled his mother to sit in front of the crib, holding a teacup, and revealed his plan.

He wants to find someone and leave tomorrow. That person is very important to him. He has loved him for 20 years.

Li Meixiang was so surprised that she was speechless for a long time. Wan Chen had someone he liked but he had never heard of it.

I have been in love for 20 years, I should have known each other a long time ago, but why...

Thinking about when he confided his heart this morning, he did mention a person he loved deeply.I didn't pay much attention to it at the time, but now that I think about it, it seems that there is such a person.

I always thought that Wan Chen was such a cold-tempered person that he would have that kind of cold attitude towards the girls he had been with.

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Li Meixiang pulled her son's hands reluctantly, "Even if you have to leave, don't be in such a hurry! Can't you wait a little longer, mom just saw you, and we have to separate again. Xiaochen, spend more time with mom, okay?" "

Wan Chen put his mother in his arms and patted her on the back comfortingly, "Mom, I miss him, miss him, miss that person very much. In fact, our time together is really short, and we have been separated for so many years. I always think that there is absolutely no chance to get together with him in this life, and I dare not look for him, dare not see him. Until now, I have handed over everything and lost everything I got by hurting him. Mom, I It seems, it seems that I have the qualification to see him again. Maybe, I still have even a ten-thousandth chance. Although it is just my wishful thinking, but---- I miss him, I really miss him. Mom, he and I 20 years have been wasted, and every second that remains, I wish I had spent with him."

Although Li Meixiang didn't quite understand what he was talking about, every sentence felt sad.

She couldn't bear to stop her son any longer, so she could only sigh helplessly.

"I'm sorry, Mom, I will call you every day, maybe, maybe soon I can bring him back, your future daughter-in-law. You will like him and you will definitely accept him. When the time comes, our family ,together forever."

Li Meixiang couldn't hold back, sour tears dripped on Wanchen's coat.

She nodded in relief.

The next morning, when Wan Chen got up, his mother brought out the freshly cooked porridge from the kitchen, and his father, who rarely woke up early, also sat at the dining table.

In order to catch the early train, he bought a ticket after 05 o'clock, but now it is only 30:[-], but his mother has already cooked porridge, just to have a parting breakfast with him.

Wan Chen felt guilty, and sat down at the dining table in silence.

Wan Hui pushed the plate of steamed buns in front of him, "Eat more, I have to go on my way later."

Li Meixiang scooped up the porridge bowl with a spoon, "Come on, Xiaochen, drink something hot, it's still cold in the morning."

Wan Chen looked up at the two people who loved him the most in this world, and tried hard to swallow back the sad tears.

"Dad, Mom, I'm sorry I couldn't accompany you well. For the time being, please take care of yourself and wait for me to come back."

After breakfast, Wan Chen picked up his bag and carried it on one shoulder, like the most ordinary people in this city.

Walk out of the house, wave to your family, turn your head, and move forward to the place of hope and dream.

With a new life path, he once again chased his dream.

It's just that the dream has changed, and it has become the only light point in life.

A car was parked near the corner of the street, and the man in the car was watching his back intently.

There is an exquisitely packaged gift on the passenger seat. The expensive new men's clothing is carefully selected by him, and he is going to give it to the person who has just stepped out of the trough in life.

The man gripped the steering wheel tightly, following his eyes from anger to sadness to helplessness, until he could no longer see that man.

The man closed his eyes and leaned against the seat, waiting for the sadness to disappear from his body little by little.

After 10 minutes, he started the car and drove back the same direction.

To Wan Chen, who used to be aloof, T City was just a small third-tier city, so small that he didn't even have the slightest intention to develop here.

After leaving the train station, he took a taxi to the third kindergarten.

The taxi driver was an enthusiastic middle-aged man, and he talked a lot about the customs of T City along the way.

Guest, this is your first visit to T City. T City is a good place. There are hundreds of scenic spots, large and small... If you want to ask where the most authentic food in T City is, you can find me. You asked the right person... The people here, the biggest characteristic is their enthusiasm. Wherever you go, if you ask for directions, they will definitely tell you in detail...I didn't lie to you, I live here For 40 years, you can see that our city T has the lowest crime rate in the whole country. How about it? Are you here for tourism or...

Wan Chen had a panoramic view of the scenery outside the window, and with a light smile on his lips, he gave the driver a most satisfactory answer.

Find someone, find someone, maybe, put your home here.

After getting out of the car, Wan Chen walked into the Xinhua Bookstore a few hundred meters away from the kindergarten. The clerk asked him what he needed, and Wan Chen replied, a pen.

pen.

The clerk recommended several models to him, and he looked at the front of the counter for a while before finally picking out one.

When packing, he told the clerk that the bag should be more beautiful, and that it is for his lover.

The clerk was a little puzzled. Others gave their lovers flowers, jewelry, etc. How could you think of giving pens.

Wan Chen had the happiest smile on his face. The first gift from his lover back then was a pen.

That pen is their beginning.

Will a new pen bring a new beginning?

When checking out, he took out 200 yuan from his wallet and handed it over.

This is one of the few subsidies he earned in prison for more than four years. After buying a set of autumn clothes for his parents, he bought the pen for the rest.

It is the money he earned with sweat and hard work, and it is the cleanest money.

Shen Xu, will you like this gift?

Walking out of the bookstore, Wan Chen held the pen case in his hand and walked towards the square full of joy.

A man came out of the supermarket ahead, standing on the side of the road with two hands full of plastic bags.

Wan Chen took a closer look, it was Shen Xu!

Excitement and nervousness surged into his heart instantly, and he walked forward with a smile on his face.

But - just took a step.

A man who was also carrying two big bags came out of the supermarket and approached Shen Xu.

Wan Chen's smile froze at the corner of his mouth.

He Lei complained dissatisfiedly, "Even if it's a big sale, you don't need to buy so many things!"

Shen Xu laughed, "I can't carry it anymore, where have you been training every day, that's all right, give me that bag!"

He Lei elbowed his outstretched hand away, "I don't want to be seen by Sibao Luolin and the others, saying that I bully old men."

Shen Xu approached him with a smile, "What are you doing tonight, West Lake Vinegar Fish, aren't you good at it, I still remember the taste of the last time I ate it!"

He Lei smiled, "You must have been a cat in your previous life, or a greedy cat, let Sibao and them come over to eat together at night!"

Shen Xu: "Okay!"

The two walked away talking and laughing, but Wan Chen could only stand there, staring at their figures.

The gift in his hand fell to the ground, but he couldn't move his eyes wide open.

Shen Xu, He Lei...

They smiled unreservedly at each other, and they walked towards the place they called home.

They are in love.

Something ran into Wanchen's chest, and a certain place was excruciatingly painful.

For a moment, breathing seemed to become difficult, and something hard was blocked in the throat, unable to swallow or spit out.

The sour feeling rushed into the nasal cavity and rushed into the brain.

His eyes ached and ached, and the pain gradually became blurred. He tried to open his eyes wide so that he could see clearly the figure he had missed for so long.

Shen Xu...

He has loved Shen Xu for so many years, thinking that he can make up for it with his whole life, thinking that he has the qualification to love him again.

Shen Xu...

He hadn't had time to give that gift of initiation, hadn't had a good look at him yet.

Shen Xu is happy, and with the person he loves deeply, he will always be happy forever.

Two small figures at the other end of the square walked into their home, and a line of tears rolled down Wan Chen's face.

He lowered his head slowly, looking at the carefully selected gift that fell on the ground.

Something was ripped out of his body abruptly, and he bent down in pain.

The outstretched hand was trembling, but it couldn't catch the dropped pen no matter what.

Shen Xu...

He tightly closed his eyes, opened his mouth, and breathed in the cold air of T city.

The only light in his life is slowly, slowly extinguishing.

Until, no longer seen.

All that remains is, boundless, darkness.