kind of bend me

Life in prison is pretty much the same.

Get up, go to work, eat, and sleep regularly, make phone calls once a week, and let the wind go.

When not working, Shen Xu and his inmates went to the entertainment room to play cards and watch TV.

Homesickness is a stage that every prisoner goes through.

The incompatibility when I first came made this yearning intensify.

The same goes for Shen Xu.

The small shop in T city, the four treasures who are like family, the little angels in the third kindergarten, and He Lei who is far away in another country.

He cares no less than anyone else.

Sleeping until the sun rises every day, opening the door of the small shop, teasing the crying children, going to the small restaurant with Sibao to satisfy the cravings, talking about love and love with He Lei on the computer and mobile phone, such days...

There will be no more.

Every prison visit day, Uncle Wan and Aunt Li would visit him.

Aunt Li always said that he lost weight again, and advised him to eat well; Uncle Wan encouraged him to learn a skill in the house, read books and newspapers when he had time, so that he would not lose touch with society after he came out.

As she spoke, Aunt Li's eyes turned red, and Uncle Wan sighed and shook his head.

Shen Xu forced a smile on his face and changed the subject.

How is Wan Chen?Did you get promoted again?Very busy recently!

But for some reason, when Wan Chen was mentioned, Aunt Li's tears flowed even more fiercely, and Uncle Wan turned his head, unwilling to answer.

Shen Xu didn't dare to ask any more, lying on the bed at night, he thought silently, Wan Chen, what happened?

Liu Xuan came to see him once before going abroad.

After all, she is a strong girl, this time she is much more energetic than the last time we met.

Liu Xuan said, "Shen Xu, will the person you love wait for you?"

Shen Xu thought for a while, "Who knows, maybe, I won't wait!"

Liu Xuan: "When you come out, come to me, okay? Don't worry, I won't like you anymore, just friends, just live together as friends, okay?"

Shen Xu looked at her. The confident and beautiful Liu Xuan he knew had been worn away by life. Although she was strong and brave, she was just a fragile woman.

he told her--

"Liu Xuan, I don't want to see you living in guilt for the rest of your life. You are not beautiful at all like that. In fact, you don't owe me anything. Thinking about what you have done for me, you should understand that these things are taken for granted. Don't Wait for me, eight years later, I will find my lover again. I want to live with him until I grow old, as for you, I have no obligation to take care of you, you can do it yourself."

Liu Xuan smiled, hiding her disappointment well, and leaving her smile to the person she owed her whole life.

"Shen Xu, I..."

Back in the cell, Shen Xu sat by the window.

The inmates he knew were joking with him, and when he saw his girlfriend, he looked devastated. Is it because he can't do that in the future?

Shen Xu smiled, and said in a flat tone that she was leaving.

Walk?The inmates are surprised, where are they going?

Immigrants, in the future, will not come back.

"Shen Xu, I don't want to leave."

This was the last sentence Liu Xuan left him.

Tears were sealed in her eyes, Shen Xu wanted to reach out and hold her tightly to give her courage.

In the future life, in a strange country, alone.

He can no longer protect her, he can only let her break through alone, and when she is hurt, lick the wound alone.

No more consolation.

Later, Shen Xu followed Uncle Wan's advice and learned techniques.

It is not difficult to say that mechanical maintenance is difficult. If you master the principles and tricks, you will be handy soon.

But prison life is not always smooth.

One month later, Shen Xu felt the real danger for the first time.

That night, just as he fell asleep, he suddenly felt something covered his face, blocking him from breathing.

He immediately realized that someone was trying to harm him.

The man's hand was so strong that he covered his mouth and nose with the quilt, no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't escape.

He tried to overthrow the man with all his strength with his hands and feet, but he couldn't shake the man who was as hard and strong as steel.

It stands to reason that their movements were not small, and the people around them should have heard them, but no one yelled.

Shen Xu's strength gradually weakened, just when he thought he was going to die this time.

The weight on my body suddenly disappeared.

He suddenly lifted the quilt and sat up, only to see that the fellow prisoner with a scar twisted the thin prison clothes into a rope and strangled the neck of the man called Zhuang Hu, forcefully tearing him off Shen Xu's body.

Zhuanghu tightly grasped the prison clothes around his neck with his hands, kicked his legs wildly, and let out a painful whine from his throat.

The man with the scar had a ferocious expression, and his attack was extremely ruthless, watching the strong tiger slowly roll his eyes.

Big drops of sweat slid down Shen Xu's forehead, he got out of bed in horror, and called "Brother Dao" tremblingly

There were footsteps in the corridor, and the patrolling prison guards were coming here.

The man with the scar pulled the prisoner's clothes and pulled Zhuanghu onto the bed. While loosening his strength, he covered his mouth with a quilt to prevent his violent cough from attracting the prison guards.

Leaning over to face him, the man with the scar grinned, revealing a creepy smile.

"Boy, listen, this guy is covered by me, tell your people, if you dare to touch him, first think about how many lives you have."

After finishing speaking, the man with the scar got up and pushed Shen Xu, "Go back quickly." He quickly jumped onto his bed.

Zhuanghu's coughing attracted the attention of the prison guard, and he yelled into the cell.

Shen Xu's heart beat faster, he lay on the bed with his eyes closed and listened to the strong tiger answering the prison guard.

"I have...a little cough...no...it's all right."

Shen Xu slowly opened his eyes, clenched his fists on his abdomen tightly.

The next day, Shen Xu looked for an opportunity to get closer to the man with the scar.

"Brother Dao, thank you for what happened yesterday."

The scarred man glanced at him, and said indifferently, "You don't have to thank me, I'm just taking money from others to eliminate disasters for others."

Shen Xu pursed his lips tightly, knowing it in his mind.

The man with the scar looked at his serious look, and said with a smile: "Hmph, someone pays you to kill you, and someone pays you to protect you. It's interesting. Whether your little life can last until the day you get out depends entirely on yourself." Good luck. I can't keep an eye on you all the time. In the future, you should be more careful. Don't trust anyone in this house."

Shen Xu nodded, "I understand."

The man with the scar got up, clapped his hands, and walked past him, "May your life last longer so that I can get the money smoothly."

Since then, Shen Xu has strengthened his training, and he is always more careful when in contact with people.

Ten years of peaceful life had polished off his blood and hostility, so he would be intimidated by that kind of strong man.

The man with the scar was right, he couldn't protect him all the time, and no one could say for sure who the tip of the knife would be towards in the end.

The only person he can rely on is himself.

When he raised his eyes again, the fierceness appeared.

He is Shen Xu, the Shen Xu who used to be fearless.

What a joke, he doesn't want to die in this kind of place.

If anyone wants to play with him again, he is ready to accompany him at any time.

When he was in prison for four months, Shen Xu received an unexpected visitor.

To put it mildly, seeing He Lei again seems like a century has passed.

He still has the same refined appearance, with neatly trimmed short hair, wearing rimless glasses, a wide windbreaker, and slender fingers folded on his knees, always with a calm and capable appearance.

In contrast, the current Shen Xu can only be a mouse in the sewer, with a gloomy attire and a gloomy life.

"How did you come?"

He Lei looked at him intently, "Sorry, I'm late."

Shen Xu couldn't see He Lei's heart clearly, and couldn't figure out the feelings hidden under this calm appearance.

He Lei continued: "I heard about you from Sibao, and I didn't come back to see you in time. I'm sorry, there are too many things to get rid of. This time I can only stay for two days when I come back this time, and I will leave soon. In the future... ..."

Shen Xu interrupted him, "I'm sorry, I failed you, I'm really sorry."

Regardless of whether his choice was right or wrong, he failed a person who loved him deeply.

I'm sorry, he owes He Lei.

After paying off----

"There is no future."

He didn't blame He Lei or Liu Xuan.Give him another chance and he'll still do it.

Perhaps, this is the path God destined him to take.A lifetime of loneliness, so be it!

He Lei lowered his eyes, and his voice became much softer, "I'm sorry, I accept it, Shen Xu, you do have the ability to make people angry. Before coming here, I also thought a lot. I will ask you why you did this , why don't you think about us, your recklessness has ruined our future life. I don't blame you for being a fake, I also thought about whether it would be best to just divide it up. Eight years, have you ever thought about how long this is? ? Eight years later, will you still recognize me? Shen Xu, life is not acting on TV, I can't give you a guarantee, I will wait for you for eight years. Three thousand days cannot be reached with a single sentence. I, no confidence."

Shen Xu listened to his words silently, feeling a little bit sour. When facing the ending that he had expected for a long time, the sad feeling was still so strong.

He Lei's understanding of the whole incident is only based on the media reports, and Shen Xu was characterized as a passionate murderer in order to seek justice for his ex-girlfriend.

Even if he is affectionate and righteous, he is too reckless and impulsive. There is nothing wrong with doing this when he is seventeen or eighteen years old, but he is still like this after he is over 30. Normal people will not accept this kind of lover.

Besides, it's been eight years, and even I don't have the confidence to wait for someone for eight years. He Lei's words can't find any problems.

There is no deep emotional accumulation, they met too late, and their acquaintance was too short. It is impossible for them to be separated for eight years.

He Lei sighed and continued, "But Shen Xu, if you want me to give up now, I really can't do it."

Shen Xu suspected that he had heard wrong, slowly raised his head, and looked at him suspiciously.

He Lei's voice was as gentle as usual, but it was a bit unreal when it came from the receiver.

"I like you, this feeling is too much. It should be said, I love you. As I said, I don't want to give up this feeling, I don't want to give up the person I loved with all my heart. Shen Xu, I want to go on with you forever, 30 Years, 50 years, until the end of my life, I hope that the person by my side is you."

Clenching his clothes tightly with both hands, Shen Xu gritted his teeth tightly, not letting the sore feeling completely defeat him.

"So, I want to try to accept you as you are now, or you will be in eight years. Shen Xu, I want to wait and see. I can't tell when it will be. Maybe time will completely wipe out the feelings of the two of us. Polished. Before that, I don't want to give up on you."

A tear fell on the back of the veined hand.

Shen Xu stared deeply at the man in front of him, a glass separated the two tightly connected hearts.

For eight years, they couldn't touch each other, couldn't see each other from time to time, and couldn't talk casually.

Even so, He Lei chose to wait.

Waiting without an agreement is the truest promise in the world.

He was just an ordinary man, like everyone in the city, with almost no merits.

There is nothing worthy of He Lei's love for him like this.

Eight years later, he was 40 years old.

Wasted eight years waiting for a wrinkled, useless man.

He Lei is even more stupid than he thought.

The corners of his mouth raised unconsciously, and Shen Xu nodded slightly.

The following days seem to be less difficult, and every day is full of energy.

Looking up, the flowing clouds in the sky gathered quietly, forming a missing face.

Outside the high walls and barred windows, that person is still waiting silently!

When Sibao came to see Shen Xu again, he found that his whole person had changed, he was full of energy, with a smile on his face all the time.

The inmate was surprised by his change and asked, "Is there anything good?"

Shen Xu replied with a smile.

In the early morning, the blue sky was clear, and the men in line took a deep breath.

There was a faint scent of peppermint in the air, and it was seven years and five months before he walked out of here.

So, He Lei, let's work together!

Shen Xu, if I can't wait any longer, what will you do?

Uh...then, let me wait for you.It doesn't matter how long you wait because--

I love you.