kind of bend me

After the two dishes and one soup were finished and brought to the table, Shen Xu took off his apron and called Liu Xuan.

"Where?"

"It'll be there in 5 minutes."

After hanging up the phone, Shen Xu put on a thick down jacket, trotted all the way downstairs, stood outside the corridor, and waited for Liu Xuan's car to come, he smiled and waved to the people in the car.

Liu Xuan's nose was sore, this feeling of having family is really --- terrible!

After getting out of the car, Shen Xu pulled her hand into his pocket, and warmed her with warm hands.

"Today is too late!"

Liu Xuan turned his face away, this winter was obviously as cold as previous years, but there was a stream of warmth flowing in his heart.

"Well, work is not going well."

It was an old house without an elevator, and every time they climbed up to the sixth floor, both of them would be so tired.

Today, at the entrance of the stairs, Shen Xu suddenly bent down, "Come up, it's rare for me to show you kindness and carry you on my back. Take it easy, don't break my old arms and legs."

Liu Xuan smiled, "I'm afraid you'll be crushed and still carry me! Forget it, I'm not that delicate."

Shen Xu turned around, "Really don't want it? Let me tell you, there is no such shop after passing this village, and if you want me to carry you on your back, it's useless to call Ouba a hundred times."

Liu Xuan burst out laughing, without any further hesitation, he bent over and pressed against the man's solid back.

72 steps, how long...

Somebody was playing a sensational Korean drama on TV, the cold wind of winter night was blowing in from the corridor window, the man was exaggeratedly yelling, Liu Xuan slowly closed his eyes.

The short hair blown by the wind brushed her face, and her body heaved and fell as he raised and lowered his feet again and again.

If possible, Liu Xuan hoped that time would just stop like this.

"Shen Xu."

If it was a lifetime burden, he would help her carry it without hesitation, "Huh?"

"Shen Xu."

Even though it was strenuous, even if it was sweating endlessly, he was willing to say, "Yeah."

The meaningless conversation continued for a long time.

There are 72 steps and there is an end.

Every day when Shen Xu was with her was Liu Xuan's extravagant request from God.

Waiting to go home, hot meals, and thoughtful words, it seems that this is really their home.

After dinner, Shen Xu squeezed to her side, a thick blanket covered the two of them, they leaned together to watch the new horror movie that was released at the moment.

Shen Xu kept his eyes closed almost the whole time, but he still said that this film is not scary at all. Alas, it seems that there are certain reasons for the depression of the film industry.

Before going to sleep, he would warm up a glass of milk and watch her drink every drop; when he was having a nightmare, he would immediately run in and hug the frightened her tightly.

It's okay, Liu Xuan, it's okay, I'm here, Liu Xuan, open your eyes, I'm here, no one will hurt you again, Liu Xuan...

Shen Xu is the last ray of sunshine in her life.

On a sunny day, they went to Shen Xu's former home.

This place has been developed long ago, and [-]-story high-rise buildings stand on the side of the road.

Shen Xu chatted with her a lot of interesting things back then, and also mentioned his current lover.

A gentle and considerate person, with a sense of responsibility and dedication, he believes that they will be together in the end.

Liu Xuan nodded and said nothing more.

When he got home, Shen Xu brought a cup of hot tea and put it in Liu Xuan's hands, wrapped her hands around the back of her hands, and looked at her sincerely.

"Liu Xuan, come with me, leave this city, forget everything here... I know it's hard, and I know it will take a long time. But if you don't try it once, you will never know, you still have a future, A future worth looking forward to... Liu Xuan, there is nothing you can miss anymore, go to a new city and start over, I can do it, and you can do the same. At least, you still have me by your side, and will be by your side Your friend for life."

Shen Xu said that T City is so beautiful that she couldn't even imagine it.

In spring, the streets and alleys are full of flowers that he can’t name. In summer, children flock to the square to play water fights and skateboards. In autumn, the roads are covered with golden leaves. In winter, the snowman’s nose is cut by themselves. carrot.

He also had sadness, and also had a heart disease that he thought could not be cured in a lifetime.

But now, he can laugh unscrupulously, laughing out loud in a brand new city.

He can, and she can, too.

For a second, no, maybe for a minute, for a quarter of an hour, Liu Xuan's heart skipped a beat.

She also wanted to let go of all the resentment, follow Shen Xu to that strange place, and start a brand new life.

Maybe, just maybe, she really could...

Live again.

They packed their luggage, completed the formalities, and bought the tickets. Everything should be going in a good direction.

everything……

That night, Liu Xuan had another nightmare.

It's not a nightmare, it's everything I've really experienced.

Obscene and wanton laughter, countless fists and beatings, in the dark world, someone grabbed her hair and asked her with a smile if she liked this kind of life. From now on, she would live in hell forever.

This time, she woke up peacefully, no screaming, no fear, the pillow was soaked with tears, and she stood barefoot in front of the mirror.

In the mirror, there was a pale and miserable Liu Xuan, a Liu Xuan who would never come out.

She opened the door, and walked lightly to the next door. In the open door, Shen Xu slept very restlessly.

She knelt in front of him, remembering the person in front of her little by little.

She had loved him, and for a long time, she had loved this man.

At the end of her life, the person who will accompany her is still him.

Tears welled up in his eyes, Liu Xuan lowered his head, covered his face with his hands, not daring to make a sound.

I'm sorry, Shen Xu, I'm really sorry, I can't accompany you to that beautiful city, I can't stand up like you again, I'm sorry...

Good bye my friend.

Goodbye.

January [-]th at one o'clock in the morning

In the alley opposite the SS Club, under dim lights, a man in a hat, sunglasses and black clothes was hiding in an imperceptible corner.

fifteen minutes past one

Fuquan was helped out of the club drunk and got into the car.

one forty

The secretary drove the car to the villa in Tianming Mountain.

At 53:[-], the secretary left.

ten past two

A bloody knife fell to the ground, Liu Xuan couldn't help panting, but looked at the corpse lying in a pool of blood with unusually calm eyes.

The phone that was set to vibrate was buzzing in her pocket, and she slowly took it out.

Shen Xu.

Close your eyes, tears slid down your face again, but you are no longer sad.

She fell powerlessly to the ground.

everything is over.

After nearly two months of follow-up investigation, she finally took advantage of the loophole and personally solved the person who ruined her life.

The fear that had been tormenting her was gone, leaving only relief.

The phone rang unrelentingly, and the names that frequently appeared on the screen made her feel sad.

After thinking for a long time, she connected the phone.

"Shen Xu."

"Liu Xuan, where are you? I haven't been able to find you since this afternoon. Didn't I agree to go together? What happened, where are you now?"

"Shen Xu."

Liu Xuan's voice was weak, and Shen Xu heard something strange, "What's wrong?"

"Shen Xu," tears flowed into her mouth, she hugged her knees tightly, and put the phone to her ear, "Tell me again, my future, okay? I really want to hear the city you describe, how much is it? Beautiful, so beautiful, I really, really want to take a look."

Shen Xu's nerves tensed up, "Liu Xuan, where are you, what happened, tell me, Liu Xuan!"

The winter in S city is very cold, the cold wind pierces through the thick clothes and pours into people's hearts.

"Shen Xu, I told you when I was 17 years old that I like you very much. Really, I didn't lie to you! Shen Xu, if, if you could fall in love with me too, it would be great. You won't dislike me, You will not abandon me today, no matter how ugly and scary I become, you will wait for me at the stairs in the cold night, and you will carry me up to the sixth floor with you out of breath, and you will make delicious food with your own hands Meals, you will watch me drink the hot milk you prepared, Shen Xu, if we can be together, I will definitely be the happiest woman in the world."

"Liu Xuan!" Shen Xu became anxious, and the panic in his heart grew bigger and bigger, "Where are you, where are you, please, don't scare me, tell me what happened?!"

"Can I...can I make an appointment for my next life?" I closed my eyes and imagined them in another world in the dark world, "Don't meet others, don't fall in love with others first, Shen Xu, wait for me, no matter Where is it, I will definitely work hard, work very hard to find you, find you, I think, I want to be with you, there are only two of us, Shen Xu, don't love others anymore, okay..."

Liu Xuan's voice choked up, and Shen Xu ran aimlessly on the street.

"Liu Xuan, where are you, where are you, tell me, where are you, Liu Xuan, where are you?!"

"I'm sorry, Shen Xu, I, I'm going to leave you, I'm sorry, I didn't keep the promise, I can't be with you, Shen Xu, I'm sorry..."

The screen lights up, and the finger moves to the red end-of-call area, "Sorry..."

Shen Xu is going crazy, the huge city of S is surrounded by endless darkness, where should he find Liu Xuan.

He was sweating profusely, and yelled at the phone, "Liu Xuan, Liu Xuan, tell me where you are, where are you, where are you!!!"

I am sorry.

Didn't you say you like me?Then chant everywhere!

I am sorry.

I am here to solemnly tell you that Shen Xu is not gay, he is my boyfriend... You are not qualified to humiliate and hurt him.From now on, I will not allow anyone to speak ill of each other.Shen Xu, is the person I love with all my heart, and is a person worthy of my love.

I am sorry.

Can I make an appointment for my next life, Shen Xu, wait for me, no matter where I am, I will definitely work hard to find you.Shen Xu, stop loving others, okay?

Liu Xuan! ! !

Above the icy city sky, a man's heart-piercing shouts sounded.