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He Lei said on the other end of the phone that he would come by car tomorrow morning, and three days later it was time to go abroad, and he wanted to spend these two days with Shen Xu.

Shen Xu said apologetically that he might not be able to stay with him all the time.

He Lei laughed softly, "Then let me stay with you all the time. I've even met my in-laws, so I should meet your friends too. Don't worry, I won't expose your old background."

Shen Xu walked to the window, leaning his head against the window glass, listening to the soft voice coming from his ear.

They are not young couples who are seventeen or eighteen years old, and they cannot cry and shout about love, nor can they say "please don't go"

Shen Xu, who is only a few days away from turning 31, has no right to exploit other people's ideals.

As soon as He Lei left, most of their relationship died. Three years or more later, things changed.

It's just a pity, the heartbeat of the past.

Early the next morning, Wang Qi bought breakfast and hurried over.

Shen Xu asked him about Wang Meng while eating buns, Wang Qi shook his head, "I haven't been back all night."

Shen Xu: "Did you call him?"

Wang Qi: "The phone has been shut down since yesterday."

Shen Xu took a sip of soup, "Forget it, let him calm down, let's work harder these days."

After breakfast, Shen Xu went back to rest, and before leaving, he explained to Wang Qi that if Liu Xuan felt uneasy, he would tell her about the past, try to be happy, and never bring up topics like children.

Wang Qi nodded in agreement, and urged the red-eyed Shen Xu to go back to catch up on sleep.

He Lei's car will arrive around noon, and he can still sleep for several hours.

Coming out of the inpatient department building, there was a familiar car parked under the luxuriant branches of banyan trees by the roadside.

Shen Xu felt suspicious, stepped forward and bent down to look in.

Wan Chen in the driver's seat leaned back on the seat, frowning deeply, sleeping restlessly.

Looking down, he saw a dozen cigarette butts on the ground outside the car.

Wan Chen, stayed up here all night?

Turning his eyes to that person again, Shen Xu has never observed Wan Chen more than ten years later.

At the age of 17, he only had Wan Chen in his eyes, and he took it for granted that the most handsome man in the world was Wan Chen.

With straight eyebrows, gentle gazing eyes, and generous palms holding him, all the way, for a lifetime.

At the age of 30, Wan Chen became the person farthest from him in the world.

The familiar eyebrows seemed to have changed, and he could no longer feel the temperature on that person's body.

Wan Chen has long been a cold stranger.

In the morning at the end of April, the cool air penetrated into his thin shirt, he sighed, retracted his eyes and walked quickly to the bus stop with his arms folded.

After sleeping for about two hours, the phone rang, and he sat up from the bed in a jerk before realizing that it was the phone ringing.

Wang Qi was in a panic over there, "Shen Xu, I really don't want to quarrel with you, but I really can't help it. Li Da's child has a fever and he can't get over it. Something happened to Liu Xuan again."

Shen Xu was startled, "What's going on?"

Wang Qi: "She was still terribly afraid of people. When the nurse came to give her an injection, she refused to let her die. Several people finally held her down and gave her an injection. As a result, she rushed out like crazy when no one was paying attention, and almost had an accident."

Shen Xu: "Is the method I taught you useless to you?"

Wang Qi: "I tried it several times. It doesn't matter at all. She can't calm down at all, and she can't always give her a sedative! This Wang Meng, the phone is still not turned on. Li Da asked his friends to give him all the information he knew. Someone called, but still couldn't find him."

Shen Xu lifted the quilt and got off the bed, "Hold on first, I'll pass right away."

Half an hour later, Shen Xu rushed to the hospital, Liu Xuan didn't know what stimulated him, and started crying again.

Shen Xu didn't dare to get too close, and asked Wang Qi what was going on by the door.

Wang Qi also looked angry, "Just now a nurse came over to change her medicine, and she picked up a phone call and kept talking about the baby. Although no one told Liu Xuan, she must have felt the miscarriage, and kept crying about the baby. children's."

Shen Xu got angry, "Can't get in touch with Wang Meng?"

Wang Qi shook his head helplessly.

At this time, talking about the past would not be of any use, so Shen Xu simply changed his strategy and used a dead horse as a living horse doctor, sitting a little far away and chatting with her about the child.

"Liu Xuan, do you like boys or girls? To be honest, I'm the king of kids in the area near my home. Let me tell you, my home and kindergarten are neighbors, and all the kids there like me. Santa Claus is on the same level. It’s far away. In short, boys and girls have their own advantages and each has their own troubles. When you are obedient and cute, you even want to pick the stars from the sky for him. You can't wait to slap him to death. I'm serious, the dark crowd at the entrance of the kindergarten every day, and the children are calloused after hearing it. Liu Xuan, don't pretend to be noble, once you become a mother No image, tell me, how do you plan to educate your family's naughty in the future."

Wang Qi broke out in a cold sweat when he heard it, and stared at Shen Xu whose expression did not change.

Does this count as fighting poison with poison? This medicine is too heavy.

Liu Xuan didn't respond at first, she huddled in her own world and cried endlessly, Shen Xu patiently talked for a while before she finally got her attention.

For the first time since the accident, Liu Xuan had a normal conversation with someone.

She seemed to have forgotten about the miscarriage, and stammered to describe the appearance of the child in her heart. She had just found out before the accident and was planning to tell him when she went out on a date with her husband on the weekend.

Even in the darkest days, she insisted on chatting with the baby in her belly every day.

She hopes to be a brave little boy and she will give him all the love.

As she spoke, Liu Xuan cried again, but it was no longer howling in pain. Her fragile tears fell on the quilt, and her heart died along with the child.

Shen Xu approached little by little, and finally walked to her side, stretched out his hand to touch her hair tentatively, and slowly, slowly pulled her into his arms.

Liu Xuan didn't struggle, tears soaked Shen Xu's shirt.

He Lei called at noon, Shen Xu couldn't leave at all, so he had to send him the address and let him come by himself.

Liu Xuan's best friend came to replace them, and Shen Xu found time to have a meal with He Lei nearby.

He Lei: "You've lost weight."

Shen Xu rubbed his face, "I've been in the hospital whenever I have time these few days, Liu Xuan's condition is still unstable, and friends and others have to go to work to take care of the family, so I, an idler, can help out a lot. He Lei, I'm sorry... ..."

He Lei put vegetables in his bowl, "Don't treat me as an outsider, I can accompany you in the hospital."

Shen Xu: "Thank you."

That afternoon, Wang Meng finally showed up.

Out of consideration, everyone didn't ask anything, and Wang Meng tried his best to take care of her as usual, but unfortunately Liu Xuan's condition was still up and down, the doctor suggested that she should wait for her injury to recover and receive psychological treatment.

Liu Xuan still has some repulsion towards Wang Meng, so it's okay to be closer, but once he wants to hold her hand, she will immediately back away in fright.

Shen Xu advised him to take his time, Wang Meng took out the half-drunk porridge bowl and washed it, when he came back, Shen Xu sat by the bed and patted Liu Xuan's back who was coughing, Wang Meng frowned slightly.

He Lei stayed with Shen Xu in the hospital all the time. Sometimes when Shen Xu went to the bathroom, he would chat with Liu Xuan, although he didn't get any response.

Wang Meng accompanied here at night, before Shen Xu left, he told him more about the happy and happy things with Liu Xuan, which could somewhat evoke her memory.

Wang Meng replied indifferently, closing the door of the ward without looking at him.

After walking out of the hospital, it was getting late, He Lei took Shen Xu's hand.

The nightlife in S City has always been prosperous, brightly lit and radiant, smiling couples holding hands, tired office workers rushing home, mothers chasing naughty children, and elderly strollers walking leisurely to the park with cups.

He Lei's palms were dry, and it was very comfortable to hold, even on the street with people coming and going, Shen Xu didn't insist on pulling his hand back.

Will there be another chance to hold hands in the future?

When they chatted about their first acquaintance, Shen Xu's irrational move pulled that invisible thread.

He Lei asked him why he wanted to talk to him, Shen Xu thought about it, and although he hadn't been here for a year, he felt that it was very far away, very far away.

Perhaps, at that time, he fell in love with the one-way line of attachment to feelings, ten years of silent love, and he will never forget it.

They are very similar.

He Lei: "Will you come see me off on the day I go abroad?"

Shen Xu has always disliked parting, when he left S City, he refused his friend's offer to see him off.But this time, he wanted to give He Lei a gift.

Give away, their relationship will end without a problem.

At night, He Lei and Shen Xu huddled together on the same bed, Shen Xu fell asleep quickly due to the exhaustion of the past few days.

He Lei pushed back the short hair on his cheek, and pressed a light kiss on his lips.

"Shen Xu, if there was no Wan Chen back then, would you have been with Liu Xuan?"

Shen Xu gave a vague "hmm".

He Lei: "After all these years, you haven't fallen in love with anyone, not even the slightest bit of temptation?"

Shen Xu was so sleepy that he couldn't hear what he said, "Uh... I don't know."

The room was very quiet, nothing could be heard except the breathing of the two of them.He Lei put his head close to him, their foreheads touched, and their breaths were exchanged. He asked softly, "Shen Xu, if I don't leave--"

The phone beeped and the screen lit up.

On the bedside was Shen Xu's mobile phone, He Lei glanced at him, took the mobile phone, it was a number with the same name.

There are only two words in the text message: good night.

He Lei could guess who sent it.He put the phone back where it was.

If this leaves, will Shen Xu and Wan Chen...

For ten years, he has paid too much for a relationship that he cannot respond to, but this time, he really wants to fight for himself.

If he can really make some achievements, maybe he can come back sooner, and the result will not change.

The next day when He Lei returned to City D, Shen Xu returned to the hospital and learned that Liu Xuan's discharge from the hospital was scheduled for the day after tomorrow, which actually conflicted with He Lei's departure date.