happy to hear

Le Yang's mood this night was like a roller coaster, going up and down, how did Cao Yi know his phone number and ask Li Min?It's possible, but compared to this, he cares more about why he waits for him, he can go first by himself, or he is waiting for them, he is just one of them.

The last hypothesis was quickly overturned, seeing Le Yang coming out, Cao Yi turned around and started to walk back.

"Don't you wait for them?"

"They will go back themselves."

"Oh." He was really waiting for himself, Le Yang was still out of breath, and hurried to keep up, the two of them went one after the other, and when they reached an intersection with relatively heavy traffic, Cao Yi stopped, as if he wanted to take a taxi .

It must be very difficult to get a taxi at this point. I don’t know if there is one. After waiting for a while, he walked in another direction. It seemed that he gave up and was going to take the public night line.

Le Yang followed behind, with all kinds of twists and turns in his heart, not knowing where to go.Before he set off, he made the worst plan, thinking that he only needed to take a look at Cao Yi. After that, he turned around and left, and he was satisfied. Don't even take a look now, Cao Yi's back was almost seen through by him, and he It was a surprise that they were waiting for him. Le Yang's feet were a little fluttering in excitement, and he wanted to go forward without looking at the red light. Cao Yi stretched out his hand to block it, and Le Yang realized that he was getting carried away.

The two walked to the station. The night line usually runs every hour or so. Cao Yi checked the time. There were still 10 minutes left. There was no one at the station, so he sat down and waited.He didn't wear a scarf, and there was a cotton shirt under the down jacket. Le Yang looked cold, and wanted to give him the scarf, but he hesitated for a long time but still didn't dare.

He rubbed over to sit next to him, Cao Yi didn't intend to speak, if things go on like this, the two of them are completely like strangers waiting for the same bus, when the bus comes, get on together, whoever arrives at the stop first gets off first, there won't be any comminicate.

As the time draws closer, Le Yang can't help feeling anxious. With such a good beginning, how could he be willing to end it like this? He doesn't know when the next meeting will be. Such a meager relationship, even a small change, may I will never see you again.

Just as he was about to speak, Cao Yi spoke first, "Don't do this in the future."

Le Yang was surprised and wanted to say nothing, but Cao Yi said again: "You should know, I don't want to see you."

Sure enough, it is still the case.

He thought that he was invulnerable to all poisons, but the moment he heard it, he still couldn't help feeling sad, "We haven't seen each other for three years."

"Don't you understand?" Cao Yidao: "We don't have to meet every once in a while."

Cao Yi said every word very deadly, leaving almost no room for Le Yang to express himself. The bus was delayed, he showed a little irritability, and Le Yang felt it.

The weather was getting colder and colder, and it started to rain after a while, with ice slag caught in the rain, Cao Yi's ears were red from the cold, Le Yang took off the scarf and gave it to him, but he didn't want it, he stretched out his hand to check the time, it was already late, Wait another 10 minutes. If you still don't come, you can only call your family to pick it up.

"I heard from Zheng Xiaoxin that Li Xinran has been looking for you to get back together."

Cao Yi was noncommittal, Le Yang said again: "She is not suitable for you, really, you can... have other better choices."

"Even if I must be with one person, that person will not be you."

Le Yang smiled and said, "Is it because of gender?"

Cao Yi didn't speak, Le Yang asked again, "Because I'm a man, I'm just like you, so I can't do it, right?"

"Even before, I only regarded you as a friend."

He didn't answer directly, Le Yang felt joy for a short time, did he mean that he didn't feel nothing at all, but he just couldn't accept the fact that he was a man.

But this can only give him temporary comfort, because he is a man and cannot be changed.If this idea is deeply rooted in Cao Yi, he is still hopeless.

"After that, can I come to see you? I don't do anything, just take a look from a distance."

"What do you want to see?" Cao Yi turned his head and looked at him.

Le Yang avoided his gaze, looked at the light sign in the distance, "I want to see you live well..."

"This has nothing to do with you." Cao Yi interrupted him, "Even if you don't do anything, your presence will remind me of bad things from the past."

This matter is Le Yang's biggest weakness, he can't excuse himself, "You still won't forgive me."

"Will you change it?"

"I don't know." Le Yang shook his head, "I'm not you, I don't know what you're thinking, you used to be so good to me, too good, for a while I really thought that you also thought that way about me ..."

Cao Yi looked at him, and suddenly sneered: "I sympathize with you because you said that you have nothing better than me."

Before tonight, or even earlier, all Le Yang's self-imagined mirrors, after hearing these words, all collapsed, and under the ruins, there was still his ugly self, naked.

In terms of ruthlessness, he really can't compare to him. Everyone can sympathize with him. Zheng Xiaoxin can, Li Zheng can, but he can't. The person he likes so much treats him so well because he pities him. The truth embarrasses him.

Le Yang endured it, his voice hoarse, "Then I really want to thank you, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be in the ghostly state I am now."

"So I forgive you, you don't have to feel guilty anymore, you have nothing to do with me, don't come here again." When the car came, Cao Yi got up, "I'll take you back."

The corners of Le Yang's eyes were slightly red, he wrapped himself in a scarf, and now he just wanted to find a place to be alone, even Cao Yi, he hoped that he could disappear in front of his eyes immediately.Seeing that he was not moving, Cao Yi came up to pull him. Le Yangmu was stunned, and let him pull him into the car. The air conditioner was on, but he was shaking all the time. A kind aunt next door asked the child if he was sick. Why is it so cold.

Cao Yi didn't speak, he stood by the door, Le Yang sat in the first row behind, and looked at him from time to time, he felt weird, Cao Yi seemed to be very aggressive today, even if that incident just happened before, he Nor was she in such a hurry to separate herself from herself as she is now.

Not as optimistic as he thought, some things and time do not necessarily have a relationship that ebbs and flows. Cao Yi's hatred for himself has not diminished with the growth of time, and he himself is also not immune. Going forward, only he is the walking dead cared for by the past.

Cao Yi asked him where he was going, and Le Yang said that his grandfather was there. He sent him to the gate of the community, and when he turned to leave, he passed a car.

Le Yang entered the door lightly, took out the things in his pockets, and was about to change his clothes. At this time, the phone was on, and Zheng Xiaoxin called.

"Mother, you finally picked it up, where are you now?"

"It's home, why is your phone turned off?"

"The battery is out, I can't remember your number, and Cao Yi's phone can't get through. I was so anxious that I thought you were home, so I called your mother and said you didn't call back. She should go out to find you now. You should call her back."

Le Yang saw that it was all fucking missed calls, so he hurriedly called, the ringtone came from outside the door, Zhang Weihua came in, holding the car keys in his hand, looking at Le Yang with a gloomy expression, "Where did you go?"

Le Yang smiled embarrassedly, "We got separated from Zheng Xiaoxin."

"Tell me the truth, where have you been!"

Maybe Zheng Xiaoxin let him slip the tongue, if so, he should have reminded himself on the phone just now, "I'm coming back, there are too many people, I can't get a taxi."

"Still lying, I saw it downstairs just now!" Zhang Weihua suppressed his voice, "Didn't you guys lose contact?"

Le Yang was slightly taken aback, then lowered his head and didn't look at her, "It's just a coincidence."

Zhang Weihua held back his anger, not wanting to make a big deal, and dragged him into the back room: "What are you going to see him for, and what is your relationship with him now!"

"I just went to see him, so heinous."

"Look, I agree to anyone, but he can't, you two will have no results, why don't you understand until now!"

Le Yang felt exhausted like never before. He sat down and covered his face with his hands. Too many things happened today. At this moment, he just wants to do nothing, think about nothing, just go to sleep, and wake up tomorrow morning as if nothing happened Pass.

"Mom, I'm going to sleep, you go out first."

Zhang Weihua has poured too much effort into Le Yang in the past two years, and he is almost exhausted physically and mentally. Seeing that he is still obsessed with it, he can't help saying angrily: "Look at your current appearance, are you worthy of us? You brought it up not to watch you destroy yourself!"

Le Yang still didn't speak, instead holding his head with his hands, scratching his hair in distress, Zhang Weihua wanted to break his hands away, but his grip was too tight, she could only cover the back of his hands, squatted down and looked at him, "Le Yang, listen to me and apply for studying abroad next semester. With your grades, it should be fine. I have friends who are abroad and will take care of you. When I get things done here, I'll go there too, and we won't come back gone."

Le Yang said in a muffled voice, "I don't want to go out."

"You are only 20 years old, you are still young, and you still have a long way to go. No matter how good you are, this society will not condone you. You know what others will say behind your back if you are together."

"Mom, stop talking, I won't leave."

Seeing that he was completely unmoved, Zhang Weihua became impatient, "This is not up to you! You have to go if you go, or go if you don't go. I will never allow you to make the same mistake again!"

"In the past, I couldn't be independent. Wherever you asked me to go, I could only go there. I didn't want to be separated from him, so I had to be separated. Originally, we could both go to the best university."

"He couldn't go because of you, your fault, and you don't want to repent now, but want to continue to make mistakes. Even if I don't care about you, I can't watch you hurt others again!"

"I can't hurt him anymore."

"Then I can't let him harm you. I do all this for your own good."

Le Yang stood up suddenly, "You are not for me, you are for yourself. If I am gay, I am not normal. You will be ashamed. They will say that they have such a son because of such a father."

"Slap!" With a slap, Le Yang turned his head away from the slap. His mother had never slapped him before. This was the first time. After beating Zhang Weihua, he also realized that he had hit hard. He wanted to see him, so Le Yang opened the door and went out. , let her shout from behind, he rushed downstairs without looking back.

Le Yang was waiting for a car in the cold wind, but there was no car. He began to trot along the road. Cao Yi should not be home yet. He wanted to ask him what he would say if he left and never came back. , Whether to clap your hands and cheer, or you will also feel reluctant.

Le Yang wanted to ask him, and wanted to hear him tell him the answer himself. Given a choice, if he persisted, then he would leave and never come back.