A long song, half a lifetime

Qin Moyu followed Mo Xing through the houses and the rockery, and came to a small pavilion. Standing on the pavilion, he could have a panoramic view of the Moon Moon Villa.However, Qin Moyu didn't think that Mo Xing took him to see the scenery.

"Big brother, do you think I look good?" Mo Xing said suddenly.

"Naturally it's pretty, Xiao Xing'er has grown up." The girl in front of her is no longer the little girl she was back then. Although she doesn't have Changge's allure and Qingshu's glamorous beauty, she has the cuteness and charm unique to girls. , plus those big smart eyes, very cute.Qin Moyu looked at Xing'er, feeling like a girl in my family had just grown up.

"Is it really good-looking? Then why doesn't big brother like me!" Mo Xing looked at Qin Moyu intently.

"It's not that big brother doesn't like Xing'er, it's just..."

Before Qin Moyu finished speaking, Xing'er interrupted, "Don't talk, big brother, can you listen to Xing'er tell a story first?" She looked at Qin Moyu, her eyes full of begging.

"Okay!" Looking at Xing'er like this, how could Qin Moyu not agree!

"Once upon a time there was a little girl, her family was very rich, she had a father and mother who loved her, and a sister who doted on her. She could always get what she wanted, but one day, this Everything changed suddenly..." Having said this, Mo Xing's eyes darkened.

The little girl's father went to other places to do business. When he left, he put his arms around the little girl and said, "Daughter, be good, don't cry. Daddy will be back soon. When the time comes, Daddy will bring you your favorite snacks. Finally Funny doll, play with you every day, okay?"

The little girl broke through her tears and laughed. She said, "Daddy is not allowed to lie to me. If Daddy dares to lie to me, I will never talk to Daddy again." The little girl's father hugged her in his arms and said with a smile: " Silly daughter, when did daddy lie to you? If you don't believe me, can we hook up?"

"La Gougou, don't cheat, 100 years, don't change, if you change, you will be a big villain." The little girl watched her father leave, but she didn't think that this parting would mean that she would have no chance to see her again.

"The little girl's father was assassinated and died outside, and her mother threw herself into the river because she couldn't bear the stimulation. Fortunately, her mother was rescued in time, but her temperament changed drastically. She will never forget, mother Look at her cold eyes when you wake up."

"Mother, I miss Daddy."

"Mother, will you play with me?"

"Aran, take the lady to play"...... This conversation was repeated countless times.

How many times, the little girl looked at her mother expectantly, but her mother always excused her because she was busy, and she didn't want to pick her up like before, saying, "Mother's Xing'er is so cute, my mother likes Xing'er the most." ", and no longer get close to her.Others say that it is very hard for the mother to carry such a big family. She knows all this, and she also wants to grow up quickly to share the pressure for the mother.However, at the same time, she also hoped that her mother would care more about her.But the little girl's mother never knew that what she wanted was never much, and she didn't need much time, even a hug was enough.

As the days passed, the little girl gradually grew up and became more and more silent.Because, since her father passed away, her mother has never cared about her, she only knows to let her learn all kinds of etiquette, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and if she is wrong, she will be scolded for a while. How can she be happy...

Finally one day, the little girl couldn't take it anymore, she took her burden and left this cold home.Although she became precocious due to lack of care since she was a child, after all, she has not been involved in the world deeply, and she is still just a child.So, soon, she stumbled at the hands of several liars.Several liars used elaborate lies to gain her trust and tricked her into boarding the boat. So far, her life has changed again, and she has also met the most important person in her life...

The moment the little girl got on the boat, she knew she had been cheated, not only because of the liar with grim expressions, but also because of those girls with blank expressions.However, everything was of no avail. In order to avoid the severe beating, she pretended to be well-behaved and sensible. Perhaps it was because her performance reassured the thief, or maybe it was because of her easy-going ordinary appearance that the thief was not interested. Days didn't hurt much.And she is also preparing a plan to escape.Suddenly one day, some thieves rescued a young man, perhaps because she was too well-behaved, so the man was entrusted to her care.Even though she was drenched and fell asleep, the handsomeness of the man was not diminished in the slightest. She had never seen such a handsome man before, and she became insane for a while, and for the first time, her thoughts of running away began to waver.

Later, the man woke up, and from the first moment he opened his eyes, she knew that he was a gentle person.Sure enough, the man treated her very well, and always smiled gently at her. The man's smile was extremely warm, like the first ray of sunshine after a long dark night, warming her and bringing her hope.To her, the man is the only light and the only salvation after her father's death. The man has brought her happiness that she has never had in so many years.She also recognized the man as her big brother logically.

The life on the boat, after having a big brother, the little girl was no longer lonely, she thought, if it was like this for the rest of her life, maybe it would be good.The elder brother can't swim, so the little girl gave up the chance she had been waiting for for a long time to escape. On that day, the boat was very close to the shore. For many days, the thieves had already let down their vigilance on her. She could escape from the ship, but after thinking about it for a long time, she finally gave up because she couldn't leave her big brother alone.I don't want to give up the warmth that I finally got.

Later, the little girl and her elder brother were sold into a brothel together.When her elder brother asked her if she was afraid, she said, "I'm not afraid!" How could she be afraid with her elder brother by her side?She didn't misunderstand the person. The elder brother still helped her and took care of her when he was in danger. It has been many years since no one spoiled her so much. She just fell into the tenderness of the elder brother day by day. He even made a sachet for him with his own hands, but one day, the elder brother suddenly left without saying goodbye...

"Big brother, my story is over, what do you think!" Mo Xing looked at Qin Moyu seriously.

Qin Moyu is not a fool, how could he not know that the story is about Mo Xing himself, as for the big brother, he is undoubtedly the one.He never knew that he was so important to her. In all fairness, he really doted on Xing'er like a younger sister, but she was undoubtedly not as important in his heart as Changge, but she regarded him as so heavy.At this moment, he felt very guilty, because he left without saying goodbye, and also because he almost caused her to fall into crisis. "Sorry, I……"

"Big Brother, don't tell me you're sorry." Xing'er suddenly covered his mouth, "In my opinion, as long as it's for Big Brother, everything is worth it."

Mo Xing's every move showed that this was a young girl in love. Qin Moyu could no longer treat her as a little girl. From her eyes, he could tell that she loved him.However, this love is too heavy for him to accept, and he can't accept it, and the world probably can't imagine that the young lady of the Mo family who has a beautiful appearance is actually living so lonely. He is also young, so he naturally knows that a child is loved by his parents The longing for her, and she lost them almost overnight, is indeed cruel for a child.Maybe Mrs. Mo loves her, but in the wrong way, how could she feel it when she was young.He understands that this is a child who lacks love. Because of the lack of love, he is greedy for the warmth he gives, and thus has a wrong start.However, they are destined to be unable to be together, every moment of his hesitation and weakness will be the deepest harm to her, it is better to end it as soon as possible, and prevent the mistakes from continuing.

"Xing'er, I know you like me, but I am not suitable for you. I am not as good as you see. From your mother, you should know that I am not only your big brother, but also the emperor of the Xuanyuan Dynasty. , no emperor's hands have ever been clean? You are still young, so pure, like an unborn white lotus, you deserve better things. One day in the future, you will know that the love in the past was all wrong, so listen to everyone Brother, let go!"

"No, I don't want it, big brother, I don't care, no matter how you treat others, as long as you treat me as before, I don't want much, as long as I can see your smile every day, I will be satisfied!"

"Silly girl, big brother will naturally treat you like before, but all of this does not require marriage! Big brother already has someone he likes, and if he gets married with you, it would be unfair to her, and it would also be unfair to you. "

"The person I like? Is it the beautiful big sister in the hall today? Does it mean that when I become as beautiful as her, big brother will like me?" Mo Xing raised his face and asked seriously .

"Of course not!" Sure enough, he was still a child!Qin Moyu looked at Mo Xing helplessly, "If you like someone, you won't care about her appearance. Big brother likes that sister because he likes her inside. Even if someone is more beautiful than her, he won't like her. You are still young, so don't Understand, wait until one day in the future, when you meet someone you really like, you will understand."

"Really?" Mo Xing looked at him half understanding.

"Of course! When did big brother lie to you? Okay, we've been out for so long. Your mother should be worried. I'll take you back!"

"Okay!" Mo Xing nodded.

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"Master, are you the smartest person in this temple? Can you tell me why the person I like doesn't like me?" Mo Xing knelt on the futon with a pious expression on his face.

The old monk was about 50 to [-] years old, with his eyes closed, sitting cross-legged on the futon, with a mysterious look.Hearing Mo Xing's question, his eyes were still closed, and he replied: "Buddha said: There are eight sufferings in life: birth, old age, sickness, death, separation from love, long-term resentment, and not being able to ask for it. Since it is suffering, it is better for a benefactor to let it go. Love is parted, resentment is met, let go, nothing is right. It's just empty eyes,

An illusion. "

Could it be that what big brother said is right? Mo Xing thought for a moment, and then asked: "But I don't want to leave him, and I can't let him go, so what should I do?"

The old monk replied again: "The Buddha said: from love comes sorrow, and from love comes fear. If you are separated from your lover, you will have no worries and no fear. The female donor is like this. It is because of the deepest affection. If you don't love , everything can be solved naturally.”

"Master, how can you not love!" If you don't love, there will be no pain, and the big brother will not have to be embarrassed.

"The Buddha said: Sow the cause, reap the fruit, everything is created by the heart. If you don't love, it's not difficult. It's all up to the benefactor herself. It's better to ask your own heart! Amitabha! That's all the poor monk said."

"Ask your own heart? Thank you Master for clarifying the confusion!" After Mo Xing bowed, he got up and left, his eyes were sometimes confused and sometimes clear.

Looking at the back of Mo Xing's departure, the old monk sighed, "Love is the most harmful thing." Don't talk about others, just talk about himself. Saka has been practicing Buddhism for so many years, but he still hasn't let go. Naturally, he should taste the bitter fruit, and it's time for him to enter the world...