Bai Yueguang goes back a little

The scorching sun shone down, and the trees on the campus were luxuriant, and the green leaves on the sunny side refracted the light——

It hurts the eyes.

In the classroom of Class [-], Science, Class [-], Senior [-], and Class [-].

The physics teacher worked hard on the podium, clattering the blackboard while explaining the example problems. If you look up to the light, you can even find countless spittle stars sprayed out by him.

Yu Shi was sitting by the window, the hot light outside the window had moved from behind him to the desk with the rotation of the planet, forming an overexposed prismatic halo.

Some students were disturbed by the light and pulled the curtains.

Yu Shi didn't move.

His eyelashes drooped slightly, his hair and eyelashes cast shadows under the light, covering his pupils.The eyes are hidden in it, making it hard to see clearly.

In fact, Yu Shi was staring at the stinging halo on the table, his eyes hurt a little, and the place where he entered his eyes was a vast expanse of white.

Visual simplicity calmed his mind.

——Yu Shi is a bit annoying recently.

After the physics teacher and homeroom teacher explained the sample questions, he began to emphasize that the college entrance examination is very close. He also said that the college entrance examination results will be released tomorrow. Even if it is not the turn of the second year of high school, they should be nervous.

The results of the college entrance examination will be released tomorrow...

At that time, his brother's serious freshman was still out and refused to come back.

The family members are very worried.

That's not counting, what a coincidence, Yu Qingyu found him again a few days ago.

Yu Shi knew what Yu Qingyu meant, he just wanted to ask for money.

But at this juncture, Yu Shi didn't want to add more trouble to the family, so he didn't tell them the matter for the time being.

The scorching light was covered by drifting thin clouds, and gradually dimmed, and when it was no longer dazzling, it gradually brightened again.

The wind blowing the clouds came in from the window, it was hot and sticky, and it was a hot wind that Yu Shi didn't like very much.

He frowned slightly, then closed the wide open window and drew the curtains.

When the get out of class bell rang, the head teacher stopped the chicken soup irrigation and walked out of the classroom.Yu Shi rested his elbows on the desk, and in the dim light from the curtains, the youthful skinny whiteness was even more evident.

He paused for a while, then took out his phone from the belly of the table.

There is no message from Yu Qingyu, but there is a WeChat message.

It was sent by his teaching assistant before the cram school.

The former teaching assistant is Zhang Li, who also studied in No. [-] Middle School in high school.

Yu Shi's first impression of Zhang Li was not good, he felt that this person's eyes were like the sticky hot wind that just hit his bones, which made him feel uncomfortable.

But later they met again at the sports meeting, only to realize that Zhang Li didn't seem to be what he thought, but rather naive and innocent.

What's more, this person is really dedicated as a teaching assistant. He will always forward the tasks assigned by the teacher separately, and he can be seen as a motivated person.

So every time he sent mechanical messages such as repeated homework or notification of exams, he would reply in time.

Later, Zhang Li graduated from high school, the cram school changed to a teaching assistant, and the new one was a little girl, and there was no news of the assignment being repeated.

The slender finger pressed the screen lightly. In less than a second, the system detected the fingerprint and automatically unlocked it, and the WeChat message jumped on the screen.

[Zhang Li: I remember this season, in the afternoon, the light in the classroom is very dazzling. 】

It's a small talk.

Yu Shi frowned very lightly.

The fingertip stays on the screen, the intentionally dimmed brightness is still overflowing with residual light, Sisi climbs up the top of the finger, illuminating the outline of the fingertip.

In fact, Yu Shi reconnected with Zhang Li because he didn't go to the cram school a few days ago, and the reason was very simple, as soon as Uncle Zhou left that day, he was entangled by Yu Qingyu.

The new teaching assistant had no contact with him at all, and he didn't even pass on his friends. Maybe he went around several people, and finally Zhang Li came to ask him: Why didn't you go to class?

Yu Shi casually replied: I overslept.

After thinking about it, I added another sentence: I may have to ask for a leave of absence next time.

Probably because I have never missed a make-up class in the past year, and I haven’t returned there for a long time, and the news came the next day:

[I have already agreed with the teacher, just contact me if you need anything. 】

As before, Yu Shi seriously replied "Yes" to such a business-like message.

But at this moment on the phone this...

The frown that was originally very light became deeper, and at that time, his thumb stuck to the edge of the phone and stroked it carefully.

The feeling he had when he saw Zhang Li for the first time came back again, he couldn't help but look up, suspecting that his window was not closed tightly, and Xia Feng was leaking in.

Finding that there was no wind, he subconsciously wanted to tilt his head back——

...What are you thinking?

Before moving, he interrupted his thoughts just in time.

It's too neurotic to suspect that someone is watching you just because of a small talk.

After thinking about it, Yu Shi directly locked the screen and didn't reply to this message.

As before, the few gossip mixed in the mechanical notifications were never answered.

In fact, if it were someone else, he wouldn't be so cold.

But for Zhang Li... I can't explain why, but I always feel that those casual gossips that have nothing to do with study are like overstepping the threshold. Once he picks up, many things will lose their original track.

Or maybe it will return to the cruel truth.

Such inexplicable thoughts sometimes make Yu Shi confused and irritable, so he avoids them altogether.

When school was over in the afternoon, I saw Yu Qingyu before even leaving the school gate.

Yu Shi clenched his fists for an instant, his eyes darkened.

He bypassed Uncle Zhou's car and led the people to a deserted alley.

Yu Qingyu still had that hypocritical look, and kept explaining that he either wanted money or missed him.Yu Shi naturally didn't believe it, and became more and more irritable, and directly said that it was impossible for him to go back with him, and asked him to make a price.

It may be that his biological son was too indifferent, Yu Qingyu was a little excited, and said to think about it under urging.

Yu Shi had been entangled with him for the past few days because he wanted to leave some information or other evidence, so he dropped a specific sentence on the phone and left.

As he expected, Yu Qingyu did not follow.

But Yu Shi didn't expect that when his brother went back to school that day, he happened to bump into them, and it was Tang Yide who finally resolved the matter.

The strange thing is that his brother later reminded him alone to be careful about Zhang Li.

Yu Shi dug out their contact records, saw the business-like messages, and the barren conversations that had been chatted again after almost a year, and didn't know what to guard against.

Yu Qingyu was resolved very smoothly this time, and Yu Shi was completely relieved. He thought that he could completely get rid of the painful memories brought by his biological father, but unexpectedly——

Yu Shi was on his way to university when his phone vibrated and sent a multimedia message.

When I opened it, I found it was a picture.

——On the top is Yu Qingyu's blood-stained face with a bruised nose and swollen face. Apart from breathing, his eyes are already lifeless.

There is also a message under the picture:

[The gift I prepared for you early, happy school starts. 】

Not happy at all.

A cold and gloomy sense of peeping rises from the heart, spreads to the limbs and bones, and the whole body feels cold.

Yu Shi frowned tightly, and it took him a while to react, he moved his steps stiffly, and looked around uncontrollably.

But I could only see the figures of strangers in the airport.

Just as this news was not traced to the owner's name in the end, it carried a strange and terrifying tone of blessing, and was finally buried in Yu Shi's long river of memory, and was never mentioned again.

Yu Shi's competition results were very good, and the university he attended was also the top in the country.

The No. [-] Middle School has always been excellent at cultivating high-scoring students. Those admitted in the same year were pulled into a group by mutual acquaintances, and they had to chat a few messages from time to time.

At that time, Yu Shi joined the student union, and he had to pay attention to the news of the class department every day, and he paid more attention to these groups than he did in high school.

Once their department held an event, and the speakers were not enough, so they sent several groups to borrow speakers. Unexpectedly, the one who got back the fastest was this "No. [-] middle school fellow group".

And the one who came back to him was also an old acquaintance - Zhang Li.

But he clearly remembered, aren't all the students in this group the same year?When did Zhang Li, the senior, join in?

Later, I was still in a hurry and did not delve into this doubt.

There were several rehearsals for the event, Zhang Li and him were not in the same academy, but they still came to follow up every time.

He was good-looking and had a good personality, and he helped them run up and down. The whole department liked him very much.

Later, the department's activities were very successful. During the dinner, Yu Shi, out of politeness, took the initiative to send a small chat on WeChat for the first time: Ask Zhang Li if he wants to come?

At that time, the teacher randomly checked the questions on the top, and it happened to be on time.He stood up, before the phone screen could be locked.

So his deskmate could easily catch a glimpse of——

The [the other party is typing] on the top is particularly obvious.

It appeared several times in a few seconds. It was obviously written and deleted, deleted and written again. It seemed that even the system could see the excitement of the person opposite, and reminded it in a mechanical and obscure way.

It's a pity that the people who should have seen it didn't see it.

Yu Shi answered the question, and when he sat down to look at the screen, Zhang Li just sent a message, which was very concise:

"it is good."

Just like every time Yu Shi replied to the message, it was serious and alienated, and there was always a line between them, and no one crossed the line.

Such a distance made Yu Shi feel inexplicably comfortable, it was better than any gentle treatment, and it was rare for him to elicit a chuckle.

The people in the department really liked Zhang Li, especially the minister, who wanted to make friends with him. After that dinner, Yu Shi called Zhang Li for many team building sessions.

Zhang Li is also very happy, as long as it is called by Yu Shi, he will come every time.

It's just that the distance is very well grasped, as long as Yu Shi doesn't take the initiative to talk to him, he will only greet Yu Shi politely, or make a few jokes with the people in the department, and will never make any other requests .

The sense of indifference in high school seems to have completely disappeared in the process of getting to know Zhang Li gradually, and the tinkling alarm bell in my mind has lost its usefulness and gradually rusted.

Even the idea of ​​hesitating to tell his brother that he met Zhang Li again was rejected in his heart.

Yu Shi finally understood why this person was always praised for his popularity.

He is indeed very winky and very pleasing.

Unexpectedly, after going to university, the first person who made him feel so comfortable in getting along with him was actually Zhang Li.

Later, at the end of the semester, the time for their department dinner was unlucky, it happened to be the second half of Zhang Li's exam.

Yu Shi's classroom was very close to his. Thinking of the help he usually gave him, he hesitated for a while before going upstairs.

I thought Zhang Li was in class, but I didn't expect that they were taking an exam.

The moment Zhang Li saw the door appear, Zhang Li got up and handed in the paper almost immediately, and came out a little anxiously, "Excuse me, did you come here to wait for me? Exam, I wasted a little time."

Yu Shi frowned, "You can refuse, it's not that you have to come to the dinner party."

Zhang Li held the bag in one hand, and packed the stationery that had just been hastily brought out with the other, without raising her head, "I finished my papers, and I didn't specially skip the exam just to have dinner with you."

He zipped up his backpack and smiled, "What are you thinking about, junior?"

That's right, Yu Shi thought, Zhang Li was very busy all day long, and for the sake of their friends from the outer courtyard, it wouldn't be too late.

So he walked side by side with Zhang Li, and when he went down the stairs, he said, "Call me Yu Shi, don't call me junior."

Zhang Li was a little shorter than him, and when he went down the stairs, he lowered his head slightly to look at the steps under his feet. The look in his eyelashes was hidden by the angle, and he could only hear a soft voice: "Okay."

The voice is a bit hoarse, and it is not the same as the usual fullness that always has a rising end.

From then on, in addition to the official business news, there gradually appeared back-and-forth small talk between the two of them, and even the length of the small talk gradually exceeded the business.

Zhang Li is really a very comfortable friend, he remembers every word of Yu Shi clearly, he tried his best to help Yu Shi realize his bright expectations, and encouraged Yu Shi without any trace of his hidden disappointment.

Yu Shi sometimes thinks that it is a kind of luck to be able to make such a sincere friend in college.

So the first time he saw Zhang Li lose control, he didn't know how to fight back.

It was when he was about to graduate, and he met a lovely girl, innocent, pure and beautiful, almost Yu Shi's ideal type.

On the day of his official announcement on social platforms, almost everyone congratulated him with incredible surprise.

Yu Shi can understand, after all, he usually doesn't have much contact with girls.

In order to celebrate him finally getting out of the singles, the people in the dormitory dragged Yu Shi to a barbecue restaurant outside the campus for a drink.

Yu Shi didn't drink much, but the roommates were all drunk one by one, and the topic had already extended from celebrating leaving the singles to the reluctance to graduate soon.

He was also a little emotional, just as he was about to go outside to enjoy some wind, he bumped into Zhang Li.

——He looked very drunk, his face was terribly hot, his eyes were blurred and full of hostility, which actually made Yu Shi stunned.

Zhang Li took a deep breath and raised his head. The moment he touched Yu Shi, his gaze immediately softened. Qingming gradually climbed into his pupils, and the corners of his eyes and brows stretched, "...what a coincidence."

Yu Shi frowned, helped him to an empty table, and asked the boss to make a glass of honey water and bring it over.

Zhang Li changed from the simple enthusiasm in the past, her head was kept lowered, and the slightly long bangs on the forehead were scattered messily on the brow bone, together with the shadow cast by the long eyelashes, covering the expression above the bridge of the nose.

Yu Shi knocked the table and asked, "What's wrong?"

Zhang Li didn't answer immediately, but kept her original posture.

Such an incomprehensible expression inexplicably made Yu Shi a little irritable.After a while, he frowned deeper, and asked again: "What's wrong? Can I help?"

At this point, Zhang Li blinked his eyes very slowly, his eyelids seemed extremely heavy, and finally closed them altogether, as if he was trying to adjust something.

After a few seconds, he said slowly, "Sorry...I drank too much."

His voice was low and hoarse, and he was very absent-minded.

"Do you want me to take you back?" Yu Shi thought that Zhang Li had already rented a house outside, and asked, "Is that the address you gave me last time? I'll take a taxi to take you back?"

But Zhang Li didn't speak again, she lowered her head, but her breathing fluctuated a bit.

He murmured in a low voice, and Yu Shi could only vaguely hear "I've never been there...".

"I can't hear what you are talking about." Yu Shi patiently knocked on the table again, trying to wake Zhang Li up.

At this time, the boss brought honey water and told them to drink it slowly. After looking at them both, he returned to the front desk.

When the boss backed away, Zhang Li didn't care about the temperature, picked up the honey water and poured it. After drinking a whole cup, it seemed that he could finally have a good talk with Yu Shi.

"Sorry... I was rejected for confessing my love to someone today." He still lowered his head, "Yu Shi, you look a lot like my love rival."

Yu Shi paused, and was made to laugh a little by his coincidental and absurd remarks. Just as he was about to ask whether it was true or not, Zhang Li quickly answered the question by himself:

"Actually, I should congratulate your...girlfriend is very beautiful."

At this point, I can't say anything else, I can only say, "Thank you."

After a while of silence, Zhang Li finally raised his head.

The first thing Yu Shi saw was the extremely obvious red blood in his eyes and his pale lifeless lips.

He was slightly surprised, and even felt that he should send Zhang Li to the hospital.

But Zhang Li took a step ahead of him——

He suddenly grabbed Yu Shi's hand.

Zhang Li is very thin, and seemed to have lost a lot of weight suddenly tonight. His originally well-jointed hand was now tightly pinching Yu Shi's wrist. The blood flow of his fingertips and joints seemed to be restricted by such a violent movement, and they turned white. .

When exposed to the light, it actually gives people the illusion of being skinny.

There was obvious pain in the wrist, and Yu Shi frowned very tightly. After enduring it, he stretched out his hand to brush Zhang Li away.

Zhang Li was too strong, after breaking free, there were red marks on Yu Shi's skin.

Yu Shi's complexion was completely bad, he took out his mobile phone unexpectedly, clicked on the taxi app, thinking about getting the drunk home first.

Zhang Li, on the other hand, stared blankly at her hand that had been freed, taking a deep breath.

As time ticked by, Zhang Li's chest heaved more and more obviously. He suddenly raised his head, walked around the dining table, and stood in front of Yu Shi.

He was a little shorter than Yu Shi, and Yu Shi usually looked down at him. This seemed to be the first time that Yu Shi needed to look up at Zhang Li.

I don't know if it was because he was drunk or what, but Zhang Li's eyes were very deep.

Yu Shi stared at this pair of eyes that were completely different from the usual innocent and cheerful, and actually gave birth to the illusion that he didn't know the person in front of him——

Those eyes were dark and heavy, and they seemed to contain extremely heavy desires and madness, like anti-socialism planting explosives for half the city, as long as you don't know who stepped on a thunderbolt, the hundreds of millions of people in the city will surely die. Instantly engulfed by the flames, it was wiped out in ashes.

Yu Shi didn't move, and in this posture, he slightly frowned and looked back, as if staring into the abyss.

After a while, Zhang Li made a sudden movement, raised his finger slightly, as if he wanted to hold Yu Shi's hand again.

Yu Shi retreated subconsciously and lowered his arms from the table.

It was such a small unconscious action that seemed to become a sky full of hail and snow in Zhang Li's eyes.

Like a [-]-strong army who suddenly received money, and suddenly encountered a raging fire from a heavy rain, the deep and heavy darkness in Zhang Li's eyes faded away, and gradually, he showed a normal look.

The two words that popped up in my heart at that time were actually——

"fortunately".

Fortunately, what, Yu Shi couldn't tell clearly.

It was just an inexplicable feeling that the cold and gloomy aura that was about to creep up on his body before was fading like a tide after being triggered by an action that he didn't know.

It was a relief.

Later, he still sent Zhang Li back.

Zhang Lijiu woke up the next day and sent a lengthy message of apology, which made Yu Shi feel like a scumbag from someone else, and invited someone out for dinner alone. article.

Everyone has a down time, and Yu Shi can understand it, but the scene that night left a deep impression on him. For a long time after that, Yu Shi intentionally or unintentionally avoided any limbs with Zhang Li. touch.

Obviously, Zhang Li also felt it.

So sometimes they walked side by side, and from time to time, they could feel the disappointment flashing around Zhang Li's body, and those eyes that looked a bit like a homeless stray cat.

I thought that some boundaries don't need to be clearly marked as adults, everyone knows it well, but I didn't expect Zhang Li to be different.

After Yu Shi avoided Zhang Li's fingers when he handed water over again, the person who was chatting with him one second lowered his head slightly, staring at his fingers in a daze.

Yu didn't need to look at it to know that the thick eyelashes covering the pupils gave a pitiful look.

But this time Zhang Li didn't act like nothing happened.

He suddenly withdrew his hand quickly, and felt that it was not enough, so he put both hands behind his back.

Said softly, "I'm sorry."

A lot of time has passed since the incident, Yu Shi was taken aback, swallowed a mouthful of clear water, raised his head slightly and squinted at him, not knowing how to respond.

Zhang Li still lowered her head, only her thick eyelashes brushed back and forth under her eyelids.

Yu Shi put down his cup and looked at Zhang Li squarely.

I heard him say, "I promise it will be the last time."

The words were endless, but Yu Shi could hear miraculously that he was talking about holding his wrist after he was drunk, and his eyes were heavy.

How did you think about this, how weird——

No one apologizes for a small gesture between friends, or a drunken look.

But at the moment, he felt that he could bear this apology.

Zhang Li's eyelashes trembled violently, and water seemed to be slowly swaying from his head. He pursed his lips, looked up at Yu Shi, "I just want to go back to the original way, okay?"

Back to the time when I was not scared by myself, back to the time when Yu Shi was willing to chat with me, and I could go out together occasionally.

Zhang Li originally thought that the most uncomfortable thing in the world was not having a proper identity to stay by Yu Shi's side.

But when I really slowly integrated into Yu Shi's life, I realized that I could see him every day for a legitimate reason without resorting to outsiders——

He has long been addicted to such unscrupulously absorbing the breath of time, his heart trembles and clamors to be intoxicated with the excitement of bliss every day.

Therefore, any subconscious resistance or avoidance at the time is the real torture tool for him, and the flesh and blood will be bloody after a slight cut.

He was reluctant to hurt Shi, but he was about to be unable to suppress the innate violent factor in his body, and the inextricable greed for Shi tortured him day by day.

So he almost looked at Yu Shi with a pleading look, like a condemned prisoner begging the executioner, begging him: "Don't hide from me, okay?"

He can try his best to restrain himself, not to disturb Yu Shi's happy marriage, not to disturb his happy life, but Yu Shi must never leave his sight.

You can't hide from him, you can't resist him, you can't see him.

Zhang Li was also very scared.

He was afraid that Yu Shi would be like the beautiful cat that always followed others home when he was young, and he would be buried forever in the ground without knowing when.

At that time, his hands were covered with blood, and he only had the pleasure of "this cat will never go home with others again", and he was very happy.

But that cat was nothing compared to Yu Shi.

If the bloody corpse lying on the grass was replaced by Yu Shi...

Zhang Li felt that she must be buried.

The extreme gentleness and crazy violent desire almost tore Zhang Li's soul to pieces.

He was forced to be trapped in repeated tearing every day, and he suffered terribly every night.

But fortunately, before he raised the butcher's knife, Yu Shi's clear voice fell like the rain from the jade bottle in Guanyin's hand.

He said, "Not anymore."

He patted Zhang Li on the shoulder.

Yu Shi sighed in his heart, in the end he was still soft-hearted, and he couldn't easily let go of the true friends he made in the ivory tower.

And... Zhang Li was one of the few he had ever met who maintained a youthful and pure heart. He really admired him, and was also touched by his frank and straightforward appeal.

He patted Zhang Li's shoulder, and as he wished, he saw the depression and depression in Zhang Li's eyes swept away, and then brightened up again in an instant, with a slight smile on the corner of his mouth.

Just as Yu Shi was about to say something else, the phone rang.

The salary he was looking for was very good, and he was in a different department of the same company as Zhang Li. It was just around the end of get off work, so Xiang Tian called.

The name on the screen is a jellybean, which can be sweetened into people's hearts at a glance.

Yu Shi immediately withdrew his hand on Zhang Li's shoulder, raised his slightly pursed lips, his brows and eyes looked like a thawed spring pool, and there were gentle ripples.

Zhang Li immediately turned her head away.

"Well... just got off work." Yu Shi answered the phone and said with a smile: "...then you wait for me at school, and I will pick you up."

After hanging up the phone, he turned around and asked Zhang Li, "Would you like to have dinner with us?"

There was still a gentle smile in the corner of his eyes, a side that Yu Shi had never shown to Zhang Li.

Zhang Li's right hand was back to the back, the nails of the four fingers were pinched tightly, the flesh was cut, the scar on it was not completely healed, and new blood was added.

As the pain spread, he finally stabilized his mind and smiled: "No, I don't want to be a light bulb."

He thought that he would never be able to see Tian.

The scar on the palm of the hand will probably never heal.

The two of them took the elevator downstairs together, and when they were about to leave, Zhang Li suddenly asked, "Have you decided where to buy a house?"

Yu Shi wanted to take Xiang Tian home this year. Last time he talked about it with Zhang Li, they also visited several newly opened properties.

"...How about the second community?" Yu Shi thought for a while and said, "The lighting structure is good."

Zhang Li laughed, "I also think the second one is better."

Yu Shi walked out of the company gate together with him. The cold air outside was pungent, but the air felt better than the stuffy heat inside. He half-joked: "Maybe we can be neighbors."

Xiang Tian's school and Zhang Li's residence are in two directions, Yu Shi tilted his head to the side, "Let's go."

"Yeah." Zhang Li smiled, "Be careful on the road."

As soon as Yu Shi turned his head, he raised his blood-drenched hand, slowly spread it out, made a goodbye gesture, and spoke softly:

"See you tomorrow, at that time."

"My dear neighbor."