after the ecstasy accident

When Lu Fen walked in front of Xie Yu, this man was sitting by the flower bed of the hospital in a daze.

Sitting down beside Xie Yu, Lu Fen stretched out his hand and pinched Xie Yu's tense fingers: "Are you going to sit here all the time? Don't you want to go up?"

When Lu Fen received the news from Xie Yu, he was busy negotiating with Tiandao about conditions. It had been two hours since he left the house. After a while, following the familiar breath, he found Xie Yu who was sitting in a daze.

Xie Yu paused, then shook his head: "Let's wait a little longer."

Time is limited, it is better to leave more for their father and son.

At this time, there was only one and a half hours left before Father Guo's death.

Xie Yu asked Guo Changshan to go upstairs first, as expected? Not long after, Guo Changshan called, his tone was unusually heavy.

Guo's father had been hospitalized a week ago, and last week happened to be the time when Guo Changshan participated in an international academic exchange meeting.Because he lived in the hospital where he had worked for most of his life, Father Guo kept this matter a secret. He didn't tell Guo Changshan, right? Xie Yugeng didn't mention it.

"The old man had an acute heart attack? Myocardial infarction, if it wasn't because he happened to be in the hospital at the time, I'm afraid... Ayu, why do you think I was so stupid that he didn't answer the phone a few times and didn't find out? The problem, I couldn't answer the phone call later. His weakness? If he was alone at home at that time... He scolded me and said I shouldn't go there. Say this? Why is the old man so stubborn?!"

Guo Changshan was afraid of being lucky for the old man's narrow escape this time, but Xie Yu didn't have the courage to go up to visit after listening.

No matter whether it is from medical treatment or extradition, he has never faced such a situation of sending away the people close to him with his own hands. His hands seem to be shaking, and his legs seem to have lost the strength to walk.

It was as if everything had returned to the fear and powerlessness he felt when he came home and saw his home surrounded by yellow cordon.

Lu Fen's palm was very warm. He held Xie Yu's cold fingertips, and sat with him on the flower bed under the hospital building, listening to the people coming and going here, and the haunted ghosts floating around. Thinking, time is passing by your side little by little.

***

At seven o'clock in the evening, the sky will be dark.

Xie Yu wrapped himself and Lu Fen in Yin Qi, stepped on the dots and came to the rescue room on the seventh floor of the main hospital building.

He passed by Guo Changshan who was sitting outside the emergency room with his head in his arms, and walked through the heavy door of the emergency room to the busy emergency room.

The instrument was beating and the alarm sounded. The chief surgeon said something sharply. The doctors and nurses beside him frowned and delivered the instruments and tools clearly. The old man on the operating table closed his eyes tightly, and his body was sucked up on the emergency table following the doctor's movements Fall again.

After a while, the old man on the first aid platform opened his eyes. He looked blankly at the familiar environment, then turned his head, passed by the doctors and nurses around as if aware of it, and looked straight at the Xie Yu in the corner.

His lips parted, and he stretched out his hand in Xie Yu's direction.

Father Guo is seventy-two years old this year, and has not been on the operating table for many years to take a scalpel, but even so, his hands did not tremble at all until he died.

Those hands are no longer slender and strong as they were when they were young, and the passing years have left brown spots of time on these illustrious hands.

Xie Yu let go of Lu Fen's hand, walked over, and gently held the old man's hand hanging in mid-air.

"Uncle Guo..."

The old man's eyes suddenly overflowed with tears. He trembled, choked up and repeated with difficulty: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

If that? He didn't show up? That? Thought...if...

Xie Yu's eyes blurred, and the whole portrait seemed to fall into the scene.

This familiar feeling made him understand that he had entered Father Guo's revolving door, but—Uncle Guo, who seemed to be free and easy all his life without leaving any regrets, and only worried about Guo Changshan's marriage in his later years, actually had a possibility in his heart? obsession?

The place where Xie Yu settled was the Guo family where he grew up after losing his father when he was young. The study where Guo's father kept a wealth of books and materials was once a holy place where he could spend a day in bed.

Father Guo in the revolving lantern was sitting in front of the computer with his back facing him. His back was tall and straight, his hair was black, and he looked much younger.

The screen on the computer is a forum. The interface is a default interface that has not been specially set. It is rough and simple, but most of the posts in it exude negative emotions, as if this?all the injustices in the world? They are all gathered in this small space.

Guo's father looked at the posts on the forum, and his gloomy face was even more depressed.

Xie Yu watched Father Guo casually click? Open a post. Looking at it, his originally?casual? eyes gradually became darker, and his hand holding the mouse became tighter and tighter.

[The research reports that my colleagues and I submitted together are all in the same research direction, and my topic is even more practical and forward-looking? Bigger and wider? Why did the academy choose to allocate funds to my colleagues?It's like this every time, because she married a policeman?What happened to this world?Privilegeism everywhere?! ! ! 】

Father Guo sat up straight unconsciously, pulling down the reply to the post bit by bit.

Every reply to this post is like playing with the thorn in his heart, and every movement involves the throbbing pain of the whole heart.

[Let's not talk about upstairs, there are many different industries in all walks of life.The same is the police, some are beautiful, and some names are unknown? In the future, children will not know what to say? I am afraid that children will not believe what to say.This? The world...hehe]

Seeing this one-level answer, Father Guo finally couldn't help but slammed the mouse on the table.

Seeing this scene, Xie Yu felt an ominous premonition welling up in his heart.

Father Guo, who had calmed down for a while, grabbed the mouse again and finished scrolling through the reply to the entire post. He typed the reply on the keyboard like a ghost...

[Same as the poster, I have been stuck in the project several times, and I will give priority to my colleagues every time... and my wife, who is also an excellent policeman, died without a sound because she was an undercover agent. I don't even have the qualifications to be called a martyr... But my colleague's husband was also an undercover policeman, but because of his successful betrayal, he was promoted by a certain organization. I entered the compound where my family is located... This is a strictly protected compound. Only three generations of my wife sacrificed for three generations of the army are eligible to enter. Their family? It's easy...]

……

Lu Fen chased Xie Yu who ran out to the roof of the hospital. Seeing Xie Yu's pale face retching as he supported the wall, Lu Fen frowned, and went to hug Xie Yu who was trembling unconsciously.

Xie Yu gripped Lu Fen's collar tightly with his backhand, but he couldn't make a sound out of his heart-piercing, lung-piercing words, his mouth was weak and hoarse.

"...I didn't expect it to be him...how could it be...how could it be him..."

Lu Fen's bracelet patted Xie Yu's back lightly behind Xie Yu, and he didn't ask Xie Yu what he saw, but just hugged this... colder than ever in his arms like this? man.

"13?13 years... the whole 13?[-] years! He was facing me for [-]?[-] years!"

Xie Yu roared in a low voice and kept trying to push Lu Fen away, but Lu Fen held him in his arms domineeringly.

"He raised me up, taught me to study, and guided me to study medicine... In the end, he was just compensation for my warmth and favor... for the death of my parents and brother...compensation... ...?"

Slowly, Xie Yu stopped struggling, his face was buried in Lu Fen's neck, his hands were still tightly grasping the lapel of Lu Fen's chest, as if he was holding back something at the end.

"This? It's ridiculous Lu Fen... Then what is my life... a joke?"

"He raises me as if he is raising a compensation that can ease the trace of regret that may exist in his heart?"

"Xie Yu!"

Lu Fen put his hand on the back of Xie Yu's head. Hearing that Xie Yu's words had been dominated by emotions more and more extreme, he interrupted Xie Yu in a deep voice, and then lowered his voice: "Don't rush to go Deny everything... That forum was originally used by Wang Guangji to collect negative emotions, do you remember..."

Xie Yu didn't speak any more. After a long while, Lu Fen felt the warm liquid sliding down his neck, and he tightened his grip on the person in his arms.

***

One week later · West City

Xie Yu stuffed an Oreo sundae in Lu Fen's hand. The two people in thin windbreakers looked very out of place on the street covered in silver, but they didn't attract the slightest bit. The eyes of passers-by.

"Are you really going to leave like this?" Lu Fen asked.

Xie Yu scooped a spoonful from the sundae cup in Lu Fen's hand and put it into his mouth, and was icy. Ji Ling said, "Didn't I leave a letter for him!"

Lu Fen raised his eyebrows.

He didn't think that the simple letter about going on a trip and falling in love would really make Guo Changshan accept the fact that Xie Yu disappeared.

"Besides, if I don't leave, how troublesome it will be for him to go to my funeral in a few months." Xie Yu lowered his head and drank his taro milk tea, and took a big sip, "That? OK."

Xie Yu has never been so relaxed as at this moment, all the pressure on his shoulders seems to be swept away.

"So the head of the family, where are you going next?" Lu Fen flipped through the ticket with his mobile phone in his hand, "Go to a warmer place?"

"What warm place do you want to go in winter? Go here?" Xie Yu clicked a few times and stretched out his phone in front of Lu Fen, "I haven't seen an ice sculpture yet!"

Lu Fen silently booked the plane ticket—of course, with Xie Yu's card—and casually booked a couple suite in a hotel near the scenic spot.

"You haven't seen ice sculptures before, have you? I think you looked very novel when you saw snow in Beijing last time..."

"It's rare to see the desert. I seem to have seen it in the Central Plains when I was a child, but I don't remember much... It is true that it is rare to go to the Central Plains for missions in winter..."

"Oh, I understand, it was not convenient for you to travel at that time."

"On the one hand, on the other hand, you can't sell mutton skewers in winter, and you can't do street performances. Speaking of which, it was really hard to earn money at that time. Although I have a positive internal force and am not afraid of the cold, people who spend money are not afraid of the cold." What should I do when I get out..."

"By the way, when I saw you in the revolving lantern, you were watching me being beaten in the opposite building?"

"Well……"

"If I remember correctly, it's the roof of that building?"

"……perhaps?"

The two? The slender and straight backs wandered farther and farther on the pedestrian street, and gradually turned into black spots in the flow of people? Disappeared in the slight winter wind.

Their encounter has ended, but their reunion may have just begun.

The author has something to say: I originally wanted to post it together, but after thinking about it, I still divided it into two chapters. I will try my best to post it tonight