How can I love you all my life

It was already night when Lu Zhen woke up. Bai Ye helped him connect his leg and put a plaster cast on it. Medicine was applied to other skin injuries.

When he opened his eyes, there was a white ceiling above him, and the lights in the room were very bright. At first, he was not used to the brightness. He was infusion with a tube inserted into the back of his hand. The medical equipment in this ward was very advanced and complete.

He looked down at his leg wrapped in plaster. Strangely, he didn't feel any pain, but there seemed to be a piece of emptiness in the place of the heart, and a trace of pain that seemed to be there lingered around it, which could not be driven away or disappeared. do.

Lu Zhen covered his heart with the hand inserted into the tube. He wanted to scratch it but couldn't get it in. The itching-like pain became more and more intense and gradually spread. He beat his chest hard and pulled the needle off. The potion dripped down the pipe on the ground.

Nolan came in with porridge and saw Lu Zhen beating herself desperately. She was startled, and rushed over to hold his hand, "Xiao Zhen, don't hurt yourself."

Lu Zhen raised his head and bumped into Nolan's tired eyes. He was taken aback, looking at Nolan with a confused look in his eyes. Nolan put his hand down and reinserted the needle for him.

"Nolan..." Lu Zhen hesitated, her voice was hoarse, and she was puzzled by the situation in front of her.

"Nolan, what's wrong with me? What's wrong with you? Why are you injured when my leg is broken?"

Hearing Lu Zhen's puzzled tone, Nolan's heart went cold, and a terrible thought came to his mind, Lu Zhen lost his memory?

No, it's impossible, it doesn't look like it at all. Knowing that he is Nolan proves that he has no amnesia.

Nolan calmed down his complicated emotions, "Xiao Zhen, you forgot that we were all injured when we came out of the snow mountain."

Lu Zhen didn't answer Nolan, but looked at the room. There were only the two of them, "Hey, where's the little bastard? Didn't I come back with him in my arms? Didn't he come to see me even though he was lying on the bed?" Lu Zhen looked towards the door, as if expecting something.

Nolan's heart tingled, like a thin needle pierced deeply, and bright red blood spurted out, dyeing his internal organs blood red.

"Xiaozhen, listen to me." Nolan sat beside his bed, pressed his shoulders, and organized his words for a while, but he still spoke dryly, "Ellen...he's gone."

"I know, so you go and call him. I suffered such a serious injury because of him. It's too reasonable to be so playful but come to see me. I think he just deserves to be beaten." Lu Zhen didn't care about little Ellen. Appeared very dissatisfied.

Nolan tried his best to hold back the tears that wanted to burst out of his eyes. The pain in his throat made him not want to speak, but he had to.

"Lu Zhen, don't misinterpret what I mean, what I mean is that he left and left us forever, do you understand?

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"Why did he leave us? Where can he go when he is so young? How can we treat him badly? What's the use of raising such an unfilial bastard?" Lu Zhen reprimanded loudly, and pushed Nolan away with all his hands. Lan was unprepared and was almost pushed to the ground by Lu Zhen.

"Snapped."

With a loud noise, Lu Zhen's head was thrown to one side, his cheeks became red and swollen quickly, and there was a burning pain, but the pain was less than one hundred thousandth of his heart. It was a kind of heart that seemed to be gouged out. The pain in one piece made him almost suffocate.

"Lu Zhen, I'll say it again, Ellen, he's gone. If you still don't understand or pretend to understand, it's okay. Then I'll tell you straight and clear. He's dead. Do you understand now?" Nolan yelled out word by word. Every time he said a word, a small piece of his heart was missing. He tightened his hands and clenched them into fists. His nails almost sank into his palms.

Lu Zhen stood there in a daze, her eyes glazed over, staring blankly at Nolan whose chest was rising and falling, she was so powerful when she slapped him and yelled at him, but looking at him now, she was exhausted and exhausted Unbearable.

Nolan looked at Lu Zhen's ignorant and helpless eyes like a child, couldn't bear it, let go of his clenched hand, gently stroked the swollen half of Lu Zhen's face, and said in a low voice, "Xiao Zhen, I'm sorry."

Lu Zhen came back to his senses, and asked Nolan loudly with red eyes, "Why did you tell me this? I tried my best to protect him in the snowy mountains. I didn't hurt a single hair, and I finally carried him out. , you are now telling me that our son is dead, Nolan, why are you being so cruel to me?"

Lu Zhen's hoarse voice drove Nolan into the abyss.

"Are you going to numb yourself, don't want to face the reality, lie to yourself all day long, and walk like a dead body, won't you be cruel to me?" Nolan also got excited and spoke loudly to Lu Zhen. His pain was no less than that of Lu Zhen Every penny, and Lu Zhen actually blamed him for being ruthless.

He had already lost Ellen, and he couldn't lose Lu Zhen too, absolutely not.

After Nolan finished yelling, Lu Zhen realized that he had already burst into tears. Nolan, who was standing in front of him, looked at him with very painful eyes.

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"Nolan...,,

Hearing Lu Zhen's grief-stricken cry, Nolan sat down again and reached out to hold Lu Zhen's cold hand, "Well, I'm here."

Lu Zhen threw herself into Nolan's arms, leaning on his shoulder and weeping bitterly. Lu Zhen really seldom cried.

Crying was too far away for him. He was taught since he was a child that tears are the most useless product, and it is also a sign of cowardice. A big man bleeds but does not shed tears.

So, he often forgets what crying is.

Ever since his family was destroyed and brought to the island after many twists and turns, he has cried only a handful of times, because he is already strong enough to be fearless of anyone and anything. What else in this world can exchange for his tears?It is simply a fairy tale from the Arabian Nights.

It wasn't until he met Nolan that he realized that there are really no absolutes in this world.

Nolan let him know that it's not that you don't know how to cry, but that you don't have someone to cry with. Those extremely powerful disguises are just a fragile protective film for your heart.

The person who makes you cry is definitely not the person you hate, but often the person you love the most.

Hearing Lu Zhen's cry, Nolan was heartbroken, and gently patted him on the back, silently comforting him.

"Nolan...Nolan..."

Lu Ji called Nolan's name over and over again, and Nolan responded to him again and again.

"Nolan, I hurt." Lu Zhen grabbed his chest with his hand, "My heart hurts, it really hurts."

"Xiao Zhen, I'll accompany you." Nolan's long-enduring tears also rolled down the corners of his eyes.

"Nolan... I... I only have you left, you must not leave me." Lu Zhen spoke incoherently, his eyes were already blurred by tears, he almost couldn't see that he was in Nolan's arms.

"I will never leave you, never." Nolan inserted his hand into Lu Zhen's hair, and the roots of his hair were a little wet.

"Nolan, you said, since Ellen is so young, he must be very lonely?"

Nolan was speechless to Lu Zhen's question.

He was also unwilling to accept this cruel fact for a moment, but he knew from the moment Lu Zhen passed out that he could not lie to himself, otherwise it would ruin the two of them.

"Nolan, it's all my fault, I failed to protect him well." Lu Zhen broke down in tears, wiping all the tears on Nolan's clothes.

"You know what? Ellen pushed me away and said he didn't play anymore. He thought I was taking him to a thrilling game. He decided not to play or die. He woke up once, crying in my arms, and I Holding him in the wind and snow, he must not understand why I did this when he left, he must hate me for not being able to protect him, and I especially hate myself..."

"Lu Zhen, stop talking. It's not your fault, and Ellen won't blame you." Nolan interrupted Lu Zhen, unable to bear to hear him continue, otherwise he would also collapse.

The more Lu Zhen blamed himself, the more uncomfortable Nolan was. He was the one who should blame himself for not being by their side when they needed it most.

"No, listen to me, I'm an asshole, I actually forgot that he is afraid of the cold, I'm so useless and I don't deserve to be his father...

...

Lu Zhen suddenly began to cough violently, and the feeling of heartache became more and more intense, disturbing his internal organs.

Nolan patted him on the back, Lu Zhen coughed up a puddle of blood and sprayed it on Nolan's neck.

Nolan's hand paused, and then immediately pushed Lu Zhen away. He was still coughing, and more and more blood was spitting out of his mouth.

"Lu Zhen, Lu Zhen! Don't scare me."

Mo Xiaobai eavesdropped outside the door for a while, and when he heard their conversation, his eyes became moist. He bit his lips, trying hard to suppress the pain that he wanted to vent in his heart, and the guilt in his heart became stronger and stronger. He didn't know how to face it. To Lu Zhen and Nolan.

Hearing Nolan calling Lu Zhen in a panic, Mo Xiaobai couldn't think well. When he opened the door, he saw Lu Zhen lying in Nolan's arms with his mouth full of blood. Mo Xiaobai widened his eyes and said to Nolan: "Nolan, don't worry, I'll call Uncle Bai Ye."

Nolan gave Mo Xiaobai a grateful look. Lu Zhen leaned weakly in his arms and passed out completely. His face was a little pale, and the tear stains from just crying were more obvious. Nolan held his hand. shaking.

After Mo Xiaobai left, Nolan put Lu Zhen on the bed, went to the bathroom to wipe his mouth with a towel, and changed into a new hospital gown.

Bai Ye checked Lu Zhen's body and determined that he suffered from upper gastrointestinal bleeding due to a stress ulcer in the duodenum due to severe emotional distress.He was bleeding profusely and urgently, and his condition was critical.

Bai Ye said to Nolan: "Nolan, try to make Lu Zhen less emotional these few days, otherwise it will not be good for his body."

Bai Ye can only say this, just keep calm, it's impossible to be happy, I just hope he can stop being agitated.

Nolan nodded, he knew, so he would do his best to take good care of him.

"Nolan, you can take care of Lu Zhen here tonight, and Ellen will leave it to me." Bai Ye suggested.

"But..." Nolan hesitated.

"you do not believe me?"

"Of course not!" Nolan quickly vetoed, how could he not believe in Bai Ye, but he wanted to bring Ellen over, and the three of them would spend another night together.

"Then I'll take it as if you agreed, and I will take good care of him, so don't worry." Bai Ye assured him.

Nolan didn't say anything more, and nodded in agreement.