How can I love you all my life

"I remember when your aunt was injured, Xiaoxue told me that if we didn't have that childhood experience between us, but you knew that I was a terrorist first, you would never fall in love with me. Before she said this Before, I always thought that falling in love is a matter between two people. I don’t care what other people think. I am with you, and I don’t care about our identities, status and positions. I think as long as we love each other enough, we will be able to go on. "

Lu Zhen looked up at Nolan, and continued: "However, Xiaoxue's words made me very depressed. I knew that you were an anti-terrorism officer, but I didn't know that you were my elder brother Daniel whom I relied on very much when I was young. Even now, I still fall in love with you without hesitation, and I never thought of giving up. So I was thinking, if I really didn’t meet before, would I not be able to meet someone who loves me as much as you in my life. "

Nolan was surprised that Lu Zhen had such an idea. He never thought of this possibility.What he knew was that he had loved him since he was a child, and tried every means to find him.If it was true as Lu Zhen said, and there was no previous encounter, he didn't know what the situation would be.

Nolan held Lu Zhen's hand, his eyes were a little flustered, "Xiao Zhen, to be honest, I never thought of this possibility. All these years, I have been thinking about how to find you all the time. Also, even if Without me, you are so good, you will definitely meet someone who loves you like your life. I am very lucky, this person is me."

Lu Zhen held Nolan's hand instead, and smiled gratifiedly, "Yes, we are all lucky. Hey, maybe you think my idea is strange, but I have an even more staggering idea. Do you want to listen?"

There was a gleam of hope and longing in Brother Lu's eyes.

Nolan did not ignore the hope and longing in his eyes, and became interested, "What is it? Tell me."

Lu Zhen remembered what he had thought at the beginning, smiled relievedly, and looked up at the sycamore tree, the withered yellow and dried branches, just like his withered and broken body back then.

"During the period when I was arrested, I felt worse than death every day. After I was rescued, I was very irritable and often got angry. For more than half a year, I took all my anger on you and beat and scolded you. You have endured everything one by one, not only did you not blame me, nor did you give up on me, but you also took care of me in every possible way, and you were obedient in every possible way. You have such an iceberg face that you can hardly greet people with a smile. Your belief, in order not to let your belief collapse, I decided to muster up the courage to stand up." Brother Lu held Nolan's hand tightly as he said, feeling sorry for Nolan at that time, and suffered a lot of grievances.

"Later, when my health gradually improved, I calmed down and thought, when I get better, I will take revenge myself. After that, we must be like ordinary couples, chatting together, going to the beach together, watching the sunrise and sunset together , eat together, travel together, we have to form a family and adopt a few children, no matter boys or girls. Our home must be outside the city, and the children can run on bicycles. If they are talented, I can send them to The aces are trained, and if they don’t like it, I can explore their other talents, as long as the children are happy.” This was the best blueprint that Lu Zhen constructed at that time, and he longed to form a healthy family with Nolan.

"Only later, Xiaoxue told me that my body was completely hollowed out. If the virus got worse, I wouldn't be able to live for a few years. At that time, I felt that my world collapsed in an instant, everything disappeared, and I couldn't accompany you When I grow old, I can't give you the life you want. So I started to alienate you intentionally, treated you coldly, and pushed my most important you away from me."

Nolan listened quietly to Lu Zhen's words, rubbed his short hair habitually, and involuntarily held Lu Zhen's hand tightly with the other hand. This was the first time that Lu Zhen talked so seriously about the dark and hopeless man. For Lu Zhen, it was hell for half a year.

Now that he can say it in such a calm and breezy tone, he must have been relieved and doesn't mind so much.

"Do you still hate?" Nolan asked softly.

Lu Zhen returned Nolan with a bright smile, "I don't hate you anymore."

All he has now is full of love, full of love for Nolan.