is the moon

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Jiang Jiandong has never taken the initiative to mention his family to others. Due to his personality, he has always been a very boring person. He is not used to talking and is used to being patient.

This is the first time he wants to say something so urgently, maybe it's because he's been suppressed for too long, or maybe it's because the person in front of him is Chi Yue, his... friend.

This was a somewhat unfamiliar word to Jiang Jiandong, and it was a completely novel feeling to him, but he didn't hate it.

His friend was looking at him from the side at this moment, with his knees curled up and his arms resting on his knees, looking at him very quietly.

"I..." Jiang Jiandong's lips opened and closed, he didn't know where to start, the story was too much and too messy, many fragments flashed in his mind, Chi Yue just watched him quietly , neither urging nor in a hurry, her bright eyes are quiet and bright, like the bright moon in the sky.

Jiang Jiandong was silent for a moment with drooping eyelids, and finally said, "I know why she is so against me learning music."

He looked up into the distance, his eyes were far away: "Do you remember my dad?"

"Your father? Uncle Jiang?" Jiang Jiandong didn't say that Chi Yue had indeed forgotten that he hadn't seen Jiang Jiandong's father for a long time.

Jiang Jiandong sighed lightly and said, "Actually, my parents are divorced."

In fact, Song Ruyun used to have no objection to Jiang Jiandong's study of music, so how could she look down on her if her husband was a music student, but what happened later made her change her mind.

Jiang Jiandong's father, Jiang Liangzhe, is a music teacher. He is well-dressed and personable. He was once known as a male god. Many children envy Jiang Jiandong for having such a powerful father. When he was in kindergarten, his father would pick him up every day. He, on the road, would carry him on his shoulders and sing to him, laughing and pricking him with beard stubble.

The air at that time was better than now, there were many stars at night, and the moon was also very bright. On the way home, the sky was full of stars and moons. Jiang Jiandong felt that he was the happiest child in the world.

When Jiang Jiandong was in junior high school, talent shows began to pop up in China, and Jiang Liangzhe, who was in good condition, also invited to participate.

Music has always been Jiang Liangzhe's dream, and Song Ruyun is very supportive of him. He spent a long time participating in various talent shows and gradually achieved some results. Unfortunately, the good times didn't last long. After Jiang Liangzhe became famous, he was infected with many bad habits. , smoking, drinking, he began to dislike Song Ruyun for not being good enough for him, and he gradually became less like him.

At that time, Jiang Liangzhe was drunk almost every day. One day he would drink with this producer, and the next day he would discuss business with that producer.

At the beginning, Song Ruyun would cry and beg him to turn back, but Jiang Liangzhe, who was drunk, could not be sober. The man's drunken cursing and the woman's desperate cries were mixed together. It was the sound of a family that was about to fall apart. The brothers Dong and Jiang Wangyao could only hide in a corner to comfort each other.

Later, such days were gone. Jiang Liangzhe and others invested a huge amount of money to make an album but failed. After owed a huge amount of debt, the world disappeared. Only Song Ruyun was left with two children and had to pay back Jiang Liang Zhe's ass debt.

"Later, my mother hated the entertainment industry very much," Jiang Jiandong said, "She thought it was a capital game played by the rich, and ordinary people would only get stuck in it if they entered it, unable to extricate themselves."

Jiang Jiandong's voice was very low and deep, no emotion could be heard in his low voice, he looked fixedly into the distance, Chi Yue turned his head to look at him, and the afterglow of the setting sun cast the last light on his face Afterimages, the originally tall facial features became blurred and obscured.

With the slightly scorching evening wind blowing through the ends of his hair, Chi Yue reached out to wrap his arms around Jiang Jiandong's shoulders, just like Jiang Jiandong once wrapped his arms around his shoulders.

"It's okay, brother."

Chi Yue didn't know what to say, so he could only hug Jiang Jiandong like this, his arms slowly tightened.

He is not as tall as Jiang Jiandong, and it took a little effort to raise his arms. He pretended to be mature even though he was a child. , feel the power of his palm.

"Yes, it's fine." Jiang Jiandong said, "It's all over."

Jiang Jiandong's fingers were slender, warm and dry, covering the back of Chi Yue's hand with an indescribable feeling, numb, itchy, and his deep voice fell to his ears, shaking Chi Yue's wrinkled hand. Heart soothed.

"I can understand my mother," Jiang Jiandong was silent for a moment, then repeated, "I really understand."

The past is all over, Jiang Jiandong and his brother Jiang Wangyao were brought up well by Song Ruyun.Jiang Jiandong knew Song Ruyun's pain and hardship.

It is not easy for a single mother to raise two children, not to mention that Song Ruyun has to repay the huge loan owed by Jiang Liangzhe.At that time, the family conditions were not good, and Song Ruyun always left the best things for the two brothers to eat. Even the shrimps that time were specially bought by Song Ruyun for the two brothers. She peeled them one by one and put them in the two brothers. On the plate, the shrimp threads were all gone, but I was not willing to eat any of them.

After Jiang Jiandong was allergic, Song Ruyun rushed to the hospital with him on his back. At that time, Jiang Jiandong was full of strange smells. The taxi driver didn't want to take them. They got into the car.

"Hurry up, master, please drive faster."

That was the last voice Jiang Jiandong heard before going to sleep, full of a mother's pain and pleading.

After that, Jiang Jiandong rescued her in the emergency room, and Song Ruyun waited outside the emergency room all night. Later, Jiang Jiandong found out that Song Ruyun sprained her ankle that night, her ankle was swollen, and she could only limp for a long time. Walking, but even so Song Ruyun insisted on going out to do part-time jobs, washing dishes, handing out leaflets, and doing the dirtiest and most tiring jobs.

At that time, Jiang Jiandong was still ignorant, and would blame his mother for not being at home often and not having time to accompany him. At that time, Song Ruyun would gently touch his head and say to him: "Mom, doesn't this mean that you want to live a better life for you?" Is it a little?"

In the dead of night, Song Ruyun would quietly go to the room of the two brothers, and tuck the corners of their backs for them who were sleeping in the dark, with gentle and loving movements.

"Actually, I knew she was coming. I didn't sleep well. I woke up as soon as she moved." When talking about this, a long-lost smile appeared on Jiang Jiandong's face, which was faint and clear.

"I know she is kind to me and my brother," Jiang Jiandong said, "I know all those kindnesses."

It is precisely because I know that I am entangled and hesitant.

If Song Ruyun was as irresponsible as Jiang Liangzhe, Jiang Jiandong could have left as desperately as Jiang Liangzhe did, but Song Ruyun had worked so hard to bring him up, he couldn't completely ignore Song Ruyun's thoughts and let him go, that's not him character.

The sky was getting darker and darker, Jiang Jiandong talked a lot with Chi Yue unknowingly, he finally opened up his whole heart and looked at it, those tangled, helpless, difficult choices that made him breathless finally came to light out of the water.The weather on this day was not very good. After it got dark, I couldn't see a single star. The whole sky was foggy, and everything in front of me became blurred.

"Okay, let's go back early." It was getting late, Jiang Jiandong stood up from the ground and patted the dirt on his body.

Chi Yue also stood up and said hesitantly, "Then what are you planning to..."

"Think about it again." Jiang Jiandong said, before he stepped down from the rooftop, he took a last look at the distant sky, as if he was telling Chi Yue or himself, "I still need... a little time."

The two chatted on the rooftop for a long time that day. When Chi Yue came home, his grandparents were already asleep, and he only left a small lamp in the living room for him. Jiang Jiandong's house downstairs was also quiet, and Song Ruyun gave Jiang Jian After Dong opened the door, he ignored him and went straight back to the bedroom. Jiang Jiandong went back to his room in silence.

Song Ruyun had cleaned Jiang Jiandong's room many times. The place where the piano was originally placed was vacated, the certificates of awards on the wall were gone, and all the music-related things in the small drawers were gone.

All the memories about the music were completely wiped out, there were still traces of glue on the wall, but there was nothing in the room, even the waste paper that Jiang Jiandong wrote down a few musical notes in the trash can was wiped out. Throw it away.It was clean and white.

Song Ruyun was determined to make Jiang Jiandong succumb, and took away all his mattress and quilt, leaving only the bare bed board in the room. Jiang Jiandong stood silently by the empty bed for a long time, and then walked out of the room Standing at the door of Song Ruyun's room.The wooden room door was closed tightly, and Jiang Jiandong wanted to push it open several times, but his fingers suddenly stopped ten centimeters away from the wooden door, and his arms were half hanging in the air, unable to fall down for a long time.

"Why are you standing here?" Brother Jiang Wangyao walked over wearing slippers and patted Jiang Jiandong on the shoulder.

He took Jiang Jiandong to sit down on the sofa, and asked him in a low voice, "Did Mom look for you today?"

Jiang Jiandong's eyelids drooped slightly: "Yes."

Jiang Wangyao asked again: "Are you still making music?"

Jiang Jiandong nodded, Jiang Wangyao sighed, and his tone seemed helpless: "I guessed it."

"Mom was angry for a while when she came back, she just threw all your things away, and said that if you don't have a son like you and continue to study music, you won't be allowed to stay at home." Jiang Wangyao half leaned on the sofa, Song Ruyun hated the entertainment industry, both brothers knew, Jiang Wangyao turned his head to look at Jiang Jiandong and asked, "So what are you going to do, continue to learn?"

Jiang Jiandong was silent for a while, then said, "I don't know."

After a while, he also looked up at Jiang Wangyao and asked him, "Have you regretted it all these years? Have you thought about trying again?"

"I don't know." Jiang Wangyao smiled suddenly after a moment of silence, shook his head and said, "I really don't know."

Perhaps it was a gene inherited from Jiang Liangzhe. Jiang Jiandong and his elder brother Jiang Wangyao both have extremely high talent and enthusiasm for the stage. Jiang Jiandong is music, and Jiang Wangyao is acting. The first grade in professional courses won the school research certificate of the most famous film academy in China, but in the end he failed to study acting. Instead, he chose an ordinary university and majored in teacher training.

"I don't even think about regretting it or not." Jiang Wangyao smiled and said, "It's over anyway, no matter how much I think about it, I can't go back to the past."

His tone was indifferent, but the helplessness in his eyes could not be hidden, he was still unwilling after all.

But it’s useless to be unwilling. The two brothers seem to be indifferent and gentle, but in a sense they have the same personality. They always like to carry their grievances on their own when encountering troubles, and they don’t want their close people to be hurt.

After chatting for a while, Jiang Jiandong urged Jiang Wangyao to go to bed first. He sat alone in the dark living room for a while, then quietly took the key and left the house.

It was already late at night, and only a few small street lights were on in the yard.Their building was facing the trash cans, and the large green leather trash cans looked dark in the middle of the night. Jiang Jiandong looked at those two trash cans, and his heart sank little by little.

Holding the certificates that Chi Yue helped him pick up before, he walked silently towards the trash can.

He finally made a decision.

The hot wind blowing on the face gave people a very stuffy feeling, and the sky seemed particularly dark and gray at night, with no moon.Jiang Jiandong stood in front of the trash can for a long time. This was the only music-related thing he had, but he finally decided to throw it away.

The feeling of abandoning his dreams is not good, but Jiang Jiandong has already made up his mind, he closed his eyes slightly to feel the temperature of those certificates for the last time, so he didn't notice a young man running towards him behind him.

"elder brother!"

Panting heavily, Chi Yue ran to Jiang Jiandong's side.

Jiang Jiandong was stunned for a second.

"Why are you here?" Jiang Jiandong asked.

Panting, Chi Yue grabbed Jiang Jiandong's hand, his eyes burning: "Because I knew you would come."

When we parted in the afternoon, Jiang Jiandong said that he had to think again, but in fact, Chi Yue had already seen his thoughts, and he knew him too well.

Jiang Jiandong is a very nice person, kind, sincere, and has a very gentle heart under his indifferent appearance.He is too gentle, and he doesn't want to hurt those close to him, but does he deserve it?Who will fulfill his dream?

Chi Yue's lips trembled, and he called softly, "Brother."

The two stood facing each other, Jiang Jiandong's eyelids drooped slightly, and he understood a lot of things at the moment of looking at each other, so there was no need to explain anything.

"It's okay." Jiang Jiandong comforted Chi Yue and said, "I already have enough."

When we were young, we always felt that we could get what we liked, and work hard to get what we wanted.But the more I grow up, the more I realize that dream is actually a very luxurious thing. Compared with basic necessities of life, it is not a necessity of life.

"I'm already happy enough to have my brother, my mother, and... and you."

Jiang Jiandong was silent for a moment before speaking again, "I've made up my mind, if my giving up can bring my mother peace of mind, then I can—"

"elder brother!"

Before he could finish speaking, Chi Yue interrupted him loudly.

"Don't think so, brother." Chi Yue said.

Jiang Jiandong's fingers were shaking, very violently, so Chi Yue held his hand tightly, and then hugged him tightly.

In the quiet night, in the quiet family courtyard, the young man's body was burning hot. It was strange to say that the sky was originally dark, but the moon suddenly came out, casting a patch of moonlight.

"You say dreams are extravagant, but they are equally precious, and your feelings are the most precious." Chi Yue's eyes were full of tears under the moonlight.

He sniffed to suppress all the soreness in his heart, he looked at Jiang Jiandong fixedly, and said, "Brother, don't give up if you like it."