is the moon

There is still a month to go before the college entrance examination, so even bringing a video has become a luxury.

The two of them didn't talk for too long. There was no other reason. Chi Yue hadn't finished his homework yet.

A thick stack of books was placed on the edge of the table. Chi Yue didn't hang up the phone, but put his phone in the stack of books and continued to write questions.

The light from the desk lamp was shining brightly in front of his eyes, and Chi Yue leaned over the desk to do his homework, with neat handwriting and clear thinking.

Jiang Jiandong turned on the mute and began to learn his own things.

This feeling of working together is very stable. Chi Yue finished his homework early, and when he looked up, he was facing a bright moon in front of the window sill.

Under the bright moonlight, Chi Yue stared at the phone screen for a while.

Jiang Jiandong was still practicing the piano, and it took him a while to notice his gaze.

"Did you finish your homework?" Jiang Jiandong asked him, "Why do you keep looking at me?"

"I just want to see you..." Chi Yue moved closer and said coquettishly, "I miss you, brother."

With his mouth curled up, he said, "I really want to finish the exam soon."

I've been so busy recently that I don't have much time to meet each other. Jiang Jiandong moved closer to the camera and found that Chi Yue's expression was a little sleepy.

"Didn't sleep well these days?" He asked Chi Yue.

"After all, it's the third year of high school." Chi Yue was also quite helpless, "There are too many homework."

The later stage of the third year of high school is always difficult, the desks are piled up with papers all over the sky, but it is more psychological pressure.

People give too much meaning to the college entrance examination, the college entrance examination is indeed important, to a certain extent determines the fate.

As long as you can remember, people will ask you "Which university do you want to go to?"

The class was full of enthusiasm the first day, and because of Chi Yue's words, everyone talked about emotional topics for a long time.

The class was quiet again the next day, but after all, there is the college entrance examination on top of the head, no matter how enthusiastic the relationship is, it can only become a swap in daily life, a little pastime in the boring study, even if you have never studied in ordinary times. The students all started to work hard, pestering the teacher to ask questions non-stop.

The first night I did my homework until the early hours of the morning, and I got up early the next day.

The bottom few have all started to study, and Chi Yue will only work harder than them.

In May, the weather was getting hotter, the nights were getting shorter and the days were longer, but when Chi Yue went out, the sky had not yet dawned.

With a long shadow on the dark road, Chi Yue ran to the school, and even had breakfast on the way.

When Xiaopang entered the class, Chi Yue was already studying English. In the empty classroom, Chi Yue sat there alone.

Xiaopang was on duty today, so he deliberately came a long time earlier than usual.

"When do you usually come?" Fatty was stunned, and asked Chi Yue, "Why do you always come when I come?"

"It's not very early, is it?" Chi Yue blinked and said, "The main reason is that I haven't finished memorizing these things, and I want to memorize more."

"You're really awesome." Xiaopang went to the side to clean up, and after cleaning, Chi Yue was still reciting, safe and sound.

The standard English pronunciation is very nice. Xiaopang listened to it for a while, then dragged his head to look towards Chi Yue.

"If only I could work so hard," Xiaopang liked to fantasize the most, and laughed out loud as he thought about it, "Then my biggest worry now is whether to go to Tsinghua University or Peking University."

He poked Chi Yue's arm and asked him, "Do you want to go to Tsinghua University or Peking University?"

Chi Yue's gaze was still on the book, and he paused for a moment before saying, "...Let's talk about it if we can pass the exam."

In Xiaopang's impression, Chi Yue has always been stable and confident, and now he adores Chi Yue just like Fen Jiang Jiandong.

But in fact, Chi Yue was not as stable as he imagined, and Chi Yue's mood was always tense.

Maybe the time is coming soon, the countdown at the back of the classroom is erased and rewritten day by day, and Chi Yue's nerves seem to tense up a little bit.

I am afraid that I have not learned enough.I always feel like I can learn more.

This is a powerless and helpless emotion. I don't know when it started. As soon as he closed his eyes, Chi Yue began to think about the knowledge points that he had not mastered, and whether others were still learning.

The time for the college entrance examination is approaching day by day, and the anxiety is becoming more and more obvious. Chi Yue can only continue to prolong his study time.

One in the morning, two in the morning, three in the morning.

For several days in a row, he didn't go to bed until after three o'clock, and even playing video with Jiang Jiandong at night, Chi Yue was busy writing questions.

"I haven't finished today's task." As soon as the video was connected, Chi Yue said so. There was a stack of books in front of him, and Chi Yue put his phone in the middle of the books.

"What task?" Jiang Jiandong asked him, "Homework assigned by the teacher?"

"I bought the paper myself," Chi Yue said, "The exam is coming soon, and I want to study more questions."

Thick papers were piled up on the table, and Chi Yue bought almost all kinds of papers and teaching aids available in the market.

There are all kinds of mock papers and real test papers from various publishing houses, and Chi Yue has to do every question.

After he finished speaking, he lowered his head and started writing the questions, and he didn't raise his head all night.

Jiang Jiandong watched him silently, his eyes darkened.

During this period of time, Chi Yue seemed to have lost a lot of weight. He was already thin, but now his whole body was almost gone, and the butterfly bone on his back was particularly prominent.

However, Chi Yue didn't notice Jiang Jiandong's gaze. He bought too many papers, and all his energy was consumed by doing the questions.

"Take a rest when you're tired." Jiang Jiandong said.

Unknowingly, it was early morning, but Chi Yue was still lying at the table.

Yawning, Chi Yue stood up from the table, but did not close the book.

"I'm not tired brother," Chi Yue rubbed his eyes and said, "I want to write for a while."

Said he was not tired, Chi Yue could barely open his eyes.

Standing up was also because he was too sleepy, and he was afraid that he would fall asleep.

"Stop writing today." Jiang Jiandong frowned a little, "It's only a few minutes away."

"That won't work," Chi Yue shook his head and said, "I'm still far behind."

Chi Yue also said similar things to Xiao Pang, and Xiao Pang would always lament Chi Yue's hard work and said that he wanted to learn from Chi Yue.

Jiang Jiandong frowned sharply, Chi Yue stretched himself too tightly, this was not a healthy state.

No matter how hard you work, you need to rest. No one can work and study at a high intensity all the time.

"A Yue," Jiang Jiandong said with a serious expression, "Go to sleep, I won't write today."

His tone was commanding and undeniable.

"Hey, be obedient." Jiang Jiandong said, "It's not too late."

After hearing what he said, Chi Yue lay on the bed, but still couldn't sleep, and kept his eyes open until midnight.

Everyone understands the truth, and everyone hopes that they are calm and strong, so that they can not be afraid of any difficulties.

But in fact, people will always be troubled by various emotions, which cannot be escaped.

Maybe it was because he wanted to pass the exam too much. As the college entrance examination approached, Chi Yue seemed to have fallen into a vicious circle of anxiety.

I didn't study well or sleep well, and my originally steady state of mind became restless.

The moonlight outside the window is still bright, but it seems that it is no longer quiet, but rather annoying.

Chi Yue stared at the ray of moonlight with his eyes open, staring at it repeatedly, and saw it fall from the window into the house.

It wasn't until dawn that he finally fell asleep, and he didn't sleep well.

Chi Yue had many dreams, messy and illogical.

He dreamed that he couldn't do a single one of the college entrance examination questions, and dreamed that he didn't have time to paint the answer sheet;

I dreamed that I was late for the exam, and I also dreamed that I lost my admission ticket.

Too many emotions were backlogged in his heart, and Chi Yue was woken up with fright.

He sat up suddenly from the bed, his heart beating violently.

Chi Yue took a deep breath, and it took a long time before he came to his senses.

He didn't fall asleep until four or five o'clock, and woke up before seven o'clock, and the alarm clock hadn't even sounded yet.

After waking up, he couldn't fall asleep, his head was dazed, and his nerves were tense all the time.

Dizzy.

Chi Yue sat up slowly, holding his head with his hands

It was true that he had slept too little, and he felt dizzy all over.

After barely sitting for a while, he lay down on the bed again, staring at the ceiling.

The lights in the room were not turned on, and the vision was hazy. He kept his eyes open for a long time, but Chi Yue still didn't feel sleepy.

Can't sleep.

Really can't sleep.

Thanks to it being Sunday, the school is closed for a day, so I don't have to go to class.

Otherwise, Chi Yue would definitely struggle to get up and wouldn't stay on the bed for a second.

But even the weekend wasn't much better. Chi Yue was too anxious, and she couldn't relax at home.

Lying on the bed without falling asleep for a long time, Chi Yue finally struggled to get up.

"Let's continue writing my questions." Chi Yue muttered softly.

Anyway, I can't sleep, so I might as well do something meaningful.

Parents are not at home, and they happen to be on duty today.

Chi Yue went to the refrigerator to find a carton of milk to drink, and returned to the room biting the straw.

He hasn't slept well for the past few days, and he feels like his feet are sloppy when he walks.

Sitting at the desk and continuing to write questions, I got stuck before writing two questions.

Stuck on a very simple question.

What should I do with this multiple choice question?

Chi Yue stared at the pattern given on the test paper, without thinking for several minutes.

Maybe it's because his brain is too blunt. Mathematics has always been Chi Yue's strength, but he got stuck on the simplest multiple-choice questions.

After staring at the test paper and thinking for a long time, Chi Yue's mind was almost empty, but he just couldn't think of it.

No, it must be written.

But no, I really can’t write it.

Time seemed to be standing still, and it seemed to be flying by. Chi Yue didn't know how long he had been thinking about it, but he just gritted his teeth and struggled with this question.

It took several sheets of papyrus to play, and finally he began to draw some patterns unconsciously.

Have no idea.

Still can't figure it out.

Why can't you even think of such a simple question?

It was a very broken feeling, and Chi Yue suddenly fell into a vortex of self-doubt.

What if he can't do it in the examination room?

What if he can't solve all the questions?

Reason told him that this was an extreme guess, but when emotions came up, no amount of reason would be suppressed.

The chest is stuffy, and I don't know what it feels like.

Chi Yue stared closely at the questions on the test paper, but his eyes were blurred and he couldn't see clearly.

He suddenly wanted to make a phone call with Jiang Jiandong, wanted to chat with him.

Even a sentence is fine, he wants to hear his voice.

Taking a deep breath, Chi Yue turned around to look for his phone.After searching for a long time to find it, Chi Yue typed the words slowly.

Chi Yue: [brother, are you awake? 】

Chi Yue: [Brother, I miss you so much. 】

He originally wanted to say "I'm so tired", but he couldn't express it. He knew that his emotions were not right, but he didn't want to make Jiang Jiandong worry too much.

The message was sent out at 07:30 in the morning, Chi Yue thought about it, and sent another emoji of a puppy wagging its tail.

The soft and cute animals appeared on the screen, but Jiang Jiandong didn't reply immediately.

Guessing he was busy, Chi Yue flipped through the chat records of the two of them one by one. After reading it for a while, Jiang Jiandong finally replied: [Get up. 】

He asked Chi Yue: [Where are you? 】

Chi Yue bent his eyes: [at home. 】

Just two short sentences, after which Jiang Jiandong didn't reply again.

Probably really busy, Chi Yue thought, it was indeed difficult for the two of them to spend time together.