61 points stand-in lover

Zhuang Zixuan went to dinner with He Chu, as if nothing had happened.

The house was as usual, the dishes and chopsticks had been washed, the garbage was taken out, and there was no trace of Zhuang's mother's cooking.

It was as if Zhuang's mother had never been here.

He Chu wanted to ask several times, but he raised his mouth and swallowed it back.

If there were things he didn't want to mention, Zhuang Zixuan also had them.

You don't have to deliberately poke people's pain.

But before He Chu had time to ask, Zhuang Zixuan took the initiative to speak.

"She...has been asking me to do the matching." Zhuang Zixuan's voice was flat, unable to detect any emotion, but He Chu knew that he must be very sad, "In her eyes, she only sees the divorced husband. I Not seeing herself, just some kind of extension of her will. It terrified me."

Zhuang Zixuan looked at He Chu and asked, "Did you feel the same way when you saw me before?"

That feeling of being pulled into the mud and about to drown.

Zhuang Zixuan's eyes were filled with pain and guilt. On the one hand, it was the pain of discovering that he was helpless, and on the other hand, it was the guilt that he had caused such an influence on He Chu.

Zhuang Zixuan didn't say sorry, but every breath and every cell in him said so.

He Chu's heart suddenly felt a dull pain.

Before meeting himself, Zhuang Zixuan couldn't escape and look at his own life.

He probably knew that his life in the dealer was not distorted, that's why he yearned for Ren Tianzong, and that's why he lived that kind of life after Ren Tianzong left.

Zhuang Zixuan was also a victim.

Now, Zhuang Zixuan has already struggled with his life, and the moment he jumped off the plane, he has become a brand new Zhuang Zixuan.

Whether alive or dead.

——At least when Zhuang Zixuan jumped, he didn't know that he would survive.

And now, Zhuang Zixuan is still running away from the farmer, living an ordinary and poor life with himself.

He Chu looked at Zhuang Zixuan and thought to himself:

Can I accept such a brand new Zhuang Zixuan?

do i want to

Without saying a word, He Chu looked at Zhuang Zixuan with scrutiny.

The current Zhuang Zixuan may be considered a good person, but he has done so many things, and he has suffered so much harm because of it... Can it be written off?

Zhuang Zixuan seemed to realize something, and his heartbeat slowly accelerated.

His life is often scrutinized. Lao Zhuang always has a complete set of evaluation criteria for him, and he always feels that he has not done enough and is not obedient enough.

That was pain for him, just pressure.

But He Chu's eyes didn't feel oppressive, he just looked at him calmly and cautiously.

Zhuang Zixuan swallowed, feeling that he was being judged.

He Chu is the only person who can judge him. If He Chu approves him, the rest of his life will be meaningful.

After an unknown amount of time, He Chu finally moved.

He lowered his eyes and said, "I'm going to rest."

Zhuangzi stared at He Chu's back, he wanted to say a lot, but he swallowed it again.

He Chu... Will he still forgive himself?

Mother Zhuang returned to the hospital with exhaustion all over her body.

The hospital should have been quiet, but the corridors were filled with all kinds of people.Zhuang's mother doesn't know much about business matters, she just thinks that these people have met before, and they seem like old partners who have shared weal and woe, but the current atmosphere is obviously not like this.

Zhuang's mother appeared, and everyone's eyes turned to her.Emotions vary from anticipation to worry.

Zhuang's mother walked to the door of the ward, and just about to knock on the door, the door was opened.

The young and beautiful new Mrs. Zhuang supported her big belly, showing a disgusted expression, and said, "Your body smells like sweat..."

After finishing speaking, she also made a vomiting expression.

The new Mrs. Zhuang is pregnant with a child, which is a precious collection in Mr. Zhuang's heart, just like an antique vase.

Lao Zhuang always sat on the hospital bed and said to Zhuang's mother: "Clean yourself before you come here. You have been pregnant yourself. Pregnant women can't be stimulated, don't you know!"

Mother Zhuang moved her mouth, but she couldn't say what she wanted to say.

When she was pregnant with Zhuang Zixuan... she had never been cherished like this.

Mother Zhuang lowered her head and said, "I'm in a hurry..."

Lao Zhuang always doesn't look at her anymore - what's so interesting about a yellow-faced woman who has been kicked out?Lao Zhuang always said impatiently, "Where is Zhuang Zixuan?"

Mother Zhuang lowered her head even lower, and said: "...Ah Xuan, he doesn't want to come back."

bang——

The contents of the little table were swept to the floor.

"Not willing? How could he not be willing to come back? Could it be that you didn't bring your words?" Mr. Zhuang said.

He never thought that this would happen. Zhuang Zixuan is a little rebellious, but he has been beaten by the society, so he should be sensible.Back then, he figured it out by himself and returned to the dealer.

So if there is an accident, it must be that the yellow-faced woman did not do things properly.

Mother Zhuang flinched and said, "I told him everything. But he doesn't want equity or cash. Even if I say, he might marry He Chu..."

This is the condition offered by Mr. Lao Zhuang. From the perspective of Mr. Lao Zhuang, it is already quite "favorable".

Lao Zhuang always regards this as a negotiation, and he firmly believes that Zhuang Zixuan will definitely compromise.If not, the conditions are not open enough.

Originally, Lao Zhuang always had more time to wait, and he firmly believed that Zhuang Zixuan would give in.

But illness waits for no one, he is the one who is more urgent, so he has no choice but to make concessions to Zhuangzi.

Do not come back like this?Zhuang Zixuan really learned a lot from himself.

Lao Zhuang always squinted his eyes and thought for a moment.

The new Mrs. Zhuang walked up to the old Mr. Zhuang with a big belly, and comforted him: "Ah Xuan is used to being wild outside, it's normal to have other thoughts, give me more, anyway, he is your son, and he can't be in the hands of outsiders. Hey... It would have been nice if Xiao Bao had been born and grown up earlier, he certainly couldn't bear to see his father suffering from illness, so he would have gone to do the matching a long time ago."

Even though this "little treasure" has not yet been born, Mr. Zhuang still feels much more at ease.

Mr. Zhuang took a look at Zhuang's mother and said, "What kind of mother can raise what kind of children!"

Zhuang's mother looked at the old Mr. Zhuang with a numb expression.

But I thought in my heart: Ah Xuan is your son!

Mother Zhuang pinched the corner of her clothes.

After work that day, He Chu went to the bookstore to buy some books.

Zhuang Zixuan went to the bookstore to pick him up, and saw the civil servant's question bank at a glance.

Zhuang Zixuan asked, "You... want to be a civil servant?"

He Chu paused for two seconds and said, "Yes."

The rain outside the window was ding-dong, and the car was quiet and quiet.

Something invisible was flowing between the two of them.

He Chu said in a calm voice, "I don't have big ambitions. I can earn a little money, and a normal life is enough. This place is different from big cities. I can't make that much money selling houses, so I choose stability and want to be a civil servant."

He Chu turned his head and looked at Zhuang Zixuan.

Zhuang Zixuan moved a bit and said, "If you are going to be a civil servant, do you plan to settle here?"

He Chu said: "I don't know either, let's take the test first."

He seemed to be careless, and after a while he said: "I am such a mediocre person, different from you. Do you want to go back?"

Zhuang Zixuan almost suffocated for a moment, and then asked depressingly, "Why do you miss me so much?"

"Ok?"

Zhuang Zixuan clenched his fingers tightly, and the fingers on the steering wheel turned white.

"I have followed you, and I will not go back."

"..." He Chu was silent, taking a slow breath.

Because of the drizzle, the lungs are almost full of cold air.

"I thought you understood that when I made this choice, I made up my mind to abandon everything. If you don't want me anymore, you can drive me away." Zhuang Zixuan looked at He Chu with firm but sad eyes: "I can continue Wandering, but I'm not going back."

Raindrops were still beating on the glass.

It seemed to be beating He Chu's heart again.

Seeing that He Chu remained silent for a long time, Zhuang Zixuan nodded calmly and said, "I understand."

Then it turned out to be about to open the car door and go out.

He Chu subconsciously grabbed Zhuang Zixuan's wrist, the car door was half opened, and cold rain came in.

"Don't go." This sentence sounded a little flustered, as if he was afraid of losing something.So He Chu added——

"raining."

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