As a coser, I am revising the script every day

Shui Jiangyi restrained his indifference in his eyes.

He looked at Osamu Dazai, this was the most intense emotion he received in Chuya Nakahara's body, and every time he recalled it, the overwhelming emotions would overwhelm Shui Jiangyi It's the same.

He felt his strong emotions for Osamu Dazai from Chuya Nakahara.

There is guilt, embarrassment, and more...

It's that kind of deep, rich feeling of being overwhelmed like being abandoned.

He and Osamu Dazai have been walking together in the dark for too long, and he was suddenly told that Osamu Dazai lied to him about everything, and the reason why Osamu Dazai lied to him was to let him live happily. He won't be out of tune with him anymore, but the person who let him approach this world has never heard a word.

Shui Jiangyi didn't know how desperate this was.

He didn't know how many times Nakahara tried in the end, how many times he wanted to wake up the person in front of him, how many times he wanted to see Dazai Osamu in the eyes of the future, except for him, only the setting sun remained A blooming dusk, not a burning hell on earth.

He even doesn't know why such a powerful Chuya of the Central Plains finally gave up everything and pinned all his hopes on a person he didn't know, longing for him to find Osamu Dazai, longing for him to save Dazai rule.

Shui Jiangyi only knows the ending of this story.

Osamu Dazai lost his memory forever, and Nakahara Chuya...

I have lost my life forever, at least in that world, my eyes were shining brightly, and I proudly raised my eyebrows to Osamu Dazai and said, Chuya Nakahara, who I can take over your soul, has closed his eyes forever.

Shui Jiangyi raised his eyes to look at Dazai Zhi, his icy blue eyes reflected the face of the person in front of him who was neither sad nor happy, he said: "Then you are not the future of Dazai Zhi from the IF line, you are me... ..."

"Are you the Osamu Dazai in my memory?"

His voice was almost choked and begging, Shui Jiangyi looked at Osamu Dazai and said, "I don't want to know why you appeared here, but you appeared on that rainy night, did you want Save me?"

The eyelashes of the long-haired Osamu Dazai seemed to tremble slightly. Shui Jiangyi was extremely agile at this moment, and only caught the slightest flicker of emotion in his eyes, and then he was caught by the endless coldness. submerged.

Osamu Dazai remained calm and said, "Yes, I want to save you, because you shouldn't die at this time."

"That." Shui Jiangyi could hardly restrain his voice and said, "You can't wait to see me because, in your speculation, should you see me at this moment?"

"..."

I don't know what touched Osamu Dazai. The eyes of Osamu Dazai, who has always been calm in front of him, moved, and his fingers moved. It seemed that after thinking for a long time, he raised his hand to wipe away Chuya Nakahara's tears. .

His hands were very cold. When he first touched the tears, he carefully wiped them off as if he was afraid of being burned. He said, "I didn't mean that."

"I want to see you because I think I should meet you, that's why I came to see you that night, and that's why..." Osamu Dazai seemed to be considering his tone, he should never Don't talk to him in such a hesitant tone. There is an unnatural feeling in your words. He said, "That's why I saved you that night. You shouldn't have died at that time."

"That's what I said just now."

This person who played with gods in Zhongye's memory, this person who was very flamboyant and lazy in Zhongye's memory, seemed to have forgotten how to get along with others, and even more so, for a long time. Learn how to make a man who is crying stop his tears.

So what he said was kind of inorganic, but also kind of helpless.

"..."

When Osamu Dazai raised his hand to wipe away his tears, Shui Jiangyi realized that he was crying. When he played the role of Chuya Nakahara, he clearly understood that Nakahara Chuya is also a proud person. You shouldn't be crying.

When he faces all things, he never escapes. Whether as himself or as a pillar of the team, Zhong Yuanzhong has always been a very proud and calm person.

At this time, he was crying, which can be regarded as an OOC behavior, but Shui Jiangyi couldn't stop his tears, as if the tears had been accumulated in Shui Jiangyi's eye sockets for a long time, and finally waited for a landing Just like the chance he had, he couldn't wait to fall from his eye sockets.

He turned his head sideways, avoiding Dazai Osamu's cold hands, wiped away his tears with his hands indiscriminately, stepped back slightly on the bed, and distanced Dazai Osamu from the distance that should have been maintained when getting along with others .

Osamu Dazai couldn't help but frowned when he saw the plot where Chuya Nakahara was pulling away from him, as if he was a little dissatisfied, but he didn't say anything, he just looked at Chuya Nakahara and said: "... …it does not matter."

okay what?

Is it okay that Zhongyuan Zhongye is crying, or is it okay that Zhongyuan Zhongye is crying in front of him?

Shui Jiangyi almost felt his temples twitch again when Osamu Dazai said this to him, and Shui Jiangyi quickly said, "What do you want to tell me?"

He really couldn't control his emotions, so he could only try his best to deviate from that emotion and talk about other things.

Osamu Dazai said: "I see, you are from the future."

Shui Jiangyi is not surprised at all. After all, in his memory, Osamu Dazai has become an existence similar to the world consciousness. The world consciousness can see his ins and outs. He thinks this is normal. He said: "So, do you think I'm afraid that I'll mess up the story line? You want to send me back?"

Osamu Dazai gave him a heavy look, and said, "I won't do this, because I know you won't listen to me."

"It's like you won't listen to me?" Shui Jiangyi pulled the corner of his lips and said, "It's like, if you insist on going your own way, you will be swallowed by the consciousness of the world?"

Osamu Dazai was silent for a while because of his words, and he said: "...Although I can't feel your emotions, I seem to feel that you are feeling sad because of me."

"Are you blaming me?"

Osamu Dazai said softly that he always seemed to have this ability, no matter how far Chuya Nakahara dragged the topic, as long as he wanted, he could always bring the topic back directly.

I have really tried my best to break the topic, and turn the topic to the serious business, instead of talking to this Dazai Osamu here, Shui Jiangyi, who recalled the past, was silent for a while.

Although he didn't know what happened between Chuya Nakahara's memory and the ending he saw when Chuya Chuya collapsed, but from the ending he saw, he could easily know.

The story is not a good one, and is a thing of the past.

But Osamu Dazai's reluctance made Mizue Yipin feel a bad premonition.

He decided to go out and test himself, whether this was in line with his idea.

Shui Jiangyi said: "Now, can I still call you Osamu Dazai?"

The aggressive attitude of the long-haired Osamu Dazai was completely relieved at this moment. He looked at Chuya Nakahara a little helplessly, his eyelashes trembled, and he said: "It's been a long time since there was such a person, such Called me already, but you can call me that if you want."

Shui Jiangyi said: "Then you can tell me, what were you doing to hide from me at that time?"

"No." Before Shui Jiangyi finished speaking, he refuted himself, "It's not that I'm lying to you, but the man I saw, he was trying to catch you almost from the beginning to the end, but he never seemed to be Did not see the end of the story, not approaching him."

Osamu Dazai in the story had already bid farewell to Nakahara.

Ever since he saw Akutagawa Ryunosuke that day, he had already said goodbye to Nakahara Nakaya. Every time he cooked, every time he made intimate jokes with Nakahara Nakaya, the record he had made almost all night before the war, in the When getting rid of the correction officer, he smiled at Zhongyuan Zhongye and said what Zhongyuan Zhongye should do if this world is an illusory shell. When he parted with Zhongyuan Zhongye for the last time, he looked back.

He didn't say a word of goodbye, but it seemed that he had said goodbye to Zhongyuan Zhongye thousands of times.

At the corners of his brows and eyes, at the corners of his lips, at his fingertips.

Osamu Dazai said, "Do you want to hear that I lied to you, or do you want to know the truth of everything?"

Shui Jiangyi felt that Dazai Zhi was talking nonsense, but he looked at Shui Jiangyi too seriously, and let Shui Jiangyi know that Dazai Zhi really felt this way, so he said: "... ...tell me the truth."

Even if the truth is too late, all stories are over.

The people in the story have long since gone through several reincarnations and encountered a new story.

But Shui Jiangyi felt that at least this story should not just be so unclear and have no ending.

If one day he can know the truth of the whole story, he wants to draw a complete circle for this story.

At least not leaving any regrets, at least fulfilling his greatest regret.

Osamu Dazai said: "Before I was deprived of consciousness by the world consciousness, I had already known him."

His voice was very weak, as if he was talking about some stories that had nothing to do with him. Shui Jiangyi didn't know whether he didn't care about it long ago, or after he became a god, he no longer had anything that belonged to him. Emotions, in short, Osamu Dazai's expression, as if he was stating his not very dazzling life, is very poor.

"He is a huge ambitious man, or in other words, he is actually just a coward, and all the edges and corners have been smoothed by time. When he met me, his biggest thought was to escape from this world. He desire to occupy my body."

"Unfortunately, even if he is world-conscious, when I saw him but still refused to say that I saw him, he was not allowed to do anything to me, even if I defected later and abducted me Also defected."

"In the process of chasing and killing me, when he killed the people he sent over to kill me and Zhongye time and time again, he still couldn't do anything to me, because I still didn't want to admit it, I saw what is called world consciousness."

"In my memory, although I have not experienced such an emotion, my memory tells me that in my memory, I enjoyed the life alone with Zhongye, and I felt a lot of comfort."

"Until... I saw Ryunosuke Akutagawa."

"When I adopted Akutagawa Ryunosuke, although I just took a fancy to the wildness in his eyes and thought that he might be a good executioner in my hands in the future, it doesn't mean that I can just watch Akutagawa Ryunosuke change. A loser, only because I defected from the port mafia."

"If I meet Akutagawa Ryunosuke normally, I will teach him as before, no, it may be more ruthless than before, after all, I will never be like before, as his teacher, can teach him, I can know what position I should be in and what kind of things to do after each mission, and every meeting since then may be the last time I meet him."

"It's a pity that when I saw him, he was clearly standing in front of me, but he didn't seem to be standing in front of me at all. I watched Akutagawa Ryunosuke's surprise and helplessness when he saw me for the first time. He almost seemed to have seen a great surprise, and he couldn't wait to leave everyone behind and run towards me, while I was thinking about how to teach him a lesson."

"The Rashomon behind him entangled his neck uncontrollably, tightening it a little bit, and when his neck was blood-stained, Akutagawa Ryunosuke stopped running towards me, He got behind everyone and he ordered people to start shooting."

"At that moment, I tried to see the expression in Akutagawa Ryunosuke's eyes clearly, but unfortunately, I couldn't see clearly."

"He was standing in the crowd, I didn't see him clearly, but I was sure at the first second that his consciousness was controlled by the world consciousness. At that time, I was thinking, if Ryunosuke Akutagawa could also be controlled .”

Osamu Dazai looked at Chuya Nakahara, and when he said that his voice, which had always been calm, suddenly had a slight ups and downs, he said to Chuya Nakahara: "Tell me, will the world gradually Will everyone in the world be controlled by him?"

"I don't like this kind of world, so after that day, I wanted to kill him."

"But how can you kill a world consciousness?"

"World consciousness cannot be killed. As long as this world exists, it will continue to exist until someone can replace him, until someone can usurp his position and kill him."

"And that person, except for me, doesn't do what he thinks at all."

Therefore, Osamu Dazai, who was the most suitable candidate, decided on that day that he would kill the world consciousness and exist instead of the world consciousness.

Therefore, Osamu Dazai was not controlled by the world consciousness, but Osamu Dazai killed the so-called world consciousness.

Shui Jiangyi almost didn't need to use his brain, he could imagine that after Osamu Dazai replaced the so-called world consciousness, that world would quickly resume its operation.

Everyone has returned to normal, and will never be taken away to lose their consciousness again.

It's just that Osamu Dazai has lost all his emotions, and the memories from the past are still clearly emerging in his mind, but... Osamu Dazai can no longer understand why in his memory, at certain times, he will reveal Smile softly.

Shui Jiangyi figured out all of this, and finally understood Zhongye's last words.

What does the phrase "I want to keep him" that has influenced him from the beginning to the present mean.

In the Central Plains, Dazai Osamu was never allowed to stay.

In other words, no one can keep Dazai Osamu. The Dazai Osamu who made this wish in Nakahara Chuya's obsession is even a bigger difficulty because he has lost all emotions.

He has become a god overlooking the world. As a world consciousness, he can clearly remember everything.

But he has never been the one who can stay in the Central Plains every morning.

Leaning lazily by the window, with the beautiful morning light on his cheeks, holding a glass of milk, he lazily said to Nakahara Nakaya: "Good morning, what are you going to do today?" Osamu Dazai.

At the last moment of that world line, Nakahara Chuya, who had been abandoned by his companions all along, had long forgotten what a companion was, and no longer expected the companionship of his companions, received the last gift from Osamu Dazai.

Added the name of a companion to Osamu Dazai in his past memories.

You have never been a lost monster. When you are lost, there is always someone by your side. That person's name is Osamu Dazai.

Although he is not very powerful, Dazai Osamu will not hide behind Nakahara Chuya when facing the enemy, watching Nakahara Chuya fight hard for him, even if he sees him bleeding, he will not be indifferent.

He will stand in front of Zhongye Zhongyuan, and when Zhongye Zhongyuan is silent, he has already decided everything.

Back in the past, Nakahara Chuya wanted to leave the life that belonged to Dazai Osamu, which was not smooth at all.

All the ups and downs, all the intrigues and tricks are all borne by him.

He hoped to see Osamu Dazai spend his life safely and smoothly.

This is Zhongye's greatest wish.

Shui Jiangyi said: "...Then, why do you want to tell the Dazai of this world everything? He shouldn't know these things in the first place."

If this Dazai Osamu does not appear in this world, then the Dazai Osamu of this world will not know the follow-up story, maybe he will not know that in the not-too-distant future, Nakahara will die for some reason, then He would not explore the cause of Chuya Zhongya's death time and time again, maybe this story would not go to such a point.

This is simply out of control.

The long-haired Osamu Dazai glanced at Shui Jiangyi, and said, "Is it a kind of forgiveness to let him die so foolishly?"

"This should be the biggest form of torture, right?"

"In the past, I just didn't know all the stories. When the world consciousness told me everything, I suddenly woke up. This world has long been very different from what I remembered."

"It's a pity that it was too late at that time. After I became world-conscious, I told him about my future life early. Even if he died later, he wouldn't regret it, would he?"

Shui Jiangyi was almost laughed angrily by Dazai, what kind of theory is this?

He said: "But you can also see that I come from later generations. Chuya Nakahara, who became the leader of the port mafia in later generations because of Osamu Dazai's death, do you think he feels regretful?"

"Or, is this the ending you wanted to see from the very beginning?"

Osamu Dazai was silent for a while: "So, I want to find you, meet you, let's try to change this ending together."

"In the original story line, after the story happened this time, Osamu Dazai in the if line will start to alienate Nakahara Chuya, because he will start to make this hat on your head, wait until this hat appears After that, it will be the day he is about to die."

"Because he believed what Verlaine said, that the death of one person can make up for the incompleteness of another person's fate, and he has already become the leader of the so-called port mafia, Osamu Dazai..."

Osamu Dazai said: "I don't know why he chose to die. In the future I see, I only see the present."

"The past cannot be changed, but the future may not."

Shui Jiangyi narrowed his eyes and said, "So, you want me to change that blank that you can't even see?"

"Yes." Osamu Dazai said, "This is a feasible plan, which can prevent you from being discovered by the world consciousness of this world, and can also adjust the story of this world appropriately."

"But……"

"why?"

Shui Jiangyi thought that he wanted to keep Dazai in this world alive because he didn't want to see that kind of future, and he didn't want Dazai to die with great vigor.

And what is Osamu Dazai who has lost all emotion in front of him for?

The powerful mobility he expressed doesn't look like it's just a boring experiment at all, he is obviously profitable on Dazai Osamu.

Osamu Dazai was taken aback for a moment, he didn't seem to have thought that there would be such a question from the Central Plains, he said.

"what why?"

"Why did you save Osamu Dazai? Why did you try to find a way for me?" Shui Jiangyi asked, "This is not something you should think about, is it?"

After Osamu Dazai heard his question, his eyes slowly paused, he said.

"Because it's enough for a tragedy to happen to only one person."

"And, I want to see him again on his body."

Osamu Dazai said, "Just once."

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