Looking for green hills

Xiaoqing said: "Gu Yuanshan, I don't love you anymore."

The light in Gu Yuanshan's eyes went out in an instant. He seemed to have fallen into a millennium cold pool. From head to toe, from flesh to bone marrow, they were all soaked in the icy cold water. Red and swollen, the white hair between his temples made his face look haggard and vicissitudes.

He has aged like this, but he is only twenty-four this year.

After a while, he squeezed out a wry smile, and held Xiaoqing's hand tightly: "It's okay, as long as I love you."

"But I don't want to see you again, Gu Yuanshan, you go."

He finally broke down, and embraced Xiaoqing desperately, "Qing'er, don't be like this, don't be like this? It doesn't matter if you don't love me, I can wait for you, but you can't drive me away..." Said Seeing him tightly buried in Xiaoqing's neck, tears flowed out again.

He is obviously such a tall man, but he cries loudly in Xiaoqing's arms again and again like a child, "It's been five years... I've been waiting for you for five years... I'm going crazy, you know? You can't let me drive me away as soon as you wake up, I don't want anything, I don't want any future, I don't want any throne, I just want you...you should take pity on me...let me stay by your side Okay? I beg you...I beg you please..."

Xiaoqing didn't speak, but closed his eyes quietly. After a long time, Gu Yuanshan was finally tired from crying. He wiped the corners of his eyes casually with his sleeve, then carefully took Xiaoqing's hand and brought him back to the bedroom.

The bedroom was still the same as it was back then, the tables, chairs and cabinets were exactly the same as when the two of them were here before, Xiaoqing glanced at it lightly, then nestled into the innermost part of the bed, and lay down with her back facing Gu Yuanshan.

Gu Yuanshan turned off the lamp and lay down on the bed, hugged Xiaoqing's waist from behind, and stuck it tightly to Xiaoqing's body. Xiaoqing didn't struggle, but said coldly: "Don't touch me."

Gu Yuanshan hastily withdrew his hand, turned his back to Xiaoqing and lay down, after a long, long time, he thought Xiaoqing had finally fallen asleep, so he turned over quietly and hugged Xiaoqing into his arms, he put his face Buried behind Xiaoqing's ear, smelled the smell of Xiaoqing's body, and after a while, two lines of hot tears trickled down Xiaoqing's ear.

Xiaoqing thought, why does Gu Yuanshan cry so much.

Gu Yuanshan got up early in the morning of the second day. He cleaned up the backyard first, put away all the wine bottles that he had thrown around, and cleaned up the study thoroughly. After finishing all this, he went back to the bedroom.

Xiaoqing actually woke up very early, but his soul had just returned to his place, and he was very tired, so he lay on the bed and closed his eyes to rest his mind. Gu Yuanshan thought he was still asleep, so he leaned down and kissed him on the lips, he frowned He opened his eyes, "I said, don't touch me."

Gu Yuanshan stood beside the bed in a panic, and said in a low voice: "I made a mistake, I will never dare again, don't be angry."

He raised his eyes and stared at Gu Yuanshan, and said after a long while: "Gu Yuanshan, you look so ugly now, I don't like your beard, and your hair is too messy, I'm tired of looking at it."

"I'll clean it up right away, don't bother me." After Gu Yuanshan finished speaking, he ran to the courtyard to fetch water to shave off his beard, washed his hair and tied it up again. After finishing everything, he hurried back to the bedroom to look at Xiaoqing: "Is this okay?"

Xiaoqing glanced at him again, and said coldly: "The clothes are really dirty, covered with dust, I don't want to lie on the same bed with you anymore."

"I'll change it, I'll change it now." After Gu Yuanshan finished speaking, he quickly took off all his clothes in front of Xiaoqing. He used to be very good-looking, with wide shoulders, narrow waist and slender legs. There was no flesh on her body, she was almost skinny, and the ribs on her abdomen could be clearly seen. Xiaoqing just took a look and then lowered her head.

Gu Yuanshan changed into clean clothes and walked in front of Xiaoqing, "I changed, now it's clean, don't be angry, okay?"

"Oh." Xiaoqing responded perfunctorily and stretched her arms to get up from the bed, but Gu Yuanshan suddenly threw himself beside him and bent his back to him, "I will carry you on my back wherever you want to go, you just recovered, don't Tired myself."

Xiaoqing stared at his back for a while before climbing up reluctantly, "I want to find Meng Xiao."

Gu Yuanshan held his leg and said with a smile, "Okay, I'll carry you on my back."

At the foot of the mountain, Xiaoqing left Gu Yuanshan on the spot and walked into the depths of the bamboo forest alone. Meng Xiao turned into a human figure and sat on a stone to meditate.

He climbed onto the stone and sat side by side with Meng Xiao, "Meng Xiao, thank you."

Meng Xiao sneered: "Hmph, don't say these things are useless, if the 500 years of cultivation are gone, I won't be able to save you anymore."

Xiaoqing touched his shoulder, and said coquettishly: "I know, I won't make trouble anymore."

Meng Xiao opened her eyes and glanced at him: "Where's Gu Yuanshan? Did he die from drinking?"

"Standing outside, I didn't let him in."

Meng Xiao said impatiently: "It's best not to let him in. I don't want to see him. You're useless. I went up the mountain two years ago to see how you're recovering. But when I entered the backyard, I saw him drunk. Lying in the yard like a puddle of mud, weeping and screaming, I have never seen a man cry like him."

"Don't talk about him," Xiaoqing blinked at Mengxiao, "Where's Lu Qingya? Why isn't he here with you?"

Meng Xiao suddenly fell silent, and the arrogance just now dissipated in an instant, "He's gone."

"Gone?!" Xiaoqing stared at him in disbelief, "Why did he leave again? I really convinced Lu Qingya, a stinky Taoist priest!"

"You are not allowed to scold him!" Meng Xiao shouted at him suddenly.

Xiaoqing shook her head helplessly, and then said in a deep voice: "Meng Xiao, I want to tell you something, which was also caused by me when Lu Qingya was drunk before. Tell you, but I died and came back to life again, and I have figured out many things, I must tell you this matter, it is the truth about Lu Qingya leaving you..."

The wind blew again in the bamboo grove, and the bamboo leaves were rustling in the breeze. After Xiaoqing finished speaking, Meng Xiao just stood there without saying a word. He buried his head between his legs, and only looked up after a long time. Xiaoqing, Xiaoqing saw tears on his face for the first time, so many tears almost drowned the bamboo forest.

Xiao Qing hugged him into her arms and comforted him softly: "Don't cry, Meng Xiao, you go to him, tell him that you know everything, solve the misunderstanding between you, and you can be together again."

Meng Xiao shook her head and said with a wry smile: "Forget it, since he has been trying so hard to hide it from me, why should I expose him? If he wants to fulfill me, then I will fulfill him too. Just forget each other in the world like this for the rest of your life. "

Xiaoqing suddenly stood up and asked loudly: "Why?! You both love each other deeply, why can't you put everything aside and get back together?"

Meng Xiao closed her eyes again: "There is no reason, not everything in this world has to have a good result, this is my choice with him, you don't understand, you don't need to understand, you go , the person outside must have been waiting anxiously."

Xiaoqing glanced at him again, turned around angrily and left, when Gu Yuanshan saw him coming out, he ran over to hold his hand, but was thrown away by him: "Don't touch me, you humans don't have any good things!"

The days in the mountains passed by in a hurry, and half a year passed in a blink of an eye. During these six months, Gu Yuanshan hugged Xiaoqing every day. No matter where Xiaoqing was going, he would always hug him. Xiaoqing's feet barely touched the ground. During the day he didn't dare to touch Xiaoqing, but at night he took advantage of Xiaoqing's sleep and hugged Xiaoqing tightly in his arms, kissing and smelling her.

Xiaoqing didn't give him a good look, but he never said anything about driving him away. He thought that life could go on like this, and one day he would ask Xiaoqing's forgiveness, but he didn't expect that on this day, the mountain would come An uninvited guest.

Li Changting stood aggressively at the door of Qingshan Residence with dozens of guards armed with knives. Gu Yuanshan's face was dark, but he finally opened the door and let her in. The two of them talked secretly in the study for half an hour, while Xiaoqing sat Waited in the backyard for half an hour.

He thought, such days are coming to an end after all, Gu Yuanshan is going to abandon him again, and go on his own future, he smiled and shook his head, his eyes were covered with mist.

In fact, he woke up very early. He regained consciousness a month before he showed up. The first person he saw when he opened his eyes was Gu Yuanshan. All of them are Gu Yuanshan.

It's just that this time, Gu Yuanshan was no longer as suave as before, but fell on the ground in front of him like a puddle of mud, smelling of alcohol all over his body, with an unshaven beard and disheveled hair, and white hair grew from his temples. Weeping while calling my name on the ground, crying so desperately, as if I lost the most precious thing in my life.

Xiaoqing thought at that time, why should he do this?He doesn't want a bright future outside, so why hide in the mountains and cry like a madman?Didn't he already make a choice?Hasn't he already given up on himself?Why act like you can't do without yourself now?

So he didn't show up, just looked at Gu Yuanshan coldly in the form of a bamboo for a month, he watched Gu Yuanshan get drunk day by day, weep day by day, lose weight day by day, and the white hair on his temples increased day by day, but In his twenties, he already looks like an old man over fifty.

He had never seen Gu Yuanshan like this, no matter how heartless he said, he couldn't really forget Gu Yuanshan, so his heart ached, he gave up, and he showed his original shape.

He finally heard the phrase "I love you" from Gu Yuanshan's mouth. He actually heard it very clearly. Gu Yuanshan said it ten times, and he kept it firmly in his heart every time.

Every night, Gu Yuanshan thought that he was asleep, hugged him and kissed and touched him, thinking that he didn't know, how could he not know?He never fell asleep, it was just pampering him.

He told Gu Yuanshan that he didn't like his beard and hated his dirty look, but it was just that he felt sorry for Gu Yuanshan and didn't want to see him so decadent. How could he despise him?

He had resentment in his heart, so he spoke coldly to Gu Yuanshan, but as time went by, his bottom line had already become less and less, and it might only take a few months for him to completely fall into Gu Yuanshan's arms again.

But Li Changting came at this time, what is she doing here?Gu Yuanshan must be tempted to go back with a huge temptation. Rights, ambitions, family, country, and the world are all Gu Yuanshan's favorite things. If he refuses once, will he refuse a second time?

Xiaoqing shook her head and threw out a tear.

"What are you doing here?" Gu Yuanshan looked at Li Changting and asked in a cold voice.

"I beg you, please go back, Dayan needs you now, it has been five years, Gu Yuanshan, Dayan's city has been continuously attacked by Dayan in the past five years, now half of the country has fallen, and the father is about to die. Women can't take charge of the overall situation in the court, and those aristocratic families are still arguing over their own petty gains, and no one cares about the safety of the country." Li Changting's face could no longer see the glory of the past, she looked at Looking at Gu Yuanshan, he begged: "You should go back for the sake of the people of Dayan. Go back and help me. At worst, you can come back after defeating Dayan's cavalry. This time, I will never stop you again."

Gu Yuanshan whispered: "You go, I won't go back with you."

Li Changting roared angrily: "Gu Yuanshan, don't you think the lives of millions of people are worthless in your eyes? Go out and have a look outside. Now that there are hungry corpses everywhere, the outside world has already become a chaotic world. Go out and have a look." ah."

Gu Yuanshan stood up, with an even more indifferent expression on his face: "I don't want to watch it, and I don't want to watch it. I don't care at all what will happen to this country in the end. As you said, those officials are still worrying about it. There is a lot of petty debate. Even if such a country is destroyed, it deserves it. Everyone has their own destiny, and the country also has a national destiny. Now that the big swallow is exhausted, you don’t have to struggle anymore. Think about it earlier Let's go back."

Li Changting said angrily: "Gu Yuanshan, I really misread you!"

"Yes, you did misread me, so don't come to me again, I don't want to be disturbed again."

Li Changting gave him a gouged look, turned around and left angrily.

After Gu Yuanshan sent Li Changting away, he hurried to the backyard to look for Xiaoqing. Xiaoqing sat on the stone bench, and when he saw him coming, he lowered his head and said calmly, "Are you leaving again? You can leave as you want, you don't need to make a special effort." Come and tell me that there is no relationship between me and you."

Gu Yuanshan squatted in front of him and held his hand: "I won't go, didn't I say it long ago, I will never go anywhere in this life, I will stay here with you, wherever you are, I will be there .”

Xiaoqing looked down at him, looking at each other, lingering, Xiaoqing's eyes suddenly filled with mist, "Gu Yuanshan, you are a bastard..."

He hugged Xiaoqing into his arms, kissed the corners of his eyes and lips, and pleaded softly: "I'm a bastard, it's all my fault, it's my fault, you can beat me and scold me, but You don't want me...you can't want me...I love you..."