halva[entertainment]

The pure piano music was flowing slowly in the car, the sound was not loud, and there were not many cars on this road, so Su Qingji turned on the adaptive cruise control and let it drive forward smoothly.

She took her hands off the steering wheel, crossed her arms loosely on her chest, tilted her head slightly, and looked at the co-pilot.

It was the first time I heard Tang Anran talk about her mother, and Su Qingji listened to her attentively. After listening to Tang Anran's words, she frowned, stared at her eyes, and said in a distressed tone: "I... I'm sorry hear this..."

After a few seconds of silence, she asked uncertainly, "So you... are you alone now? Do you have any relatives?"

The biological father had never been seen before, and the mother had also passed away. Su Qingji had no knowledge of it before.

"No," Tang Anran shook her head with a wry smile, "I don't have any, my mother is my only relative in this world."

She leaned her head on the neck pillow of the car seat, perhaps because of the alcohol she had just drunk, a layer of faint pink appeared on her translucent cheeks, and she talked a little more than usual.

"I lived with my mother since I was a child. She brought me up by herself. We almost depended on each other. When I was young, I also asked her why everyone had grandparents and grandparents while I only had her. She lied to me at that time that she Divorced from my biological father, and she is an orphan, so I have no grandparents, let alone grandparents. Later, I read her diary and realized that my mother broke up with the family because of that man. My grandparents disagreed. My mother was with that man, but my mother was completely dazzled by that scumbag. She not only gave up her career that was on the way up, but also severed ties with her family. I was born."

"Tell me, is she stupid?" Speaking of this, Tang Anran sighed slowly.

She turned to look at Su Qingji, and suddenly felt that she had said a lot, so she pulled the corners of her mouth helplessly, "Sorry, I talked so much about the past by myself," she touched her hot face, "I It seems that after drinking, you will talk more."

"It's okay, you continue to talk, I'm listening." Su Qingji looked at her with deep eyes, and looked at the road ahead from time to time, the car drove smoothly by itself.

"Alas—" Tang Anran turned her head away, and let out a long sigh of relief, her ink-like hair was draped over her shoulders, and her beautiful melon-seeded face was white and small.

Su Qingji looked sideways into her eyes.

The shape of Tang Anran's eyes is very beautiful. When looking at people, they often have a soft light like water, like a harmless little animal, clear and bright, sincere and clean.

Now, in those watery almond eyes, there is a loneliness and sadness that is rarely seen in ordinary times.

Su Qingji felt his heart was pulled.

"I'm really worthless for my mother, and I also hate that scumbag who cheated on her. Although he is my biological father in name, I really hate him. Before I met him, my mother was very good. She is the envy of everyone. For that man, she willingly gave up everything. When she finally found out the truth, I was almost one year old. The strong motherhood made her not give up on me. I can't imagine the days How did she spend it? Knowing that the sweet-talking and gentlemanly man had a wife and son, and that she was just a lover secretly raised by him, and even one of many lovers... She must have been very desperate at that time... ...The desperate love, from the beginning to the end, is just a romantic fantasy of one person."

Tang Anran shook her head with a wry smile, "So...this is probably the reason why I don't trust relationships."

She reached out and touched her face, which was hot from being slightly drunk, "My mother always told me not to believe in feelings. Love is unreliable. Because she was too stimulated before, she became depressed and ill, and her mental state has not been very good. I take medicine all the year round. Four years ago, during Chinese New Year, I was filming in a film crew. She was the only one at home, and there was no one around to accompany her. The outside world was full of family reunions, but she had no one to get together. I had a fight with her that night. Call, I feel that she is not in a good condition, I said that I asked for leave with the director, and I will go home tomorrow, she still promised me to come, but within a few hours, I received a call from the hospital."

Speaking of this, Tang Anran's tone trembled a little, she turned her head away and adjusted her breathing.

The stamina of the red wine came up, and she felt a little dizzy, so she put her hands over her eyes and rubbed her temples.

Su Qingji had anticipated something bad, and his pretty eyebrows were deeply frowned, "So she..."

"Huh?" Tang Anran's eyes were a little red, and the rippling eyes looked a little blurred because of the alcohol.

"That night of your mother..." Su Qingji couldn't bear to say it directly.

Tang Anran let out a long breath, lowered her eyes, "I jumped off the building, on the fifth floor of my house, she opened the window and jumped down, there happened to be a family downstairs who had just returned from the New Year's Eve dinner at the restaurant, and saw her lying on the ground , I quickly called the police and called 120, and it was delivered to the hospital in a timely manner. After two days of rescue, the person was rescued, but... high paraplegia..."

Thinking of the scene back then, she tried her best to control her emotions, but she couldn't help but burst into tears, "When I arrived at the hospital, she was in the intensive care unit with tubes inserted all over her body. I could only...see through the glass. she....."

After drinking, the emotions became stronger than usual, and the hot tears could hardly be held back, "I really regret it, and I blame myself. I didn't go back to accompany her on the set during the Chinese New Year. If I went home two days earlier , this would not have happened..."

Not wanting Su Qingji to see, Tang Anran put his hands on his forehead, bit his lower lip, and turned his face to the side of the car window.

Su Qingji pursed his thin lips, listening to her voice, seeing her trembling shoulders, his expression was full of distress.It was as if someone had squeezed her heart tightly, and then let it go, causing a dull tightness in her chest.

The long street was almost over, and there were traffic lights ahead. She held the steering wheel with one hand, took out a pack of tissues from the armrest box, and said in a slow voice, "Don't hide, I can tell."

Tang Anran turned her head with red eyes.

Su Qingji took out a tissue and handed it to her, "Wipe it quickly."

Tang Anran thanked her in a muffled voice, took the tissue and put it over her eyes, the tissue was soaked instantly.

Su Qingji turned off the cruise control, turned the steering wheel, and took a look at her, "So... the situation after that was not good?"

It was mentioned that her mother had passed away.

"Hmm..." Tang Anran wiped her nose, and responded in a low voice, "She is paralyzed in bed, but her consciousness is clear, but you know... what people fear most is losing their belief in living .”

"The doctor said that she could have an operation, and there was a chance of recovery, but the operation fee was very expensive. She had already wanted to die, and she had long since lost the idea of ​​continuing to live. Being paralyzed in bed felt like a burden to me. I told her Stressed over and over again, I will save enough money, I will take on two more dramas, take on more activities, and let her stay in the hospital for a while, but..."

Tang Anran covered her face with her hands, and fell into the painful memory of the past, "But her condition... is getting worse every day..."

"The doctor said that the operation should be done quickly, otherwise she might not be able to survive."

"How many movies did you make at that time? Is the operation fee enough?"

Su Qingji listened to her narration, and the timeline was quickly strung together in his mind, each incident was chaotic and waiting for their place.

"After "Xiaohan Season", I filmed four more films, but the operation fee..." Tang Anran mentioned here, her voice elongated and became softer. After a breath, she sucked her nose and said slowly: "Anyway, I finally got the bill together."

At the red light ahead, Su Qingji stopped, following Tang Anran's words, she thought.

Four years ago at this point in time...

Right on...

The cost of the surgery...

Could it be?

A certain idea suddenly popped up in bold capital letters in my mind.

She turned her head to search Tang Anran's expression, hoping to find some clues to confirm her guess.

"I will never forget those few days. I took the money to operate on her, but she had been in a coma for several days, and the condition was very bad. I stayed by her bedside for two days, and on the third night, she suddenly woke up. I was ecstatic, and hurriedly called the doctor, but the doctor looked at her signs, shook his head, and said that it was a flashback, let me have something to say, and finally talk..."

The light outside the car window flickered on and off, illuminating her straight and fair face, "I sat on the edge of the hospital bed and held her hand, she was lying down, looking at me, and wanted to speak but her voice was very low because of her weakness. I kept my ear close to her, and then I heard her say to me word by word, 'baby, listen to what mother says, never, never believe in other people's feelings, mother's life has been ruined by the word love... ', I listened to her and looked up at her. She told me to agree to her. The eyes looking at me were full of despair and unwillingness. I had never seen her eyes like that. Finally, I met her. She nodded with her gaze, and after... within a few seconds, she...swung her hand...the electrocardiogram flattened and became a straight line."

Tang Anran leaned back weakly, and took out another tissue.

Su Qingji felt uncomfortable following her. She sighed and said from the bottom of her heart: "You are really a very strong person, and your mother is also a great mother. It must not be easy to bring you up by yourself. Raised you so well."

Tang Anran's red eyes sparkled, and Su Qingji took a closer look, and couldn't help but said, "Actually, I've always felt that you are very similar to a person."

"Who?"

Su Qingji didn't answer directly, but instead said: "I don't know why, but I have a particularly strong intuition, and you both have the same surname."

Tang Anran blinked slowly to look at her, her head was not very responsive after drinking.

"She is one of the five golden flowers in the famous film and television drama in the 80s. Eye scenes are recognized as good. When I was filming "Southern Dynasty", in order to practice my eyes, I shut myself in the room and pondered the expression of her eyes. Finally There has finally been progress and a breakthrough.”

Su Qingji observed Tang Anran's reaction.

The expression in Tang Anran's eyes gradually became incomprehensible, and he looked at her for a moment.

"It's a pity that she retired suddenly and disappeared without a trace."

The sixth sense became stronger and stronger, Su Qingji looked at her, opened her thin lips lightly, and said slowly: "So, are you related to Senior Tang Wanqiu...?"