no one knows i love you

"It's a good thing I sent an email to Heyoumi before, otherwise I wouldn't be able to explain it now." Guan Qian frowned slightly, circling back and forth in the living room, "I just checked the email and confirmed that she has read it, you If you are doing the right thing, it is time to retreat.”

Lin Yan closed his eyes, his plain skin looked a little pale: "I need to rest for a while."

Guan Qian stopped, put one hand on her hip, and touched her chin with her right hand: "That's right, you should take a good rest. You have to think about what to do for the rest. It's dangerous. We can't make a wrong move. Han Jianbin is so prepared. , we can't have any big gains now, we have to see what Qin Yi does first."

Lin Yan didn't speak, he closed his eyes and leaned on the sofa, his brows were deeply tired

Only then did Guan Qian notice the tired look on the other person's face. She suppressed her emotions and walked over with a worried expression on her face: "Lin Yan... did he scare you?"

Lin Yan opened his eyes, pulled the corners of his mouth, and forced a smile: "If you don't threaten, you won't be Han Jianbin. There are always times when you get used to it, but you have to pay more attention to yourself and don't make any moves for the time being. Han Jianbin won't believe me. promise."

Guan Qian looked at his pale face, knelt down and comforted him: "You don't have to worry about me, there is really something wrong with me, Heyoumi won't just sit idly by, you have to take care of yourself, I have a big heart, I don't care about anything. Not afraid, but you are different, always consider others, put yourself in a dilemma."

"Guan Qian——" Lin Yan smiled and said, "This is actually cowardice. I thought about countless scenes where Han Ji was caught between me and Han Jianbin, but when I was about to experience it, I found that I Can't take it at all."

He looked at the faint scar on his hand, and his voice could not conceal the exhaustion: "I am too cowardly, I don't want to face the problem directly, I just want to hide for a day, and Han Jiwan knows that one day, I will live a day in peace, Even if I'm worried all day, I don't want to face that Han Ji who was hurt by me."

"How can this be called cowardice? Is there anything wrong with kindness? If everyone is as hard-hearted as I am, then how terrible this world would be." Guan Qian looked at him with a smile, her eyes were moist, "Lin Yan— —It doesn’t matter if you want to give up now, I can understand that catching Han Jianbin is not a short-term goal. I also feel that life still has a little meaning, otherwise you say that we are going to take revenge bitterly, and in the end become a villain who will do everything for revenge, like Han Jianbin, that is the scariest thing."

Lin Yan paused, he looked at Guan Qian and smiled faintly: "Why did you change your sex today, and why are you so hard-hearted, you don't need to comfort me, I know where my problem is."

"No." Guan Qian shook her head, "If possible, Lin Yan, I hope you can really take this opportunity to quit, you promised Han Jianbin, if you backtrack, the other party will definitely not let it go, you are really tired, go to it Rest, fall in love well, do something that will make you truly happy, leave the rest to me, if I need anything, I will take the initiative to tell you."

"No, Guan Qian, why did you—"

"Lin Yan, you need to take a good rest, even if you leave for a short time, I'm not forcing you, but in your current state, I'm afraid that if you continue, you will embarrass yourself to death." Guan Qian lowered her head, her throat was a little congested, " I always dream of you crying and begging me recently, but I keep arguing with you, I keep forcing you, and I don’t want to understand your difficulties, that feeling is too uncomfortable, I always wake up crying, I always feel like What happened before, I know it is important to avenge my sister, but the most important thing is to be alive, I can't force you to death for my sister."

Lin Yan was stunned. He felt that Guan Qian was a little too sentimental today, and he didn't look like her anymore. He smiled and said, "What are you thinking about all day long? If I'm really embarrassed to die one day, it's because I forced myself to There is no way out." Lin Yan comforted with a smile, "Don't worry, I will take a good rest and leave here for a while."

Guan Qian breathed a sigh of relief, rubbed the tip of her sore nose, and asked, "Have you decided where to go?"

Lin Yan looked out the window, it was raining outside, fine raindrops fell on the window, making tiny ripples, his eyes gradually became blurred.

……

"This kid is so self-willed. He just left an email, and he disappeared. He didn't suffer any hardships. An ordinary reality show couldn't stand it. I didn't pay attention to it. Before the recording started I'm used to hearing him complain, and I didn't expect this to happen all of a sudden."

Han Ji looked at the rain curtain outside the car, his eyes behind the lens were dark and quiet, and he said to Qiao Zhiqiang on the phone: "If there is compensation for breach of contract, I can help."

"No, that's not necessary. Lin Yan has left a personal account. Advertisement endorsements are fine. If you can't make it to the point of losing money, it's a bit hard to explain to the program team, but the strange thing is that they have a good attitude and are still with us. Don't be in a hurry, let's find someone first, did Teacher Han help you?"

"No." Han Ji's handsome and peaceful face showed a trace of coldness, "Probably it's a fault, you don't need to worry about them, you can come to me if you have any problems that are difficult to solve, and if you have any news about Lin Yan, please let me know in time .”

"It must be, it's really causing trouble for Mr. Han, and this child is too. If there is something that can't be said properly, if it makes such a big deal, alas—how should it end?"

Seeing that Han Ji hung up the phone, Sun Wei looked at the boss's expression in the rearview mirror, and asked carefully, "Where are we going, are we going back to the apartment?"

I have searched everywhere I can. Lin Yan may not be in the city now, so if an adult wants to hide, it will be very difficult to find.

Han Ji closed his eyes and said in a weary voice, "Go back."

Sun Wei heaved a sigh of relief. When he got there, the rain was still falling. He was holding a black umbrella to pick Han Ji out of the car, but Han Ji himself had already opened the door and walked out.

"Brother Han——" Sun Wei quickly put the umbrella on Han Ji's head, because Sun Wei was going to drive back, so he just stopped at the door, and Han Ji was already wet.

Han Ji didn't take the umbrella from Sun Wei's hand, but said softly, "Don't worry about me, you can go back."

Sun Wei stood there a little at a loss, watching Han Ji's tall back melt into the cold rain, feeling inexplicably sad and desolate, it was just a feeling, he felt that Han Ji was very sad.

It was the first time he saw this kind of fragile side in Han Ji.Even if Lin Yan proposed to break up at the beginning, he was calm and stable, confident and confident, and had a way to redeem it.

But now, the once strong self-confidence seemed to be destroyed overnight, as if something on his shoulders crushed him.

Sun Wei felt more and more uneasy, maybe he did something unforgivable.

The raindrops hit the shoulders, fell on the head, and slowly slid down the cheeks. The dim light of the apartment was scattered, and in the dark night, it was like a blooming flower cup, but the one that belonged to him did not light up. .

Han Ji smiled, and suddenly remembered the time when he rented with Lin Yan together, the warm and peaceful feeling was so nostalgic.

The good times always passed by too fast. From the moment Lin Yan left, the empty apartment became cold, and he had no expectation of going home.

The steps were unconsciously heavy, Han Ji felt as if a mountain was pressing on his body, so what about Lin Yan, no matter in this life or the previous life, how did he carry this mountain on his back and move forward?

Obviously he couldn't bear any grievances, but he just gritted his teeth and endured it alone, but how did he manage to turn a blind eye to the other person's pain to the point of self-harm?

How selfish and indifferent he was at that time, even if he loved Lin Yan one-tenth of what he is now, he would not be unaware of it.

Yu Mei is right, he is indifferent in his bones, he seems considerate, but in fact he is indifferent, he only loves himself under the illusory appearance.

It took Lin Yan almost 20 years to awaken his love.

The rain fell on the leaves and made a crashing sound. He walked slowly on the deserted path, and the lonely breath spread silently in the rainy night.

When he was about to go downstairs, he took out the access control card, but saw a figure standing downstairs holding a blue umbrella. Perhaps it was too cold, and he stood under the rain and stomped his feet from time to time.

The other party seemed to have noticed him too, heaved a sigh of relief, and said in a slightly nasal voice, "Why did you come back? I have been waiting for you for hours."

"You don't even open an umbrella, you are so handsome, how much rain, dirty or not... No, don't hug me when you are wet."

Lin Yan wanted to go forward to hold an umbrella for Han Ji, but when the other party stretched out his long arms, his whole body was wrapped into a warm and firm chest.Lin Yan started to hold the umbrella with both hands in case Han Ji would pour it on him, but later Han Ji felt pain in his chest and abdomen, so he had no choice but to throw away the umbrella and hug him back.

"I'm sorry, there's nothing wrong with my health. I just don't want to record, and then I can't find an excuse, so I left without saying goodbye. If you want to scold me, you can scold me. I know it's not proper, but I just recorded I’m not happy, and I don’t want to wrong myself.”

Han Ji closed his eyes and smiled silently. He thought that if it was his last life, he would definitely believe Lin Yan's words, not because what the other party said seemed reasonable, but because he didn't care that much and didn't care about other people's hearts. Even if it is Lin Yan's feelings and thoughts, he will not treat them too differently.

As long as you have done nothing wrong, it has nothing to do with you whether you are hurt or not.

"Are you scared? It's all my fault. I didn't care about it as soon as my temper came up. I should have told you. At that time, I was afraid that you would disagree, so I cut it first and then played it. Are you scolding me on the Internet? My mobile phone is turned off. I don’t even dare to look at it, I’m so scared, I hid for a day.” Lin Yan hugged Han Ji tightly, closed his eyes and smiled, “But... I’m not afraid at all now, that’s great, I’m still I thought you were going to scold me, I was ready."

Han Ji took his arm and took it a little further, leaned his head close to Lin Yan's shoulder, and took a light breath: "Are you really afraid?"

"Really, but I'm not afraid now, even if you scold...wait—" Feeling the warm breath of the other party's lips on his neck, Lin Yan was startled, his cheeks became hot, and he stammered, "Be careful... let the paparazzi... take pictures, there are... trying to stare at us."