no one knows i love you

Guan Qian, who was in Australia, received a registered letter from China.

"Ms. Guan Xi:

Hello!

Your friend Lin Yan was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer two years ago. Perhaps at the last moment of his life, he hopes to see his cherished best friend for the last time.

I know how much he has missed you these years, and this feeling is like old wine that he has buried deeply, so I sent this letter without telling him.

In life, it comes like wind and rain, and goes like dust.I hope you will join me in sending him off one last time.

Waiting for an answer.

good luck

Han Ji

The envelope also included a flight ticket to return home within a week.

Guan Qian stared at the letter for a while, then turned around and threw the envelope together with the ticket into the trash can.

As a result, she didn't know until the next day that the owner of the letter came with the registered letter across the ocean.

……

A tall and slender man, wearing a high-end light black coat, stood in the snow neatly.July is the season of snow in Australia, and the swirling snowflakes fall on the shoulders of men.Through the window sill, the elegant man in the clear snow looks like a gentleman in the middle ages in Europe, like a beautiful painting in a frame.

The man is well maintained, in his 40s, he is still handsome and elegant, and his masculine charm has not diminished. Perhaps this is the reason why he has been popular all these years.

But he didn't know that maybe Lin Yan didn't want her to go back.

----

Two days later, Han Ji and Guan Qian returned home together.

Lin Yan half-closed his eyes, and his face became paler and paler due to the snow-white ward. He complained feebly to Han Ji: "Going so far to torment others, how come I'm getting old and self-willed."

The man smiled and said, "It's only when I'm old. Today is the second time I've been scolded for being childish."

Lin Yan smiled weakly: "Who else can scold you."

Han Ji held each other's hand tightly, looked at the other's skinny face, and smiled with sore eyes: "Who else is there, Sister Mei, mocking me and saying that a man is a teenager until he dies."

Lin Yan smiled. He looked at the white roof, his eyes were a little erratic, and he said softly: "...Recently, I always dream about things from the past. When I first met you... I wondered how could there be such a thing? Such a good person, a great actor can remember even a small trick in his heart..."

Han Ji's nasal cavity was a little sore, he took a light breath, and said with a smile: "You are scolding me, what a big actor, you are a rich second generation pretending to be a young actor, and you have lied to me for so long."

With a faint smile on Lin Yan's face, he whispered softly: "You were still angry with me at that time, and you refused to pay attention to others. Fortunately, I was thick-skinned and stalked... You are too gentle, and you are obviously annoying. , still won't refuse, let me take advantage of the loophole."

Han Ji tightened the strength in his hands, closed his eyes hidden under the mirror frame, and said with a low smile: "You think too well of me, I'm afraid that you will forgive me too soon, and you will still lie to me, you You are so smart and love to play, sister Mei said that you are a bohemian dude who only cheats innocent girls."

Lin Yan smiled: "Sure enough, it's Sister Mei, I like this metaphor...you are really amazing, after that I really don't dare to lie to you..."

Han Ji closed his eyes in pain, then exhaled lightly, and smiled at Lin Yan: "It's okay to cheat, you will get into trouble, and you will not be bored if you live, I can handle it."

"Really..." Lin Yan smiled lowly, but the smile on his face gradually disappeared, his eyes became a little dim and empty, he said dryly, "I'm sorry..."

Han Ji pulled the corners of his mouth and forced a smile: "Why, did you think of something that I'm sorry for, and you want to confess?"

Lin Yan smiled, closed his eyes gently, and said in a very weak voice, "Han Ji..."

Han Ji's heart tightened, and he said in a slow voice, "You said..."

Lin Yan said: "My life is complete without any regrets."

Han Ji closed his eyes, his internal organs were on fire.

Lin Yan breathed a sigh of relief and continued, "You still have a long life, I... just a passer-by who forcibly broke in, don't be too sad, I know many people love me, and these legs didn't stop me from loving Others..." He gasped lightly, and his breathing seemed to be a little weaker, "Han Ji...thank you, live well, there are many beautiful scenery in this world, I often say that I want to go to Tibet, thinking there will always be Opportunity... As a result, people have waited until now, so... you have to take a good... look at it for me."

Han Ji was in despair, not knowing what else he could do?

The last time he was so flustered and powerless was 17 years ago. At that time, he watched Lin Yan unable to stand up again. Even with all his strength, he couldn't do anything.

This time, he was the same, he could only watch his old friend helplessly, unable to do anything.

He always thought that he was very powerful, but Lin Yan alone made him unable to catch him. No matter how careful he was, the other party would always leave out of control.

"You have to promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you will live a good life..."

Han Ji closed his eyes and said sadly, "Okay."

Lin Yan closed his eyes reassuringly, breathed slowly and said, "I'll sleep for a while...you go and see off Guan Qian for me, thank you for her hard work."

……

Guan Qian was waiting for him in the corridor.

The two came outside the hospital while talking.

Perhaps Han Ji was too outstanding, a well-tailored suit made him look taller and taller.Ting, even with a mask on, some people whispered to guess his identity.

But he was used to other people's eyes, and his pace was calm and leisurely, so that no one came forward to verify him.

"I've always wanted to ask you." When he walked to a place where there were no people, Han Ji took off his mask, revealing his handsome face, and took a cigarette in his hand, "If Lin Yan didn't have a car accident, would you Do you accept him?"

Han Ji is 45 years old, and work brings him more satisfaction than love.But Lin Yan is different. After so many years of loving someone, he doesn't even dare to confess. He wants to ask for his friend, is this relationship completely impossible to start?

Guan Qian looked at the unlit cigarette in the other's hand. She felt that the man had resentment towards her, but he still tried his best to control his demeanor.

Guan Qian didn't answer him, but asked instead: "Do you know why he refuses to confess his love to the person he likes?"

Han Ji paused, and looked up at Guan Qian.

This sentence accurately grasped Han Ji's veins, and Lin Yan had been obsessed with it all his life. He had been encouraging Lin Yan to express his heart, but he said that the other party didn't like him.

He doesn't understand that Lin Yan has always lived a passionate and willful life, confident and optimistic when things happen, and will work hard to get what he wants, but why is he only timid about feelings?

Guan Qian said slowly: "In fact, Lin Yan has always been self-willed all his life. He does what he likes, regardless of the results. Destroy this hard-won relationship."

Han Ji was silent for a few seconds, and said, "The more he likes you, the more he cherishes you. He likes you so much."

Guan Qian was noncommittal, she said: "He wants to gain the respect of the other party, to get the same love, not alms or pity, he dare not because it is too rare."

Han Ji took a deep breath, calmed down and said, "What do you think is wrong with Lin Yan? He will be a responsible lover."

Guan Qian looked at the other party and said seriously: "Finally your question...my answer is - I will, if...he loves me."

Guan Xi left.

Han Ji lit the cigarette in his hand, Guan Qian's last words couldn't get out of his mind.

Is Guan Qian saying that Lin Yan likes someone else?

is it possible?Besides Guan Qian, who else could Lin Yan like?

But she doesn't seem to need to lie.

Han Ji suddenly realized that if he didn't figure out this question, he would never have a chance to know the answer.

He stubbed out the cigarette butt and hurried back to the hospital, only to see Lin Yan being pushed into the emergency room.

He ultimately lost his chance to get an answer.

Until Lin Yan's funeral.

Han Ji stood in the rain with an umbrella, looking at the mourners, he felt that his heart could no longer be calm.

Is there a love that Lin Yan can't ask for among these people?

He tried to find the answer in Lin Yan's relics, but found nothing.

What kind of person deserves Lin Yan to be so careful and refuse to leave any traces.

He even doubted whether it was a married woman, Lin Yan had been struggling with an emotion that could not be tolerated by the world.

Now, he is like guarding a suspense novel without an ending, leaving eternal regrets.

Holding a black umbrella, Han Ji walked alone on the road in the suburbs, slowly turning back.

There was a hollow pain in his heart, as if a piece was lost for no reason. In the wind and rain, he suddenly felt like a huge boulder was pressed behind him, and he had no strength in his body.

The moment he got into the car, he seemed to suddenly realize that Lin Yan had left him forever, and he would never be found in this world again.

Cold sweat was dripping down his forehead. He seemed to have fallen ill suddenly, his breathing became heavy, and he couldn't start the car for a long time.

Until the phone rings in the silent and stuffy space——

"Where is it, have you read the news?" Sister Mei's eager voice came from the other end of the phone.

"What's the matter?" Han Ji asked.

"Boss Han has an accident."

Han Ji took a breath and asked, "What happened to him?"

"You read the news yourself, avoid the reporters, and hurry back."

Han Ji started the car and drove into the rain.

He turned on his phone to check the news, and he was relieved to make sure that the old man was not ill.

He never asked about his father's business affairs, and each lived his own life without interfering with anyone else.

But the relationship between father and son is forcibly tied together, and everything is damaged... But what does it matter, what is involved is only money and reputation, and he suddenly feels that this world is very boring.

During the period after Lin Yan left, nothing seemed to arouse his enthusiasm.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the wipers couldn't see clearly. The heavy rain seemed to break through the window mirrors and drown everything. The warm liquid spread on the face, slowly blurring the vision.

bang-

After a strong impact, he heard a sudden brake and a harsh horn.

The sternum seemed to be misplaced, Han Ji thought that even if he survived, he would probably be disabled for life like Lin Yan, so it's better to end now.

He closed his eyes, and there was not much depression and pain.

Just thinking about it doesn't seem so bad.

"Han Ji! Han Ji—"

In a daze, he seemed to hear Lin Yan's voice.

"Han Ji! Han Ji! Don't sleep, wake up—" Lin Yan called out his name loudly.

"Lin Yan..." Han Ji opened his eyes vigorously, and then he really saw Lin Yan.

The opponent was not far away from him, his legs were stuck in the deformed seat, but he kept trying to climb in his direction, trying to force his legs out of the seat.come out.

Han Ji woke up instantly!

"Stop!" He shouted loudly, trying to stop Lin Yan, but found that his voice was weak, and he was too weak to speak.

What kept flashing back in his mind was what the doctor said to him 17 years ago——

"The man may have been frightened at the time, fearing that the car would explode, but if he didn't use brute force and waited for rescue, maybe his leg could still be saved."

Maybe the legs can be saved—

He remembered these words for 17 years!

"Stop! Why don't you stop, Lin Yan!"

"Stop! I'm fine, don't move, stop for me!"