early morning twilight

Six days ago, when Si Ye blurted out this sentence, it wasn't even a confession at all.

It was just the purest insight from a person who had been struggling for half a year and came to the Pamirs for the first time.

When Siye was so embarrassed by his indiscriminate words that his ears burned, he could never imagine that it was actually the only promise in the world to Jin Chongshan.

He knocked on Jin Chongshan's heart with these words.

Si Ye turned to Jin Zhongshan, eager to see something in those gray-blue eyes.

Shaken, excited, emotional...anything is fine.

But even if he said the words that were neither objective nor rational just now, Jin Chongshan's eyes remained calm as usual.

That is the sacred and ethereal lake on the plateau.

His reflection was in the center of the lake, motionless, as if afraid of disturbing him.

But if you look more carefully, you can still notice the tiny ripples splashed by the falling sky.

Si Ye stared at his own reflection, suddenly, an inexplicable and vast sadness welled up in his heart.

It's not about pain, it's not about tragedy, it's not about the situation.

The mystery of fate is that a sentence from one person's heart, which can be defined almost privately, can actually shine into the heart of another person.

They have completely different lives, and they seem to share each other's lives.

"Brother." Si Ye couldn't help wrapping his arms around Jin Chongshan's neck.

Last time, he kissed Jin Chongshan while drinking, and the difference in height between the two made him stand on tiptoe a little.

This time, the lake he longed for came to meet him.

When he bowed his head to kiss him, Jin Chongshan's long eyelashes drooped like the wings of an eagle.

Si Ye's lips and breath were plundered together, and the chaotic colors were knocked out of his mind.

The color brought by Jin Chongshan is as gentle and strong as Jin Chongshan himself.

He robbed his kisses, the colors robbed his sanity.

He couldn't think anymore.

He didn't know that the eagle feathers covering the lake were intended to keep the emotions inside from him and prevent him from finding out.

Or just forget it for a while.

Or both.

Si Ye woke up from the sudden kiss when Jin Chongshan led him to walk up the slope.

His palm was very hot, against Jin Chongshan's dry palm.

He belatedly savored a tinge of guilt.

This is the place where Jin Chongshan's biological parents, Gu Lanruzi and Jin Shuming, died.

Their love is like the idyllic song echoing on this plateau, pure and ethereal, coming from all creatures and returning to the boundless world.

But he and Jin Chongshan were kissing here.

Jin Chongshan may have seen through his mind.

No, you don't even need to look, the trembling of his palm has already conveyed his guilt to Jin Chongshan.

"They won't mind." Standing on the curb, Jin Zhongshan pulled Si Ye up, "They are the most open-minded people who live their own way."

After opening the passenger's door, Si Ye looked at the ordinary road and the ordinary valley again.

He had no doubt that he would come here again, but as if saying goodbye, he bowed deeply towards the endless wind and the silent cloud.

Jin Chongshan also looked in the direction of the ravine, and when he straightened up, he said, "Let's go."

The car passed through the county seat of Taxian County, but did not enter the central area again. When it turned over, it turned over the snow-capped mountains and drove towards Kashgar.

Neither of them spoke until they reached Muztagh Peak.

Si Ye quietly looked at the snow-capped mountains running towards him, but actually he didn't see anything.

There are many things in his mind, like countless pots of water waiting to boil, but they are all limited by the air pressure at high altitudes and cannot boil.

In vain they blow up chain after chain of bubbles, but always fall short of the intended climax.

Si Ye finally caught a glimpse of a corner of Jin Zhongshan, and couldn't wait to tear it open from this corner to discover a wider world.

About people not only have the characteristics of being aggressive and greedy, but also easy to think too much after knowing their own weight.

Si Ye thought about it all the way, if Jin Chongshan secretly fell in love with him from his "confession", what happened before that?

Picking him up at the checkpoint is of course doing Xiao Yang a favor.

Later, he arranged a place for him and gave him special care in a car. How do you explain it?

Jin Chongshan parked the car on the side of the road to rest, Si Ye became more excited as he thought about it, and became extremely expressive because of the silence along the way.

"elder brother."

"Ok?"

"Apart from that sentence, is there anything special about me?"

Jin Chongshan put down the mineral water and turned to look at Siye.

They were standing on the empty dam beside the road, and the wind was so strong that the pebbles under their feet were blown to the bottom of the cliff.

Si Ye was a little embarrassed, worried that he didn't express clearly, so he added superfluously: "Uh, just before that, did you think I was different?"

These words were so hot that Si Ye almost wanted to push his cheeky self into the soil and roll with the pebbles at the end of his speech.

Jin Chongshan suddenly laughed softly.

The laughter burned in Si Ye'ergen, he almost jumped on the spot.

He also hopelessly thought that the person he likes, even when he laughs at him, is full of unparalleled charm.

"Want to hear the truth or a lie?"

Jin Chongshan's smile did not disappear, it was obviously the kind of frivolous smile, but the eyes that stared at Si Ye were serious as if they wanted to melt the person in his eyes.

Siye thought, he's teasing me again.

Then let him continue to tease.

"Listen to the lies first."

Jin Chongshan seemed a little surprised, his lips opened and closed, turning the truth that came to his lips into lies.

"You have no special place. I picked you up and took you with me later, probably because I am special."

Si Ye was lost at first, and then fainted later.

Since it was a lie, why didn't Jin Chongshan say something nice to coax him?

Also, who is special?

"What's so special about you?"

"Extremely free."

"..."

Si Ye's blond hair was messed up, and he looked a little pathetic.

Jin Chongshan approached, and naturally helped him brush back his messy hair, "Now I'm going to tell the truth."

"Hey……"

False words are not pleasant, but the truth hurts more?

"If he's not particularly good-looking, I might just take him back to the ancient city and forget about it."

alright, I got it.

Si Ye silently recited the scriptures without listening to the bastard, then suddenly raised his head, "Special, special..."

Jin Chongshan said softly, "Well, it's very beautiful."

This is a lie, right?

Are all you Tajik cool guys so provocative!

"But it's not just good-looking." Jin Zhongshan cooled down Siye at the right time, "You are not an ordinary tourist. You came to Kashgar to seek some kind of relief."

Shino was surprised.

He knew that Jin Chongshan had a seemingly indifferent insight into everything on the plateau, but he didn't expect that Jin Chongshan would see his deep pain when they met for the first time.

Jin Zhongshan explained: "I have seen many people who came to Pamir in the name of tourism to find answers. In your eyes, there is a color similar to theirs."

"That's..." Siye murmured, "What color?"

"Confused, unwilling, and desperate, but I haven't given up struggling."

"Yes, is it?"

"Hmm. So I wanted to see if there was anything I could do to help."

After coming to the plateau for a week, Si Ye felt dizzy from high altitude for the first time.

All the encounters between him and Jin Chongshan since then started with Jin Chongshan's "helping others".

Jin Chongshan wanted to save him, a lost person who came from afar.

This is in line with Jin Zhongshan's usual rules of conduct.

The wind blowing from the wilderness delivered Jin Chongshan's words to Siye's ear again, this time it was lighter and lower, like ambiguous whispers between lovers.

"But the most original premise is that you are very good-looking."

"!"

Si Ye opened his eyes wide, staring at Jin Chongshan.

"This is the truth." Jin Chongshan smiled, "With this premise, I only paid attention to your gaze a few times to see the color in your eyes."

So that day in the car, when he was observing Ku Ge while slandering him, he was actually being observed by Ku Ge.

Si Ye's eyes were watery, and he asked in surprise and embarrassment: "You pay attention to what I say... Did you see... see..."

"Well, I saw you peeking at me."

God!

Si Ye crouched on the ground with his head in his arms, he was exposed so early!

Jin Chongshan also knelt down and looked at Si Ye quietly.

Si Ye covered his face with his arms, only showing his eyes, and said in a muffled voice, "Don't look at it."

"why?"

you still need to ask?

"You know everything, I am transparent in your eyes!"

Jin Chongshan frowned slightly, as if he was thinking.

"...Maybe I'm smarter?"

Si Ye went crazy, "Brother, are you acting cute?"

He had discovered the clue a few days ago.

Jin Chongshan will stockpile snail noodles and maocai base materials from Taobao.

He will also take the initiative to enter the camera when he takes a selfie with the lamb, and say "yeah" with him.

These contrasts are all revealed naturally, so now that Jin Chongshan boasts of being smart, he is not surprised.

However, Jin Chongshan was unusually confused by this word.

After a while, Si Ye heard him say: "You can ask about my affairs."

"Ok?"

"Like today. If you ask, I'll tell you."

Si Ye sampled for a long time, happy and depressed at the same time.

The happy thing is that he has the qualifications to explore Jin Chongshan openly and aboveboard.

The depressing thing is... In the matter of being smart, he seems to have lost.

Jin Chongshan could see through him, but he couldn't see through Jin Chongshan, so Jin Chongshan made a "hook" for him.

If you can't solve the mystery, just ask!

"Brother, shall we change?"

There was a good section of the road behind, and Si Ye was full of energy and eager to use it.

What he wants most is actually Jin Chongshan.

But no, it's too early, too soon.

He kept persuading himself that things like falling in love should be done step by step, don't just kiss on the lips and hope for deeper exploration like a sex monster.

So I had to drive a car.

But Jin Chongshan really switched with him, and he couldn't get up to speed again. He drove in a straight line to the level of Chengdu's second ring road.

Jin Chongshan sighed, "If we drive like this, we can only get back to Kashgar in the middle of the night."

It's not that Si Ye doesn't want to drive fast.

But the more excited, the more disobedient the body is.

I was worried that I would not be able to stop when I stepped on the accelerator, but instead drove slower and slower. Not only did I not have the thrill of racing, but I also accumulated more restlessness.

"Then shall we switch back?"

After a moment of silence, Jin Chongshan said: "You drive."

Si Ye continued to advance at a slow pace until the sunset covered the entire plateau.

The sunset in Pamir is very late, and because it is too vast, the process of sunset is visually stretched extremely long.

In summer, the sun doesn’t start to set until after ten o’clock. In the early morning, the last ray of twilight will be swallowed up by the night.

More than two hours in the middle is a long and magnificent dusk.

The snow-capped mountains and the earth were all dyed golden. On an invisible road, Jin Zhongshan suddenly said: "The sky can also be the destination of the wilderness. You see."

Without the obstruction of snow-capped mountains, the golden road is submerged in the sun, like a road to the sky.

Si Ye shook his head, "But the sky will not really wait for the wilderness. It will only give the illusion that the wilderness is waiting."

Jin Chongshan was thoughtful.

The car drove into the sun-the place where the sky greeted the wilderness visually just now.

The sky is still high, and the wilderness is already running towards the snow-capped mountains on the horizon.

The first batch of stars appeared in the east, and Siye had already accelerated in the second half, but he still couldn't leave the Pamirs before the dusk disappeared.

The car was parked by Baisha Lake. At this time, there were no tourists.

The Baisha Lake seen during the day is completely different from the twilight.

It is no longer a cold gray-blue, but mixed with passionate golden red and mysterious deep purple.

Si Ye turned around, trying to see Jin Chongshan's eyes, but was pulled into his arms the next moment.

Jin Chongshan took two steps back, leaned against the back door, and wrapped his arms around Si Ye's waist.

Si Ye was caught off guard by his hug, but he understood what he wanted to do in a flash.

The back door was pulled open, and the two fell in.

The leather seat makes the sound of rubbing against the cloth.

The sunset in the early morning poured in from the car window like waves, and the tide was rising and the top was sinking.

The lake, which has no wind and waves during the day, takes off its stable veil under the traction of the tide.

After the vast majority of tourists left, there were layers of turbulent waves.

Si Ye was tossed and tossed in the waves, watching the high-hanging lake water finally pouring down.

When he passed by here last time, he secretly said to himself that although he didn't take any pictures, he took the lake water with him.

At that time, he never thought that when he passed here again, he already had the lake water.