early morning twilight

Hearing the voice from behind, Si Ye seemed to be frozen in an invisible shackle, his eyes widened, staring straight at the darkness in front of him, and even stopped breathing.

There used to be extra quilts there, and he carefully observed the delicate embroidery on them before going to bed.

But now, with the light from the phone shining directly into his eyes, what he saw was a blur of black mist.

"Si Ye." Jin Chongshan shouted again, seeing that there was no movement on the other side, he simply lifted the quilt and walked over.

When he squatted down and was about to put his hand on Si Ye's shoulder, Si Ye suddenly "lived" and wrapped himself in the quilt desperately, not wanting him to see his current distress.

But the phone was left outside, the light on the screen dimmed, but the breathing light kept flashing.

And there were several "buzzing" sounds one after another.

Who keeps sending messages in the middle of the night?

Jin Chongshan was about to get his mobile phone, but Siye clutched the quilt tightly, his voice was dull and choked, "Brother Jin, don't worry about it."

Jin Chongshan's hand stopped, and three seconds later, it landed on the quilt.

"come out."

This sound was calm, and it was not a deliberate command tone.

You can say that it has the wildness that is born in the frontier, or you can say that it is simple and overbearing.

In short, it is completely different from Jin Zhongshan's love song-like tone when he speaks Tajik.

Si Ye seemed to be caught by the eagle's claws, and in a moment, he opened a seam of the tightly covered quilt.

In the villages beside the border, as long as the lights are not turned on at night, only the light of the stars and the moon remains.

The faint light and dust spilled in from the window and fell on the stone kang.

The phone is still vibrating.

Obtrusive and noisy.

Messages came in one after another, and the endless buzzing vented the meanness and cruelty of the sender.

Si Ye started to tremble again.

Jin Chongshan took the phone.

Si Ye thought he was going to turn on the screen, so he quickly stretched out his hand, but Jin Chongshan just stepped over him neatly, and stuffed the phone into the neatly folded bedding.

The light of the breathing lamp disappeared, and the vibration disappeared in the thick and soft cotton.

Jin Chongshan didn't step back from Si Ye, sat between him and the quilt, looked at him for a while, and widened the seam.

In the dimness, Si Ye's eyes were very bright, covered with a layer of watery light, it was hard to tell whether he had cried or the tears hadn't fallen yet.

Si Ye gradually calmed down when he couldn't hear the shock.

He wanted to turn over, but the eagle's talons seemed to be holding him, and he couldn't turn over.

But obviously he was caught by the eagle, but he felt that he would survive the catastrophe.

The eagle didn't tear his guts out.

The eagle rescued him from the boa constrictor's den.

"Brother Jin." He called out softly.

"Hmm." Monosyllable, but like an unshakable reliance.

Si Ye let those vicious words replay in his mind, and propped himself up, "Brother Jin, I'm not just traveling in Kashgar."

His voice was not as relaxed as it was during the day, telling what happened half a year ago was tantamount to actively tearing apart bloody memories.

But at this moment, he wanted to vent.

His response was still a faint "hmm".

It seemed casual, but he knew that Jin Chongshan was listening.

"I used to have a very good brother, his name is Nie Yunbin."

Si Ye was born in Chengdu, but his parents are not from Chengdu.

They came to Chengdu from south to north, and met at the city's famous sugar and wine fair. From the initial business partners, they became a couple with two sons.

Compared to growing a bigger business, they run the family into a mess.

When Si Ye was very young, his parents cheated on him, and his mother died in a car accident in the suburbs of Chengdu.

It is rumored that the car accident was not an accident, but Si Guanqun did it on purpose.

Si Guanqun is Si Ye's father.

It was rumored that there was no proof, but it left a great shadow in Siye's heart, and he has not been close to his father until now.

Si Yu served as a soldier, and he disciplined Si Ye strictly after he came back.

At that time Si Ye had just entered puberty, even though he knew that his brother was the person who loved him the most in the world, he couldn't help but confront Si Yu.

For his 17th birthday party, many classmates were invited.

After the banquet, Si Yu called him to the study and told him to be vigilant against Nie Yunbin, and it would be best not to date him anymore.

Yun Bin is one of his best buddies. They have common hobbies and want to take the fashion design path in the future.

Why did Si Yu interfere with his social life?

Siyu is machismo, stubborn, and fatherly!

Yun Bin is dressed in a different way, not so masculine, but who said that boys have to be like Siyu?

He didn't take Si Yu's words to heart, because Nie Yunbin and Si Yu had quarreled several times.

Later, I don't know whether he was hurt by some of his words, or he just didn't bother to say it, Si Yu finally stopped caring who he made friends with.

When he was in college, he studied abroad for two years, while Nie Yunbin stayed in China.

Even with the time difference, they never lost contact.

Nie Yunbin said that he would open a studio in Chengdu, specializing in the design of niche clothing and accessories.

"Xiao Ye, you can do it together with me. One plus one is definitely greater than two! When we do it, we will open the flagship store on Chunxi Road and Taikoo Li!"

How did he answer?

He was full of ambition and said: "Okay! Let's see who will open the store in Taikoo Li first!"

Taikoo Li, that is the fashion center of Chengdu.

Nie Yunbin was stunned, "First? Xiao Ye, why don't you come with me?"

"Of course not!" He was as proud as a sun that radiates heat wantonly, not knowing that the dazzling light would easily burn the people around him, "If we open a studio together, shouldn't we be able to stimulate each other?"

"Stimulate?"

"Well. The best brother is also the best opponent. You open a studio, and I open a studio. Learn from each other and compete with each other. Only in this way can we get better and better, right?"

"Ah... so..."

After returning to China, Nie Yunbin had opened a studio before him and showed his talents. He approached him several times in person, but still wanted to persuade him to partner with him.

He firmly refused.

For one thing, he really thinks that competition is the best way to improve.

Secondly, he was restrained by Si Yu since childhood.

At least in terms of design, he wants to be his own boss and make his own decisions.

When the first wave of summer clothes in the "wilderness" was launched, Nie Yunbin also helped to advertise, and the studios of the two sides often communicated with each other and exchanged ideas.

But half a year later, "Wilderness" showed its sharpness and began to overwhelm Nie Yunbin's studio.

Si Ye has become very busy, not only the business is increasing every day, but also the entertainment that cannot be shaken off as a boss.

He often needs to leave Chengdu and fly across the country, and sometimes he has to go to Japan, South Korea, Europe and the United States.

"Wildness" is his cherished child. He devotes all his attention to work, and has less and less communication outside of work.

For a while, even Siyu had to make an appointment in advance if he wanted to see him.

He didn't know that the reputation of Nie Yunbin's studio was getting worse and worse. Until the first half of last year, one of his designers sent him a set of model photos.

Nie Yunbin is actually imitating his works.

He claimed to know Nie Yunbin well.

Their styles are very different.He admired Nie Yunbin at the beginning, to a large extent, because Nie Yunbin's design was different from his aura.

But now, Nie Yunbin's characteristics have disappeared, and he has become a low-profile version of "wilderness".

The term "low allocation" is a private evaluation of Nie Yunbin in the industry.

He felt angry, and had to examine whether he was qualified to be angry with the worldly knowledge he had developed.

Nie Yunbin is just borrowing and imitating.

In their circle, this is not a taint, but it is bound to be criticized.

What made him angry was not Nie Yunbin's imitation, but why Nie Yunbin gave up his own characteristics.

Isn't this denying your talent?

But a design competition is imminent, and he has no time to confide in Nie Yunbin.

Nie Yunbin also participated in this competition, and the works presented are in the same style as his new works.

He won the award, but Nie Yunbin failed the first round of evaluation.

Nie Yunbin congratulated him.

He looked directly into those reddish eyes, and blurted out a sentence that he had endured for a long time: "You should stick to yourself."

Nie Yunbin smiled awkwardly and left in embarrassment.

The circle is not big, and everyone is in the same city, Nie Yunbin soon became the laughing stock of the circle.

The sharp-toothed designers praised Nie Yunbin as a joke.

Some people left Nie Yunbin's studio one after another.

After careful consideration, Si Ye decided to talk to Nie Yunbin.

Only after entering the workplace can he appreciate the preciousness of the friendship he had when he was a student. He recognized Nie Yunbin's past talent and did not want to lose such a friend.

But Sister Xing, the manager of "Wild Fields", warned him that it is best not to associate with Nie Yunbin anymore, and let the past go. Now that Nie Yunbin has regarded him as an opponent, Nie Yunbin may not necessarily buy into his tolerance.

But he didn't listen to Sister Xing.

Just like when he was a teenager, he broke Si Yu's heart by speaking out for Nie Yunbin.

He asked Nie Yunbin out for a long talk.

During the whole process, Nie Yunbin was never accused of imitating, and he encouraged and enlightened him as tactfully as possible.

Nie Yunbin responded indifferently, almost alienated, and finally said "thank you" politely to him.

He didn't know if he had persuaded Nie Yunbin.

But as a friend, he was sure he did his best, and he had a clear conscience.

Another long and busy period followed.

He heard that Nie Yunbin was also coming up with designs one after another, but he didn't have time to pay attention.

Half a year ago, he suddenly received a call from Nie Yunbin asking if he was free. He suddenly had an inspiration for a headgear and wanted to hear his opinion.

He spared half a day to attend the appointment happily.

Nie Yunbin's voice sounded very excited, and he was very familiar with that tone.

Inspiration is the life of a designer. When he suddenly had a certain inspiration, he also reacted in the same way.

Nie Yunbin was about to come out, and he might be able to help.

When he stepped into the small villa on the outskirts of Nie Yunbin, he was sincerely happy for his friend's cheer.

However, the nightmare came.

He drank the medicated drink, but he was not completely dizzy and was hit hard on the head. When he woke up, he was tied up in the dark warehouse that came with the villa.

He couldn't move, his mouth was sealed and he could barely make a sound.

Then he saw the scene——

Realistic models wear the clothes he designed, which are cut up and splashed with blood or dark red paint.

They looked at him blankly, spiteful, soulless.

The landscape trees outside the warehouse sway in the cold wind, sweeping the broken light in through the skylight.

The lights were moving, and they seemed to be moving, coming towards him.

One of the "models" really came over.

Nie Yunbin looked haggard, with no vitality on his pale face, wearing his favorite new work, walking unsteadily to his side.

He struggled hard, Nie Yunbin stretched out his hand and grabbed his neck.

At that moment, he thought that Nie Yunbin would kill him.

but no.

Nie Yunbin's hands seemed to have been pulled out of the muscles, unable to use any strength, they seemed to pinch a few times hard, and then hung down heavily.

"Do you think I will kill you?" Nie Yunbin sneered and stroked his neck, "Death is a relief. I can finally be free. How could I let you do such a good thing?"

Shino took a breath.

die?relief?

Nie Yunbin sat down on the ground overwhelmed, "I said back then that we would build a studio together, why didn't you agree? Aren't we best friends?"

"Best friends, why compete?"

"You are always like this and never listen to me. Wouldn't it be good for us to open the studio together in Taikoo Li? I am not as good as you, and I can help you. Why do you insist on competing with me?"

"I've never been good at competing with my friends. Ono, I don't want to compete with you."

Nie Yunbin seemed to be in great pain, with cold sweat on his forehead.

"But there is no way. You see, there are so many studios popping up in Chengdu every year, how many of them go down?"

"My style is not as good as yours. Seeing you getting better and better, I can't help but imitate. But I can't learn your aura..."

Si Ye really wanted to say, I can't learn your aura either.

But he never had a chance to speak.

Nie Yunbin's eyes suddenly filled with hatred, "That time, you shouldn't have said 'stick to yourself' to me. Did you know that it was you, a high achiever, who humiliated the beggars on the street!"

No, it's not!

"You shouldn't even come to me. I'd rather you scold me or fight with me than you come to persuade me by being smart."

"Ono, some people may not be able to be friends at every stage. The best ending for us is to never get in touch with each other."

"But you insist on being a hero and pulling me out. Are you still proud? Look, how magnanimous and tolerant you are, you can even forgive a bad friend like me!"

"I don't need your mercy. You can't be my hero. The more you are like this, the more I hate you, and I wish I could turn you into me!"

Nie Yunbin's voice trembled, and his eyes were about to burst.

Desperate cries echoed from the warehouse.

Nie Yunbin suddenly began to vomit blood, and large balls of blood soaked the cloth on his chest.

He looked at Si Ye with a miserable smile, "Your masterpiece is like this, are you sad? Are you afraid? It will become my shroud, and you will watch me take my last breath. Xiao Ye, can you still create in the future? ?”

"Haha, hahahaha..."

Nie Yunbin shrank on the ground, convulsed, and vomited as if possessed by something, until he could no longer move.

Even though he was dead, his right hand was still holding Si Ye's ankle.

Si Yu called the police, and when Si Ye was found, he was already insane.

But he was alone at the scene, and he had to be investigated.

The police quickly found out that Nie Yunbin committed suicide by taking poison.

Prior to this, Nie Yunbin was diagnosed with terminal cancer.

Nie Yunbin's curse was fulfilled, and Siye could no longer create. When he picked up a pen, he would think of the blood-stained work and the blue-gray dead face.

The "wilderness" was temporarily handed over to Sister Xing to take care of it, Si Yu was worried and invested part of the capital.

The studio is running well so far, and the designers are still coming out with work.

It's just that his work is gone.

For half a year, he cooperated with the doctor very well.

Others didn't know, saying that he collapsed.

But he himself knows that he has a very strong subjective desire to come out.

Over-treatment at the beginning caused occasional problems with his memory.

He will involuntarily forget some details, which is self-protection after trauma.

He thought, these are not important, even if he suffers from amnesia, even if he becomes stupid when he gets old, he is not afraid.

As long as he can come out, he is willing to try anything.

Before going to bed, he posted the photos of Panlong Ancient Road on Moments, and the comments encouraged him, looking forward to his return.

But he was woken up by Nie Yunqing's series of messages. After reading it, he seemed to be pulled into a huge vortex.

Nie Yunqing is Nie Yunbin's older sister.

After Nie Yunbin died, Nie Yunqing accused him of killing his brother.

Wechat was added a long time ago, and he didn't delete her, and he didn't think about blocking her when he posted on Moments.

"You will never have a smooth road! You will never try to get out!"

"Yun Bin is looking at you, you killed him, do you have the face to feel at ease?"

"Why didn't you die?"

"If Yunbin can't get out, you can't get out either!"

"Sino, you hypocrite, when will you die?"

……

"I didn't want to be a hero."

Si Ye murmured, "I just want to, I just want to help him."

Jin Chongshan said, "Yes."

A heavy sound came from his chest, shaking Si Ye's cheek lightly.

Only then did Si Ye realize that he was leaning on Jin Zhongshan's shoulder.

Did he take the initiative to lean on it?

Why can't I remember.

Should be right?

When people are most vulnerable, they always instinctively look for support.

How long has he been around?Is it too impolite?

Greedy for the warmth of Jin Zhongshan's shoulders, he closed his eyes, and after a while, he was still about to straighten up.

But suddenly there was weight on the shoulders.

Jin Chongshan said: "Sino, you will come out. I will take you out."