Low fever

"Low Fever"

ch.16

The street lamps in winter are so quiet that there are not even lacewings flying around.

The tree shadows in the night are as black as condensed ink.

Ruan Chen was sitting in the shadow, so dark that he couldn't find it if he didn't pay attention.

But Mu Xinghai still saw it at a glance.

The direction was reversed, and he spared a while before parking the car on the side of the road next to Ruan Chen.

It wasn't until he walked in front of Ruan Chen, the dividing line between light and darkness, that Ruan Chen moved a little, as if he was about to stand up, but his legs were a little numb, his figure swayed, and he supported the chair with his hands, finally finally stand up.He didn't raise his head, couldn't hear the ups and downs, and said softly: "You're really here..."

What kind of talk is this?

Mu Xinghai said with a smile: "Otherwise? I promise you."

He drove over three hours here.

Although he didn't know what happened to Ruan Chen, but when he ran out suddenly on New Year's Eve, it should be the loneliest time, and it was also a good time for Mu Xinghai to take advantage of it.

Mu Xinghai pulled Ruan Chen's hand forward, holding the snow so icy that it wouldn't melt, and as soon as he touched it, Ruan Chen threw it away as if bitten by a snake. ·

Mu Xinghai was taken aback for a moment, then subconsciously said: "I'm sorry."

Ruan Chen shook his head, put his hands into the pockets of his down jacket, and said indifferently: "It's outside, don't bother."

Mu Xinghai: "Oh."

The hand that touched Ruan Chen just now seemed to have a hallucination of cold and hot, especially the place where it was whipped.

Mu Xinghai said: "Then get in the car first."

It seems that, contrary to what he thought, senior Ruan is not weaker than usual, but sharper than usual.

Ruan Chen obediently got into the car and sat in the co-pilot.

Mu Xinghai turned on the navigation on the electronic screen and asked, "Where are you going?"

Ruan Chen looked away from the window and said, "I don't know."

Mu Xinghai's fingertips froze on the screen for a moment, and then began to operate: "Then go to the square in the city center. There should be New Year's activities, which are quite lively."

Ruan Chen didn't speak.

Mu Xinghai had no choice but to ask: "Is it okay?"

Ruan Chen: "Whatever." As if to say: Anyway, I have nowhere to go.

Mu Xinghai thinks he is a good chatterer, and his friends are willing to come to him to talk about their concerns. Although he is not really interested, he can always say the right and decent words, so that the conversation can not be wrong, and his friends can be comforted .Now I don't know where to start, I am afraid that Ruan Chen will dislike him, I am afraid that Ruan Chen will hate you, and I am afraid that Ruan Chen will be even more unhappy.

When he finished thinking about his words, he found that Ruan Chen had fallen asleep.

Ugh.

It's also good to fall asleep.

I don't know when it started to snow outside.

Crushed snow danced in the headlight beams.

It didn't take long for the snow to stop, and Ruan Chen also woke up when Mu Xingguan dropped the wipers. He was woken up by the bright light.

His body was still heavy, as if he was even more tired, Ruan Chen thought wearily, glanced at the neon lights on the side of the road, and asked, "Are you almost there?"

Mu Xinghai said "hmm" and said, "I'll find a place to park."

Ruan Chen looked down at his watch: "It's almost twelve o'clock, isn't your family urging you? Don't you need to go home?"

"It's a little late for you to ask this right now?" Mu Xinghai pretended to be relaxed and happy, "I had already reported to my parents when you fell asleep just now, and I said that I was playing with friends outside to celebrate the New Year. They I don't mind. It's not the first time for me to play outside during the Chinese New Year. I've been here before, and I'll take you to play. Don't think about anything else, just follow me to play."

It was only then that Ruan Chen felt surprised, he regained some energy, turned his head, and looked up at him.

After a few seconds, he asked, "Where are you going?"

Mu Xinghai said: "Just follow me."

Ruan Chen followed Mu Xinghai slowly, step by step, he didn't want to walk beside him, it was better to be treated as an irrelevant person who accidentally walked nearby.

get off.

A temporary stage was set up on the square, and the performance was in progress, the music was blaring, and the audience was crowded with people.

Mu Xinghai grabbed Ruan Chen's forearm through his clothes.

They came late, so they were naturally at the end, and they only had a little excitement.

The last show ended before midnight, fireworks flickered on the huge electronic screen, and the countdown numbers began to be displayed.

The sparse human voices gradually gathered together.

"Ten—nine—eight—"

Mu Xinghai turned his head and saw that Ruan Chen also raised his head slightly. Although he didn't speak, he looked happier and seemed to be hesitating whether to shout together.

"Seven—six—five—"

Mu Xinghai held his hand and raised it together, Ruan Chen blushed, and finally spoke with the crowd.

"Four--!"

"three--!!"

"two--!!!"

Huizuo is the loudest.

"one!!!!"

"Happy New Year!!!"

Just when he said this, Mu Xinghai turned around on purpose and smiled brightly at him.

Ruan Chen felt his heart beating suddenly, which is probably what happened when his heart beat suddenly, but he suddenly felt a slight pain, aching from jealousy.He couldn't help but like Mu Xinghai's handsome, confident and happy man. After all, yearning for happiness is the same as bugs driving away light, but the stronger the light, the darker the shadow.

The bubbling noise seems to be in another world.

He just stared blankly at Mu Xinghai, at this moment, as if an invisible barrier had been pierced, he burst into tears uncontrollably.

It's so loud anyway, no one will notice.

No one here knows him either.

He embraced Mu Xinghai, buried his face in his arms and began to cry.

He knew it was embarrassing, but his emotions were so derailed that he had no idea what he was doing.

Can't stop crying.

He tried to stop crying, suppressed it slightly, spoke softly, and then couldn't help it, rebounded and cried louder.

She was still crying after being pulled back into the car by Mu Xinghai.

I also cried when I went to buy cold drinks.

Finally booked a vacant hotel room, he was still crying.

Just like an ignorant child.No, he had never been so disrespectful, never done anything so disrespectful as a boy.

When was the last time he cried?ten years ago?I can't remember, it must have been in high school.

Finally finished crying.

Ruan Chen breathed a sigh of relief, trying to pretend nothing happened, and said, "I'm going to put on my eyes, shall I play later?"

Mu Xinghai said: "If you want to play, go and play. I'll wring the towel for you."

Ruan Chen stood up by himself: "No, I'll do it myself."

Mu Xinghai followed him into the bathroom.

Ruan Chen took off his glasses and saw himself in the mirror, his eyes were red and swollen from crying, it was ugly, and Mu Xinghai's hesitant face was reflected in the mirror without omission.

Mu Xinghai asked: "... If you have anything frustrating to say, or anyone you want to scold, you can tell me. Like before. I won't say it."

Ruan Chen tightened the towel, without turning his head, he stared viciously at Mu Xinghai in the mirror, and said abruptly, "I really hate you."

Mu Xinghai froze all over, as if ice water had been poured on his head.

Is it because of him?

Ruan Chen went on to say: "I used to think that there was nothing wrong with my life."

"I have never been short of food or clothing since I was a child. I am in good health, and my life is generally considered smooth. I think there are many people in the world who are less fortunate than me. Some people can't afford food, some don't go to school, and some don't have parents. Therefore, I should be satisfied. , you should be grateful, you should feel that you are happy enough.”

"It's all because of you, it makes me feel so dissatisfied."

He was obviously used to not being favored.

Only to find out that it was because he hadn't gotten it.

Now he had only tasted a little bit of false favoritism, which suddenly became unbearable for him.

It was an ordinary moment when he realized that he had no home, that nowhere was his home.

Ruan Chen took a deep breath, turned around, took off the disguise, his eyes were burning like ice, he looked directly at Mu Xinghai, and a teardrop rolled out of his red eyes.

Mu Xinghai remained motionless as if his soul had been frightened.

Three or four tears fell from Ruan Chen's eyes.

Mu Xinghai stretched out his hand, put it on his face, wiped away his tears, and kissed again: "Do you know what kind of person I thought you were when we just got acquainted?"

Ruan Chen said recalcitrantly, "Someone who is boring and withdrawn."

Mu Xinghai shook his head: "He is an empty and lonely person."

"Human beings always feel pain because of confusion and loneliness, so they have to do something to fill up the empty heart in order to be enriched. Brother Ruan, I sincerely hope you are happy."

"I was empty before, but I was filled with liking for you. I feel very satisfied and happy."

"Dug out those annoying people and things from your heart and throw them away. You also pretend to like me, and you will definitely be happier than you are now."

"Whatever you want, I will give you what I can. If I can't afford it now, I will find a way to give it to you in the future."

What big talk is a young master who is several years younger than him, has no source of income, and has never tasted the sufferings of the world?Ruan Chen felt a little funny.

But only at this time in a person's life can he say such impulsive and sincere words without any impurities.

like?Do you like being reliable?

Even the parents who are connected by blood are unreliable, and the parents who raised him only treat him as a burden, and Mu Xinghai, who has only known him for a few days and has no blood relationship, is even more untrustworthy.

His brain became hot, and he actually spoke the truth.

Desolate and humble, he himself felt pitiful: "I want a home."

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