Rebirth of Jinse Nianhua

A meal of hot pot was extremely melancholy and silent, completely incompatible with Xiabu’s iconic lively atmosphere. I buried my head in eating my own, and Zhou Diqing no longer took the initiative to strike up a conversation, only maintaining the frequency of picking up food for me every few minutes .I accepted all the orders, and I didn't even want to say no, for fear that I would make too many mistakes.

After eating, Zhou Diqing drove me home. As soon as the car stopped, I couldn't wait to open the door and get out.

The weather in April is already very warm. In the season of warm spring and flowers blooming, even the cool night wind blowing on the face has an indescribably comfortable feeling.

"Is there anything else?" I asked calmly across the car, not daring to bring any emotions that would misunderstand Zhou Diqing.

Zhou Diqing went around and opened the back seat door, took out a paper bag and walked towards me. I subconsciously took a step back and looked at him defensively.

"Angel's kiss." Zhou Diqing reached out and handed me the paper bag. He was standing in such a position that I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly.

As soon as I heard the words "Angel's Kiss", I feel sympathetic. I can't afford the favors of the upper class. It wasn't until tonight that I really realized the distance between Zhou Diqing and me. Much further than I imagined.

"Don't be like this, I can't afford to owe you any favors." Immediately, I took a step back and put my hands behind my back, expressing my wishes with the most obvious practical actions.

"I didn't do this to make you feel that you owe me a favor." Zhou Diqing still held up the paper bag, with some eagerness in his tone, "Tongtong, do you know how it feels to like someone?"

"But I don't like you, that's the crux of the problem." After blurting out, he felt that he was too impulsive, and added after a pause, "Actually, I don't want to say it so bluntly, I don't want anyone to be hurt .”

"There are some things I don't know how to tell you, but I really feel sorry, I..." Zhou Diqing suddenly took a step forward and grabbed my hand as he spoke, I panicked and wanted to break free, but the next In seconds, he was violently hugged into his arms.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I don't know what to do to make up for those mistakes, but I really like you, I like you so much that I can't extricate myself..." Zhou Diqing was trembling all over, and even his voice was extremely unstable. The breath on the side of my neck was hot and chaotic, he was afraid of something.

At this moment, I couldn't bear to push Zhou Diqing away. I always remember that in the previous life, he was my legal husband. Now he holds me like a wounded child. All he begs is for me to give A little bit of warmth, if he was a stranger, I think I would not hesitate, but the facts that happened have been recorded in my heart one by one, I have no magic to erase them like erasing chalk writing, I even I can't even forget it gradually, because those things were too deep, engraved in my heart one by one.

I know better than anyone that this man loved me.

But at the same time, he also hurt me deeply.

Even if the two phases cancel out, there will be traces after friction.

Just thinking about it hurts too.

"You didn't apologize to me, and I don't need you to make up for anything." Taking a deep breath, I tried to push Zhou Diqing away. After all, the old memories were no match for the favorite in my heart. Ruan Jitong died once, even if everything starts again However, the person he loves will not be Zhou Diqing.

Everything in the dark is doomed.Zhou Diqing's love is not fake, he loves me, I know, but his love can't give me the enrichment and surprise I want.Yes, Angel Kiss is my favorite dark chocolate, but Zhou Diqing didn’t realize that every time the same action is repeated, half of its original effect will be lost. Repeatedly, it decreases again and again, and finally, it approaches zero.

And Song Yu deserves to be the man who understands me best in the world, not one of them.

I continued to struggle, maybe Zhou Diqing also felt my persistence and determination, and finally let me go bit by bit.

I didn't bounce as far away as when I was amnesty. I knew how hurtful this action was. I just stood there, with my neck up and Zhou Diqing's eyes facing each other.

The close eye contact finally allowed me to see clearly the sadness in the eyes of the tall man in front of me, so real and within reach.

"We can still be friends, have you forgotten that we can meet almost every day?" I wanted to make Zhou Diqing smile, with the corners of her mouth wide open, "Without you, I would definitely not be able to get the first-class scholarship."

"But I'm going to graduate and leave school in less than two months." Zhou Diqing slightly twitched the corners of her mouth, smiling far-fetchedly, "I always thought that I was omnipotent. , No matter what I do, I will undoubtedly gain flowers and applause." Zhou Diqing lowered his head and pressed his straight nose against mine, and said regretfully, "Except for you, I feel extremely frustrated."

"It's because you have a problem with your mentality." I turned my face to the side and looked up at the star-studded sky. "It's normal to be incomplete in life, as a famous person said."

"Heh, a certain celebrity." Zhou Diqing chuckled softly, so unpredictable that people couldn't hear his emotions.

At this time, the mobile phone in the pocket of his trousers vibrated suddenly, and it was a short message alert.Except for Song Yu, there will be no second person texting me at this time, he can always distinguish the time and occasion, and will not make me feel bored.Like when I tell him that I'm going to have dinner with my classmates tonight, a text message would be more appropriate than a phone call.

"I'm going in." Pointing to the door five steps away, I intentionally terminated this grinding conversation.

Zhou Diqing turned sideways to make way for me in a very considerate manner. He and I looked at each other, smiled, turned and left.

Stepping on the last step, he took out the key and was about to open the door. Zhou Diqing said calmly behind him, "No matter what, I won't give up just now."

This is Zhou Diqing, who will not give up easily, and he is surprisingly similar to Song Yu in the word "persistence".

"Of course." I nodded without looking back, "This is your right."

"I am serious."

"I know." I nodded again, I never doubted that.

"Tongtong~" He must have been at his most gentle when he called me by my nickname.

"But there are some distances that you can't see with your naked eyes." I laughed, and I laughed from the bottom of my heart. I laughed at Zhou Diqing who couldn't see what was between him and me, and I laughed at Song Yu. An insurmountable gap, I laugh that Song Yu and I can still love each other without distraction.

2014-01-16

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