Rebirth of Jinse Nianhua

I don't know if I said this a little out of proportion and hurt Zhou Diqing inadvertently. The force that was holding me down suddenly withdrew, and Zhou Diqing fell down on the leather seat slumped. His hands were lying limply on his thighs, motionless, his head was drooping weakly, just hiding his face in the shadow so that I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly.

The not-so-spacious carriage suddenly fell into a hellish silence, all the air was glued together, and the ceiling light in the carriage emitted a dim yellow light that seemed to be able to penetrate the fabric of the body and burn the skin. Heart palpitations mixed with sourness swept over.

This kind of silence is really tormenting. I scratched my head irritably, and my temples hurt suddenly. Actually, I am not suitable to play the role of mediator, but this kind of suffering is really worse than death for me. The conceited Zhou Diqing is now like a dead ball with his head slumped and silent, and I feel really uncomfortable. He opened his mouth, and his throat seemed to be choked with an angular stone: "Zhou Diqing, I... what I just said If so... sorry."

This is the first time in my two lifetimes that I spoke softly to Zhou Diqing, and apologized to him humbly. I am used to him always following behind my ass to make amends, and I am used to him treating me in everything. He obeyed his words and got used to him centering on me in everything.But this time, I sincerely apologize to him.

My unprecedented low profile may have touched Zhou Diqing. He took a deep breath and slowly turned his face from the shadow to me. His muscles were tense, as if he was in great pain.

"Tongtong, I just want to ask you one question, do you regret ever being with me?" Zhou Diqing looked at me expectantly, with tears already rolling in his eyes, he tried his best not to let any drop fall down, Even though the light in the car wasn't enough for me to fully see the expression on his face, to be honest, I couldn't bear it at this moment.

Because of panic, I turned my face away a little awkwardly, frowned unconsciously, my heart seemed to be scratched by some sharp weapon, and soon there was the sound of cloth rubbing against the leather, and Zhou Diqing had already stuck it on. Me, my arms gently encircled me as if holding some fragile object, with my perfectly shaped chin resting in the hollow of my shoulder, I asked softly, "Have you ever regretted it? Even if it's against your will, you can lie to me , as long as it is what you say, I will definitely believe it."

I didn't push Zhou Diqing away with my hands. Such ambiguous actions and language are always taboo to me, but today I don't seem to have the strength to worry about these trivial things, or I want to make up for it subconsciously. What.

Leaning gently into Zhou Diqing's arms and putting most of my body weight on him, I feel extremely tired, it's nice to have a shoulder to lean on.

Zhou Diqing was momentarily astonished by my initiative, and felt his muscles stiffen involuntarily.

"I don't regret it." I said every single word. "I don't regret anything I've done."

"Really?" Zhou Diqing got excited like a child who got candy after receiving such a reply from me, and the strength of his arms around me was a little ignorant due to the sudden change of emotions, and he even cheered, "Great, I knew Tongtong still loved me! I knew it!"

I smiled helplessly: "Let go of me first, it hurts..."

"I'm sorry, I'm so happy!" Zhou Diqing quickly let go of her strength, tilted her head and looked in front of me with satisfaction, "Can you say it again? Say you don't regret it."

"It's the same if you say it again and again." I don't think it's too much for such a request, because it's not against my will, "I didn't lie to you, I don't regret it."

If regret is useful, I would not have taken the path of suicide in the previous life. I have no ability to change the status quo, so I can only terminate the status quo.

Zhou Diqing's face seemed to bloom with a colorful and strange flower, dotted with crystal clear teardrops. He wiped it with his sleeve uncomfortably, and explained: "I'm so excited, these are tears of excitement."

I smiled, reached out and wiped away a teardrop hanging from the corner of Zhou Diqing's eye, and told him sincerely: "I never thought that my death would hurt you so much. Although time has passed, I still want to thank you Apologize." After a pause, I continued, "Actually, you really don't need to work so hard for me, I don't regret being with you, but in the end I'm still selfish, what I want is always what I want, I won’t be happy even if I accept what other people force on me, so let’s just let each other go, okay?”

"Let each other go?" Zhou Diqing was stunned for a moment, and asked seriously, "Do you think I restrained you?"

I quickly waved my hands and explained: "No, no, I just want to say that since everyone is reborn, there is no need to continue to entangle. We should all be responsible for our own rebirth, right?"

"Responsible?" Zhou Diqing bit the word tightly, and in just a few seconds, the gentleness in his eyes was no longer there, replaced by the coldness that was a bit harsher than the weather in November in City B. He suddenly rushed over and grabbed my neck, approached my face, narrowed his eyes slightly and asked me dangerously, "So, you still don't want to be reunited with me?"

I was startled by Zhou Diqing's sudden embarrassment. I wanted to retreat but found that I had no way to retreat with my back against the car door. Although he didn't use much strength, I was not happy with such a condescending action. What have I become?

"I don't regret my decision to be with you, but it doesn't mean that I will go the old way again after being reborn!" I yelled at Zhou Diqing angrily, eyes widening, "The more domineering you are The more powerful I am, the more disgusted I am!"

We were already very close to each other, Zhou Diqing posted it without saying a word and blocked me with his mouth, resting the back of my head with one hand to prevent me from moving left and right, and holding me hard with the other hand trying to struggle hands, and at the same time wrapped my legs tightly with both feet.

"Hmm..." I tightly closed my lips to prevent Zhou Diqing from getting in. My hands and feet were controlled and I couldn't move, so I could only do my best to prevent the last pass.

Zhou Diqing bit my lip fiercely like a wild beast, her dexterous tongue kept exploring but was blocked by my clenched teeth, and I couldn't spare a hand to hold it My jaw made me loosen my mouth, which made him a little annoyed, and the force on his mouth became more and more ignorant, and every bite on his lip hurt, making my tears keep pouring out, and fine sobs flowed uncontrollably from between the lips and teeth After coming out, the reverberation in the narrow compartment with excellent sound insulation effect becomes more and more pitiful.

Fortunately, Zhou Diqing still had a sliver of reason under such mania. When he came into contact with my tearful eyes, his movements were obviously stagnant. I saw the expression on his face change and change, and finally let go reluctantly.

His chest was heaving violently, and Zhou Diqing was also seriously hurt by this battle of wits and courage. He was panting heavily, his eyes glanced at me as if there was nothing, and he cursed angrily, "Damn!", but he didn't know Is this swear word addressed to me, who is ignorant of current affairs, or to himself, who is retreating steadily.

Once I was free, I immediately curled up in a corner on my hands and feet, which gave me some sense of security, although this little sense of security was pitifully small.

His eyes were guarded to prevent Zhou Diqing from attacking again, and he covered his mouth with his hands to prevent the painful sobs from coming out again, but the tears could not stop flowing down, as if the rushing river would never dry up.

Song Yu, Song Yu.I silently read that person's name in my heart, it will make me feel better, because I know that Song Yu will never treat me like this, he always holds me in the palm of his hand with great care, he can't wait to rub me Into his body, sewn into his soul, carved into every pore of him.

I shivered in the corner like a wounded little beast. In fact, I didn't want to make myself look so cowardly at all, but this time I was really scared, after clarifying everything.

Zhou Diqing took a breath, and when he turned his gaze to me, the anger in his eyes had dissipated to the point that there was not much left, but I still shivered in embarrassment in conditioned reflex.At this time, any gesture of showing weakness may lead to unexpected results. When I reacted, I immediately stared at Zhou Diqing with wide eyes, trying my best to create a feeling that I am not easy to bully.

Unexpectedly, a faint smile gradually appeared on Zhou Diqing's face. He tilted his head and looked at me. , I will find a way to make her accept the fact that you like the same sex."

I was a little dazed, and I was taken aback by such a thoughtless sentence. Before I could figure out how to react, Zhou Diqing opened the car door and got out of the car. Instead of sitting back in the driver's seat, he leaned on the He took out a cigarette from the railing on the street, lit a cigarette, and smoked it in his mouth, and the car door was left wide open.

I sat in the car for a long time before I realized that Zhou Diqing was planning to let me go. I climbed carefully to the door, and tentatively stretched out my head to look at Zhou Diqing. His face behind the smoke was not particularly clear, but I saw the acquiescence in his eyes.I have never tried to be so relieved. It is really the feeling of being released from extreme tension.

I didn't hesitate for a moment, I got out of the car and ran all the way, I didn't even have time to distinguish the direction, I just ran away dully, I wanted to escape here as soon as possible, get rid of the nightmare buried deep in my heart.

2015-02-24