Rebirth of Jinse Nianhua

I really don't know if Zhou Diqing's face is solid or not. He showed such an embarrassing look just now, but in a blink of an eye he was able to teach me like a normal person. I almost wondered if nothing really happened just now.

I can't get on the table at this level, so I can't reach the state of Zhou Diqing's selflessness. I hold "Accounting" upright to cover most of my face, only revealing my two eyes. On the surface, I am listening to a class, but in fact He didn't listen to half a word, he was wandering too far away, he couldn't help it, it was made of parchment.I was still thinking about forgetting about today, it was quite embarrassing, and Zhou Diqing also said that he didn't sleep all night, which gave me an excellent reason to skip class.

Unexpectedly, Mr. Zhou's righteous words "Tongtong's study is the most urgent thing" made me speechless.

Ever since, Zhou Diqing immediately started the original teaching plan after eating lunch with his own thoughts.

"Are you clear about the ten concepts I just mentioned?" Zhou Diqing tapped his fingers on the small whiteboard, "The content in the first section of Chapter 3 is the focus of the final exam."

"Ah?" I looked at Zhou Diqing with a dazed look, and was dumbfounded.

"Didn't understand?" Zhou Diqing was very patient, walked over and asked with concern, "Or did I not speak clearly enough?"

"No." I still have to have this bit of conscience, it's none of my business if I deserted myself and didn't listen to it, so I honestly shook my head and muttered in a low voice, "I said it's not suitable for me today. Go to class again."

Zhou Diqing presumably heard it too, and paused for a while without speaking, just when I thought the atmosphere would get so cold, Zhou Diqing suddenly changed back to his usual tone and said: "Then let's talk about Tongtong topic of interest."

"What?" I didn't follow Zhou Di's quick change of thinking, and I was ignorant.

Zhou Diqing smiled: "Didn't Tongtong want me to investigate the Song family?"

"There is news so soon?" I was surprised, but also very moved, "It took a lot of effort, didn't it?"

"Who told me to boast so much in front of Tongtong?" Zhou Diqing gave me a wink, the meaning in it was too obvious, naked|naked, making people unavoidable.

I blushed immediately and became dumb again. My eyes rolled around and I couldn't find the focus of attention.

Seeing that I was silent again, Zhou Diqing was also helpless, spread his hands together and sighed, "Let's talk about business." He could hear that he was unwilling, but he didn't want to do anything to me, so that's all. Being aggrieved is actually a kind of self-abuse.

But if you really want to say that I am more innocent and helpless than anyone else, I am definitely the only one. I have said it so clearly and more than once, but Zhou Diqing just refuses to let me go, and he also threatens and lures me. Not only am I exhausted from procrastinating like this, but trusting him is even more exhausting physically and mentally, so why is it necessary?I've always wanted to ask him this question, but seeing him tirelessly playing the role of a loyal dog over and over again, I wonder if I'm really too heartless?As the saying goes, if you reach out and don't hit a smiling face, then what position do I have to accuse Zhou Diqing of liking?Who is he in the way of?Obviously not.He's just doing what he wants to do, he's not hurting the world, he's not heinous, he's just a little obsessed?Let's say he is obsessed with obsession, otherwise I don't know what words to use to describe it.

I never deny that Zhou Diqing gave me what I pursued most in the previous life. Even Song Yu, who loves me the most, couldn't easily promise a marriage letter, a light piece of paper, I value it more than anything else. Let's just say I'm more obsessed with it.At that time, I was full of gratitude to Zhou Diqing, including now I am still grateful to Dade for his dedication to me with just a word, and even feel that he has surpassed Song Yu in some aspects.Maybe it's because he is relatively young and energetic, he doesn't care about the consequences of everything he does, and only wants to enjoy it for a while.

But when it comes to impulsiveness, in fact, Zhou Diqing and I are not the same, we are both anxious. In the previous life, we couldn't wait to plant a tree on each other, thinking that as long as we paid the final fruit It must be very sweet.Unexpectedly, when the fruit was ripe, I picked it off and tasted it, and my mouth was full of bitterness.His betrayal has always been a thorn in my heart that I can't get rid of, choked there like a sharp sword sealing my throat.It is not necessary to be unfaithful a hundred times. I believe this truth, and I made up my mind silently at the moment when I woke up again. Don’t worry about anything else, just be loyal to your own heart. Song Yu is your destination.

Because I was absent-minded, I didn't have the time to listen carefully to what Zhou Diqing said later. I only vaguely heard that Song's stock price had fallen slightly recently, and that he was hospitalized for a week soon.It's not that I deliberately distracted myself at such an important time, it's just that the more I think about it, the more headaches I get. The problem between me and Zhou Diqing has never been about whether we are in tune or whether we meet sooner or later. We are basically people walking on two parallel paths. We have no emotional intersection and it is impossible to have an intersection. If we insist on getting together, then there will always be only one ending-both losers.

Thinking of this, the conditioned reflex of my body, which contains countless memories, trembled, and the suffocation feeling of the seawater flooding my mouth and nose at the moment of death became more and more clear, attacking my fragile nerves over and over again.I seem to have returned to Rotterdam at that time. The good things and the final bad results are intertwined, and then blown by the wind, the smoke disappears.

But Ruan Jitong has always been a very selfish guy, and he still has a petty citizen's fluke mentality for his own goals. This is a deep-rooted bad habit, and he can't change it even if he wants to.For example, Song Mi sacrificed his life to grab the headlines to save Song Yu. I was more moved by this matter and I should be more secretly happy. Fortunately, Song Mi was so conscious and willing to come forward.But if I were Song Mi, I would definitely feel that my head was squeezed by the door to do such a stupid thing.But after I calmed down, I would think again if Song Mi didn't do this, what would happen if Song Yu was chased and intercepted by many reporters every day?To give an old-fashioned example, Song Yu and Song Mi are both important to me, but if Song Yu and Song Mi fall into the water at the same time, and only one can be saved, I will definitely choose Song Yu without hesitation. It doesn't matter if it's half a dime, I just look for Song Yu, even if I can't save him and drown myself, I will swim towards him without hesitation, it's just so stubborn.

Similarly, for Zhou Diqing, I can't accept his love, I know this very well, but I still use his feelings for me very shamelessly, even if I have plausible words in my mouth, I don't want to talk to him again in my life on any relationship.But when I was trapped and couldn't save myself by relying on my own strength, he came to my door automatically. I still couldn't restrain my evil thoughts and began to grow slowly.He can easily do many things that I can't do. It's like a dying person grabbing a life-saving straw. Since he can live by grabbing it, why let it go?In this world, there are no purely good guys and bad guys, it's just that everyone has different positions and they are doing their own thing.

If it was Ruan Jitong in the previous life, he must have thought that it was natural for everyone to revolve around him, and he would never feel shy when he accepted anyone's kindness. In fact, this is indeed a matter of your love and my wish. Whoever puts the knife on whose neck forces him to do something.But, I don’t know why, and I don’t know when, I suddenly feel a little disgusted with myself like this. It’s good to change anyone, but this person is Zhou Diqing, who once gave me warmth when I was most lost People, even if he chooses to turn his back in the end, it is not his sole responsibility, and I am also inseparable from the responsibility.

Since this is the case, then find some appropriate reasons for yourself, even if you use it, you can become more dignified, at least you won't feel embarrassed anymore.

"Zhou Diqing." My voice trembled a little, calling out this name had already exhausted my energy.

"Huh?" Zhou Diqing, who was talking about the current situation of the Song family, was obviously taken aback. Maybe it was the first time I called his name so solemnly, which made him look forward to my next words. His handsome face was sunny, Staring at me with piercing eyes.

"You said... what kind of relationship do we have..." After saying this, I looked expectant, how would he answer me?

The expression on Zhou Diqing's face remained motionless, but the hand propped on the table betrayed him, and the hand with distinct knuckles trembled slightly.As smart as he is, he can see clearly that this is actually not a question waiting for him to answer. I expressed my intentions in this question early in the morning, and I will ask it because it is impossible for the two of us.

It's true that I didn't wait for Zhou Diqing to give an answer. I don't know if he is still planning or something, but I can't wait: "Let's... be friends?"

Look, my friend, what a deceptive relationship.When a friend is in trouble, can you stand by and watch?Obviously not.Wouldn't it be treachery to refuse to help?

Zhou Diqing frowned, and his eyes were fixed in mid-air. It's hard for me to guess what he was thinking in his heart at this moment. Is he calling me a wolf-hearted dog, or feeling worthless for his own heart and soul?

"I regard you as a friend." It is even more difficult for me to imagine that one day I can say such words to Zhou Diqing without blushing and heartbeat, "Really."

"Friend?" Zhou Diqing finally opened his mouth, savoring the two words carefully, with the cautious thinking of a businessman in his voice.

"Yes, friend." I continued to add fuel to the flames.

As if thinking of something, Zhou Diqing suddenly laughed out of relief, and said two words to me unfathomably: "Of course."

2015-01-05