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The night before yesterday, the rain suddenly fell heavily, and Cen Baiyan slept very unsteadily. He had a nightmare, dreaming that he was back when he was very young, and Cen Jingxiang was carrying him behind his back to rummage through unwanted rot in the vegetable market. Vegetable leaves, being driven around like beggars.

Later they met Wan Qianshan, Cen Baiyan thought it was great, he finally had a decent home, but his home seemed different from other people's.They are not on the same household registration book, and he is not allowed to tell his classmates and friends that his stepfather is Wan Qianshan. He finds that the smell of perfume on his mother's body is getting stronger and stronger, the more jewelry she wears, and her tone of voice and expression become more and more strange .

This dream was grotesque and bizarre. In the dream, Wan Qianshan turned into a ferocious beast, attacking Cen Jingxiang ferociously.Cen Baiyan immediately rushed to protect Cen Jingxiang, he was wrestling with Wan Qianshan, but when he turned around, he found that Cen Jingxiang opened his bloody mouth, and the huge shadow completely submerged him.

Cen Baiyan woke up suddenly with cold sweat on his forehead.

In the afternoon, Cen Jingxiang told him a piece of news——Wan Qianshan took care of a female student outside, and that girl is now pregnant. Wan Qianshan bought a villa with good privacy and raised her in it.

Cen Baiyan was furious and asked Cen Jingxiang to leave Wanqian Mountain. Cen Jingxiang calmly but sternly asked Cen Baiyan to be ready, whether it was stolen or robbed, she wanted Cen Baiyan to seize the family property.

Dreams and reality were gradually intertwined, he wanted Lazen Jingxiang to get out of the quagmire, but Cen Jingxiang wanted to drag him into the quagmire as well.

Cen Baiyan exhaled deeply, the starry night light by the bed was on, but Xuan Zhao was not on the bed.

The door of the room was ajar, he must have gotten up at night to go to the toilet.

Cen Baiyan felt depressed, rubbed his temples heavily with one hand, and got up to find Xuanzhao.

Just after leaving the room, Cen Baiyan heard a suppressed groan coming from the closed wooden door of the toilet, followed by a dull "bang", as if someone had fallen inside.

Cen Baiyan froze at first, then rushed forward and quickly turned the doorknob: "Zhaozhao? What's wrong with you? Open the door!"

After a moment of silence, Xuanzhao tried his best to maintain calm, but he still couldn't hide the trembling voice: "It's okay, I didn't stand still."

"You open the door!"

Cen Baiyan knew something was wrong immediately. He was so anxious that he raised his foot and kicked the door heavily. The wooden door shook a few times as if it was falling apart, and the parts of the door lock jingled and fell to the ground.

The door opened, and Xuan Zhao fell to the ground in embarrassment, his temples were soaked in cold sweat, his face was whiter than tiles, and his lips were bloodless.

"What's wrong? Where does it hurt?" Cen Baiyan was extremely anxious, and rushed to Xuan Zhao's side, "What's going on?"

Xuanzhao panted and shook his head lightly: "Bo Yan, I didn't—"

"You fucking say you're fine!" Cen Baiyan growled, "You're fine and you hid in the toilet in the middle of the night? You're fine and you can't stand still because of the pain? You're fine. You."

Cen Baiyan was anxious and angry, and he couldn't speak clearly. Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw a familiar medicine bottle falling on the ground. He picked up the medicine bottle, and there were a few eye-catching big characters on the bottle-vitamin C.

He had always naively thought that Xuan Zhao was really just taking vitamin supplements every day.

"What the hell is this?" Cen Baiyan held the medicine bottle tightly, his eyes fixed on Xuanzhao, "What are you eating?"

Xuanzhao's forehead was still dripping with sweat, and he calmed down: "It's just vitamins."

"Okay, vitamins, right?"

Cen Boyan ruthlessly poured a few pills into the palm of his hand, and was about to take them into his mouth as soon as he raised his head. Xuan Zhao's face changed suddenly, and he immediately pressed his wrist: "What are you doing!"

Cen Boyan said: "Isn't it a vitamin? Why can't I take it?"

Xuan Zhao looked at Cen Baiyan, and sighed helplessly after a while: "It's a painkiller."

How long has he been eating this to relieve pain?How much pain did he have to hide in the bathroom in the middle of the night?Does he not sleep well every night?He still pretends to have nothing to do during the day, is he tired?Why did he not tell me anything?And I didn't notice anything?

Anger, annoyance, self-blame and heartache all rushed to his heart, Cen Baiyan's chest rose and fell slightly, and he stared at Xuan Zhao: "Xuan Zhao, you are awesome, you have to carry everything by yourself, right?"

"I'm just." Xuan Zhao pursed his lips, and chose the most old-fashioned rhetoric, "I don't want you to worry."

In fact, he was just afraid.

It's like he's used to the candies that Cen Baiyan gives him every time, he's used to Cen Baiyan's pampering, Cen Baiyan's breath, Cen Baiyan's hug, Cen Baiyan's kiss, what about after losing Cen Baiyan?

Xuanzhao knows everything that is happening in Xinyang. He knows that Wan Qianshan's company is facing internal and external troubles, and that Cen Jingxiang is trying every means to calculate Wan Qianshan's property, so he clearly knows that the time that belongs to him and Cen Baiyan has passed. Running out.

"I don't want to worry about it," Cen Baiyan suddenly laughed at himself lightly, "Xuan Zhao, sometimes I wonder if you really need me. You won't let me accompany you to visit your mother, and you won't let me accompany you to visit Uncle Gong. Never take me into your school, never introduce me to your friends."

These emotions have been accumulated in his heart for too long, like a volcano that has been sleeping for a long time, and finally erupted at this moment.

Xuan Zhao's originally bloodless cheeks seemed to be a little paler again, he was stunned, his lips parted slightly, not knowing what to say.

The heart seemed to be locked by heavy shackles, and it hurt heavily.

It's not necessary, he doesn't need to let Cen Baiyan participate in his life, he just regards Cen Baiyan as a tool, which can be discarded after use, that's all.

He doesn't need Cen Baiyan, yes, he really doesn't need Cen Baiyan - he repeats this fact thousands of times in his heart every day.

Then why is he still so uncomfortable now?What is tearing him apart?

Cen Baiyan took a deep breath, lowered his head weakly, and said in a low voice, "You make me feel... very useless."

He needs the omen so much, the omen is the only truth and support he has left in this world, and he also needs the omen to need him, as if this is the only way to prove that they are one, they are inseparable from each other, never part.

Xuan Zhao's eyelashes trembled. He wanted to speak, but his throat seemed to be blocked by something. It was so sore that he couldn't squeeze out a single syllable.

He has always been eloquent when facing Cen Baiyan, he knows what Cen Baiyan wants to hear best, why is he speechless now?

Cen Baiyan stood up sluggishly, and walked out slowly. Before he could get out of the wooden door, his steps stopped.

He raised his hand to wipe his face, turned around and walked back, supported Xuan Zhao's back with one hand, and walked around Xuan Zhao's leg with the other, and picked him up.

The air seemed to condense, Xuan Zhao didn't speak, Cen Baiyan put Xuan Zhao on the bed without saying a word, and covered him with a quilt.

Xuan Zhao grabbed Cen Baiyan by the corner of his clothes: "Where are you going?"

"I'll go back to sleep in my own room," Cen Baiyan said in a tense voice, not looking at Xuan Zhao's face, he was afraid that if he looked at Xuan Zhao's face again, his heart would soften, "I'll take you to the hospital for an examination tomorrow."

After saying this, he left.

There was only one lonely night light left in the room, emitting a dizzying light.

Compared with the throbbing pain coming from the heart, the leg pain seemed nothing.

Xuan Zhao sat quietly on the head of the bed, his eyes closed tightly, only the trembling eyelashes proved that he was not asleep at the moment.

The next day, Cen Baiyan took Xuan Zhao to the First Hospital.

Xuanzhao knew in his heart that there was nothing more to check on his leg, and if it was ruined, it was ruined, and it was a matter of a lifetime.

Calculated based on the 80-year lifespan, for the remaining 57 years of his life, every rainy day, he would suffer from the pain of ants drilling his bones.

The doctor euphemistically said that it was a miracle that the leg could be restored to what it is today, but Cen Baiyan asked the doctor every detail seriously, including how to massage, how to relieve it, what to eat and what not to eat, and rainy days. What should I do if I always have leg pain? The doctor was a little impatient at the end, saying that it is normal to have leg pain on cloudy days.

It was still raining when they went back, and the taxi could not enter the alley, so they had to get out of the car and walk.

The potholes in the alley were filled with stagnant water, Cen Baiyan carried Xuanzhao on his back without saying a word, Xuanzhao held an umbrella on his back, and leaned his cheek against his broad shoulders.

Cen Baiyan stepped on many puddles, his sneakers were completely soaked in the sewage, and his trousers were also wet a lot, but he walked very steadily with every step, for fear of bumping the people on his back.

His left knee was in pain because of the rain, but Xuan Zhao hoped that the rainy day could be prolonged.

Because this was the first time, the first time someone carried him on a rainy day, through puddles one after another.

In fact, Cen Baiyan was still angry with Xuan Zhao, he kept a cold face, neither smiled nor talked to Xuan Zhao.

Back home, Xuan Zhao just wanted to say something to Cen Baiyan, but Cen Baiyan didn't give him a chance, put him on the bed, turned around and left.

"." Xuanzhao looked at the door which was opened and closed again, inexplicably feeling a bit empty.

Within 2 minutes, Cen Baiyan opened the door again and came in, holding a steaming towel in his hand.

Xuan Zhao stared blankly at Cen Baiyan.

Cen Baiyan remained expressionless, squatting down in front of Xuan Zhao, lifted up his trousers, applied a hot towel to his left knee, and at the same time gently massaged the meridian on the calf with his ten fingers.

His massage movements are unskilled, even very unfamiliar, but his expression is extremely focused, as if he is treating an extremely precious treasure.

The empty space in his body was filled in an instant, Xuan Zhao put his hands on his sides, looked down at Cen Baiyan: "Thank you, thank you for being so kind to me."

This sentence is true.

Xuanzhao thinks that he is a selfish and hypocritical person. For a person like him, no one is destined to love him and accompany him. Cen Baiyan will leave him when he knows the truth. Live, and then gradually forget about him.

But Xuan Zhao felt that it was enough, having Cen Baiyan's sincerity at this moment was enough, enough to support him through every cold and rainy day in the next 57 years.

Cen Baiyan froze.

Xuan Zhao pinched the tips of Cen Baiyan's ears: "Don't be angry, okay?"

Cen Baiyan didn't speak, Xuan Zhao continued to tug on his ear: "OK? I'll teach you how to be a puppy."

He put his palms up to his ears and gave a soft "Wow".

It's the same thing again, Cen Baiyan thought, it's the same thing every time.

But fuck|fuck|fuck is there, no matter how many times, Cen Baiyan will just follow Xuan Zhao's tricks.

Cen Baiyan sighed helplessly in his heart, raised his head and looked at Xuan Zhao: "What do you want from me? You will be happy if you torment me, right?"

"No, I."

Xuan Zhao was interrupted by Cen Baiyan before he finished speaking: "Don't talk to me about the nonsense of 'I don't want you to worry'."

"I will listen to you from now on," Xuan Zhao leaned over and hugged Cen Baiyan, "I will tell you if my leg hurts."

There was no other way, Cen Baiyan had nothing to do with him, he held Xuan Zhao in his arms tightly: "Don't take medicine blindly, do you understand?"

Xuan Zhao nodded obediently: "Okay."

He didn't want to quarrel with Cen Baiyan at all, Xuan Zhao was like a terminally ill patient, because he knew that time was running out, so he was not willing to waste every second.

Xuan Zhao knew he shouldn't be like this, he should stand on the sidelines, he should be rational and prudent, he should completely strip his emotions, but is it okay just this time?

--Can I?

He silently and humbly prayed in his heart, he was cowardly and indulgent once in his life, there was no time, just this once.

How could Cen Baiyan be willing to really get angry with Xuan Zhao? He took a deep breath, smelled the familiar herbal smell of An Xin on Xuan Zhao, and couldn't help but feel anxious.

They have plenty of time, and he can take his time.

He will find Xuanzhao's heart knot, untie it bit by bit, and then accompany Xuanzhao to see his mother, accompany Xuanzhao to visit his respected elders, meet Xuanzhao's classmates, and truly integrate into Xuanzhao's life .

Cen Baiyan thought, anyway, I have more time with him.

A few days later, Haigang University started the academic year evaluation work. Cen Baiyan ranked first in his major in his grade point last semester. All the teachers loved and respected him, and the counselor directly helped him apply for the selection of the school's top three students.

Everyone thought that Cen Baiyan's award was a sure thing, but during the announcement period, a report letter was sent to the mailbox of the party committee, and early the next morning, everyone saw it on the announcement gallery of the school playground. Article and photos above.

The article stated that Cen Baiyan was a homosexual, and he often went to and from bars, lived with others outside the school, and behaved dissolutely.

There is nothing wrong with his personal orientation, but he applied for the school's outstanding students. How can such a chaotic person become a role model for the whole school?

The angle of the photo was taken secretly. Two men were walking in a dark alley, under the dim streetlights, their fingers clasped tightly.One of the men turned his head to look at the other, and the sneak photographer happened to capture this scene, and Cen Baiyan's handsome profile appeared clearly in the photo.

Now there was an uproar on campus.

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This weekend will definitely break the mirror, and the explosion will also break the mirror!

There will be floor-to-ceiling windows in the sea view room, everyone is low-key, it is expected to be seen on Weibo this Saturday @生姜太郎eating ginger