Who reversed the attack [entertainment circle]

Lu Yao was born in a loving family. Her father, Lu Beichuan, was in business, and her mother, Dai Ling, was an art soldier in the army. After giving birth to her, she left the army.

Her parents are very loving, they met in a performance, and Lu Beichuan fell in love with Dai Ling at first sight.

Dai Ling was very beautiful when she was young, and her beauty was naturally left to Lu Yao. In the 80s, many families were still struggling to make ends meet, but Lu Beichuan and Dai Ling gave Lu Yao the best life early on.

Lu Yao is very obedient, she looks like her mother, and someone always wants to kiss her when she is taken out.Dai Ling, who has always been gentle and virtuous, would become serious at this time. She did not allow others to touch her daughter. From the day Lu Yao was born, she knew that this child was her pearl and her destiny.

Dai Ling gave all her love to Lu Yao, told her stories in a gentle voice, and taught her the principles of life.In that era when the mind was just emancipated, Dai Ling was undoubtedly trendy. She was an enlightened mother. She dressed Lu Yao in a princess dress and a bow tie, and dressed her up like a doll.

The neighbors in the neighborhood couldn't accept such a fashionable mother and daughter, and they always discussed them in private, saying that they were corrupt and brainwashed by foreigners.

Dai Ling didn't care about this, she told Lu Yao that girls should love themselves, be independent, and live for themselves when they grow up.

This was supposed to be a happy family, until one day, Lu Yao had an accident.

Lu Yao happened at the hands of Dai Ling. When they were playing ball, Lu Yao fell down. Dai Ling didn't protect her. A stone hit the back of Lu Yao's head.

No one thought that such a thing would happen. Lu Yao stayed in the hospital for half a month, but she still couldn't get over it. The moment she stopped breathing, Dai Ling went crazy.

She has never been so crazy, Lu Yao is her life.

For the next two years, Ling lived in a muddle-headed way, and her life without children seemed to have lost hope of survival. She always felt that she was already dead, and died on the day Lu Yao left her.

She often sat alone by the window, staring at the empty yard and laughing wildly.If she hadn't taken Lu Yao to play ball that day, or if she had been faster and more careful, and had seen that deadly rock, now Lu Yao was still lying on her lap, calling her "Mom" sweetly.

Guilt and remorse overwhelmed Dai Ling. She was in pain every day. She knew that Lu Yao would only have one child in her life, and she only wanted that child.

When she found out that she was pregnant again, Dai Ling didn't speak for three whole days. She locked herself in the room and no one was allowed to come in.

Three days later, she opened the door, and said to Lu Beichuan with a radiant face like a newborn: "It's my daughter who is back."

The eight months of pregnancy were the hardest for her. The child did not come well. Dai Ling's spirit suffered a major blow after Lu Yao's death, and her physical condition was not as good as when she was pregnant with Lu Yao. She was admitted to the hospital in the first month. The doctor said that the child may not be saved, and even if it is saved, there may be congenital problems.

How could Dai Ling listen? She was bedridden every day and was hanging the child's life by the birth insurance injection.Only eight months old, the child had to leave the mother's warm womb ahead of schedule and had to be cut out.

It snowed heavily on the day Lu Siyao was born, and the wind whistled.

Dai Ling lay weakly on the bed, looked at the child who had just been dissected and even cried softly, and smiled contentedly.

She is so similar to her daughter, exactly the same.

The doctors were also very happy. They all thought that the child would not survive at all, and even if born with defects, they found that the child was only a little worse than a full-term baby after the examination. question.

The doctor took the child to Dai Ling and told her: "This kid is destined to live a long life, and he will be blessed in the future."

Dai Ling pulled the swaddle into place and touched the child's face: "What kid, it's a girl."

The doctor smiled and said, "It's a boy, your family is really blessed."

Dai Ling's gentle face became stiff at that moment, and her hands stopped on the baby's soft cheeks, unable to recover for a long time, until she ignored the severe cold weather and took off the swaddling clothes wrapped around her son.

How could it be a kid?She is pregnant with a girl, and her daughter is a daughter.

Dai Ling couldn't accept this fact, and even refused to see the child and refused to breastfeed the child.

The doctor had never seen such a mother. Others gave birth to a son who was so happy, but this family seemed to have given birth to a freak.

Lu Beichuan knew Dai Ling's crux and understood that she still couldn't let Lu Yao go, so he carried Lu Siyao to the ward and said to her: "If you want a girl, raise the child as a girl, it's all from you Meat, you just have the heart to ignore it.”

Lu Beichuan originally wanted Dai Ling to accept Lu Siyao first. The baby had no milk for a few days after birth, and he didn't even have the strength to cry. It really hurts her.

It was this sentence that moved Dai Ling. She felt that her husband was right, and that Lu Beichuan was in the same camp as her.They had no son, never had, she had only this daughter.

Dai Ling named the child "Siyao", but Lu Beichuan changed it to "Siyao" without telling Dai Ling when he registered for household registration.

Dai Ling gradually became happier, and her spirits improved a lot. Every day, she hugged Lu Siyao lovingly, called Lu Yao by her nickname, and called him "妹囡".She loves this child even more, and she is like a soldier, and no one or anything that may hurt the child is allowed to appear.

Lu Siyao was not born at full term, and was weak when he was young. Dai Ling took good care of him day and night, and raised him to be fat and white.

Dai Ling bought a small skirt for Lu Siyao, gave him long hair and tied it with a bow.

Lu Siyao and Lu Yao looked so much alike, almost identical, sometimes Lu Beichuan would look at him in a daze, wondering if Lu Yao really came back.

When boys were young, wearing skirts was cute and fun. Even if they felt wrong or shouldn't, they wouldn't stop them too violently.

Lu Siyao was raised by Dai Ling as a girl for five years, even he himself thought he was a girl, and Dai Ling taught him to squat to pee.

When she was five years old, Dai Ling's mother, Lu Siyao's grandmother, fell ill, and Dai Ling had to take care of the elderly. Although she was worried, Dai Ling really had no means to spare. It was the first time that Lu Siyao left her mother after she was born.

He was taken to the countryside by his grandmother.

The days with grandma were short but happy. The old lady had long been displeased with her daughter-in-law's sick education. On the day she received Lu Siyao, she took him to have his hair cut, changed his skirt, and put him on shorts.

Lu Siyao was ignorant, but he was very obedient, neither crying nor making trouble.

There are many young boys of the same age in the countryside, rolling and running around on the ground all day long, and the old lady asked Lu Siyao to play with them.

At first Lu Siyao didn't get used to it. He was so well protected by Dai Ling that he hadn't bumped into him much, but how could he not get hurt when he was with a boy.

Lu Siyao fell several times and broke his knees and legs.

The old lady also felt distressed, and when she applied medicine to Lu Siyao at night, she asked him, "Xiaobao, are you crying?"

With tears in his eyes, Lu Siyao asked grandma to whine, nodded and said it hurts.

The old lady was determined not to coax him, and said: "A man does not cry easily, so you are not allowed to cry."

It was difficult for a five-year-old child to learn not to cry, but Dai Ling's deformed education forced the old lady to quickly teach Lu Siyao how to be a boy, otherwise big troubles would happen in the future.

Lu Siyao grew up rapidly around the old lady, and the influence between the children was great. Within a few days, Lu Siyao was playing wildly with those bratty children. He lost Dai Ling and forced him to His girls are soft and skinny, and they will bully other people's little girls.

But then another day, Lu Siyao came home with red eyes, and now he will hold back his tears.

The old lady asked what was wrong with him, Lu Siyao rubbed his eyes and said, "Eggy made fun of me for peeing, calling me a girl!"

Only that day did the old lady know that her grandson had been squatting to pee.

At that time, her eyes were red with anger, and she called Lu Beichuan, asking him how he taught the child, a good boy, why did he squat down to pee.

Lu Beichuan is busy with work and sometimes has no time to take care of his family, and Dai Ling doesn't let him take care of the children's affairs: "Mom, Xiaoling hasn't let go of that matter yet, you take care of the children, break it up, and I'll talk to Xiaoling again." go talk."

"You didn't give birth to the child? You let your wife ruin it like this? Don't worry about it. I'll take Xiaobao back to live in Haicheng. I still don't believe it. I can make a good grandson for you to raise a granddaughter!"

The old lady left as soon as she said she wanted to. She packed her luggage that day and led Lu Siyao to Haicheng by train.

Lu Siyao, who went to Haicheng, completely separated from Dai Ling. Grandma lives in an alley, and there are many children here. He quickly got along with everyone here, playing football, shooting shotguns, and peeing standing up like other boys .

In order not to let Dai Ling take Lu Siyao away, the old lady directly enrolled Lu Siyao in Haicheng for elementary school.

Lu Siyao's grandmother left after half a year, and Dai Ling came to find her as soon as she left.

When she came, Lu Siyao was rolling in the mud, his short hair was neat and clean, and the suit overalls that the old lady bought for him were extremely dirty.

Dai Ling almost didn't recognize her. She dragged Lu Siyao's arm angrily, and wanted to take him back to Nancheng. Lu Siyao hadn't seen his mother for a long time. He was very happy at first, but his mother caught him in pain. He yelled "" Grandma", let grandma come and save him.

Everything after that was chaotic, the old lady refused to let Lu Siyao go back, Dai Ling told Lu Siyao to go back.She blamed the old lady for taking the child crookedly, cutting off her most beloved hair, and ruining her hard work.

The old lady was dissatisfied with her for a long time, and said: "Boys have short hair."

Lu Siyao was already playing wild here, and he was still getting angry, so he said, "Boys still have to pee standing up!"

That was the first time Dai Ling lost control of her emotions after Lu Siyao was born.

She screamed sharply, without the slightest gentleness of the past. She smashed things at home like a shrew, and said frantically: "This is my daughter! My daughter is my daughter! Don't try to take my daughter away!"

Lu Siyao was frightened and cried. The old lady hugged him and kept whispering in her ear: "You are a boy, you are a boy, don't listen to your mother, she is crazy."

In the end, Lu Beichuan stepped forward and interrupted the turmoil.

Dai Ling couldn't do without Lu Siyao, and Lu Beichuan promised the old lady that he would no longer wear skirts for him, nor would he squat down to pee, so the old lady agreed to take Lu Siyao home.

But Haicheng is so far away from Nancheng, and Lu Beichuan is busy with work, and he will not be home for ten and a half months when he is on a business trip, so he has no control over Dai Ling.

Not long after, Lu Siyao put on the skirt again and grew his hair.

He spent the six years of elementary school like this, wearing girls' clothes and playing with boys every day.When we were very young, we didn't think there was anything wrong. It used to be that boys and girls got together every day.

But it was different after high school.

Lu Siyao became the target of public criticism for his unconventional dressing. He still dressed like a girl, but went to the men's bathroom to pee.

He began to be isolated, ridiculed, bullied, and called "pervert" and "second chair".

When Lu Siyao came home, he tore off his hair. Dai Ling was startled and asked him what was wrong.

Lu Siyao looked at his mother angrily: "I'm not a pervert, I'm a boy!"

"What are you talking about, you're a girl." Years of self-hypnosis has made Dai Ling fully confirm that Lu Siyao is her daughter.

Lu Siyao has already started to grow taller, and the second characteristic is also developing.

Dai Ling turned a blind eye to these and was still misleading Lu Siyao: "Did you pee standing up again? Girls have to squat down to pee. Be careful not to be seen by boys."

Lu Siyao has blurred the concept of gender under years of misleading. He would say "I am a boy" because he felt the hostility brought about by "different".He doesn't want to be isolated, he wants to have lots of friends to play with like he did when he was a kid.

Wouldn't it be so weird if I listened to my mother and squatted to pee?

When going to the bathroom the next day, Lu Siyao went into the women's bathroom.

At first everyone didn't pay attention, because he had long hair and he was wearing a skirt, until he finished his toilet and stood up to lift his underwear.A girl on the opposite side stood up at the same time, and then screamed.

Lu Siyao finally realized that he was a monster. He was held in the office by his teacher and insulted by words.

I'm 13 years old, why can't I tell the difference between the men's and women's toilets? Did you mean it?

Such a small mind is so bad, why do you want to dress like this every day?

How exactly did your parents teach it, and why not?

During the two hours waiting for Dai Ling to come to fetch him, it was a shadow that Lu Siyao could never erase in his entire life.

Dai Ling came and told the teacher firmly that my family is a daughter, so she should go into the women's toilet.

The school felt that this family was all perverts, and refused to keep Lu Siyao any longer, so they let him go the next day.

It was also from that day that Lu Siyao became rebellious. He no longer wanted to wear skirts, grow his hair long, and cut it off in front of Dai Ling.

That hair has been raised for six years, and Dai Ling touches it every day, and she has taken care of it very well.Dai Ling was so angry that it was the first time she had fought with Lu Siyao. She beat his legs with a broom at home, forcing him to admit to himself "I'm just a girl".

For a long time after that, whenever Lu Siyao thought of wearing boy's clothes or having short hair, Dai Ling would beat him up.

Some bruises gradually appeared on his body, he stopped talking, and he didn't smile often, and he looked like a hedgehog.He couldn't beat Dai Ling, so he stimulated her with words, the more he refused to admit that he was a girl, the harder he beat her.

Lu Beichuan finally realized the seriousness of the problem.

At that time, Lu Siyao had already learned to cover his arms with bluffing tattoo stickers, and under those patterns were all the marks of being tortured by his mother himself.

In her first year of high school, Dai Ling committed suicide.

The reason was that she discovered that Lu Siyao had a wet dream.

The sweet dreams I have always had are like inflated balloons, easily punctured by those dirty liquids.

Dai Ling cut her own wrist without warning, and successfully scared her son who came home from school.

That was the first time Lu Siyao faced life and death. It is said that if he came home 10 minutes late, his mother would be gone.

Dai Ling lay in the hospital for a long time, and Lu Siyao and her have been fighting tit for tat for more than two years, and during that time they were surprisingly docile.

Grandma rushed over from Haicheng, and she was heartbroken when she saw her grandson's hair.

She cooked for Lu Siyao. Lu Siyao hadn't shed a tear for many years. Dai Ling beat him until his head was broken, but he cried during the meal that day.

He said, "Grandma, should I be a boy or a girl?"

Lu Siyao was too confused. His childhood and adolescence were always shrouded in a layer of gray fog. He lived in that fog, and there were all kinds of voices in his ears. Different voices tore him, telling him, you are girl, or you are a boy.

He couldn't see what he should be like.

He used to hate lace dresses and bow ties, but he seemed to lose his soul when he took them away.

Lu Siyao felt that he had merged with everything he hated. He couldn't live without skirts, and he couldn't live without long hair, so he wouldn't know who he really was.

That day the old lady was hugging Lu Siyao, and for the first time, the grandma who taught him that "a man doesn't cry easily" begged him to cry to his heart's content.

The old lady said: "Xiaobao, grandma won't force you anymore, you can be whatever you like, huh? You can be a boy or girl if you like, grandma loves you."

This sentence seemed to be a switch. After that day, Lu Siyao seemed to no longer care about other people's eyes. He really fell in love with the floral skirt under the morbid persistence of his mother. He could be a boy or a boy wearing a skirt. Son, he is beautiful, as a man can still live very beautifully, this is not contradictory.

He told everyone frankly that I am a man, but I just want to wear a skirt.I am different from others, but I am not a monster.

Only one thing, he refused to see Dai Ling again.

Dai Ling reminds him of those long years accompanied by pain and confusion. It was Lu Siyao's chaotic youth, and it was also a life he never wanted to look back on.

The first thing after learning to tattoo, Lu Siyao tattooed a huge and terrifying pattern on his arm.From the upper arm to the wrist, it is fully covered.

He's grown up, Dai Ling can't beat him anymore, and he doesn't need tattoo stickers to cover his scars anymore.

Lu Siyao was just used to it. Tattoos, like skirts and hair, were part of his body, and he couldn't lose them.

Liang Xiao's fingertips brushed against the uneven skin on Lu Siyao's arm, as if touching Lu Siyao's cracked soul.

"Liang Xiao," Lu Siyao squeezed Liang Xiao's fingers, there was no ups and downs in his voice, and there was no pain or hatred, "If you were me, do you think I should live as a boy or a girl?"

"This question..."

Liang Xiao refused to let him squeeze, grabbed Lu Siyao's waist and turned Lu Siyao around.

Lu Siyao's face was pale, showing deep tiredness, and his eyes were bloodshot.

"You, neither a boy nor a girl." Liang Xiao tapped the tip of Lu Siyao's nose with his fingers, rubbed against his shoulders stickyly, and said with a smile, "You are my Yaoyao."

The author has something to say: See you the day after tomorrow.