Eye of the Leopard

The first class of the second year of junior high school had good luck, and the next day's training was sunny.

Xu Yiqing and Yang Yue were eating noodles outside the school.He was so hot that he opened the freezer in the noodle shop after eating.Stacks of ice cream in the freezer.The two each take a Baxi.Yang Yue's chocolate flavor, Xu Yiqing's vanilla flavor.

They scooped ice cream back to school.

The people in the first class of the second grade were training in full swing on the playground.The football on the ground was kicked around.Huang Man stood on the sidelines.The spring sunshine is full of vigor and vitality.

They walk very slowly.

Because Yang Yue stopped from time to time, staring at the playground without taking his eyes off it.

Downstairs of the first teaching building, Xu Yiqing went to the trash can to throw away the ice cream box.When he came back, Yang Yue was crossing his arms and looking at his classmates.

Xu Yiqing said: "You can join them. I know you don't want to make friends. But there are still many circles between friends and strangers—acquaintances, playmates, partners, and colleagues after work. You can choose where to stop. One lap."

Yang Yue scooped up the last bite of ice cream, suspecting that Xu Yiqing was coaxing him.

Xu Yiqing realized: "I should shut up, the choice is yours."

Yang Yue walked to the third teaching building and said, "My chocolate flavor is not as good as your vanilla flavor."

Xu Yiqing said along the way: "Then next time we buy Baxi, you get vanilla."

Sure enough, he shut up on the right to choose.

"I don't know how to get along with Huang Man...with girls." Yang Yue walked back by himself, "They are very fragile. As soon as I raised my fist, their tears fell. If I get along with them , Do you have to let them? You get along very well with the girls in your class. You seem to be very experienced."

"Actually, I don't know how to get along with girls." Xu Yiqing scratched her head, "My parents just emphasized that I'm a boy and naturally stronger, so I can't do anything. I think girls are human too. There will be all kinds of human problems, cowardice and selfishness, and courage and independence. So don’t give in deliberately. Just get along with boys? But you can’t say pornographic jokes or casual physical contact. It would be like harassing them. But some girls will Take the initiative to tell me dirty jokes. I don't know what's going on."

Yang Yue said: "When you are embarrassed, you put on your face. Maybe others think your blushing is funny, so they come to provoke you."

Xu Yiqing said, "It makes sense."

Yang Yue turned his head and stared at the playground again.

"I'm an hour later than you. I'm idle." He stuffed the empty ice cream box to Xu Yiqing, and ran to the playground, "I'm going to play football, you go back to the classroom and prepare for class."

"Okay." Xiao Xu didn't care about his cold blood, and smiled and threw the ice cream box into the corner trash can.

Seeing Yang Yue approaching, Huang Man was overjoyed: "I'll just wait for you."

"I joined the team, other players have no objections?" Yang Yue asked.

"Whether they have an opinion or not depends on how well you play." Huang Man joked.

Yang Yue joined the team training and was sweating profusely.He played well, and the other players had no objections.

After that, he participated in the training of the class team every time.A teammate got excited and gave him a light punch.

The teammate's face turned pale: "Yang Yue, I'm sorry."

The meaning of the other party beating him seems to be the same as Xiao Xu occasionally beating him.

He didn't fight back: "...it's okay."

More and more teammates will come to beat him.After he scored, he was even lifted up to celebrate.

Xu Yiqing has class on Saturday.Yang Yue will go to the psychiatrist regularly after playing football.

The psychiatrist still tried to chat with him.

He never said anything.Because he felt that he had nothing to say.He saw a psychiatrist for four years, to no avail.

But at the end of May, he suddenly said to the psychiatrist: "I want to stop the treatment. I think I will be fine. No violent rage, no eating disorder, no memory gap."

The therapist writes in a notebook and asks, "Did you meet someone? Through whom do you feel you can connect to the world?"

Yang Yue said: "A classmate. I will take risks with him."

Psychiatrist stops writing: "Leave school for adventure?"

Yang Yue said: "No, just take risks in school. Adventures are very interesting, and adventures make life less mediocre and repetitive."

"Maybe it's an illusion," the therapist said. "You can hardly have an intimate relationship with anyone, because you can't accept a relationship ending, because you will prevent parting."

Yang Yue thought: She tried to provoke me.She didn't want to lose me as a client.

He calmly said, "I have known him for more than half a year, and we have never touched him. I think it's okay."

The psychiatrist said: "You will say goodbye to him eventually. Yang Yue, don't overcompensate for control at that time."

Yang Yue didn't want to hear it.

He said, "Goodbye," and ran back to school for practice.

After the team disbanded, he called his grandmother under the sweet-scented osmanthus tree and asked to stop the psychiatrist consultation.

He tried his best to convince his grandma: "I am back to health, and I haven't fought any more this semester. I can basically control myself, and there is no need to see a psychiatrist. She has been procrastinating and cheating money."

"No." Grandma refused, "Yang Yue, if you don't show up to the doctor on time, I will stop your credit card and living expenses."

He looked at the horizontal bars and parallel bars exercise equipment next to him, maintaining his emotional stability.

He said, "How much do you have to do?"

He didn't yell at Granny directly.

Grandma let go: "I'll make a phone call."

He gripped his phone tightly and waited in place.

Five minutes later, grandma called back.

Grandma said: "I asked your doctor. She recognized that your condition is stable. If you don't want to go, stop for a while. But if you have any questions, I will still make an appointment with the doctor."

Based on professional ethics, the psychiatrist approved him as stable.

Yang Yue hung up the phone.The light-transmitting trees image countless smiling faces.

Control of the outside world was returning to him bit by bit.Even if it is the same as whether to play football, the things he can decide on his own are still relatively trivial.

It feels good.

At the beginning of June, the junior high school started the football league.

The game time is chosen at noon or afternoon, which will not affect the students' studies.On the grand staircase, Xu Yiqing always sat among the junior high school students.

After playing the ball, he ran to Xu Yiqing's side smelling badly all over his body.

Xu Yiqing often dealt with the strike-ups of girls in junior high school.

"No, you're fine. I have to take the college entrance examination, so I really can't date you." Xu Yiqing held up an iced cola and tried to be sincere to the little girl.The dimples are so sweet.

"Go away." Yang Yue chased people away for him.The little girl pouted and ran away.

"You are very popular." Yang Yue said without hesitation, "It fits those girls' fantasies about a little brother."

"You are also very popular. Someone asked me about you." Xu Yiqing said, "It's just that people dare not approach Brother Ku."

Yang Yueyuwei is still alive, and girls who like him are worried about their lives.Youth sadomasochism is enough to read in novels, but you must never practice it yourself.

"Why don't you accept it?" Yang Yue said, "That girl is quite beautiful." The sun is so good today, Yang Yue intends to confess his love.

"She's at most 14 years old." Xu Yiqing said, "I'm not that crazy yet."

Yang Yue snatched his ice-cola and tested him: "When the college entrance examination is over, do you want to confess your love to a girl in the same grade?"

"We'll talk about it when the time comes." Xu Yiqing didn't deny it, and dragged the iced cola back from his hand, "Just after exercising, you have to drink iced cola at least half an hour later."

They went to eat.After eating, Xu Yiqing handed him an iced Coke.

He sipped on an ice-cola, remembering that Xu Yiqing had never denied confessing to a girl of the same age, he gave up the idea of ​​confessing.

And he didn't understand, how could the only friend be interested in vulgar and boring things?Xiao Xu should be more refined and interesting.

There is still one year before Xiao Xu leaves school for the college entrance examination, so don't worry too much.At present, not only he will wait for Xiao Xu to eat, but Xiao Xu will also watch him play games.

It feels good too.

Class [-] of the second year of junior high school failed to win the championship, but Yang Yue became the forward of the school team.

After they finished the final exam, Zhang Zhengdao returned to school with a silver medal in the International Olympiad.He, Xu Yiqing and Xu Yiqing's classmates went to the Internet cafe to play games.

The Internet cafe dropped the line once.Everyone else is scolding.Cai Yusong said, "Fuck, what a broken net."

Yang Yue said: "Waiting to fix it, scolding is useless."

Cai Yusong stared at him.

The phone rang.After answering the phone, Yang Yue said, "Xiao Xu, I'm in the school team and play forward."

"Congratulations." Xu Yiqing congratulated.

Cai Yusong said, "Amazing."

After playing the game, Cai Yusong said: "I want to move from the dormitory to the Ivy League campus. Can you help me move the dormitory?"

He, Xu Yiqing, Zhang Zhengdao and Xu Yiqing's former roommates moved to the dormitory.Zhang Zhengdao went down with a bundle of mats.The sports committee member and Chen Haozhe went out carrying Cai Yusong's mattress.

Cai Yusong opened the locker and picked up the last feather bed, "Do you have any small things that you need? I'm too lazy to carry them, so I'll give them to you. Except for school uniforms."

"I can't wear your school uniform either." Xu Yiqing said.Yang Yue took the duvet from him and carried it to the truck downstairs.

Cai Yusong glanced at Yang Yue's back, and said to his friend, "Xiao Xu, be careful with Yang Yue."

Xu Yiqing said: "You still hate him? It's been so long since you fought with him. You've also played countless games with him."

"It's not because I fought with him." Cai Yusong pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, "Yang Yue is like a ticking time bomb, but now he is calmer than before, and he is as calm as you when the Internet is disconnected. You can't tell it like this Where will he count down, and when will he explode. It is difficult to change the way people do things. I don't believe he will become a Bodhisattva."

"You have never been able to get along well with him." Xu Yiqing defended another friend of hers, "He never hurt anyone again, let alone exploded at me. Every time I communicate with him, it's pretty smooth."

"I wish you and him will always stand on the same side." Cai Yusong said, "Let's not talk about it, I will treat you to hot pot after moving to the dormitory."