After being seized by the pillow man

There was a sound of wind outside the house, the cold winter wind carried Ling Ling's coldness, the sound whizzed past, it seemed that it was still the time in memory.

Countless silhouettes flashed in front of him, and then swayed in an instant, as if all the sad and powerless past had passed away, and nothing could hurt him or leave an indelible mark in his heart.

There were no waves on Yin Yansheng's deliberately suppressed face, he now had an unfathomable calmness, Grandma Yin looked at this child and was speechless for a while.

She didn't understand why the child could drift away from the Yin family because he hadn't contacted his own father for many years because of a cat.

That's just a cat.

Yin Duo next to her opened her eyes and looked towards this side. Her hair was a little yellow, and when she turned her head slightly, the soft hair fluttered gently, and her eyes were a little curious.

She summoned up her courage and whispered, "Brother, do you like cats? I do too."

No matter what Yin Yansheng said, he would never vent his anger on a girl who was in primary school, he just said 'hmm' and didn't talk about it much.

Yin Duo smiled, took a photo from the edge of the mirror and walked up to Yin Yansheng: "Look, this is my puppy."

A photo taken at home, the background is a beige sofa, a group photo of a person and a dog, the dog is a Chinese pastoral dog, with a little yellow on its body, and it looks smart when lying on its stomach with its tongue out.

Yin Duo smiled embarrassedly: "I actually wanted to raise a cat, but that day my mother and I picked up a puppy on the road, and we raised it."

The little girl at this age is innocent and lively. Once she finds that she has something in common with others, she feels close, as if a barrier has been broken, and she talks more.

"The dog's name is Rhubarb, and it's very good. I can learn everything I teach it once. It's still waiting downstairs to pick me up after school."

When Yin Duo talked about her little dog, she had a smile on her face. Although she said she wanted to raise a cat at first, she obviously liked Rhubarb very much, and introduced it to others like a treasure.

Yin Yansheng looked at the photo in her hand and said, "Well, very good."

Yin Duo was even happier.

Grandma Yin glanced at her granddaughter, feeling a little helpless in her eyes.

Yin Zicheng held the mobile phone with his left hand, and kept his eyes on the screen. He raised his eyes only occasionally when he heard something, and then quickly lowered his head after a few seconds, seemingly unintentionally.

He is already the age of the governor, and he is less innocent than his sister.

The elder brother in name in front of him has a good appearance and an extraordinary temperament. He wears expensive clothes on his body, and his homecoming is enviable. It can be seen that these years have been very good.

His heart moved slightly.

I can't tell what it feels like, but someone from the same starting point is standing at an insurmountable height, as if getting up from the mud, but there is no mud on his body, and he can look down on it all when he looks back.

He wanted to escape from this family, to go far away, to go to university in a far away place, and to think that no one knew him.

But now there is one standing in front of him, as if the person he most wants to be is standing in front of him alive, telling him that everything is feasible.

Yin Zicheng lowered his eyes, his eyelashes trembling slightly.

Yin Yansheng didn't know what Yin Zicheng was thinking, he just looked at Grandma Yin, and said, "Grandma, I'm leaving today."

Grandma Yin rubbed her hands in embarrassment: "I'm leaving so soon."

Yin Yan responded, and immediately took out the wallet from his pocket. The black wallet was shiny and shiny, and his slender white fingers took out a card from it. He handed it to Grandma Yin: "Grandma, here is a little heart from me." .”

Grandma Yin hurriedly waved her hands, pushed her away, and said in a panic: "No, no, I don't want it, I don't want it." Her rough palms were deformed and bulged from the joints, and there was a tingling sensation when they touched her hands: "You guys It's not easy to make money, I can't take this money, you take it and buy something for your grandma."

Wrinkles appeared on her face, her cheeks were weather-beaten, and even her voice was tired and old: "We didn't do anything for you, and it's your own business if you live well now. Your grandma should also take medicine now, and there are so many places to spend money now." , you keep it for yourself."

A thin card was pushed over, and it felt a bit painful in the palm of his hand. Seeing her firm attitude, Yin Yansheng just lowered his eyes and put it away, then got up and said, "Grandma, take care."

He had already told Xi Han that he was leaving today, and Xi Jiaojiao said to pick him up.

Grandma Yin got up in a panic, and followed a few steps forward: "Then how do you go, I don't know if there is a car at the station now, let your father see you off."

Father Yin has a small black car, which he has left at home for a few days.

Yin Yansheng said: "No, someone is coming to pick me up."

After leaving the small courtyard, the cold air rushed towards my face, and the warmth accumulated in the room now disappeared little by little. Yin Yan said: "Grandma, you don't have to see me off, go back."

Grandma Yin was about to come, and Li Wenjuan saw it and hurriedly stopped her: "Mom, you go back and rest, it's so cold outside, be careful of catching a cold when you come out." The old man's body is not as strong as that of a young man, and his immunity is weakened, so he gets sick easily.

She said, "I'm going to see Xiao Yin off."

Grandma Yin has been standing outside the door, watching this tall and thin young man standing upright like a pine tree in the cold wind, tall and thin.

She said, "Wenjuan, then you can go see him off."

Li Wenjuan complied and let Grandma Yin enter the house, and she and Yin Yansheng went out. Yin Duo watched them go out, and she joined in the fun and followed. Yin Zicheng paused and followed.

Out of the vermilion iron gate is the concrete road in the village.

It was a winter morning at this time, the wind was very cold, there was no one outside, only the sound of a few people walking on the cement road.

Occasionally, the wind blows up the leaves that have fallen in autumn, and then falls to the feet with mud and dust, and the yellow and muddy leaves tremble.

After leaving the door, he said in a polite voice, "Auntie, you don't need to see me off when you go back."

Li Wenjuan looked at the person in front of her. She was tall and tall. She was wearing a high-collar cotton base and a long wool coat. When she was thin and pale, traces of cheekbones can be seen on the side face, and some indifference can be faintly glimpsed from the face, but more of it is cold and tough.

He looks like but not like when he was a child, he looks reborn, except for a pair of eyes that are still dark.

She felt a little complicated, she pulled up the collar to cover her chin and said, "It's okay, I'll see you off later."

Yin Yansheng stopped in his tracks, and handed the card that was intended for Grandma Yin to Li Wenjuan.

Li Wenjuan was stunned for a moment, and just when she was about to refuse, she heard Yin Yan say: "Auntie, take it." The tone that could not be refused was strong.

Yin Yansheng said: "When my grandma and I first lived together, he gave us living expenses."

Li Wenjuan was taken aback for a moment, she knew that the "he" in Yin Yansheng's mouth was referring to Yin's father.

At this deserted intersection, on the cement road with only the sound of wind and fallen leaves, she heard Yin Yan say: "I have always wanted to pay him back, and now I can do it. It is not filial piety for me to do this. I don't want to owe him anything." .”

Li Wenjuan opened her mouth: "He should raise you." In her heart, it is only natural for parents to raise children.

Yin Yansheng shook his head, but said indifferently: "I won't give him a pension in the future, and I won't come back if there is no major event in the future. You take the money and give it to him. You can either use it as a household, or give it to grandma for the elderly, or buy a house." You can buy a car, you can do anything.”

Li Wenjuan didn't know whether to take it or not.

The meaning of the other party is very clear. This is the money to buy out the love and kindness.

According to the current situation, Yin Yansheng's life is better than theirs, and the other party also gave the money with the meaning of 'don't come to me in the future'.If she doesn't answer, it may also cause trouble to the other party. Sometimes debts of favor are harder to pay than money debts.

Yin Yansheng's hand was still outstretched, and a card was pinched between his bony fingers. The golden card was shining brightly, shining endlessly in this winter day.

Li Wenjuan was silent for a long time: "Auntie continues, you will be fine in the future."

Yin Yansheng nodded casually, put his hands in his pockets, and slowly covered the heat.

The two children behind her did not speak, and they had already reached the intersection. Li Wenjuan saw a black car parked there. Her face was red from the cold, and she covered her face with her hands. Her hands were also red, and she had lost consciousness.

She said, "Xiao Yin, Auntie is sorry for you."

Yin Yansheng said: "You have nothing to do to me." Li Wenjuan was introverted. Since she married Yin's father, she did not treat him harshly. She did laundry, cooking and housework.

Li Wenjuan moved her lips and said in a low voice, "If I hadn't had Zicheng back then, he wouldn't have thrown your cat away."

Yin Yansheng would not have walked nearly seven miles along the road to find a cat, and then lived with his grandma in the end.

Yin Yan's voice suddenly stopped, and he said coldly, "He said he threw the cat because you were pregnant?"

Li Wenjuan didn't understand why he reacted so suddenly, she pinched the corner of her clothes: "That's what he said."

After Yin Yansheng disappeared, everyone in the family went out to look for them, and they didn’t come home until midnight. She was pregnant and stayed at home until midnight when Yin’s father came back and said that she lost her cat because of her pregnancy. Since then, her heart has always been for Yin Yansheng. There is a sense of guilt.

Yin Yansheng closed his eyes and almost sneered.

At that time, he thought the cat ran away by himself, but later he found out that he threw it out because the cat scratched him.

Now he tells Li Wenjuan that the cat was lost because of her pregnancy. Father Yin will always pass the responsibility on to others, and make excuses for himself as soon as something happens.

He closed his eyes and said to Li Wenjuan, "Don't let him hold you in the future."

Li Wenjuan froze for a moment, and was about to say something when she saw Yin Yansheng was already walking towards the car.

The car window was lowered, and a hand was put on the edge of the window, with a cigarette between its fingers. When the ash fell to the ground, the flash of bright color on the hand could be faintly seen.

He watched Yin Yansheng get into the car, then the car rolled past, the taillights flashed, and disappeared at the intersection.

Li Wenjuan looked at the two children and said, "Let's go, we should go back too."

Yin Duo held her mother's hand, raised her head and asked, "That brother is gone, will he come back in the future?"

Li Wenjuan said, "He probably won't come back."

When the group returned home, Yin Zicheng came in while Li Wenjuan was busy. He was half-grown and taller than his mother, with bangs covering his forehead, looking shy.

Yin Zicheng looked at his mother for a while, and pretended to say unintentionally: "Mom, did you see anyone who came to pick you up today?"

When he lowered the car window, he caught a glimpse of it by chance, and only remembered the well-defined side face, with jade-white skin, noble and indifferent.

The man looked at Yin Yansheng with unique eyes, cold and deep eyes, and there was a smile in his eyes when he saw someone.

And the ring on the left hand...

Li Wenjuan was so busy with the matter in hand that she didn't even raise her head: "I didn't pay attention."

Yin Zicheng was tentative: "I saw the ring on that man's hand." He deliberately stopped here to observe his mother's expression.

Li Wenjuan laughed and said, "What's the matter, you want to marry a wife too?"

Yin Zicheng said softly: "I think his ring is very similar to brother's, it may be a pair."

This was the first time he talked about his sexual orientation in front of his mother, and the hands in his pockets were unconsciously clasped together.

Li Wenjuan's face tightened, and she lowered her voice to warn: "You can't talk nonsense, he is married."

"But people of the same sex were allowed to marry two years ago."

The movement of Li Wenjuan's hands stopped suddenly, and after thinking about it, she said, "It's fine if you tell me this, don't tell your father."

Yin Zicheng nodded.

He looked out of the window, in the square courtyard, the sky he saw was cut out in a rectangle, people stayed inside, and there was only a little space as far as he could see.

Yin Zicheng lowered his eyes and stopped talking.

The interior of the car was warm and smelled of tobacco.

The window on Xi Han's left was open, and the cold wind blew in, taking away some of the smell.

He watched Yin Yansheng come in, put out the cigarette and raised the window, and said in a warm voice, "Are you tired these days?"

Yin Yansheng was sitting on the co-pilot, and he leaned back this time: "I'm not too tired."

Xi Han turned his body to the right, stretched out his hand to embrace him, he felt the warmth of the child's hand, and said: "I heard that you are weak when you call me at night."

The two chatted on the phone at night, Yin Yan's voice was low and soft, as if he was afraid of alarming something.

Yin Yansheng pursed his lips, he seemed to have lost his coldness at this moment, he leaned on Xi Han's shoulder in silence for a while, and then he seemed to be emotional: "I'm not very happy."

It's not normal to be happy about this kind of thing.

Yin Yansheng suddenly remembered the ambiguity in his words, and explained: "It's not that happy, but..." He frowned, as if thinking about how to express himself in words: "I'm not happy when I see my father .”

Wheat awns on hands or gravel in shoes are neither fatal nor obvious nor unbearable, but as long as they are seen, they will always remind people of those bad things.

He thought that now he could ignore that feeling from the past, but when he saw Father Yin, that discomfort came up again.

Xi Han put his hands on Yin Yansheng's back, as if he was comforting a cat that smelled lemon juice, just stroking it one after another, without lust.

Yin Yansheng was really coaxed, he could feel the silent comfort from Shenhan, reassuring and quiet.

Yin Yansheng closed his eyes, sniffed Xi Jiaojiao's breath and said, "I'm very late." The other children already know how to call parents, and he can't even say some simple repetitions.

"I've seen it before, and I've checked everywhere, but it's not good." Physically, everything is normal, the development of oral and vocal cords is normal, and there is no problem with intelligence, but I just can't speak.

Yin Yansheng spoke softly, with an extremely slight grievance that he didn't notice in his tone: "He just called me dumb."

I used to dare not bark when my mother was around, but later I would bark when my mother was upset when she left.

Xi Han paused, then turned to look at the kid Yin Yansheng, he gently raised his chin, always suspicious that there were tears on it.

After taking a look, I was relieved.

Yin Yan said: "I can speak now." He is clearly able to speak now, but he still can't forget the time when he was called dumb by his own father.

Some of the wounds had scabbed over, and even the scars were gone, and he still felt pain when pressed.

Quietly, I didn't even know it was going to hurt like this.It seemed that he hadn't gotten better at all, the scars had been engraved into his flesh, riddled with holes, and he was always with him, possibly for the rest of his life.

It will take him a long time to heal.

Xi Han turned his head and kissed Yin Yansheng's forehead, he said, "Actually, I have also been scolded before."

Yin Yansheng looked at Xi Jiaojiao, she was good-looking, and she didn't look like a not-so-intelligent child, not to mention her family, why would such a person be scolded for?

Xi Han said with a smile: "Later, I figured it out. If he doesn't make me happy, I won't make him happy either." His tone was very casual and careless.

Just like when he was called a wild species by his own father when he was young, he was so calm and breezy.

After a moment, Xi Han said: "Let's go, kid, let's go home."