your indifference is hot

On... wait!I am male!How could I like someone of the same sex as me!

I began to disbelieve my feelings, but every time I see my seniors, I can't take my eyes off!After the reception for freshmen, I no longer have any relationship with the seniors. We are not in the same class, nor in the same class!I am very troubled, the desire to meet seniors is increasing every day!

The senior likes to play football. He will play football on the playground for a while between classes and after lunch, so I, who often fail in sports, made up my mind to learn to play football. It took me two days to learn all the rules about football. I wrote it all down.

Then I practice playing football every day in the backyard of my home, finally!I mustered up the courage to talk to the senior, joined his team, followed him every day and looked at him without daring to speak too much.

The senior said that my game skills are good and I am very talented, don't mention how happy I am!The senior is the first person who remembers my full name except my family members, and also the first person who makes me feel that going to school is such a happy thing!

I can have a simple conversation with the senior. His personality is so sunny, like the sun in the sky, giving people warmth.The weather was very hot that day, I ran to buy water for the senior, and took pictures for a long time, but when I came back, I saw the senior staring at a handsome boy.

That boy is the person that the senior always pays attention to, I don't know why, every time the senior's eyes move to that boy, I feel very depressed, so depressed... I can't wait to turn the senior's head to my side!

I ran to the senior, "Senior, are you thirsty?" I handed the mineral water in front of the senior, the senior took the water absent-mindedly, then bypassed me, and ran towards the boy lying on the ground...

Not reconciled!Why are you so unhappy? !It was the first time I had a temper tantrum with my senior. I didn’t play football for many days, and the senior didn’t seem to play football for a long time. That day, the class table was spoofed by classmates!I don't know why the classmates regard me as a cold person. Is it because I don't like to talk or don't want to participate in class activities?

Because playing football requires good physical strength, I insist on exercising and running in the morning every day.So now I don't feel as weak as I was in elementary school and junior high school.I lifted the table and walked to the top floor, but saw the senior with a gloomy expression, leaning against the wall beside the stairs, thinking of something.

This is the first time I have seen such a sad senior. I heard a boy crying. I can guess that who else can make the senior feel so heartbroken?

I turned around and went downstairs, and I could feel from the corner of my eye that the senior saw me, but I didn't want to stay any longer, because I didn't want to see him who gave so much and didn't need anything in return, I felt unworthy for him!

Why!The people in his eyes...

not me……

please look back at me

After school that day, I was walking in front of the school gate and saw the senior's back. I really wanted to pretend I didn't see it, but I couldn't.I ran over to talk to you, but you don't seem to be in a good mood.

But when you saw me, you didn't show a trace of sadness. I knew you didn't want us to worry, so you didn't ask any more questions, and you didn't try to persuade me. About the top floor."

In order not to embarrass each other in the future, I decided to play dumb, so I looked at your sad eyes with a blank smile and replied, "Huh? What's the matter? I've forgotten it a long time ago."

Because grandpa suddenly became seriously ill and was admitted to the hospital, he took a leave of absence for a period of time, and grandpa passed away.I went back to school, and not long after, I heard that the senior was dating that boy.If I used to be unable to bear this kind of blow, but now I am different, although very sad, I went home and cried for a long time.

My parents thought I was sad because of my grandpa, but they didn't know that besides my grandpa, my seniors made me sad even more.

In the end, I still couldn't stand it, and got seriously ill!I figured it out, and the fever went away. Isn't it great that the senior has found his own happiness?I laugh at my own weakness, incompetence!After a day off, I continued my studies.

Senior... You may not have noticed that I have been watching you not far behind you, but it is too late, I really want to leave, leave this sad place.

The relationship between the senior and that boy didn't seem to be as smooth as it seemed on the surface. There was an impassable door between them, and that door locked the senior out today!and the end of eternity...

I saw the senior and a well-known transfer student from the school come out, and the transfer student seemed to be entangled with the boy the senior liked. The atmosphere between the two was very bad. I was afraid that something might happen to the senior. It's not easy to intervene!So thinking of that boy, I ran into his class desperately, and pulled him out before I could explain.

"Hey! Where are you taking me?" The boy shook off my hand fiercely, with reluctance written all over his delicate face!

Sure enough, the senior has a good vision. This boy is much better than myself, and I feel inferior in my heart.Then, thinking that now is not the time to talk about these things, I ran a little anxiously, panting heavily, unable to say a whole sentence, "Senior! Senior Peng Rui, he...he and senior Jin Shengxuan..."

"What! Where are they?!" The boy opposite seemed to understand my flower, panicked, and asked anxiously.

After pointing to the teaching building, I swallowed and replied, "It's in a blind spot."

He ran downstairs and disappeared from my eyes. Maybe I was unnecessary, but I was afraid that the senior would get hurt, hurt him, and hurt my heart...

I hid beside the teaching building, and heard the senior smile wryly, his voice was downcast, and he warned the transfer student deeply, "If you hurt him, I will never forgive you!" In seconds, he entered the teaching building.

I followed him not far away, I am stupid and can't speak, I want to comfort the senior, but I don't know how to persuade him!The senior walked to the top floor, and he stood there for a long time, just in a daze, neither crying nor complaining.

I stood at the stairs and didn't dare to lean forward. I was afraid that you would hate me, senior, and that you would blame me for meddling in my own business!Seeing the senior turn around, apply for a sad look at me, then sit down weakly, lowered his head, his shoulders began to tremble slightly.

I'm sorry senior! !I didn't hold back my emotions. Seeing you like this, I really want to give that boy a hard punch and tell him loudly!How blind he was!Why not cherish you senior? !

I walked by, and for the first time, I called the senior by his name, "Peng Rui!"

You raised that face full of tears to look at me, the expression is so helpless, it is so distressing!I clenched my fists and hugged you hard, I'm tired of this passive feeling!He doesn't cherish you, so let me take the place of "Senior, in fact, I have been watching your dedication, and I know that I am not qualified to say these things! But, I only hope that you can look back, and I will stand by you." Behind me, I have been waiting for you!"

I don't know what your expression is now, I dare not let go of your hand, I'm afraid you will reject me.So I hug you like this, and tell you what I have always wanted to say in my heart: "Senior, I like you, no! Senior, I love you, I love you very much, even if the person you don't like now is not me, it doesn't matter... "

Finally, I said what I had been hiding in my heart for half a year, your hands responded to me, and you hugged me tightly, maybe you were sympathizing with me for what I did, just like you did at the beginning.But I don't care, even if it is sympathy, I will continue to love you!It is you who let me see such a beautiful scenery, and it is you who make my life full of warmth.

I firmly believe that this is not the end!Because this is just the beginning, the beginning of my encounter with you...

The author has something to say:

Hee hee, because every male character in Wenwen loves them very much, so I really don't want Peng Ruijun to just give and get nothing in return, so I buried a little scepter by his side from the beginning.Haha, in this way, everyone has their own love, and there is no regret.And this article is also over, please look forward to my next work!ok~