On the consequences of wearing it back to save yourself

Gu Jianchen was indeed very irritable, he was not a fool, and he guessed that there might be an inside story about what happened last night.Lu Xiu told him early on that he should learn to adjust his mentality, he was calming down last night until before going to bed, and he was also very calm when facing Zhu Xia and the others.

It's just that there was a burst of qi that came up out of nowhere, and when he didn't pay attention, it got stuck in his heart, and the blockage got bigger and bigger, and when he woke up in the morning, it had already filled his entire chest cavity.

In essence, he is not a very confident person.

In detail, he himself felt weird—all his confidence came from Lu Xiu—when Lu Xiu beat him mercilessly.

And this sense of self-confidence is getting stronger and stronger.

Because of his family background, he has never been scolded in any way, whether he has been studying since he was a child, or in interest classes.Even if you make a mistake, others will selectively ignore it.

Over time, many things became his own business.

Later, when both his parents had accidents, he would rather treat himself as an invisible person.

In the past 16 years, Lu Xiu was the first person who scolded him to his heart's content.

But after scolding, he will tell himself right or wrong, how to correct it, be strict but patient.

In the beginning, his little self-confidence was also shattered by Lu Xiu's merciless blows again and again, but he would soon lead him to recast a stronger wall than before, accumulating layers upon layers.

And...he was always the first to discover his mood swings...and then reversed his low mood in a more domineering way, time and time again, he was almost used to it.

So when Lu Xiu gave the promotion card to a student in Du Juncheng's class last night, he was shocked and even a little confused.

He ran to the door of Lu Xiu's suite at twelve o'clock last night, opened the door, was chilled by the suffocating silence and spreading darkness inside, and then suddenly remembered that Lu Xiu had asked for leave.

Lu Xiu didn't hear from him all night, and he didn't contact him at all this morning, and he couldn't find Lu Xiu... There was always an unsecured prison in his mind, and it was himself who was trapped.Lu Xiu is special to him, he always seems to know what kind of key to forge.

He was eager to know the true level of his performance last night, especially after being denied by others, even seemed to be denied by Lu Xiu, his need was even stronger.

He doesn't need Lu Xiu to tell him "you are excellent", he just wants a precious "seek truth from facts".

For various reasons, everyone wears various masks and speaks all kinds of unrealistic things. In this environment, he can't find the truth, can't find his true self...Only Lu Xiu will tell him, " You actually are."

He would not admit that when he failed the ranking, the fact that Lu Xiu gave the promotion card to someone else gave him a stab in the heart.

Just like this time, he is not afraid of being denied by others, but he is afraid of Lu Xiu.

This kind of emotion has been brewing from last night to noon, and it has already become thunderous.

Originally feeling uncomfortable, Director Liu personally brought the phone over and told her, "Mr. Gu is calling."

Every time he called, there must be no good phone calls, he became more irritable.

Almost at the same time as he heard Gu Jianchen's voice, Gu Jinzhe's finally relaxed expression froze back again, and the temperature of his voice soared from [-] to [-] altitude, as if he had been cast by a spell, and suddenly changed back to a serious group people in power.

"Let's have dinner together tonight."

He didn't even think about it: "The program team has arrangements."

"I'll tell Producer Lin."

Gu Jianchen perfunctory: "I'm very busy."

Gu Jinzhe: "You have three days to spare, what can you do?"

The reason for the three days of free time is to count the online rankings, and then the official resurrection results will be released based on the rankings.

Gu Jinzhe was undoubtedly poked at the sore spot, his voice was slightly cold: "So?"

Lu Xiu clicked his tongue slightly, feeling a little helpless.He typed and sent it to Gu Jinzhe—try to express your true emotions at the moment.

When Gu Jinzhe saw this line on the computer, he pursed his lips and fell silent for a moment.

Gu Jinzhe opened his mouth: "This variety show is just a variety show, and it's not up to par. If you don't feel comfortable staying here, you can quit."

Lu Xiu: "...??"

After Gu Jinzhe finished speaking, he saw Lu Xiu's micro-expression from the corner of the eye, and felt that he had probably lost his sense of proportion, but this sentence was indeed the most genuine emotion he has ever felt.

Gu Jinzhe knew that Gu Jianchen hated this topic very much, and he probably just woke up with him on the spot. Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, if he messes up, his weekly diary will not be easy to burn to his parents.

Lu Xiu sent him another line of text - Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, I haven't seen you for a long time, if possible, I would like to have a meal with you.

Gu Jinzhe was worried that he had nothing to say to reveal this, and when he saw Lu Xiu, he handed it to him thoughtfully, but this content... Gu Jinzhe looked embarrassed, and ruthlessly shortened the invitation to a dinner date full of friendship to "Gu Jinzhe is vigorous and resolute", Said: "Mid-Autumn Festival, let's have a meal together."

As it turned out, it didn't relieve the emotions at all. Instead, it added another layer of Gu Jianchen's anger. He suppressed not to explode, but his tone began to be tinged, and he said viciously: "Who are you eating with? You Should I eat or look for energy?" After a pause, as if he hadn't finished venting, he continued to output: "Gu Jinzhe, how many times do you want me to say it, you don't care about my affairs, I'm seventeen, and I'm going to be an adult soon!"

Lu Xiu—I want to care about you.

Gu Jinzhe said solemnly: "I see you lost the game, I'm afraid you're in a bad mood..."

There was a swear word over there.

Lu Xiu frowned, pointed to the rose chocolate mooncake that was a special gift from the coffee shop today, and typed - to change the subject.

Gu Jinzhe nodded, he originally planned to talk about this with Gu Jianchen.

"It's fine if you don't want to come back... Are there any mooncakes over there?"

Gu Jianchen suppressed the fire and said, "I didn't go out, I don't know."

There was a hint of joy and nostalgia in Gu Jinzhe's voice: "I bought you a lot, including fruit puree, mango, yellow peach and hawthorn. If you can't finish eating, you can share it with your friends."

Lu Xiu's expression fluctuated a little - there are thousands of mooncakes, but Gu Jianchen loves puree stuffing the most, especially mango and yellow peach.

But that was before Gu Jianchen was ten years old.Since Gu Jianchen was six years old, Gu Fuliang and Xiao Hanzhu divorced, Gu Jianchen followed his mother across the ocean to country A, and his elder brother followed his father to country Y across thousands of mountains.

He was not close to his father. In the first few years, he didn't feel that his parents' divorce had any impact on him. He just missed his brother sometimes, but his mother said that his father would not let them disturb his life.

Gu Jianchen read so hard that he would ask his mother for his brother.Fortunately, at that time, my brother would send them letters every half a month, which barely comforted Gu Jianchen's young heart.

Later, Gu Jianchen wrote back to Gu Jinzhe according to the address the letter sent. He was still young at that time, and he went abroad again. He didn't know enough Chinese characters, so he often mixed Chinese and English, and sometimes mixed immature paintings to express his meaning. .

Write every day, write about the new children you meet, write about what mother did today, write about what he learned today, write about the strange things in his eyes... in half a month, it will form a thick dozen, and wait for the next time to get the letter send out together.

But there is no Mid-Autumn Festival in country A, and his mother is very busy, so he didn't get the mooncake he wanted in the first year, so he wrote it down on the envelope. For half a month, he had to mention it every day. He wanted his brother to do it for him, and sent it to him - his brother was nearly ten years older than him. In his heart, his brother was omnipotent, and he always doted on him, better than his parents.

That year, two full months had passed since the Mid-Autumn Festival in China, and he only ate mooncakes. They were not as good-looking or delicious as those in China, but he was very happy.Later, every Mid-Autumn Festival, his mooncakes would be sent across the ocean to him.

Until the age of nine.

I don't believe it.

Gu Jianchen sent letters every two weeks until she was 11 years old, when her mother took her to move to another city.

He continued for another half a year, and was stopped by his mother's euphemistic request.

She probably meant that her brother and the others had already moved.

In the past two years, his complaints and grievances, his happy sharing, and his coquettish currying and begging for gifts and compliments have all been recycled into the trash can against the empty air.

Gu Jianchen paused for a moment this time, and then slowly said: "...I didn't like fruit puree for a long time."

Gu Jinzhe tightened his grip on the phone, the slight hope was like a bubble spit out by a fish from deep water, it only caused a tiny undetectable ripple on the water surface, and soon disappeared in the cold wind.His tone was very casual, and he said, "If you don't like it, just give it away. I also buy it casually."

Gu Jianchen: "It's hung up, it's inconvenient inside, don't call me if you have nothing to do."

Gu Jinzhe's fingers holding the phone tightened again and again, and he shouted dryly: "Jian Chen..." But he didn't know what to say next.

Because of this meaningless call, Gu Jianchen's hands stopped hanging up suddenly, and the stone blocked in his heart grew explosively, and it was so stuffy that it was about to explode.

He quickly said: "You don't have to feel uncomfortable, I will go out independently when I grow up."

Gu Jinzhe was stunned by the sound of the phone hanging up, and sat quietly for a while without speaking.

Lu Xiu: "..."

Gu Jinzhe increased or decreased according to his discretion, all the good ones were cut off, and all the gifts were mine.

The author has something to say: (screaming) I will definitely make this one end this month! ! (Do you believe it＠_＠)