Leisurely with the wind

He Zhengqing has never felt that she is a good person, of course, she is not a bad person, but she thinks she is a very principled person, but when it comes to Chu Suifeng, she has to admit that she has broken her own principles , The subsequent situation proved that people just can't do things that make them feel guilty, otherwise troubles will continue one after another.

Lin Keren's phone call made her feel extremely bored. Chu Suifeng is Xu Youran's knot, and it is also her knot. Why does Lin Keren think that he can make any decision for Chu Suifeng, or can influence Chu Suifeng? The will of the wind?

He Zhengqing has always felt that everything she did for Chu Suifeng was more like a kind of atonement, a measure to ease the pain of her conscience, so she never felt that she deserved Chu Suifeng's favor again and again. Thank you sincerely, that will only make her feel more depressed.

"Pang, bang, bang", the sound of knocking on the door so vigorously almost caused the old house to collapse, the dust falling from the ceiling above his head could already dye He Zhengqing's hair gray, he would knock on the door of his own house so vigorously, There was no one else except Lin Keren, that woman.

Although He Zhengqing didn't want to see this woman at this time, He Zhengqing had to wrong himself for the sake of his own door.

Opening the door, before He Zhengqing could say a word, Lin Keren pushed her aside, stepped on high heels and walked in domineeringly.

He Zhengqing felt annoyed once again, he shouldn't have been so kind in the first place, and brought Lin Keren home when she was in trouble. Looking at the consequences, he couldn't even keep his last habitat.

"He Zhengqing, what do you mean! When I called you, you hung up before you finished speaking, and when you called again, you turned off the phone!"

He Zhengqing sat down on the sofa weakly, and said with a blank face: "If you have anything, you can go to Chu Suifeng and tell it yourself. You ask me how I know. What Chu Suifeng thinks is her business. Ask me, I'm not a roundworm in Chu Suifeng's stomach."

Lin Keren just wanted to get angry, but seeing that He Zhengqing's state was not right, under normal circumstances, shouldn't He Zhengqing also get angry at himself?Why do you look so weak today?

After reacting, Lin Ke noticed the strong smell of alcohol in the room. Looking at the wine bottles on the table and He Zhengqing's abnormal state, Lin Ke was a little worried, and his tone softened.

"What's the matter? Why did you drink so much wine so early in the morning?"

He Zhengqing leaned on the sofa impatiently, without even looking at Lin Keren, he said directly: "It's none of your business, just get out if you have nothing to do, don't be an eyesore here."

He Zhengqing's unceremonious words completely annoyed Lin Keren, she stood up angrily, and said loudly to He Zhengqing: "He Zhengqing, please find out, if you have something to send to the person who made you angry, I am not Your punching bag, it's okay, why are you angry at me!"

When Lin Keren said this, He Zhengqing also became angry, "The person who made me angry? Didn't the person who made me angry stand in front of me? Lin Keren, I beg you, okay, I met you Even if I am unlucky for eight lifetimes, I haven't met a single thing that suits my heart, can I beg you, please stop dangling in front of my eyes, will it work!"

Lin Keren's eyes turned red immediately when He Zhengqing said this, "He Zhengqing, do you have a conscience? Yes! I was the one who stalked you in the beginning, but what happened later? It was you who appeared in front of me afterwards , It’s not that I ran to hang out in front of you on purpose! If you say we’re together, I’ll keep an unclear relationship with you. If you say we’re separated, I’ll try not to have any contact with you again. Do you come closer to me from time to time, tease me at every turn, and then you blame me now?"

Lin Keren's words made He Zhengqing hug his head in frustration, unable to say, "Yes, yes, everything is my fault, it's all my fault."

Lin Keren was terrified by He Zhengqing's state. She had never seen He Zhengqing in this state. Although she was wronged and her eyes were red, she still walked quickly to He Zhengqing's side and hugged He Zhengqing's body. He stroked He Zhengqing's head to comfort her, "It's okay, it's okay, Zhengqing, what's the matter with you? Can we have a good chat? I don't want to be like this again. Every time we meet, we have a big fight. When we don't meet I've been thinking about you all the time, can we have a good chat?"

I don't know if it was Lin Keren's words that had an effect, or the alcohol he drank. He Zhengqing leaned weakly in Lin Keren's arms, his face full of pain, but he gradually calmed down, "Keren, Do you know that my father is an anti-narcotics detective, he is my pride and my hero, even though he was always away from home when I was young, every time he came home was the happiest and happiest time for me, because I I know, every time he goes out, he goes to catch the bad guys, I hope I can be like him when I grow up."

Although I don't understand why He Zhengqing mentioned her father, Lin Keren is still very happy because He Zhengqing is willing to share her story with him. Does this mean that she is willing to open up for herself?

If this is the case, then Lin Keren is also willing to open up his heart for her.

"Your father is really amazing. I'm not as lucky as you. My father is a worthless alcoholic. I only remember him as fear since I was a child. Every time he was drunk, he would beat me. If he didn't drink himself to death , if I was brought up by my grandma, I'm afraid I wouldn't be the person I am now."

He Zhengqing glanced at Lin Keren in surprise. He didn't expect her to have such a background. Now He Zhengqing doesn't know whether he is sober or drunk, but it doesn't matter. She really just wants to find someone to talk to. Speaking, she was so depressed that she was driving herself crazy.

He Zhengqing sat up straight and said with a wry smile: "My father is indeed a hero, but he is not a good father or a good husband, because when you need him, he is always away, but even so, I still love him, My mother still loves him, and he is still our pride. Until I was 8 years old, my mother became a vegetable because of a car accident. At that time, I cried very badly because I didn’t know if my mother could live. Come down, and at that time, what I hoped most was that my father could come back and be by my side, but until the end, I didn't wait for my father."

Seeing He Zhengqing like this, Lin Keren felt very distressed. She seemed to see that helpless little girl squatting at the door of the ward with tears in her eyes, waiting for her father to appear.

"So, what happened to your father?"

He Zhengqing shook his head, and tears flowed down unconsciously, "It's gone, nothing happened later, he died, he died in the process of cracking down on drugs."

Lin Keren opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say. No matter what he said, it was too late now. It was nearly 20 years too late. He Zhengqing was no longer that 8-year-old child.

"I was in the hospital, only to be led by my father in the end, because my father can't come back, and my mother has become a vegetable. I don't have any grandparents. They passed away a long time ago, and my grandpa also left. Early, my grandma is my only relative, but she is too old to take good care of me. My father’s comrade-in-arms, the leader took good care of us, not only helped us get compensation from the perpetrator, my father’s pension, but also We organized donations, which can be said to be a large sum of money at the time, but most of it was used to save my mother, and it was not even enough. My grandmother had to drag her old body to work. Relying on government subsidies, when I graduated from high school, my grandmother died, died of overwork, leaving only this dilapidated home, a comatose mother, and a few poor money in the bank card. "

The more Lin Keren listened, the more distressed she became. She couldn't imagine how He Zhengqing, who had just graduated from high school at that time, survived.

"After graduating from high school, I was admitted to a good university, Beijing Institute of Criminal Investigation. I wanted to be a policeman like my father, but in the end, I didn't go to school. My father's leaders and comrades-in-arms kept saying that they could support me. They wanted me to finish my studies, but I refused. Yes, I can rely on them to go to school, and I can even rely on them for my life. I can also say that as long as I graduate from university, I don’t have to worry about work at all. I can work hard for a few years. I can be a petty official. As long as I don’t commit crimes in the future, I have a bright future. But what about my mother? What about her medical expenses? Even if I graduate and work, I can’t afford her medical expenses. What's more, when I was in school, where would I get her medical expenses? The hospital staff advised me to give up more than once. In fact, I also understand that my mother is dead, and she is just relying on the machine to maintain her breathing. It is impossible for her to wake up. But I am not reconciled, as long as her heart is still beating, I still have my mother, and if her heart stops, I really have no relatives. "

He Zhengqing's tears made Lin Keren realize that there was too much suffering and pain in He Zhengqing's heart, but he had never understood it.

"Actually, I'm about the same, even worse than you. I have a mother and live a good life. I just don't know where she is. In fact, it's already this time. I don't even want her to come to me again, because I Don't know what to do with her. My alcoholic dad not only beat me, but beat her badly. But I hate her, she could run away, but left me with my dad, she never thought Without her protection, plus her escape, I have to bear all of this. After she left, I was almost beaten to death by my alcoholic father. Fortunately, he died relatively quickly. I can say that I saved my life." Lin Keren wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, it happened so many years ago, she never thought that she would cry when she recalled it.

He Zhengqing brushed Lin Keren's cheeks, wiped away tears for her, and said with a wry smile: "It seems that I still don't know you well enough. I didn't know you had such a past."

Lin Keren smiled softly with tears in his eyes: "I should thank you, Detective, for taking my privacy into consideration and not investigating me to the bottom."

He Zhengqing shook his head and smiled bitterly, "What a great detective, I was able to get to this point mainly because of my father's comrades-in-arms and his old leader. Some things will feel very mysterious if you don't touch them, but after you touch them, it's actually the same. It's just that I know more people, know more things, and add some skills. My job is not decent, and I walk in a gray area. If I didn't stick to the bottom line and didn't touch the law, I would still If I can bring back some gossip, my father’s old leaders and comrades-in-arms will probably not help me that much. With their help, I was able to support myself with this job after graduating from high school, and persisted in my mother’s life. For medical expenses, the only time I make an exception is Chu Suifeng."

Hearing the name Chu Suifeng appear, Lin Keren paused for a moment, and she also understood that she made He Zhengqing an exception, which made her feel a little sorry.

"You don't need to show such a guilty expression, because I made the matter, it's my decision, so you don't need to be like this." He Zhengqing smiled wryly and poured himself another glass of wine, and was snatched away by the angry Lin Keren. Went for wine glasses.

"I was very short of money at the time, really short of money! Don't look at my job, which sounds very high-ranking, and I am quite famous, but my mother's medical expenses are really about to overwhelm me. And this It doesn’t mean that you have a job every day. Sometimes it’s not open for three years, and you can’t afford it for three years. My mother’s medical expenses can’t afford it. In the past, I would never accept your order. I know this very well. The water inside is so dirty, but I think you are a woman with some money who doesn't know the rules, and you don't have the guts to murder people, so I used this reason to break my own rules."

When Lin Keren heard this, he pouted and said, "What do you mean you have some money and don't know the rules? What's wrong with me?"

He Zhengqing shook his head and smiled and said, "What's the matter? Which idiot would casually find a detective like you to do this kind of thing with complete information? No matter how you look at it, this kind of thing is unreliable. If you run into a ruthless A little bit of character, get people to your side, and then kill them silently, based on this matter, people can control you for the rest of your life!"

Lin Keren was taken aback, "It's not that exaggerated!"

He Zhengqing snorted coldly and said with disdain: "That's why I said, you don't understand anything. This kind of thing is something on the black market. If ordinary people touch this, you don't understand anything at all! But it is because of you I didn’t understand anything, so I persuaded myself to help you do this, and I had a little bit of thought, I hope Chu Suifeng will refuse, then I have a reason to refuse you. But I don’t know I never expected that Chu Suifeng agreed, and she agreed cleanly, even though I repeatedly hinted at the risks involved, she still agreed."

When talking about this, He Zheng cleared whether to smile bitterly or not, she didn't know what to say, even Lin Keren frowned, and she couldn't figure out why Chu Suifeng agreed, what she thought, Chu Suifeng Suifeng is not the kind of idiot who doesn't understand anything. On the contrary, Chu Suifeng sees things very thoroughly and thinks a lot. Sometimes even she can't understand what Chu Suifeng wants to do.

"You think I have done too much for Chu Suifeng, and even got into trouble with you because of Chu Suifeng. In fact, I am afraid, I am really afraid, I am afraid that something will happen to Chu Suifeng, I am afraid that my conscience I can't get peace in my life, and Chu Suifeng still treats me as a friend and thanks me, what the hell is I worthy of her thanks? I feel like I have done a stupid thing!"

Lin Keren didn't know how to comfort He Zhengqing. She also understood He Zhengqing's entanglement now. He Zhengqing should be very proud of his father and hoped to be like her father, but in the end he had to leave because of reality. The track that was supposed to go.And her own appearance made He Zhengqing break the principle for money and shame her father, so He Zhengqing was so persistent to Chu Suifeng.And Chu Suifeng's behavior made He Zhengqing feel further self-loathing, because through Chu Suifeng, He Zhengqing can always see his dark side.

With so many things hidden in his heart, how could He Zhengqing not be in pain.