Bloody and seductive: Notes of a Vampire

"It's the earl's wish to be a servant, but I didn't stop it. You have to face it sooner or later, Xiaochen."

His words suddenly calmed me down.

Learn to face it?Maybe he was right.The facts are already there, and no one can change them. No matter what choice Rui Yi makes, I should... support Rui Yi.

Besides, why should I blame Peventis?The instigator of all this is myself, I hid Rui Yi first.If he had told Rui Yi frankly earlier, perhaps, perhaps it would not have been so difficult and embarrassing today.

After figuring this out, I suddenly felt so depressed that I hung my head and couldn't say anything.

I couldn't help hugging my shoulders, and the feeling of helplessness and loneliness filled my chest again, surrounding me.

In the next second, I was wrapped into a firm embrace, and the metal buckle on his chest was stamped into my cheek.

"Remember, you are not alone, Xiaochen."

His magnetic yet gentle voice came from above his head, trembling my eardrums.

She couldn't help wrapping her arms around his waist, and buried her head deeper in his arms.Through the thin shirt, I can feel his strong and powerful chest.Smelling his elegant and charming scent with nostalgia, the moisture gradually overflowed my eye sockets.

"Peventis... are you really willing to wait for me to grow up until the day I am qualified to stand side by side with you?" I closed my eyes tightly, and the voice escaped from my throat muffledly, "Now I can only look up at you and feel that you are far away from me... This feeling makes me very uneasy..."

Peventis hugged me tightly and listened quietly.

My mouth seemed uncontrollable, and I kept saying words that even surprised me: "...I don't know, why did you choose me, just because of the prophecy, because of responsibility?...Come here World, I feel so tired for the first time, so tired... I don't understand what I am living for now? Is there anything worth fighting for and working hard for? When I am in front of you, I feel like a gunpowder Little rooster, impulsive and irritable, I don't know what's wrong with me... Now, just the setbacks I may encounter in my relationship make me frustrated, I feel that I am really useless... The one who used to be full of fighting spirit , Xia Chen, who always said that there are no difficulties that cannot be overcome, where did he go? Don’t you feel bored with me like this? Even I started to hate myself..."

Fragile fluid slid down my eye sockets, and it made me hate myself even more.Biting his lips hard to prevent more tears from flowing down, until he tasted a strong fishy taste in his mouth.

"Xiaochen, if you say this to me, it means that your courage has not disappeared." His voice was faintly smiling, and he gently stroked my hair with his fingers, "Your blood age is only one year old. I see it as a baby."

baby?I can't help but bury my head lower.Precisely because he is a baby, as the "father" of my blood race, he spoils me so much, let me go... so embarrassing...

But he held my face up, wiped away my tears, and let me meet his smiling eyes: "Everyone grows up from a baby, it's not shameful. Xiaochen, I have enough patience When you grow up, the vast majority of strong people are not born, you need to go through experience, accumulation and opportunities. There may be a lot of confusion, repetition, and even pain in the process, but it is an inevitable stage of growth, and you don’t need to feel frustrated about it .In the process of constantly recognizing yourself, you will find the goal you want. This must rely on your own efforts, and others cannot help you. As for...how do I feel about you, time will prove everything."

I stared at him blankly for a while, until his perfect face came close and kissed me again.

When his mouth was invaded by his soft tongue, his mind went blank again.All the feelings were concentrated in the wet lips and tongue entangled with him, immersed in the dizziness as if swept by the whirlpool of tenderness.

"Um... um..."

An ambiguous moan escaped unconsciously from his throat.Being held around my waist by him, I leaned back to the limit, and inexplicable hotness gushed out from the depths of my body, quickly permeating every cell.

Consciousness floats in the dark...

Why every time he kisses me, I have such a reaction...His kisses are always strong, domineering but gentle, that is a completely different experience from Ruiyi...

When he finally let go of me, my body was still trembling slightly, and it took me a long time to come to my senses.

"Crying little thing." He smiled teasingly, and nodded my nose, "Do you know that it looks ugly with blood and tears all over your face?"

Uh, this guy deliberately poked my sore spot...

"Then the father shouldn't kiss the lips when he kisses the child!" I retorted.

The smile on the corner of his mouth widened rapidly: "Do you want me to kiss here?" He kissed my forehead and pulled a little distance away again, "Are you satisfied? Please tell me where you want to kiss next time."

"...Why do you always like to tease me?" I suddenly remembered this.

"That's because the little rooster that eats gunpowder is cuter, hahaha..."

Ahhh...you bastard! ! !I gritted my teeth...

"Oh, don't you cheer up now?" He put away his evil smile and stared at me deeply with his red eyes, "This is what you look like. Xiaochen, I know why I feel sorry for you." Interested?"

His sudden return to a calm expression made me unable to adjust for a while, and I shook my head angrily: "I don't know!!"

"...Your courageous and unyielding character, your sensitivity and purity, and your vitality all attract me like a magnet. So, no matter what the future holds, always maintain your true colors."

I was stunned, not knowing what expression to make.

I really didn't expect that he would say these words in a serious manner... However, hearing him say this, I suddenly felt warm and happy in my heart...

"Hey, make a request." I whispered, with a bit of embarrassment on my face.

"Huh?" His brows slightly raised.

"I will remember what you said, but forget about how embarrassed I am today, okay?"

"Okay." He answered simply.

"Thank you. No matter what happens next, I will face it! Just wait and see!" I grinned.It feels good to feel confident again.

Once back in my room, I slept soundly for the rest of the day.

When I woke up, the clock was pointing to 9:[-].

At this time, Rui Yi should have gone to the elders' home for class.I should find something to do for myself, too.Thinking of this, I jumped up, and Robin immediately flew over to rub my hand affectionately.

After washing and grooming, when I opened the door, I was stunned and my heart twitched.

Ruiyi leaned quietly on the corridor a few meters away from my room, her figure lonely.When he heard the door knock, he raised his head and looked at me, his blue eyes flickering.

"Rui...you didn't go to class? How long have you been standing there? Why didn't you knock on the door?" I was very surprised.

Ruiyi's handsome face was a bit haggard, obviously he didn't sleep much last night.I can imagine what kind of inner torment he went through, why not myself?

He walked up to me: "... I asked the elder for leave this morning, I have something to tell you."

"Well, come in."

I took him into the room and sat down on the couch.Rui Yi was silent, lowered his head, subconsciously rubbing his hands back and forth.

His actions made me nervous.When I spoke, my voice was also a little hoarse, and I tried my best to keep calm: "Rui, is there anything we can't say between us? No matter what you decide, I will respect your choice. If there is a way to put your body If I return it to the Earl, I will..."

"...Xia Chen." Rui interrupted me, looked up at me, "I plan to ask Peventis to take Jamie back to Mantel Manor when we leave, Buzz I'll find him something to do. I can't just leave him here."

"I understand." I nodded lightly, "...So, what about the future?"

"When he is able to make a living with his own hands, I will send him away and let him start a new life in Yoswick County or elsewhere. That is what I can think of at the moment."

"I have nothing else to say." I squeezed Ray's hands, kissed them lightly, and laid them on my chest.Rey's current decision at least shows that he cares more about me, which makes me relieved. "...But, will the Earl accept this arrangement?" I really doubt it.

After a moment of silence, Rui replied in a deep voice, "I plan to... erase his memory."

"Huh?!" I was taken aback. "No, Rae, I don't think you should!"

"...Erasing the memory and living as Jamie is better for him and for us, isn't it?" The corner of Rey's mouth twitched, but I could see how much he was feeling in his heart at the moment pain.

"...Rui, although I don't want to admit it, I can't help but say it. It is a miracle in itself that the Earl can survive in another form. He loves you so much. I was once, deeply moved by his love But... It is undeniable that my initial feelings for you came from his body... Now, the earl has nothing, status, wealth, relatives, friends... His love for you is all he has, if Even this point is obliterated, and the count will completely disappear from this world. Do you really have the heart to do this?!"

Ray's eyes were already red.He lowered his head suddenly, and let out a hoarse and short laugh: "Then what should I do?"

"Rui..." I hugged his slightly trembling shoulders, his helpless appearance made my heart ache almost to burst, "Rui... I think it's not wise to make a hasty decision. You might regret it in the future, It's better to take advantage of the time you stay in Black Castle to think it over carefully. You don't need to force yourself, just face your heart, as I said, no matter what choice you make in the end, I will... support you!"