about i love you

The day before the final exam, I was about to go to bed at night, and my phone buzzed and vibrated. I picked it up and saw that it was Lu Qiang who called me. We haven't contacted for a long time since the last time.

He doesn't log in to his account often, and he seems to have evaporated from the world. This time he made a phone call, which surprised me.

"Hey?"

There was a rustling sound and the sound of bottles colliding and shattering. It was like a revolution.

"Xu Xiangqian, Xu Xiangqian, Xu Xiangqian, let's eat! Xu Xiangqian, don't sleep late, Xu Xiangqian, we're going to be late, Xu Xiangqian, Xu Xiangqian!"

He yelled for a while, shouted for a while, obviously drunk.

"Where are you?" I asked.

He snorted twice unconsciously, and muttered, "I'm here. I'm at home! Xu Xiangqian!"

I reached out and hung up the phone, and looked at Wen Mengliang on the bed for a while, he was not asleep yet, half lying down with a book to read.

I typed a line on the phone and handed it to him, saying: I have something to do, go out for a while, I won't be back tonight, you should have a good rest.

He looked at me in surprise, I put on my shoes, didn't look at him again, opened the door and went out.

It's the end of winter, and the stars in the sky hang in the morning. From time to time, pedestrians walk by me. It's very cold. I feel a little cold in my heart. I don't know how to express this feeling.

Xu Xiangqian is my friend and my elder brother. He might be wrong for this kind of thing. The strange thing is that Lu Qiang likes him, haha.

A person who hates homosexuality has no scruples to get close to the best friend in his heart, rely on each other, talk to each other, but has no love. In the end, he can only make the one he loves sad, what else can he do.

Recently, my communication with Wen Mengliang has become less and less, except for the body, I have hardly spoken.

I used to use mobile phones or handwriting to talk, but now I don't like this kind of quiet loneliness. I'm only under 19 years old. I don't want to live in a silent world all the time. It's too depressing.

I need a kind of energetic resonance, and a figure suddenly appeared in my mind, like, like Chang Xuanfeng, who feels lively when getting along.

It is true that Lu Qiang's house is not far from our school, but it happened to be on two different sides of the school from my rental house. When I walked over, a full hour had passed.

I knocked at the door and no one spoke.

"Lu Qiang, open the door."

I yelled, and the quiet big house was brightly lit at night, and he was alone in it, and there was no one to comfort him when he was depressed.

"Who? Who?"

The sound of stumbling came over, his voice was a little hoarse, as soon as the door opened, I smelled a pungent smell of smoke, and immediately coughed twice unbearably.

He leaned on the door with one arm and looked at it for a long time before he smiled and said, "He Su, you are here, come in."

I followed him in and closed the door behind me.

There are many beer bottles on the ground.

There are also undrinked ones, which are placed on the table.

I was also upset, so I took a bottle and poured it into my stomach. The [-]-degree beer gave me a spicy feeling.

Lu Qiang lit another cigarette and lay sprawled on the carpet, puffing.

"I went to see the wedding banquet he hosted two days ago. The child looks really good-looking, just like him."

I sneered and said, "Didn't you ask for it yourself? You have to expose your own scars."

He laughed again, stifled the cigarette in the ashtray, and snorted coldly, "He doesn't want to see me, and he doesn't want any gift money from me. He Su, why do you think he is so disgusting about homosexuality? I Don't you just like him? I guess, even if you don't like him, you can't tell him, he has always been stubborn, and if he thinks this thing is bad, he thinks it's bad, and it doesn't make sense. "

I kicked him and said, "Aren't you drunk?"

He sat up, lay down next to me, and said, "I'm not drunk, I'm not drunk, my brother can drink well."

After finishing a bottle of wine, I hiccupped. Lu Qiang laughed unkindly and handed me another bottle.

I picked it up and continued to drink, and gradually there was a burning feeling on my face, and my heart was also uncomfortable and fuzzy.

"Lu Qiang, you said he couldn't make sense, have you told him?"

He stood up, sat next to me, and shook his head.

I continued to pour beer into my stomach, pouring it as hard as I didn't realize it, and suddenly the shadows of Liu Siqi, Wen Mengliang, and Sun Han appeared in front of me, and finally stopped at Chang Xuanfeng.

When he was in class, he had nothing to do, sitting on his seat and humming a song: You suddenly said to me that Qilixiang’s name is very beautiful, and at this moment I just want to kiss your stubborn mouth...

How could it be, how could it be that you forgave me...

The voice was clear, coming from the distant night sky, I shook my head and took another sip.

"Xu Xiangqian said before that you can't drink alcohol, but now it seems that you really can't."

The wine bottle in my hand was suddenly taken away by Lu Qiang. It took me a while to understand, and I leaned on the back of the sofa without speaking.

"Lu Qiang, do you regret it?"

"Ok?"

I leaned over, leaned over to his face, pressed my lips together, and lightly touched the corners of his lips, and I felt overwhelming and unbearable feeling, and I rushed to the bathroom immediately.

spit out directly.

Lu Qiang followed from behind, scolding as he walked, "Damn, He Su, you're crazy! What are you doing? Drunk and convulsed, shit, are you okay, crazy."

I closed my eyes, washed my face, rinsed my mouth, and didn't speak.

At the end, he said again, "I don't regret it."

I washed my face and crawled crookedly onto his bed to sleep, unconscious, my brain convulsed, I was crazy.

When the second one woke up, my head was still hurting. I felt something was pressing on my leg, and I lifted it uncomfortably, but I couldn't lift it up.

When I opened my eyes, I saw that he was sleeping on the road next to him. It didn't match his usual appearance. His legs and feet were severely split. One leg was pressing on my leg, his arm was holding my back, and his hair was messed up like a chicken coop.

The scene of last night was like a black and white movie. I sat up, looked at the watch in my hand, sighed, and pushed Lu Qiang up.

"Hello? Is it He Su's teacher? I'm his elder brother, ah, yes, he has no elder brother, ah, no, cousin from afar, something happened suddenly yesterday, today is delayed, please take half a day off. Ah? You said What? Ah, it’s okay, it’s okay, go soon.”

After hanging up the phone, he rubbed his head and walked out wearing slippers. I smelled the bad smell on my body and thought I might as well just go back to the rental house. I didn't have a change of clothes when I took a shower here.

"Lu Qiang, I'm going back first."

He was brushing his teeth, his voice could not be heard clearly, and he faltered, "Don't you leave without washing your face?"

"Need not."

I got off the bed and looked at myself speechlessly, well, it's fine to sleep without taking off your clothes, what's the matter if you don't even take off your shoes.

It was still early when I went back, only the occasional dog barking reached my ears, nothing else, the silence made people panic.

I opened the door and looked at the room, and there were a lot less things.

Shouldn't Wen Mengliang be working in the school supermarket at this time?How to pack things away.

I took a step forward, and the computer disappeared, and there was a piece of paper on the table, still in his familiar handwriting.

It said: He Su, something happened to my family, my mother told me to go back first.

There is no other explanation, just a clean sentence, a clean piece of paper, a clean house, everything is clean.

There were even uncooled meals on the table.

I sighed and sat down, Wen Mengliang must have felt my recent indifference, maybe I couldn't bear it.

Hey, that's fine, that's fine.

I didn't perform well in the final exam because of my mood. A few days after I got home, the head teacher called and scolded me.

My mother happened to be listening on the side at the time, and the volume of my mobile phone was turned up a little loudly, she probably heard it all, and immediately she looked a little bit bad.

He Yan was having a lot of fun playing with plasticine there by herself, and when she hung up the phone, my mother said, "Your father can tell you, if you don't pass the college entrance examination, you won't be paid to go to school. You should go out to work."

I'm tired of hearing this again.

Nodding, I went to He Yan and picked her up, and she pressed a piece of blue plasticine on my face with a swipe.

Before the Chinese New Year, Lu Qiang called me again and informed me of a news. He was very happy. Although he was older than me, he was delayed for a while because of part-time work. Now he is still in the third year of high school. He has already applied to an art academy in Paris, and as long as he passes the exam, he will go abroad.

It's great to be going abroad.

Snowflakes fell flutteringly, I built a snowman for He Yan with one hand, and called the road with my mobile phone in the other hand. No one mentioned what happened that night. He even asked Wen Mengliang what he said to him. Salutation is.

your little mute.

He Su's little mute.

I laughed softly and said, "Let's go."

He stopped talking, and the two of us chatted a little more about what he had seen and heard in the gay scene, and then hung up.

After hanging up, my sister yelled, "Brother, your head is not round, brother, your head is not round."

I was upset again.

My dad called me for two reasons. One is to study hard and not get a part-time job, and the other is to take good care of my sister and help my mother.

Needless to say, I know this kind of thing, and the two of them have nothing else to talk about, and they often hold their mobile phones in silence for a long time.

In the end, he said, "It's okay, so it's time to hang up?"

"Ah."

for the end.

I originally thought that after Wen Mengliang left, I would not live outside. The money I earned was not enough to pay the rent, but I couldn't bear the feeling of the dormitory, so I brazenly asked my mother for money.

She naturally asked why, and I said that the college entrance examination is coming soon, and I want to study quietly by myself, which is more efficient. My mother happily gave me the money, thinking that my son is really self-motivated.

Really happy.

Xu Xiangqian is also considered married, and he didn’t go directly to the school pump anymore. He lived at home and came to see me several times. He originally said he would drop me off on the day I went to school, but his daughter was sick and couldn’t come.

I took the bus to Shangshao City alone, and took a small tricycle to the rental house.

As soon as I walked to the door and moved my things down, the phone rang. I thought it was my mother calling to ask if I had arrived, but I checked the caller ID but it was not.

Beijing.

"Hey?"

"Hello? Hello, is this Mr. He Su?"

This is the first time I've heard someone call me Mr.

I answered yes.

He said, "Hello. I'm Shi Yang, do you know Wen Mengliang? He passed out outside the hotel here."

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