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"Like a guiding star in the night sky, you guide me to find the light and approach you..."

Tomorrow is the second anniversary of the debut of Mantianxing? Today is the last stage of the rehearsal——the final period of the stage. The song "Star Language" on the stage ended perfectly as the end of the chorus. All the tired and paralyzed girls all came from Withdrew from the stage.

The moment the lights on the stage ended, Lin Qingyan subconsciously wanted to touch the phone, but when she was about to touch it, she retracted her hand as if it was burning.

The chatting time between her and Le Jiaxuan became less and less, and from? Le Jiaxuan took the initiative at the beginning to? She took the initiative—not because there was too much space, but because there were basically no more people there. I will come back several times to stir up the topic again and again.

A long time ago, she remembered that even though the two of them were not together, Le Jiaxuan kept sending her life photos to share bits and pieces.What scene was filmed so big today? What scene was so small just now? It was chased away during dinner? —— A fly, she will not let go of anything—— A thing that can be shared with her, and I send her a regular morning call every day Good and good night.

Sometimes she will reply, and sometimes she will go to work on her own affairs after reading it for a second. When she receives the news, the little throbbing will be slowly retained and squeezed in the bottom of her heart. After being busy, she will gradually be The wind blows without a trace.

The girl group that just debuted is really tiring, especially for the captain? The burden to carry is more than that.Among so many people, only she——personally had debut experience, and the rest are——a blank sheet of paper, which needs to be filled with color little by little.

In this day-to-day exhaustion, it was even more difficult for her to give Le Jiaxuan more of her mind, and more to her teammates.Although there is an inseparable part in my heart, it seems that it is not necessary to confide in a lot of misses every day.

Did Lin Qingyan stay busy for a few days until she felt Le Jiaxuan's indifference towards her? She didn't care about Le Jiaxuan, but continued to do business on Weibo day after day according to her manager's request .

"Double Yan" CP is gaining more and more momentum now, and has even entered the top ten from the bottom-?

The two of them said yes? It is also impossible that they did not receive the benefits brought by the hype. Lin Qingyan went from strong resistance at the beginning to gradually accepting it calmly, but sometimes she remembered that? People, the pain in my heart slowly tightens like shrinking lemons.

Le Jiaxuan later chatted with her less and less frequently, from? Dozens of times a day to a dozen times to a few times, and even started every other day, and after the next day, it began to become——? Come again every week—Occasionally—?

Occasionally, when Lin Qingyan wanted to go back and look for Le Jiaxuan again after she was done with work, she unexpectedly couldn't find her in that?—?Big chat records—?for a long time.

Sometimes the company confiscates the mobile phone and puts it over there. Others will read it. In order to ensure that she will not be discovered, Lin Qingyan will not put Le Jiaxuan on the top.But every time, Le Jiaxuan sent the message first, and the frequency of sending it was relatively high. Sometimes when you want to chat, you can find it without breaking a sweat.

However, it is rare today that I did not receive any news.

Not yesterday, maybe not tomorrow.

The last time the two of them chatted was two months ago. In order to prepare for the concert during this period, Lin Qingyan was so busy that her feet barely touched the ground. She had to guide the dance moves of the team members later. —? I will ask the instructor to arrange a move later.

When she finally remembered the person behind the scenes, it suddenly seemed that two months had passed.

She has not contacted Le Jiaxuan for two full months.

In the past, when Le Jiaxuan sent messages, Lin Qingyan always felt heartwarming. After 20 years, she finally has a girl who is liked for the first time. The warmth of caring, but such a persistent habit, in the Gradually, she became accustomed to it.

She got used to it? Le Jiaxuan sent her messages, and also used to it? Le Jiaxuan took the initiative to contact her, got used to it?Whether it's birthday wishes or special festival concern, sometimes she just-?

Looking at the cold dialog box, the words that Lin Qingyan originally wanted to type out -? -? were deleted.

There are about two concerts held by Mantianxing every year, but the concert tour only started this year, and it happens to be the second anniversary of their group's establishment.

If she had shared such happiness with Le Jiaxuan last year, she would definitely have received an extremely warm response, but when she sent it now, Lin Qingyan didn't know what kind of cold news she would get.

Is it—? A cold "Congratulations", is it—? A string of faint ellipses, or is it like a tragic joke shared by those people on the Internet—? Like, after sending a message to someone I haven't contacted for a long time, I get But it's a bright red exclamation point?

Lin Qingyan had never thought about it this way before, but today, before the news was about to be sent out, she couldn't help but hesitated.

Fingertips slowly withdrew from the screen, only after touching the cool snow falling from the ground, Lin Qingyan looked at the darkened sky belatedly.

It turned out that she had walked out of the stage unknowingly. After stepping off the glamorous stage, they were just ordinary people among all living beings.

It turns out that two years is really a matter of snap of the fingers.

Lin Qingyan is usually busy and rarely has time to worry about spring and autumn. All emotions, whether positive or negative, are hidden in the exquisitely packaged person settings? She even forgets from time to time? She is still a person with joy and anger.Gypsophila's debut is very healing for her——thing, compared to being with foreigners——she can get along better with domestic teammates, the only regret is that the honor at this time is not You didn't bring the original people—together.

But after getting along for such a long time, she also understands that Chi Shuangyan is not such a heartless person as she imagined, and this girl should not be blamed for her mistakes at that time.I don't know when, she also started to get acquainted with Chi Shuangyan. Although she wasn't as close as other teammates, the relationship was obviously not as stalemate as before.

On the day when she went out to eat alone with Chi Shuangyan, she even thought about whether this was a small betrayal of her "teammate Le Jiaxuan".

Mingming hugged her at the time and said that she would not let her new teammate take her place at any time, but gradually accepted it? Chi Shuangyan.

She remembered again that after everyone's first large-scale stage performance was a huge success, at the celebration banquet that day, she ran to the rooftop and stood alone on the rooftop... After that, Chi Shuangyan also walked out wearing a coat.

"team leader."

Although the two of them appeared to be closer to each other on the stage——a little, but it was only that—a little. At that time, Lin Qingyan didn't want to have any contact with her, and basically could avoid her Just avoid it, can't avoid it? It's all borrowing.This habit has been used until now, even if they have a good relationship with Chi Shuangyan? Many of them have maintained a social distance since then.

Therefore, no matter when Chi Shuangyan called her in private, she was always called captain with respect, and basically never called her by her first name.

"You don't like me so much, is it because of Le Jiaxuan?"

Lin Qingyan didn't expect Chi Shuangyan to be so straight to the point, but before she had time to respond, she saw the girl talking again on her own.

Of course, at that time, every time she said - a sentence, it would ignite - a little bit of Lin Qingyan's anger.

"I'm not the royal family you imagined. When I entered the reserve group, my ranking was only lower than Zhang Tang. If you don't believe me, you can go to the archives to find the unpublished ranking? See .Le Jiaxuan is gone, Zhang Tang is No.5?, and then the next one?——I am the one, and this is the reason why I came here."

Chi Shuangyan looked into her eyes.

"Natural disasters and man-made disasters are often unavoidable. Le Jiaxuan's sudden car accident was not something I could have predicted, and you also know that it is even more unlikely to be my fault. If you want to be with Le Jiaxuan—?, then do so openly— Come on, ruin your chance to debut now. Or continue to work hard with peace of mind, and announce to the world who you like when you are unshakable at the top. Vent your anger on innocent people, Captain You're really doing what a coward would do in a name you like."

At that time, Lin Qingyan was naturally very angry, but after gradually calming down, she had to admit that what she said was very reasonable.

Why did Le Jiaxuan reject her at that time? Of course she also understood that after the excitement at that time faded away, the two of them needed more stability when they were together.

Le Jiaxuan is afraid of losing, and she is even more afraid of losing the opportunity to debut that she finally got again. This relationship is destined to be buried in the ground for a long, long time. The two people's personalities are definitely not going to bump heads. He still has to hit a wall to break the blood, but he is not willing to give up.

So subconsciously, she began to reduce contact with Le Jiaxuan, while controlling herself, while secretly hoping that the other party would give her more contact, so that she would have that kind of Motivation to work harder.

Until at least giving and less replying became a habit, she forgot that the other side also needed to ask for it.

A long time ago, when the two rarely met and then separated, Le Jiaxuan went to pick her up from the plane, and the panic at that time made Lin Qingyan flustered.

But after waiting? A few days later, she quietly went to call again?——Diagram, Lin Qingyan, who had never believed in any ghosts and gods, suddenly became a little superstitious at that time.Didn't she have that? At this moment, she hoped so much that the old divination man could draw something that would strengthen the love between the two. The courage to go down.

But in the end, the "Misfortune" lottery was drawn, which made Lin Qingyan feel sad for a week.

Now that I think about it, it's not that there is a lot of fate, it's just that I don't like it enough to be willing to let the other party get hurt for me.