I can't hold back my heart

"How far have you progressed?"

Zhao Ruoxuan's curious voice came through the phone, and the volume was higher than before.

Li Li pulled the phone away a little, and gently rubbed her ear with the other hand.

Where is the progress?

This question is really hard to answer.

Kissing, hugging, cuddling to sleep, kissing to suffocation or naked cuddling... which one is the most intimate?Li Li couldn't make an accurate order for the time being.

After a pause for several seconds, she finally answered Zhao Ruoxuan: "Actually, it's the same as you..."

"how come?"

Zhao Ruoxuan obviously didn't believe it, "Didn't you kiss before you got together?"

She remembered that Li Li had told her that it seemed that they kissed her the first night they met, Li Li took the initiative.

Li Li was a little ashamed, she didn't expect Zhao Ruoxuan to remember it so clearly.

"Which step is it? To be honest, you didn't tell me the first time you left the order, but I told you in time."

Zhao Ruoxuan was really interested in Li Li and Wei Xi's love process, and urged: "Li Li, just tell me, don't be shy."

"I'm not shy..." Li Li defended in a low voice with a blushing face, "It's really similar to your progress, the difference is probably that the kissing time is longer..."

"Ah..." Zhao Ruoxuan let out a long laugh on the other end of the phone, and continued: "I see, the legendary French kiss."

Li Li blushed, and didn't want to continue discussing this topic with Zhao Ruoxuan, so she said angrily, "What's so messed up, I won't tell you anymore."

Premonitioning that she was going to hang up the phone, Zhao Ruoxuan hurriedly stopped her and said, "Li Li, don't hang up, I won't make fun of you, can you talk to me for a while?"

Her finger almost touched the red hang up icon, Li Li heard the different emotions in Zhao Ruoxuan's voice, so she quickly stopped.

"Zhao Ruoxuan, what's wrong with you?"

"You have something to tell me."

Zhao Ruoxuan didn't know where to start, she looked up at the ceiling and said, "It's okay, I just miss you a little bit."

"There must be something, don't hide it from me."

"...It's just a little sad." Zhao Ruoxuan didn't say what happened specifically, but only briefly stated it.

Li Li already had a guess in her heart. Zhao Ruoxuan received Ling Lan's sister's confession that it was a happy thing for the two of them to be together. If there was anything that could make her sad, it must be something about her family.

"Is your brother pulling your hair again or destroying something important to you? Next time I go to your house, I can help educate him"

"No." Zhao Ruoxuan held the phone and shook her head lightly, "Li Li, stop guessing and comfort me, maybe I won't be sad."

She didn't seem to have listened to Li Li's serious comfort.

Li Li cleared her throat and said, "Okay then, be happy and don't think too much."

Zhao Ruoxuan couldn't help laughing out loud, Li Li really wasn't very good at comforting people.

Li Li heard her laugh, and quickly added another sentence: "Think about happy things, you have such a good friend as me, and now you even have a girlfriend, why are you still thinking about being unhappy? You said yes Bar?"

"Yes." Zhao Ruoxuan nodded with a smile, "Yes."

Li Li could only say these two sentences, and after a long pause, she remembered that there was another good thing that Zhao Ruoxuan hadn't shared, "I'll tell you one more good thing, and my dad agreed to report it myself."

"really?"

Through the phone, Li Li could feel Zhao Ruoxuan's shock.

"Uncles and aunts, they can rest assured that you will go by yourself?"

"Don't worry, but my dad is relieved when Sister Wei Xi says to help me."

As Li Li spoke, the exciting scene of her kissing Wei Xi and her father knocking on the door came back to her mind, and her heart beat a little faster.

After listening, Zhao Ruoxuan expressed her understanding, "Sister Wei Xi seems to be reliable."

But she quickly asked again: "Then uncle doesn't think it's wrong for you to live in a hotel together?"

"No way..." Li Li thought about it carefully, her father probably didn't find anything wrong.

"I told my dad that I asked Sister Wei Xi to come and accompany me. He didn't doubt it at all. He just told me to keep my temper and don't mess around, for fear that I would trouble Sister Wei Xi too much."

Zhao Ruoxuan felt relieved, but couldn't help worrying about Li Li, how calm she is now, how big a storm might be if she is discovered in the future.

"You still have to be careful, and you have to pretend better before confirming your parents' attitude."

"Well, sister Wei Xi and I think the same way, but I don't know how to test my parents' attitude."

Zhao Ruoxuan thought about the works of Lily that she had seen, and gave Li Li a trick: "Spoken around, said that you have a girl friend who is with another girl, and see how uncles and aunts react."

"Understood, I will find a chance to ask next time." Li Li was afraid that he would forget, so he exited the call interface and clicked on the memo to record it.

Ask again: "Is there any other good way?"

"Step by step, this matter can't be rushed. Think about it, did you feel a big shock when you found out that you liked a girl?"

"Yes." Li Li replied without hesitation.

However, she just felt a little unbelievable at the time, and quickly accepted that love is two people attracting each other, and there is no rule that only between opposite sexes can produce love.

"That's why." Zhao Ruoxuan sighed before continuing: "Even girls like us who grew up in the new era will feel the impact, and it will be even harder for the older generation who have a generation gap with us to accept it.

"I'll accept it." Li Li said firmly, "Sister Wei Xi is so nice, and my parents love me so much, they definitely want me to be happy, and they will definitely accept it in the end."

Zhao Ruoxuan froze for a moment, and the knot between her brows melted away.

Indeed, Li Li's situation is a little different from hers. Uncle Li and Aunt Wei love Li Li very much, and maybe they will compromise in the end.

And her parents don't love her that much, and usually don't care about what she does, but if she comes out publicly, her parents will most likely ask her to break up with Sister Ling Lan on the grounds that she has brought shame to the family.

She couldn't be so optimistic as Li Li.

This is also the reason why she took the initiative to approach sister Ling Lan at the beginning, then stagnated, and has been timid and afraid to take the initiative to attack. She was afraid, and she did not have the love of her family as the backing and weapon.

"How about you, Zhao Ruoxuan, have you figured out your parents' attitude?" Li Li asked curiously, she felt that Zhao Ruoxuan was enlightened earlier than her, and maybe she had already inquired about it.

"I haven't inquired yet." Zhao Ruoxuan's tone was light, she didn't want to say more, for fear of affecting Li Li's optimism, she finally encouraged her: "In short, let's work hard together."

Li Li was infected by her, and continued: "Okay, work hard together, we will all be happy!"

...

"Well, I'll see you in the report the day after tomorrow." Li Li and Zhao Ruoxuan made an appointment to report together when school started, then hung up the phone.

She lay on the big soft bed in the hotel, rolled around twice, thinking about what to do after school started so as not to expose her relationship with Sister Wei Xi.

Pretending not to know?not talking?keep distance?

It's so hard...

She didn't know what she was afraid of, was she afraid of being discovered by Jiang Mu, and then she became angry and broke her relationship with Sister Wei Xi in front of her parents?

It is indeed scary.

This kind of fear seems to stem from her ignorance of Jiang Mu. She didn't know whether Jiang Mu would do such a thing, but she was instinctively afraid because of the possibility. Optimistic, but really just to mask the fear.

She started to panic inexplicably, and the hot mobile phone was flashing in her hand, and she suddenly thought that she could go online to look up some cases of coming out of the closet.

There is a lot of such information on the Internet, and many netizens have shared such experiences, but most of the results are not very good. They either end up breaking up with their families and choosing love or choosing family affection and giving up love.

Parents of both parties can readily accept it. There are too few examples of two girls living happily together under the sun as they wish.

She looked a little desperate, and the cold reality was in front of her eyes, as if she was about to be forced to make a choice.

It was an alternative she had never imagined, and both were important.

Will she and Wei Xi's sister also face such a choice after they come out?

Li Li's mind was in a mess, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Wrapped in a clean white towel, Wei Xi came out of the steamy bathroom, and saw the little girl lying in a daze, looking sleepy, as if she was thinking about something happy.

"What's wrong?" She asked with concern, the wet hair tied into a ball was still dripping, flowing down her collarbone.

She should have blown her hair right away.

Hearing Wei Xi's voice, Li Li suddenly wanted to sit up. She didn't know if she didn't have enough strength after lying down for a long time, and she fell down before she could get up completely.

Water droplets dripped from the wet hair, and fell on the little girl's gray nightgown, forming a small circle.

Wei Xi waited for the little girl to sit still, put her hands on the side of the bed, and only let go when she looked up at her, using a dry towel to absorb the water from her hair.

"Sister Wei Xi, let me blow your hair for you."

She heard the little girl speak in a serious tone, and paused slightly as she wiped her wet hair with a dry towel.

After a long pause, he said, "Okay."

Together they moved to the bed near the socket, Wei Xi opened the bedside table, took out the hair dryer from inside and handed it to the little girl, and passed it to the back without asking why.

The humming sound of the hair dryer sounded, at first it was a weak cold wind, and then it was quickly adjusted to a warm mid-range hot wind.

Li Li patiently dried Wei Xi's hair. She usually only blows the hair near her hair to avoid headaches, so she put the hair dryer away and put it back in the cabinet.

This time, she really felt comfortable doing something for Wei Xi, so she was extra patient.

Wei Xi didn't know how long the little girl had been blowing. She closed her eyes and enjoyed the whole process. When the buzzing stopped, she turned her head and took the hair dryer from the little girl, rolled up the long cord and put it away.

Then the little girl looked at her and asked softly, "Aren't you going to tell my sister?"

"What?" Li Li's eyes dodged.

She felt that Sister Wei Xi was tired enough today. She was frightened by her sudden disappearance at the barbecue restaurant, and she was frightened again just now because she was afraid that she would leave suddenly. She didn't want Sister Wei Xi to worry about coming out in the future. It's not that time yet.

"Tell me about your grandma." Wei Xi suddenly sat closer to the edge of the bed and said with his arms around her waist.

"Sister Wei Xi, did you hear that?"

"Well, I heard that you ran out of home because of grandma because of your sadness today. Can you tell my sister what the specific reason is?"

"Actually...it's nothing. My grandma came to take care of my mother. She didn't like me very much, but I didn't like her too much either. I came out because the atmosphere was awkward." She said lightly.

But Wei Xi could still hear her sad emotions when she said that grandma didn't like her.

Wei Xi put his chin against the top of her head, hugged her tightly, and said firmly, "Li Li, I like you."

The sound was as pleasant as the sound of spring water flowing up the mountain that night, and it flowed straight into her heart.

Li Li's heart felt a little hot, and she said embarrassedly: "I see, sister Wei Xi, you have said it several times today."

Wei Xi didn't remember how many times he said it to himself, but he didn't mind saying it again: "Li Li, I like you."

"Sleep." Li Li was really shy, twisted in Wei Xi's arms a few times, and changed the subject.

"Okay, sleep."

Wei Xi didn't let her go, reached out to turn off the light, and covered the little girl in his arms with a quilt.

The next day, Wei Xi woke up very early, and the little girl was still sleeping soundly with her hand on her pillow. She suddenly thought that she would not have to go to work in the Taekwondo gym from now on. She closed her eyes peacefully, but she didn't feel sleepy at all. .

She opened her eyes again and looked at the little girl in front of her.

Whether she sleeps on her back or on her side, she is used to putting her body upright, but the little girl always curls up, like a baby in a mother's womb.

The little girl was far more insecure than she showed, and Wei Xi felt a little distressed.

She raised her hand and brushed the little girl's soft, cherry blossom-scented long hair with her fingertips, and thought of the little girl asking to blow her hair for her last night.

Li Li didn't wake up until after 9 o'clock in the morning. She stretched her hands subconsciously, but her hands were tightly bound by the people behind her just like her body.

She squinted her eyes slightly and turned her head, a soft touch on her lips caught off guard.

Both of them were stunned for a moment, and after parting their lips, Li Li woke up in an instant, with her slender eyebrows slightly frowned, she tilted her head and asked, "Sister Wei Xi, did you do it on purpose?"

"En." Wei Xi replied in a good mood, although she didn't mean it.

"Get up, wash and go to eat." Wei Xi lifted the quilt and carried the little girl out of bed. Her left hand was numb after being pillowed all night.

After washing and dressing, Wei Xi took Li Li down to have breakfast.

The two found a place to sit down at a morning tea shop downstairs, and Wei Xi turned the order of the menu on the table to his own and let the little girl choose first.

"Shrimp dumpling, tick, chicken feet, tick, crab roe soup, tick..."

It's been a while since Li Li had morning tea here, and she misses it very much, wishing she could order all the good ones at once.

"Sister Wei Xi, it's your turn." She pushed the menu over.

Wei Xi just looked at her with a smile and shook his head slightly.

She looked down and realized that she had ordered too much. Yesterday she was thinking about restraining herself and saving some money.

"It seems a bit much, how about I cross out a few?" She blinked her eyes, her long black eyelashes closed like a small fan.

"No need." Wei Xi looked away from the little girl's face, reached for the menu, and planned to hand it over to the clerk to serve.

But the little girl held down the menu with both hands, and insisted: "It's really too much, sister Wei Xi, I want to be diligent and thrifty in managing the house, so I can't waste it."

Wei Xi smiled lightly and retracted his hands, quietly looking at the little girl in front of him.

I saw the little girl frowning tightly, her hand holding the pen was ready to go, but she always moved away the moment before writing, as if she couldn't let go of the things that were ticked on the menu.

"Li Li." Wei Xi called her warmly, and said with a smile: "Sister is very hungry, I want to eat more, don't cross it out."

"Okay." Li Li raised his eyes, and handed the menu to the waiter at the side.

The clerk walked away with a narrowed smile.

"Thank you, Sister Wei Xi." Li Li thanked her in a low voice, knowing that Wei Xi said that on purpose to see her struggling.

Wei Xi patted the log table lightly with his fingers, and said with a smile, "Sister is really hungry."

"Then sister Wei Xi eat more later."

"Well, you can eat more so you don't waste it."

In the end, both of them ate a lot, but there was no waste at all.

When going to the front desk to check out, Li Li stood in front of Wei Xi, scrambling to check out, and walked out of the morning tea shop, Li Li tiptoed to Wei Xi's ear, and whispered: "Sister Wei Xi, I promised you these few days, don't you forget?" Yet?"

Wei Xi sacrificed his part-time job to accompany her, and would not ask her for salary, and she could never ask Wei Xi to pay for the food.

Tapping his finger to exit the payment interface, Wei Xi raised the corners of his lips slightly and held the little girl's hand.

Then, Wei Xi took the little girl to the mall, picked out a light blue suitcase, went to the clothing section, and bought a lot of new dresses, and finally packed them up, and Wei Xisai put them into a suitcase and dragged them back together.

Soon it was the day when school started, this time it was Wei Xi who rented a car, packed the little girl's luggage and put it in the rear compartment, and the two went to pick up Zhao Ruoxuan together.

When Wei Xi was driving, Li Li sat next to her at first, and then switched to the back seat when picking up Zhao Ruoxuan.

"Will sister Ling Lan come to help today?" Li Li asked.

Zhao Ruoxuan nodded lightly: "Yes, sister Ling Lan said she would wait for us outside the school gate, and she seemed to say that sister Wei Xi asked her to do something." She lowered her volume in the second half of the sentence.

"What's the matter?" Li Li opened his eyes wide, "Sister Wei Xi didn't tell me."

Two days before the start of school, Li Li took Wei Xi to pretend not to be familiar in order not to reveal her secrets. She thought Wei Xi's sister might be a little unhappy.

Zhao Ruoxuan shrugged slightly, "I don't know too well, but I should know later."

There was still some distance from the campus of C University, so Wei Xi parked the car on the side of the road.

Ling Lan, who had been waiting by the side of the road, waved to her girlfriend and Li Li in the back seat, and then handed the blue vest to Wei Xi.

Li Li saw Wei Xi put on the blue vest with the letter C on it, and ran towards the gate of University C, while sister Ling Lan got into the car and sat in the driver's seat.

She couldn't help getting up, holding the back seat of the driver's seat with both hands and asking, "Sister Ling Lan, what's going on? Why did Sister Wei Xi leave suddenly?"

"Li Li, don't you know?" Ling Lan was a little surprised, she thought it was a plan that Wei Xi and Li Li had already discussed.

Li Li shook her head, "I don't know."

Ling Lan sighed, lamented Wei Xi's good intentions again, and decided to tell Li Li the truth.

"What Wei Xi told me was to pretend not to be familiar with you, because you had agreed before that your relationship should not be exposed, but since you started studying so many things, Wei Xi wanted to help you, but he couldn't be too blatant, so just ask me Helped her find a blue vest for volunteers, so that she can help you among the volunteers."

"Sister Wei Xi is so caring." Zhao Ruoxuan, who was sitting next to Li Li, couldn't help but sigh.

Li Li was completely dumbfounded.

She didn't expect sister Wei Xi to do this for her.

"Li Li, Wei Xi really likes you." Ling Lan couldn't help but confess to Wei Xi.

"I know, sister Ling Lan." Li Li said with a blushing face.

Satisfied with the affirmative answer, Ling Lan turned back to drive and acted as the driver of the two younger sisters.

Wei Xi was wearing a blue vest. As soon as he ran into the campus, he was stopped by the leader of the welcome volunteer team standing at the school gate.

"Student, where are you going?"

Wei Xi thought of a not so clever excuse on the spot, "...I have a stomachache."

This was the first time she had lied like this, and her face was a little ugly. Seeing her distressed look, the team leader hurriedly said, "Then go back and have a good rest."

"OK, thanks."

Wei Xi thanked him, and swept a shared electric car to the dormitory of the Faculty of Arts.

After she started the car, she heard the team leader behind shouting: "Student, you haven't taken off your volunteer uniform yet..."

The sound was blown away by the wind, Wei Xi didn't care.

She thought, this was probably the first violation of the rules in her life.

She parked her electric car in the carport downstairs of the dormitory of the Faculty of Arts. Looking back, she saw that the car she had rented was slowly approaching. She hurriedly joined the volunteer team and planned to help the little girl carry things when the car stopped. .

That's what she thought, and she did the same, but the result was beyond her expectations. The moment the little girl came down with a small black leather bag on her back, volunteers swarmed around her, and she was just one of the crowd.

"Sister Xuemei, let me help you."

"Give me the suitcase, I'll carry it."

"Sister, what's your name?"

...

The little girl is far more popular than she imagined.

When freshmen enter school, volunteers help the metropolis to look at their appearance is a theorem that almost everyone is familiar with.

Wei Xi was in the middle of the crowd, and saw some ordinary-looking girls carrying heavy suitcases but no one cared about them.

Since even those who help have to be carefully selected, why should they wear this volunteer blue vest?

After Li Li got off the car, she immediately saw Wei Xi who was squeezed into the crowd.

Wei Xi is tall and tall, not inferior to most boys, and is very eye-catching in the crowd.

They looked at each other across the crowd, and she shrugged helplessly.

Ling Lan got down from the driver's seat, walked around to the trunk, and unloaded the luggage for the two younger sisters. It was a bit difficult. She could only help one person at a time, and Wei Xi couldn't get through now being squeezed in the middle.

"Sister Ling Lan, just help Zhao Ruoxuan." Li Li carried her suitcase forward.

A group of seniors with eager smiles on their faces followed her, chattering non-stop in her ears, louder than the chirping of cicadas on a midsummer night, and she suddenly understood why her father insisted on reporting with her.

"Junior girl, there is no elevator in the dormitory of the Faculty of Arts, let me lift the suitcase up for you."

"What did you say?" Li Li stopped suddenly. She didn't expect that there was no elevator in the dormitory building of the Faculty of Arts. She looked at Wei Xi and frowned slightly.

"The Faculty of Arts is an old dormitory, so there is no elevator." After the senior explained, he smiled brightly and said, "It's okay, junior, I'll help you carry your luggage up."

"Let me do it, I am stronger."

"Sister, which floor do you live on?"

Several seniors crowded around her, and when she didn't look at them, she didn't know who was talking.

A senior directly went up to carry her suitcase, but Li Li didn't let go, and fought to hold her hands together.

Wei Xi finally squeezed over. Seeing this scene, he quickly put his hand over the little girl's hand, pulled the suitcase over, and immediately let go of the little girl's hand.

"There are still many students who need help, so don't crowd around here." Wei Xi said seriously.

When Wei Xi had a serious face, he felt a strong aura, and the male seniors who felt that they were useless dispersed to find the next target, and there were a few who were unwilling to give up.

Among the remaining three volunteers, a boy with ostentatious eyebrows said to himself: "Student, you are a girl, and the heavy work of carrying luggage should be left to us boys. You should go to the school gate to guide the freshmen. It should be more suitable there." you."

The boy said he wanted to grab the suitcase in Wei Xi's hand again, and Ling Lan passed by carrying sister Ruoxuan's suitcase.

Silently rolled his eyes: Wei Xi won't move?This big brother, who are you looking down on?

The author has something to say: There are too many people coveting my sister, my sister is wronged