I can't hold back my heart

Seeing her daughter's wrinkled little face because of worry, Li Xuanhe was worried, and couldn't bear to tell the truth.

"Father." The daughter shook his arm, "Did you see Sister Wei Xi?"

"No." Li Xuan sighed, and said with regret on his face: "By the time Dad arrived at the hospital, it was already past the visiting hours."

Fortunately, my daughter didn't doubt it, she just let out a discouraged "oh", then let go of his arm, looked up at him, "Dad, you have to go to work tomorrow morning, go up and rest."

At this moment, Li Xuan felt that the baby girl was much more sensible than before, and became more caring. He couldn't help but think of Xiao Wei. Is it because of Xiao Wei, A Li, that he has become better and better?

Thinking of this, he felt a little moved, at least at this juncture, let's put that matter aside, he secretly decided in his heart.

"Father, what are you thinking?" Li Li closed the door and locked it from the inside. Seeing that her father was still standing there thinking, she asked in puzzlement.

Her intuition told her father that something was definitely on his mind today.

"It's nothing." Li Xuan raised his hand and rubbed Rou's temples, then touched his daughter's face affectionately, "Dad is just a little tired, let's go upstairs together and go back to the room to rest."

The father and daughter went upstairs together, no one said a word, they went back to their own rooms, and the door was closed.

"Husband, have you delivered the supplements to Xiaowei's mother?" Wei Yuwan lay on the bed, and couldn't help asking the moment Li Xuan entered the room.

If she was not pregnant, she would definitely go there with him. For some reason, she wanted to meet Xiao Wei's mother for no reason. She always felt that it must be a great mother who can educate her daughter so well.

Unlike her, although she was a teacher before, she was still a backbone teacher, but her education to Ali was not good.

Li Xuan opened his mouth, feeling a little unbearable after all, and swallowed the cruel truth, or the same rhetoric he faced his daughter just now, "No, the visiting time is over."

"Ah?" Wei Yuwan frowned in disappointment, Li Xuan raised his hand to help her calm down, suddenly felt that life was too fragile, obviously they had heard from A Li before that Xiao Wei's mother was in good condition, but it only took a day or two , people are gone.

Li Xuan caressed his wife's round belly, and he became more and more worried that childbirth was a hell for a woman.

Li Li returned to her room, kicked off her pink slippers and jumped onto the bed. She tossed and turned on the big soft bed, doing only one thing: constantly refreshing the chat interface with Wei Xi.

In fact, she could call, but she was afraid that Wei Xi would be disturbed by something important, so she didn't call. She believed that Wei Xi would definitely reply after seeing her message.

She waited until the early hours of the morning, until she felt sleepy, and finally got a message.

[I may be a little busy recently, and I won’t be back to school in about two weeks, don’t think about me, remember to study hard. ]

When Wei Xi's news came, Li Li immediately felt relieved. She rubbed her eyes, changed her posture and lay down on her stomach, carefully reading every word.

It will take about two weeks to go back to school, which means that they will have another two weeks to meet, how could they not want to.

After Wei Xi sent that message, there was no further text. Li Li waited for a while, thinking that Wei Xi might really have something important to do, so she thought about it and replied:

[it is good. ]

Feeling that it wasn't enough, she added, [Sister Wei Xi, I might not be able to help but miss you, but it won't affect my studies, I promise, and I'll wait for you to come back. ]

Wei Xi is currently sitting in a vehicle dedicated to transporting corpses. Instead of sitting in the front seat with the driver, she sits in the back compartment with her mother, wanting to stay with her for a while longer, even though her body has become cold and stiff.

When she was still in the hospital, the doctor suggested cremation, but Wei Xi knew her mother's love for Yuanshan Village, so she still wanted to take her mother back to the place she missed so much and choose a good mountain as the cemetery.

In their small mountain village that is so remote that it is almost isolated from the world, almost every household has its own forest, and when old people die in each family, most of them are buried on the top of their own hills. This is a tradition there, and Wei Xi thinks it should be It is also the wish of my mother who has no time to say it.

She remembered that her mother's incomplete sentence at the end was to ask her not to be burdened, and to live happily with the little girl, and tears couldn't stop overflowing from her eyes.

At this time, the mobile phone that she placed on her lap suddenly vibrated again. Wei Xi looked down and saw that it was from a little girl. She said that she couldn't help but miss her, that she would study hard, and that she would wait for her to come back.

The little girl is always sincere and direct, and Wei Xi is always overwhelmed.

Right now, facing such a little girl, Wei Xi's mood is complicated, and his brain seems to burst.

For some reason, she suddenly couldn't see their future clearly.

The car drove for almost a day before finally arriving at Yuanshan Village. When we arrived at the county town, Wei Xi called and told my aunt about the incident, and my aunt rushed over immediately, and went up the mountain with her to take care of her mother's funeral.

Although Wei Xi had experienced a lot, it was the first time she had to deal with life and death matters. She was still immersed in pain, and followed her aunt in a daze, watching her communicate with various related practitioners in the village, talk about the banquet, play mourning and music, Carrying coffins, burials, etc.

At this moment, Wei Xicai suddenly remembered that she was only 21 years old this year, but she no longer had a mother. Whether she wanted to or not, she was an adult, and she must become an adult. From the moment she lost her mother, she would not Then there is the child, even though in the eyes of most people, she can be regarded as a reliable adult, but only she knows that it is different, because her mother is gone.

Wei Xi looked at her aunt, who was obviously very sad, but still smiled to entertain the villagers who came to mourn the funeral, she couldn't laugh at all.

Why are you laughing at something so sad?Why are most people laughing?She couldn't understand, and didn't want to understand.

So, everyone saw that Wei Xi, who had always been sensible and thoughtful in everything he did, had no good looks towards everyone. For the first time, they realized that Wei Xi also had a childish side, and he just knelt stubbornly in front of his mother's coffin.

It wasn't until the night before the coffin was carried out that my aunt called two women of the same age in the village to pull her up, but she couldn't stand at all and continued to kneel.

My aunt persuaded distressedly: "Xiaoxi, you must take a good rest tonight. If you continue to kneel like this, you will not be able to walk tomorrow, and you will not be able to bury your mother. The most important thing is that your mother will feel sorry for you like this." Ah, Xiaoxi."

Tears blurred Wei Xi's vision. Auntie's words pierced her heart. How could she not see her mother off? She raised her hand and said helplessly, "Auntie, pull me up."

Zhang Yun's heart almost broke when he heard that, please ask the other two women to help Xiaoxi go home and take her to the bathroom to take a bath. That night, Wei Xi turned on the water heater, forgot to adjust the water temperature, and sat on the white porcelain floor On the bed, she burst into tears, and the crying sound merged with the sound of water pouring down her head. She didn't know and didn't have the heart to think whether it would be heard by others.

Mixed with the sound of the shower water, the crying became blurred and could not be heard in the distance, but Zhang Yun, who was worried and guarded outside the bathroom door, could hear it very clearly. She also watched Xiaoxi grow up. Children are sensible since they were young, but Xiaoxi didn't when other people's children were crying and making trouble. She and her sister thought that Xiaoxi would not be obedient when the rebellious teenage period came. Now, even when I am sad, I am sensible.

She thought about it, Xiaoxi hardly cried when she was a child, but she has cried many times intermittently in the past few days. Of course, most of the time she did not make a sound. Now in the bathroom, she is crying happily. Zhang Yun is a little relieved , and a little worried.

"I will help you take good care of Xiaoxi, like your own daughter." Zhang Yun said softly, looking at the cold moon in the yard.

After taking a bath, Wei Xi stopped crying when she changed into her clothes and opened the door. Zhang Yun patted her on the shoulder and said softly, "Go to sleep, you have to get up early tomorrow."

"Okay." Wei Xi replied, and went back to his room.

Wei Xi was lying on her own bed, but she couldn't close her eyes. She just looked at the ceiling like this. There was not a single spider web on the ceiling. It seemed that her mother had just cleaned it. Wei Xi turned over and buried her face in the pillow In the middle of the night, the tears silently wet the pillow again, and slowly, she finally fell into a deep sleep. This was the first time she fell asleep in seven days.

In the early morning of the next day, Zhang Yun came to wake her up, and he couldn't bear to wake her up, but the day of going out could not be delayed.

"Xiaoxi." She gently touched Xiaoxi's arm, and Xiaoxi opened her eyes immediately. She didn't need to say anything more, Xiaoxi quickly got out of bed to wash, then changed into a white mourning dress, and went out with her. In the end, she looked like her sister, and the coffin was completely closed.

The ceremony of going out is also very complicated and noisy. Firecrackers are set off about every [-] meters. The immediate family members kneel and kowtow, and some people are responsible for distributing paper money. In front of the team, there are two and a half-year-old children holding a painting circle. They are not yet sensible. , I only thought it was novelty and fun to hold a wreath, but soon lost interest, and the laughing face in the serious ceremony slowly converged.

Wei Xi followed her aunt's movements, knelt down, kowtowed, stood up, and repeated it again and again. She felt that her whole body was numb, not like a human, but like a robot following instructions.

Such a ceremony dragged the whole process very slowly. They set off early in the morning and did not arrive at the burial place until near noon.

Wei Xi stood on the edge of the grave, watching without blinking eyes the men in the clan working together to lift the heavy black coffin into the hole dug in advance, and then filled the hole with the surrounding soil , Wei Xi listened to the muffled sound of the loess hitting the coffin, wondering if her mother would feel heavy lying in it.

The adult male moved quickly, and a small hill appeared in front of him, and then everyone worshiped together for a round, and then they were about to leave.

Everyone packed up their tools and headed back, but Wei Xi stood still.

Zhang Yun gently pulled her arm, "Xiaoxi, it's time to go back."

But I heard Xiaoxi ask her: "Auntie, will mom be lonely on the mountain alone?"

Zhang Yun didn't know how to answer, the air was silent.

Until the sound of a car sounded behind her, Zhang Yun turned her head to look. A man and a woman got out of the car and walked towards them with flowers in their hands. They were unknown people.

"Xiaoxi." Zhang Yun called out again, motioning her to look.

Wei Xi turned around and saw Xu Nian and his female assistant who were dressed in black and holding flowers.

The author has something to say: There is a small bug, which has been fixed.

感谢在2021-09-1918:47:42~2021-09-2000:21:55期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 464577781 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!