prefer silence

The alarm clock woke up Song Zhiyuan early in the morning, and he patted Wen Zhi who was sleeping next to him, "Wake up, Wen Zhi."

Wenzhi rolled to the other side and continued to sleep, "I'll sleep for another 10 minutes, there is porridge in the rice cooker, you can eat it yourself."

Song Zhiyuan rolled the air conditioner all over Wenzhi's body and got out of bed, "It's only 10 minutes, the high-speed train at [-] o'clock, don't be late."

Wen Zhi nested under the quilt and didn't speak.In fact, he is a person with a strong sense of time. This mountain climbing is also an activity he has been looking forward to for a long time, but the moment he knew that Li Yuyuan would also go, most of his joy disappeared inexplicably.

Moreover, if he guessed correctly, it should be Song Zhiyuan who persuaded Li Yuyuan to go with him.

He asked Xiao Xia, every time there was a group building activity before, Song Zhiyuan would share a room with Li Yuyuan, but this time because of his boyfriend, Song Zhiyuan lived with him.

But what did Song Zhiyuan think?He must still want to be the same as before.

The two took a taxi to the high-speed rail station and met the others.

Wen Zhi met Li Yuyuan's partner for the first time. The man was tall, long-legged, and handsome, and he was talking and joking with Li Yuyuan with his arms around his waist.

It's a completely different style from Song Zhiyuan's.Song Zhiyuan was a bit ruffian, but the man exuded from the inside out was very upright and a gentleman.

"Yo, you brought your family." Song Zhiyuan took the initiative to greet him, "Brother Chen is also going to climb the mountain?"

"Yes." Chen Zheng nodded, "I happened to be free, so I went with Yuan Yuan."

"That's pretty good." Song Zhiyuan turned his head and stopped looking there, but Wen Zhi felt that he was a little lost.A guess that had been spinning around in Wen Zhi's stomach for a long time was about to come out. He looked at Song Zhiyuan's side face, and then suppressed what he wanted to say.

not qualified.

……

After more than an hour of high-speed rail, they arrived at the hotel in the mountains.After checking in, a dozen or so people walked from the hotel lobby to a higher mountain.

Song Zhiyuan and Wen Zhi fell at the back of the line, without the eyes of the public, Song Zhiyuan didn't bother to show affection, he climbed the steps slowly with his pockets in his pocket, Wen Zhi followed him, hanging The camera took pictures from time to time, on the surface it was to take pictures of scenery, but in fact most of the film was used to secretly take pictures of Song Zhiyuan.

The time in the morning was limited, and they took the bus back for dinner after shopping around for a while.

While waiting for the dishes, Wenzhi flipped through the photos he took in the morning. Most of the photos he took were of Song Zhiyuan's side face, with a straight nose, slightly pursed thin lips, and most of his eyes were looking in one direction.

Wen Zhi recalled the scene at that time through the screen, Song Zhiyuan's head was tilted sideways, that direction, is Li Yuyuan...

Wen Zhi's mood suddenly fell into a trough, and she couldn't help but look at Song Zhiyuan.Song Zhiyuan was now playing with his mobile phone with his head down. Li Yuyuan and his partner, who were diagonally opposite, leaned together quietly, their auras blended together naturally, as if no one could get in their way.

It is the look of love that he envies most.

When the food was served, Song Zhiyuan routinely served Wenzhi with vegetables to maintain a decent image of a couple, but at a certain moment Wenzhi couldn't control the resentment and discomfort in his heart, he stopped Song Zhiyuan's chopsticks with a cold face, " No need, I don't like to eat this, you can eat it yourself."

Song Zhiyuan was a little surprised, Wen Zhi had never been so uncooperative in public before, he turned the chopsticks into his mouth, and his expression became cold.

Xiaoxia next to him saw it and asked, "What's the matter? Are you having trouble?"

"It's not awkward. It's just that I really hate eating carrots, I really hate them." Wen Zhi said seriously, "Song Zhiyuan picked them for me."

"Hey, don't eat if you don't like it, there are so many dishes." Xiao Xia smoothed things over.

Song Zhiyuan didn't answer, Wen Zhi hummed sullenly, and immersed himself in his emotions again.

There was a round table, and the other half was chatting in full swing. I don't know if this half was influenced by Song Zhiyuan and Wen Zhi, and the air pressure was faintly low.

In the afternoon, Wenzhi performed to everyone what it meant to be "no awkwardness". He no longer made any intimate gestures with Song Zhiyuan, and the two of them always kept a distance of more than one meter between their bodies. Even Li Yuyuan could tell that something was wrong. I also sent him a message to ask about the situation.

Wen Zhi's deliberate behavior caused Song Zhiyuan a headache, he didn't know what Wen Zhi was doing, he was fine in the morning, why did he become like this after a morning.What's more, they are not real couples, who gave Wen Zhi such courage?

He asked Wen Zhi, "What's wrong with you?"

Wen Zhipi smiled and said: "I'm afraid that if I get too close to you, I will disturb you."

Song Zhiyuan was puzzled, "What bother me?"

"You know it yourself, don't tell me, we are not real anyway."

Song Zhiyuan was a little angry, knowing that it was not true and still making such a fuss, what bothered him, he made it clear.

At night, the two of them were lying on the same bed, separated by a quilt. Song Zhiyuan was upset, and he didn't feel sleepy after swiping his phone until after twelve o'clock. He looked at Wen Zhi, who was also playing with his phone next to him, Finally, he couldn't help asking: "What is the reason? The killer must have a reason for killing someone. It's too heartless for you to sentence him without explaining it."

"Who is the one who has no conscience?" Wen Zhi flicked the phone and sat up, "Walk with me, thinking of others in your mind, seeing others in your eyes, do you think I am a fool?"

"No." Song Zhiyuan looked puzzled, "Who am I missing? Who am I looking at again?"

"It's Li Yuyuan, right? The person you confessed to at the bar, the person you wanted to confess to, the person you wrote a love letter to and put in the drawer, the person you are willing to play games with for the rest of your life, that's him, right?"

Wen Zhi crossed her legs and bowed her head in frustration, "I used to think that the person I admired the most was Senior Le Min, but now I realize that I envy the wrong person. The person you have always liked is Li Yuyuan from the beginning to the end. "

"I like him enough to join the same company, I like him enough to pull me to act in front of him, I like him so much, but I can't get him, you are really miserable..." Wenzhi laughed, her eyes were full of tears pool.

Wenzhi said "You are so miserable", but Song Zhiyuan was not touched by the misfortune. He suddenly and wonderfully felt those worries and unwillingness that had troubled him for many years. From Wenzhi's mouth, it was like a burst of pain. It drifted away like smoke.

There will still be traces left, but they will spread out more and more, and the pain and injury will gradually disappear, hidden to a place that he can't even notice.

When he saw Chen Zheng this morning, although he still didn't have a good impression of Chen Zheng, he no longer had any jealousy and grievances.

On the evening after the class reunion last year, he dispelled the last illusion of Li Yuyuan and put himself in the right position.From then on, he began to truly escape from the cocoon of love, from his past self.

The message he sent to Li Yuyuan was not fake. He might not love Wenzhi, but he did let go of his love for Li Yuyuan. He really only wanted to be Li Yuyuan's friend.

Song Zhiyuan asked himself, why did he let Li Yuyuan think that he had found true love? Tracing back to the source, the most essential reason was not to want to be friends with Li Yuyuan as soon as possible, but...

——I want to get out of the original track and the original mode as soon as possible.

——I want to be a new self, I want to tell Li Yuyuan, look, I also have love, don't treat me as the original me anymore.

——I want to hint to myself that you can do different things, that you can love someone else, that you can say goodbye to that crush that never ended.

And Wenzhi was just the right person who appeared at the right time, and he was willing to be used by him.

Song Zhiyuan thought a lot in silence, he looked at Wenzhi's sad face, and thought of his past self, waves of pity suddenly surged in his chest.At least, don't let Wen Zhi go his old way again.

"Since when did you like me?"

"Freshman." Wen Zhi said, "When I entered the student union, I saw you giving a speech, and I fell in love with you. Why, are you going to laugh at me?"

Song Zhiyuan: "No."

Wen Zhi said in a firm tone: "Does this have something to do with your affairs? Aren't we talking about Li Yuyuan, you change the subject?"

Song Zhiyuan softened his voice, "I also fell in love with Li Yuyuan when I was a freshman, but that was all in the past."

"Before...not just before, don't you still like him now?" Wen Zhi asked, after asking, he stared at Song Zhiyuan's hand for two seconds, then turned his body away, "Forget it, you don't have to talk to him I'm not qualified to say this."

"I was so pleasantly surprised to meet you at the bar that night, even though I knew your confession was not meant to me, and even though I knew you had someone you liked, I still wanted to be close to you despicably, after sleeping with you all night Thinking about taking it a step further, when you become a friend with benefits, you will always unconsciously want to be your boyfriend."

"I thought I couldn't care less about you liking others, but I overestimated myself. Especially, the person you like is around us, and his sense of existence is too strong, so strong that I can't ignore it, and I can't deceive myself. It's too difficult , Senior."

"I was not very good at dealing with others since I was a child, and I was said to have a weird personality more than once. Although I have improved a lot after work, I am still not likable. Senior, I may not be worthy of you like this, but can you You can’t stop wronging yourself, he’s married, don’t like him, there are still many good people in the world for you to choose from.”

"it is good."

"..." Wen Zhi turned around and touched her ear in disbelief, "Senior, what did you say?"

"You told me not to like him anymore, and I said yes."

"Eh?!" Wen Zhi crawled over excitedly, shaking Song Zhiyuan's shoulders, "You are serious! Then how do you see me?"

Song Zhiyuan glanced at him, "Didn't you just say that you are not good enough for me?"

"Fake! I'm fine! Look at me!"

Just as Song Zhiyuan was about to say something, Wen Zhi shook in front of his eyes. The bed, sofa, table, all the furnishings were shaking, and the water glass fell to the ground and broke. Running, didn't even bother to put on shoes, "There's an earthquake! Let's go!"

Wen Zhi held him tightly, and the two of them ran to the corridor, which was already full of people, and the two of them could only walk in the direction of the flow of people when they got out. Fortunately, the floor they lived in was not high, and they ran down smoothly on the third floor , squatting around the empty parking lot with the people around, looking at the hotel building that was still shaking from side to side.

The crowd was turbulent, and more and more people ran out of the hotel one after another. There were the sounds of children crying and shouting for their companions. Song Zhiyuan didn't dare to blink for a moment, staring at the hotel door, "Li Yuyuan, Xiaoxia She lives on the seventh floor, while Sister Bing and the others live on the third floor, Wenzhi, can you ask in the group if everyone has come out?"

Wenzhi clicked on the work group on his mobile phone, and found that someone in the group was already reporting safety. He counted, and Xiao Xia and Li Yuyuan were still missing.

The vibration gradually slowed down until it stopped, and a long hole was cracked in the ground not far away. Fortunately, the magnitude of the earthquake should not be particularly strong, and the building did not collapse.

"We're still short of Xiao Xia and Yu Yuan."

At this moment, the shock was no longer felt at all. Everyone stood up and stayed in place to watch. Song Zhiyuan called Li Yuyuan, but he didn't get through.He dug out Chen Zheng's number and called again, but he still didn't get through.

Wen Zhi patted Song Zhiyuan and looked at him nervously, "Xiao Xia also came down, and he reported his safety in the group, and now only Yu Yuan and his partner have no news. Xiao Xia said that Yu Yuan sprained his foot at night, and his husband still Went to get him the calming spray, they were on the seventh floor again, I guess they were hiding in the room."

"A sprained foot?" Song Zhiyuan didn't hesitate when he heard this, he turned around and was about to go out, Wen Zhi grabbed his hand, "You want to go in and look for them? Don't go, there may be aftershocks."

"There's no danger, the house hasn't collapsed." Song Zhiyuan turned his head, showing rare tenderness to Wenzhi, "You stay here, and when I come back, I'll tell you what I haven't finished."

After speaking, he pushed away the crowd, stepped over the crack, and ran into the hotel.

Wen Zhi stared at Song Zhiyuan's back, he also knew that there was a high probability that there was no danger, but a disaster like an earthquake, no one would want to run away.He was a little sour while worried.

After all, he was still someone he liked, Song Zhiyuan couldn't be as indifferent as him.Do you really not like it?What would Song Zhiyuan's unfinished words be?

Wenzhi just guarded the door feeling uncomfortable for a while, and happily for a while, hoping to see that figure appear as soon as possible.

The clock on the phone ticked off for about 3 minutes, but the aftershocks never came.When Wen Zhi counted to 201 seconds, two people rushed out of the glass door, one was Song Zhiyuan, and the other was Li Yuyuan's partner. Li Yuyuan himself was lying on Song Zhiyuan's back. Wenzhi was afraid that Song Zhiyuan would not be able to find him, so he went He stood on tiptoe and waved to them, "Here, here!"

They ran over non-stop, Song Zhiyuan put Li Yuyuan down, panting heavily.All three except Li Yuyuan were sweating profusely, describing themselves as embarrassed.

"I'm so sorry, I'm the one who dragged them down." Li Yuyuan was hugged by Chen Zheng, his face full of guilt, "Brother Zheng wanted to run with me when the shock first started, but there were too many people, and my legs Got hurt again and we just hid in the bathroom."

"When the earthquake stopped, Brother Zheng carried me down on his back. When he got to the fourth floor, he ran into Song Zhiyuan. The two of them took turns carrying me down."

Li Yuyuan explained to Wen Zhi, he was a little afraid that Wen Zhi would think of Song Zhiyuan because of this.

"Li Yuyuan, you are too heavy. I carried you two floors and I was so tired. Brother Chen even carried you down five floors. You should lose weight for your husband." Song Zhiyuan joked, and then Patting Li Yuyuan on the shoulder, "Did you not lose the chain at the critical moment?"

"No." Li Yuyuan shook his head and raised a touching smile.

It was under such a special situation that the previous estrangement between him and Song Zhiyuan melted like ice and snow, and disappeared without a trace.

Chen Zheng whispered in his ear, "Don't listen to his nonsense, you don't need to lose weight."

On the other side, Wen Zhi watched Song Zhiyuan eagerly, waiting for him to fulfill his promise.

Song Zhiyuan pretended to be reserved for a while, coughed, and said, "Come closer, I'll type it for you."

Wen Zhi hesitantly leaned over, Song Zhiyuan wrapped his arms around his neck, took out his phone, opened the memo, and typed out what he wanted to say word by word.

[You can barely do it, I think it's fine, I'm willing to try it with you. 】

Wenzhi held her breath, and checked over and over again that she was right.He glanced at the movement on Li Yuyuan's side, and also typed in the memo on his mobile phone.

[What does it mean to try?Are you in love? 】

Song Zhiyuan replied: [Try to like you, fall in love with you. 】

Like me, fall in love with me... Wenzhi suddenly felt a dream come true, a dream he thought he would never be able to realize in this life.

He wrote: [Are you sure you don't like him? 】

Song Zhiyuan: [sure, I don't want to like it, and I won't like it anymore. 】

Wen Zhi continued to write with trembling hands: 【Okay, let's be together then. 】

Even if Song Zhiyuan lied to him about this dream, he never wanted to wake up again.

I also hope that there will never be a day when I wake up.

The author says:

Two chapters in one.The bloody plot that was originally expected is gone, and it was written and changed after being soft-hearted. I can't bear to abuse Xiaowen anymore... This is the story of Xiao Song and Xiaowen. They will slowly develop in their own world. Falling in love and slowly being happy, I can only say that I gave them a relatively good start.