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"So, you actually missed me that much at that time?"

It turned out to be like this, there was a reason for Chen Zheng's indifference towards me, and it was a reason that I never thought of.

Did I sue Chen Zheng when I was young?I really don't remember much.

Chen Zheng smiled and pointed my forehead with his index finger, "At that time, I thought you had a bad stomach. So, when you came to confess to me for the first time, I didn't believe that you really liked me at all. I thought you were just messing with me. play a prank on me."

"Really..." The smile on the corner of my mouth collapsed, "No wonder you didn't give me a chance."

"Don't be so busy getting angry." Chen Zheng hurriedly added, "Later I believed it, and you came to me again and again, so I couldn't help but believe it. It's just Yuanyuan, think about it from my perspective, you said, I was Can I give you that chance?"

I looked into his eyes and said the answer silently in my heart.

Chen Zheng can't.

— That year, same-sex marriage was not yet legal.

——That year, I was still an underage high school student.

Not to mention that my dad is also Chen Zheng's university teacher.

Chen Zheng could not bear the charge of abducting the teacher's son on a road of no return.Even without You Yu, it was impossible for me and him to be together back then.

In the end, it was just me being capricious, Chen Zheng has not misjudged me all this time.

I licked my lips, bitter on the tip of my tongue.I'm a very selfish person, I have to admit.Others are selfish and often hide it, but I am selfish, but it is straightforward and simple, and I have to put on a crown of being trapped by love.

Looking back now, it was ridiculous and childish.For a while, I was even ashamed to take out that carefully prepared gift.

Seeing that I was in a bad mood, Chen Zheng put his arms around my waist, let me stick to his chest, and comforted me in a soft voice: "Okay, aren't we together now? Thank you my Yuan Yuan Give me up, or I won't be wanted anymore."

"Yuanyuan, I know you mind my past, you know what you are worried about. Do you think that You Yu is special to me, and you are afraid that I love you more than him?"

"You Yu and I are friends first, and then lovers. If we can't be lovers, we can still be ordinary friends. But you are different. If one day we separate, I know I can't be with you. You can be friends as if nothing happened, I can't do it."

"You and him mean nothing to me. You are the special one. If it were someone else, he wouldn't have the ability to make my parents like him enough to force me to marry, and he wouldn't have the ability to make me fall in love with him willingly." Eat to death. We are the most destined people, and we are destined to be together."

I was surprised and pleasantly surprised to receive such a lengthy confession from Chen Zheng.

Although I still have a little bit of concern for You Yu, but what I'm really worried about - it's really not him.

I just think that Chen Zheng's love in this relationship is not as good as mine, and that he loves too rationally, as if he could pull away at any time.

I understand that this is due to his personality, and I am a little harsh on him.

Just like a person who has not caught fish for a long time, when no fish takes the bait, he makes a wish as long as there are fish. When he catches a small fish, he will be more greedy for a big fish.

It's hard for me to express these small thoughts, but I have already figured it out anyway.

"Well, we are the ones who are most destined." I scratched Chen Zheng's palm, "Then when do you think our fate started?"

"Of course it started when I was a kid."

"No, it started when I liked you. If I didn't like you, then we'd be just neighbors for the rest of our lives."

Chen Zheng murmured: "From the time you liked me...it was when you were in high school."

I knew he would say this, too, how could he notice such a hidden thing.

"Wrong." I shook my head, and punitively touched the stubble on his face with one hand to pull it.He was in pain, held down my domineering hand, and urged: "Then tell me quickly."

"I've liked you since junior high school."

Chen Zheng tapped his knuckles lightly on the glass tabletop, and did not speak for a while.I leaned in his arms, I couldn't see his expression, I could only feel the rise and fall of his chest.

"Yuan Yuan, you are a bit precocious." Chen Zheng finally spoke, his words were filled with smiles, while he was talking, he lowered his head and kissed me, touching my eyelashes.

I pushed him away in disappointment, "That's all you want to say?"

Chen Zheng pinched my face, "Then Yuan Yuan asks me to say whatever I say, okay?"

How can this work!I turned around and opened the drawer under the coffee table, took out the picture book, and handed it to Chen Zheng.

"Here, here's your birthday present."

As soon as Chen Zheng took it, he wanted to open it, but I stopped him.

"Don't look at it now, just look at it secretly."

"I'll write you a post-reading review after reading it?" Chen Zheng teased me.

"Would you like to write or not! No, who asked you to write... I didn't say, um, um..."

Seeing that I was annoyed, Chen Zheng rushed over and swallowed everything I wanted to say into his stomach.

The small light strings on the flower stand are shining with warm yellow light, and the shadows of the wall lamps are also shaking.

I'm glad that the double screen curtains on the small balcony are drawn, and we live on the twelfth floor, so no one will be free to come and peep at us.

It was late at night, and I was carried to the bed in a daze, my eyes were too sleepy to open.Chen Zheng covered me with a quilt, "Yuan Yuan go to sleep."

I wanted to grab him and ask him where he was going, but my consciousness sank into the darkness in the next second.

It was the next morning when I woke up again. I turned off the alarm clock on the bedside, sat up and beat my back.Chen Zheng lay beside me quietly, breathing evenly, showing no signs of waking up.

What time did he go to bed yesterday?so sleepy.

Looking at the blue eyes in front of his eyes, I feel distressed.Chen Zheng goes to work an hour earlier than me.I quickly got up from the bed, carefully removed the quilt, and I will make breakfast today.

In the kitchen, the rice cooker has pre-cooked millet porridge, so I'll fry a plate of spring rolls and steam two eggs, and it's almost done.

After finishing these, I looked at the clock, it was time to wake Chen Zheng up.

Thinking of Chen Zheng tormenting me so much last night, and making me put into weird poses, I suddenly had a bad idea, I sprinted over Chen Zheng's calf, and pressed hard on his waist and abdomen.

"Brother Zheng, wake up!"

After waiting for a few seconds, Chen Zheng remained motionless.

Can't, it doesn't wake up.I lay down on my stomach and looked closely at his face, Chen Zheng opened his eyes like lightning, hugged me suddenly and turned over.The weight of a grown man and a quilt literally weighed me down.

Chen Zheng wanted to kiss me again, I covered my mouth in horror, "No, no, I haven't brushed my teeth yet."

He laughed out loud and kissed the corner of my mouth, "Just kidding, I didn't brush my teeth either."

We went to the bathroom together, sticky.

With a mouthful of white foam in my mouth, I glanced at him, then quickly looked away.

In fact, I want to ask him if he has seen the birthday present I gave him.

I guess he should have read it, otherwise why didn't he sleep with me yesterday.

After spitting out a mouthful of clear water, I couldn't help it.

"You, did you read that?"

"What that?" Chen Zheng was also lowering his head to rinse his mouth, and looked sideways at me when he heard that, with doubts in his eyes.

I grabbed the towel and covered my face, "You know what it is."

"If you're referring to that painting, then I've read it, and I've finished it." Chen Zheng's voice was low, and he couldn't hear any special emotion.

I continued to rub every skin on my face with a towel, but I didn't dare to take it off.

"So do you like this gift?"

A warm hand held my wrist, then took the towel and passed the hot water, and wiped my neck and behind my ears carefully.

Right now we are facing the mirror, as long as I want to, I can watch Chen Zheng's every move from the mirror.And I lowered my eyes, staring at the milky white floor tiles.

Warm breath hit my ear, Chen Zheng hugged my head, and rubbed his muzzle affectionately against my earlobe, "I like it very much. It's also a bit regrettable."

"What are you sorry about?"

"It's a pity that I didn't treat you better at that time. It's a pity... I didn't fall in love with you earlier. Yuanyuan, I, I love you very much."

I slowly raised my eyelids, and saw in the mirror Chen Zheng's slightly frowned eyebrows, half of his handsome profile, and his lips pressed against my cheek.

I smiled with relief, this post-reading review is here with me, full marks.

That's fine.