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"It's not at all..." Chen Zheng leaned over and held my face, with an anxious tone, "Yuan Yuan, it's not like that at all, I'll explain it to you from beginning to end, okay?"

I acquiesced.

Chen Zheng said: "You and your parents are both thinking about it. I let go of You Yu long before I married you, and I didn't love him long ago. I don't want to fall in love, it's just because of You Yu that I don't dare Talked about it, I really wanted to go on with You Yu at that time, but when something happened to me, he immediately left and flew away, not even daring to testify for me, for fear of being retaliated."

"You Yu asked me to get back together on the first day I entered the law firm. I said I had a lover and rejected him. A few days later, he told me that since I was married, he wanted to be my friend. I At that time, I thought about working with him in the future, so I agreed."

"He just came back to China and didn't buy a car. He came to me and told me that he didn't have much stuff, so he couldn't hire a moving company. When I heard that his new home address was in our community, I thought I could come back sooner, so I agreed to take him for a ride."

I asked, "Aside from that, did you send him off alone?"

"no!"

"It was my fault on New Year's Day. I didn't know it at the time. You already knew that colleague was You Yu. What you said made me a little angry. I wondered how Yuan Yuan could say that he didn't care about other people's lives... I thought, You are just willful, so I want to hang you out."

"His situation was really serious that day. I was afraid of killing someone. You will know later... I was wrong, but Yuanyuan, I really don't have any selfish intentions. If it were Old Zheng, I would wait for him to do the same. surgery."

"You Yu's character is not good, but he has a strong ability to work. He got into the law firm because of his real ability. He is not worthy of your breaking the principles of life for him, nor is it worthy of your sadness for him."

"Since he said he wanted to be friends with me, he hasn't done anything out of the ordinary. I really thought he had given up, and I've been treating him like any other colleague."

"Until we quarreled during that time, he noticed that I was in a bad mood. Someone called me at night and said that You Yu was drunk and asked me to pick it up. I didn't agree at first, because according to You Yu, He has recently made a new boyfriend, and I don't think it's my business."

"But the other end of the phone suddenly started yelling. You Yu scolded me on the other end, saying that he was a classmate after all, and he couldn't just leave him alone. I went. He was very drunk. I took him home and helped him. He kept stumbling around, and suddenly kissed, I pushed him away when I realized it, and we didn't kiss at all."

"I beat him up and then talked about it. From that day on, I didn't talk to him except for work."

I was stunned, I thought that scene was an ironclad evidence of betrayal, if what Chen Zheng said was true, then what was the pain I have suffered in the past few months?

I asked Chen Zheng: "Didn't you tell me that You Yu became your colleague because... you're afraid that I'll make my dad quit him?"

Just for such a ridiculous, flimsy reason?

I'm still bothered by this question.This is the beginning of everything, if Chen Zheng chooses to tell me openly, instead of hiding it from me...

We probably won't get to the point of divorce.

"Maybe there is a part of it." Chen Zheng lowered his head and pressed his forehead, as if trying to escape something, I waited quietly.

He slowly raised his eyelids, raised his chin, and met my eyes, with a firm and sincere expression, "It's more about fear, fear that he will ruin my life. I dare not let you know his existence, because I I vaguely know that you mind him very much, and you will mind him."

"Emotions are sometimes very fragile and cannot withstand twists and turns. I know you love me, and our marriage was originally supported because you loved me."

"I didn't like you at first. I thought you were too capricious and a little bit bad. After getting along with you, I felt your strengths and your light, but I dare not admit your goodness. It seems that I have recognized you. If the forced marriage is compromised, I myself will go down an old road, just like with You Yu, although I am very serious, but when it is time to break, I still have to break."

"So I'm really afraid, afraid that you will shake your love for me because of him, afraid that you will understand that I'm not that good, and afraid that my position in your heart will collapse."

He breathed heavily, "Yuanyuan, in fact, I know that I may not be able to hide it from you for long, I thought I could handle it well."

With Chen Zheng's restraint in the past, he was able to say so many emotional things to me, probably he really wanted to save me, to save this marriage, right?

It turns out that I am good, does he know?Would he also be afraid of losing my love?

He just doesn't want to admit it.

My hatred for You Yu deepened.

Why doesn't You Yu cherish him?Didn't you feel proud when you swaggered in front of me?And with such a passionate kiss, it scared me away.He was the one who gave up on Chen Zheng, and he is also the one who has stepped in now. He has made a big hole in the already weak marriage between me and Chen Zheng.

"Ah... Is that so." After I finished speaking, I was silent for a long time, "What did you say to him that night? Why were you so happy the next day... We were still arguing at that time, I thought it was because you got back together... ..."

Chen Zheng hoarsely said, "Because he told me a secret. Do you know how You Yu and I got together in university?"

"You Yu was originally just my roommate, but I had a crush on him. He heard that there was a child who had been pestering me. In order to make you give up, he kissed me and confessed his love by the way. That's it. Thinking that Yuan Yuan, a little fool, unintentionally helped his love rival and put himself in the wrong, I lost my temper."

"That night, I went home and went into the room to see that you were still crying in your sleep. I thought, Yuan Yuan is so pitiful, I must reconcile with you, and I can't make you sad anymore."

I carefully recalled my own pitiful appearance that day, and couldn't help laughing.

Fortunately, there was Fangfang's kiss in the dream, at least it was the only comfort that day.

Laughing and laughing, I cried even more miserably.I tugged at Chen Zheng's cuff and asked him sobbingly: "Then... do you regret marrying me?"

"I don't regret it, Yuan Yuan." Chen Zheng held my wrist and kissed my fingers, "I never regretted marrying you. At first, I wanted to take you as a responsibility. Although it was a bit painful, I felt that my My life was manipulated by others, but later on, I was glad that I was the one who married you. Yuanyuan, you are my... a treasure I discovered by accident."

"I just don't like that you make decisions for me, and that you don't respect my wishes. I hope that the two of us can live a good life through discussion."

"I didn't disrespect you! Brother Zheng!" I shouted, "I'm afraid that one day you will be separated from me, I'm afraid it's too late, I'm afraid it's too late."

Chen Zheng gently stroked my back, slowed down his voice, and comforted me: "It's too late, now I tell you, it's too late. We have a lifetime to think about every step and walk slowly."

For a lifetime, walk slowly...

It's just, "Brother Zheng, can I still trust you?"

"Please, Yuan Yuan, please believe me..."

The night was getting darker, and I couldn't see Chen Zheng's face clearly. I touched it and touched the wet water marks.Did he cry too?

"Brother Zheng, tell me, since you don't love You Yu anymore, who do you love?"

This sentence is very directional. My heart and his heart are only allowed to have a unique solution.

He held me down and kissed me, and in the gap between our lips and teeth, I heard him say:

"I love you now, Yuan Yuan."

The author says:

Chen Zheng didn't want to be separated from Yuan Yuan, and he didn't want to be "controlled" about major events in his life, such as marriage and children.What he wants is to walk together and participate together, not just to be informed.He cared about this very much, it was the aftereffect of being forced to marry Yuan Yuan back then.

Chen Zheng's explanation does not mean that everything is going well. From Yuan Yuan's first perspective, Chen Zheng is not deliberately depicted too much here.

In the follow-up, the feelings will be slowly spread out in daily life.From Chen Zheng's point of view, this is actually a story of a really sweet marriage.

[If you really feel uneasy, you can first look at the timeline from the perspective of Chen Zheng outside the episode. 】