Xu Xiaoquan's story

It must be when Xu Xiaoquan was in a coma. I didn't want to let myself fall asleep, for fear of missing news from Xu Xiaoquan.Can smoking really make you forget your troubles?It's just self-deception.However, if it is really not enough, it will not work, so I started to develop a habit, started with a few pills, and now I have one pack or two packs.

"Don't smoke here, smoke in the smoking area." A nurse shouted.

Chen Han walked to the smoking area and sat on a stool.Smoking heavily.

"It's not good to smoke too much."

Chen Han raised his head and saw Xu Xiaoquan standing in front of him.Xu Xiaoquan walked over and sat next to Chen Han.

"I'm leaving tomorrow." Chen Han threw away his cigarette butt and said

"So soon?"

"kindness."

"Then, I wish you the best of luck."

"Rehabilitation is hard."

"After practicing for a whole day, I can't even lift a piece of paper." Xu Xiaoquan said dejectedly, "Take your time."

"kindness."

"I applied to the university in this city."

"I heard what my mother said."

"I'm leaving tomorrow."

"You said it." Xu Xiaoquan looked at Chen Han and said

"is it?"

"kindness."

The two remained silent, and Xu Xiaoquan knew that he and Chen Han might never return to the past.If there is a gap in my heart, it will be difficult to heal.It's like torn pieces of paper, even if you tear it up and put it together, it won't be exactly the same as before.

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☆, "I may not love you anymore."

The air was filled with the smell of tobacco, and Xu Xiaoquan's left hand was shaking constantly.

"Xu Xiaoquan, I hate you." Chen Han said suddenly:

"I'm sorry." Xu Xiaoquan said softly

"Give you a chance to choose, will you go back?"

Xu Xiaoquan was most afraid of Chen Han asking this question, because Xu Xiaoquan knew that the answer would make Chen Han hate himself even more.

"Yes." Xu Xiaoquan turned his head away, and tears fell.

Chen Han got up to leave, Xu Xiaoquan looked at Chen Han who was getting further and further away from him and said, "I care about you most."

"I, may not love you anymore." Chen Han stopped and said

"Then let's break up."

Chen Han walked resolutely without any hesitation.Xu Xiaoquan couldn't see Chen Han's teary face.Chen Han also couldn't see why Xu Xiaoquan was in so much pain sitting on the stool and clutching his chest.

Xu Xiaoquan, do you know that I hate you, which means I can't forget you, how can I forget you.Now I am going to a place without you, how should I live without you.

You said we broke up, so we have nothing to do?Xu Xiaoquan, can you teach me how to love others.

Xu Xiaoquan was lying on the bed, his left hand was still shaking.

Xu Xiaoquan took off the hearing aid in his ear.Xu Xiaoquan hates this thing, it will amplify the sound exponentially, and when wearing it, you can hear an annoying buzzing sound.

I would rather not hear anything, not hear you don't want me, not hear you say you will hate me, not hear my breakup.

I suddenly wanted to stay away from all this, if I didn't wake up, it would be great, then I would live in a dream forever, or lose my memory, so I would never have to think of Chen Han.

From now on, we must gradually get to know the days without each other.

The year 2000 is destined not to be forgotten.

On June 2000, 6, Liu Qiang died, and Wu Tian died.

On June 2000, 6, Xiao Qi woke up from his sleep.

On June 2000, 6, Xu Xiaoquan woke up from his sleep.

On July 2000, 7, Xiao Qi was sentenced.

On August 2000, 8, Chen Han went to a place where there was no Xu Xiaoquan.

On September 2000, 9, Xu Xiaoquan returned to his hometown.

The 18th birthday of Xu Xiaoquan and Chen Han is the first birthday that has not been celebrated.That day, Xu Xiaoquan was asleep after the operation.And Chen Han guarded Xu Xiaoquan outside.

With the consent of the doctor, Xu Xiaoquan was discharged from the hospital.

Xu Xiaoquan proposed to return to his hometown, but his family did not object.

In the hospital, Mother Xiao met Xu Xiaoquan's father, and Mother Xiao thanked Xu Xiaoquan for saving Xiao Qi.Xu's father didn't say anything, maybe after going through this incident, Xu's father now feels that nothing is as important as his family.

A few days after Xiao Qi was imprisoned, Xiao's mother left and went abroad.

During the days of living with his grandmother, Xu Xiaoquan trained his left hand every day. Gradually, his left hand was able to tie his shoelaces and pick up some light objects.Although it wasn't very good, Xu Xiaoquan was very satisfied with it.

Xu Xiaoquan sat in the yard with his grandma every night, listening to grandma talk about their time.

The mobile phone can be reached all the time, but there is no text message or phone call from Chen Han.I know it won't happen, but I'm still looking forward to it.It's a thought.

Chen Han didn't live on campus, but rented a house near the school, which was neither big nor small.After the military training, I started my university life, and there were not many classes.

Every day, after class, Chen Han would walk back alone. Sometimes, when there was no class for a day, Chen Han would just stay in the house and not go anywhere.

Chen Han was most afraid of the night because he would miss Xu Xiaoquan. At first, Chen Han suffered from insomnia every night.Just smoke all night long.The more you inhale, the more energetic you will be, then you will not sleep, and you will sit until dawn.

Chen Han often wondered what he would be like if Xu Xiaoquan was by his side now, would it be the same as what he thought then?Sometimes, I dare not think like this, as long as I think about it, I will hate Xu Xiaoquan even more in my heart.

It may be selfishness, Chen Han still can't understand why Xu Xiaoquan wants to make himself like this.Neither of them is happy.

It's the November holiday, and Chen Han has no plan to go back.

Early in the morning, Chen Han received a call from Chen's mother, saying that she would come to see him.Chen Han got up and tidied up briefly.

After breakfast, Chen Han cleared the table, sat on the sofa and watched TV, and Chen's mother came.

"Mom." Chen Han opened the door

"Well, have you eaten yet?"

"have eaten."

Chen Han took what was in Mother Chen's hand.

Mother Chen looked back and forth, Chen Han said helplessly

"Mom, what are you looking at?"

"It's pretty clean by myself." Mother Chen said with a smile

"En." Chen Han handed Xu a glass of water and said

"I said you're fine here, come home with me." Mother Chen sat on the sofa and said, "It's fine to go back."

"Wenwen and Tianyi went to Grandma Koizumi's house, and Koizumi will go to school after Eleven."

"Really? So fast." Hearing Xu Xiaoquan's news, Chen Han's brain stopped functioning for a few seconds.This is the first time I heard about Xu Xiaoquan during this period.

"Yes, I heard from your aunt that Koizumi's hands can hold light things, but his ears haven't improved. I wanted to let Koizumi rest for a while, but Koizumi didn't want to, so your uncle reported him to the school in the town. name."

"Oh." Chen Han said casually

"I said you child, why don't you care about Koizumi?" Mother Chen said, "Is there?"

"Why don't you take this time to visit Koizumi?" Mother Chen asked, "I still have a lot to do." Chen Han made an excuse and said

"What can you do?" Mother Chen stared at Chen Han and said

"I..." Chen Hangan was about to say something when the doorbell rang.

Chen Han got up and opened the door, wondering who would come at this time.

"Chen Han."

"How did you come?"

"I……"

"Who is it?" Mother Chen asked

"Auntie, it's me." Li Qinglan said quickly

"Come in, come in, why don't I come here?"

"Auntie, I thought you weren't here yet."

"I just came here too."

"kindness."

Chen Han closed the door heavily.

Mother Chen knew that Chen Han was a little unhappy.quickly say

"Yesterday, I called Qing Lan and asked her if she was free to come to your place to play. No, we made an appointment."

"Oh."

Chen Han returned to the room.Li Qinglan stood awkwardly in the living room.Mother Chen hurriedly said, "Come on, Qing Lan, sit down."

"it is good."

"Don't pay attention to him, he's just like that, sullen all day long. I don't know who you think owes him."

"It's okay, Auntie."

"How about studying now? Are you tired?"

"Not tired. Lots of free time."

"En. You, come and play when you are free. Chen Han is here alone."

"OK."

Li Qinglan and Chen's mother continued to sit on the sofa and chat.

Chen Han sat at the desk, looking at the photo of him and Xu Xiaoquan.At that time, the smiling face was still young.How happy they were at that time.The only thing left open is an 18th birthday photo.Our 18-year-old is so unhappy.

"Chen Han, Chen Han, I'm going in." Mother Chen shouted from outside, "En."

Mother Chen and Li Qinglan came in, and Chen Han saw that Li Qinglan was a little impatient.

"You and Qinglan have a good chat, I'll cook, let's eat at home." Mother Chen said, "Auntie, let me help you."

"No, you talk, you talk."

"kindness."

When Mother Chen went out, she closed the door.

Li Qinglan walked up to Chen Han and said

"What are you doing?"

"It's nothing."

"Yeah, you brought all the photos." Li Qinglan looked at the photos and said, "Yes."

"How is Xu Xiaoquan now?"

"do not know."

"Why don't you know?" Li Qinglan said

"Just don't know."

"Did you have a fight?"

"No." Chen Han sat at the desk with his legs crossed

"Oh. By the way, do you want to join the student union?"

"No."

"Why? College life is so easy, why don't you find something for yourself?"

"I have something to do."

"Oh."

Chen Han sat at the desk without saying a word, Li Qinglan felt embarrassed.After a while, I went out to help Chen's mother cook.

Chen Han didn't understand what Li Qinglan was thinking, how could she be so persistent?

Chen Han didn't want to treat him like this, but if you don't love him, don't give others hope, don't even give him a look, because it will hurt others more deeply.

Mother Chen and Li Qinglan left after eating.Chen Han was lying on the sofa alone, watching TV sideways.

☆、"Friend, what kind of friend?"

Yes, I haven’t been there during this period, it’s because I graduated from Chenchen, and I don’t have any, various things, I just wanted to update it a month ago, but the computer was stolen, yes, it was stolen, I’m going crazy , Hey, it means that graduation is equivalent to unemployment... I will stick to it, I need your support, give me more opinions, hugs...

Even though it's not late autumn yet, Chen Han feels cold, and he really can't hear anything about Xu Xiaoquan, this is the so-called door of life.

He didn't dare to turn off the lights to sleep, and he couldn't turn off the TV either. Chen Han was afraid that Xu Xiaoquan's face would come up, that face that he couldn't forget no matter what, obviously we could be together, why is it like this now.

In the morning, Chen Han woke up, his eyes were blinded by the sun, after a simple wash, he went to the refrigerator and got himself a cup of cold milk. Chen Han walked to the bedroom while drinking the milk, and saw the photo on the desk in a daze. Han felt a stomachache, put the milk on the desk, and went to get clothes from the closet. Chen Han decided to go to Xu Xiaoquan, otherwise he would really go crazy if he continued like this.

Xu Xiaoquan has not been able to sleep well for a long time, every morning when he wakes up, he is sweating profusely, and he is also very thin.

Xu Xiaoquan wiped the sweat off his brow, stared at the ceiling, "What are Chen Qun doing now, are you up?"Do you still hate yourself?" Xu Xiaoquan missed Chen Han, and pinched himself every time he wanted to, telling himself that the person would not come back, and wanted to wake himself up.

Grandma pushed the door open and came in, "Koizumi, wake up."

"Well, wake up, grandma."

"Didn't you say you're going to the west of the city today? I'm going to get up, I'm sorry I won't be able to make it back today."

"Well, here we go."

Xu Xiaoquan is going to see Xiao Qi today. Xiao Qi is locked in the detention center in the west of the city. Xu Xiaoquan thinks that he should go to see him. Xiao Qi must feel guilty about himself in his heart. Xu Xiaoquan wants to tell him that there is no need to be like this, and he has become like this It's all your own choice.

"Grandma, what delicious food do you cook?" Xu Xiaoquan smiled and said to grandma, "Eggs, millet porridge, pickles, fried bun slices. You can't eat too greasy, your mother specially explained it."

"Oh, I'm fine, you're all too careful."

Xu Xiaoquan went to get the steamed buns without much effort. During this period of time, he recovered well, but he couldn't pick up his job. Xu Xiaoquan didn't really care, but his family cared too much about him, which made Xu Xiaoquan feel guilty. When can I stop my family from worrying.

After dinner, Xu Xiaoquan helped grandma pack up, put the things bought for Xiao Qi in the bag, and went out.

It takes 4 hours to go to the west of the city, go in the morning and return in the afternoon, Xu Xiaoquan took the bus at 8 o'clock, and it will be 12 o'clock when he arrives, and it is estimated that he will be home at 6 pm. Xu Xiaoquan doesn't know, Chen Han is on his way to find him, maybe he missed it , we can no longer stay together.

When Xu Xiaoquan arrived at the detention center, he saw that Xiao Qi seemed to be thinner, wearing a loose ball uniform, but there was a 1 cm scar at the corner of his eye, which was not very deep.

As soon as Xiao Qi came out, he looked up and saw Xu Xiaoquan, and was stunned. Xu Xiaoquan just smiled at himself like that, making Xiao Qi feel as if he saw Xu Xiaoquan when he was a child again, but he couldn't go back.

"Why are you so thin?" Xiao Qi said to Xu Xiaoquan

"I think you've lost weight too. Are you in good health?"

Xiao Qi burst into tears when he heard what Xu Xiaoquan said, "What's the matter with me, but you, what's the matter?"

"I'm fine, I've been fine a long time ago, don't worry, how is life in there?"

"is acceptable."

"I brought you a lot of food, but ah, you are not allowed to take it inside, I have to take it back, hey." Xu Xiaoquan said with a sigh.

"It's okay, what are your plans for the future?"

"I'll start repeating classes after eleventh, how long will you be in there?"

"Half a year, not long, my dad said, it's almost enough for the Chinese New Year. He will find someone, and he will probably be able to celebrate the Chinese New Year at home."

"Yes, that's fine."

"Have you ever visited Liu Qiang?" Xiao Qi regretted it when he said it, and shouldn't have asked.

"No, I dare not go." Xu Xiaoquan said lonely.

"Koizumi, thank you." There is also "I love you" Xiao Qi wanted to say this sentence, but still didn't have the courage.

"Don't say that, really. I'm here to tell you, don't feel sorry for me, man, isn't it, this is nothing, you see, I'm not very good now."

Then the prison guard said it was time,

"Time is so short," Xu Xiaoquan complained.

"Slow down when you go back, let's see you at home during the Chinese New Year."

"Well, then I'm leaving."

Xiao Qi nodded. As soon as Xu Xiaoquan got up, he heard Xiao Qi say

"If you do it all over again, will you go back?"

"Yes." Xu Xiaoquan said without hesitation.

Xiao Qi felt that with Xu Xiaoquan's words, everything was worth it.

When Chen Han arrived at grandma's house, grandma was preparing lunch.

Grandma was very happy to see Chen Han coming

"Hey, look at you, why are you black?"

"Is there, grandma, where is Koizumi?" Chen Han didn't see Xu Xiaoquan's figure, and he was worried all the way when he saw Xu Xiaoquan, what should he say first.

"He went to the west of the city. He said he was meeting some friends. Just wait. I'm going to cook two dishes."

Grandma went to the kitchen, and Chen Han followed,

"Friend, what friend?" Chen Han asked

"What kind of friend can you be, the one who went to prison, I said I can't let Xiao Quan get too close to those people, hey, how much we Xiao Quan has suffered."

Chen Han's heart sank, and the plate in his hand fell to the ground and broke.

☆, the fairy tale is over, forgetting is happiness.

"Oh my dear, hurry up and get out, I'll clean up." Grandma drove Chen Han out of the kitchen, and Chen Han went to the living room and sat on the sofa.

Chen Han felt like a fool. He could no longer see any hope for this relationship, and despair was nothing more than that.At that time, I felt that although Xu Xiaoquan and Xiao Qi were very close, I was confident, and Xu Xiaoquan's heart was still on me, but now, the relationship between myself and Xu Xiaoquan for many years is not worth Xu Xiaoquan's so-called friends .

At that time, I said we broke up because I was angry with Xu Xiaoquan for making such a choice. This time I came here because I wanted to get back together with Xu Xiaoquan, so it seemed unnecessary.

It was past 6 o'clock when Xu Xiaoquan came back by car. When he got off the bus, he saw his grandma standing at the station, "Grandma, are you here to pick me up? It's so cold in the sky, why are you wearing so little?" Xu Xiaoquan put his arms around his grandma and said "What's more, you brat, Chen Han has been waiting for you all day, why did you come back?"

Grandma said complainingly.

"Chen Han? Is he here?" Xu Xiaoquan was ecstatic.

"No, I just left." Grandma Xu said, pointing to the car not far away.

For some reason, Xu Xiaoquan had an illusion that if he couldn't catch up with Chen Han this time, then the two of them might not be able to make it to the end, and there would be no chance for a hug.

Xu Xiaoquan ran after him, Grandma Xu shouted,

"Koizumi, why are you going, why are you chasing it, come back soon?"

Xu Xiaoquan couldn't hear anything, and chased the car desperately, shouting "Chen Han, Chen Han..."

Chen Han heard someone calling him in a trance, and saw Xu Xiaoquan through the car window, and he ran after the car. Xu Xiaoquan lost weight, and Chen Han suddenly felt distressed, and got up, "Master..." But he got half up He sat down again, wanting the master to stop, but swallowed the words again.

Can't park, can't see Xu Xiaoquan, I don't want to know what is more important in Xu Xiaoquan's heart, so let it be, Chen Han feels that although his heart hurts, but he is also tired, he wants to take it lightly, and then lighten it up until he doesn't want to look at it anymore , Xu Xiaoquan, I still love you, but I am less firm than before.

Xu Xiaoquan tried his best to catch up with the car, but he couldn't catch up, until he watched him slowly leave.

Chen Han clearly saw himself, but he didn't get out of the car. He vaguely understood Chen Han's decision.

Xu Xiaoquan wiped away the tears she didn't know when, it turned out to be bitter.

Fairy tale is over, it is better to forget it.

☆、'It's cold and add clothes'. After finishing writing, Chen Han pressed the send button. Time passed quickly, and it was already snowing. Xu Xiaoquan sat in the classroom and looked at the snowflakes outside the window. The snow was as light as smoke, like As white as silver, fluttering, fluttering, sprinkled down from the sky.

It has been almost three months since I came to the re-reading class, Xu Xiaoquan felt that time passed so fast, it was already winter, and I still remembered that Chen Han told him to wear more clothes in winter, but now, thinking of this, Xu Xiaoquan sighed .

I haven't contacted for three months, this world is small, we just met like this, this world is big, it's hard to see each other when we are apart.

It was snowing, Chen Han stood in front of the french window, thinking of Xu Xiaoquan who was very thin when he was a child, he was particularly afraid of the cold, and when he walked in winter, he always held his hand. This winter, I don't know if Xu Xiaoquan was dressed warmly or not.

Chen Han picked up the phone and wanted to send a message to Xu Xiaoquan every time, but he didn't know how to say it. He hadn't contacted him for three months, and Xu Xiaoquan didn't send a message to himself. It was really strange. After such a long time, Xu Xiaoquan Koizumi's face became clearer and clearer.

'It's cold and more clothes'.After finishing writing, Chen Han pressed the send button.

Xu Xiaoquan was always sleepy in the afternoon, he was lying on the table secretly and almost fell asleep, when he heard the phone vibrate, he lowered his head and took out the phone, it turned out to be Chen Han.

Xu Xiaoquan's hands trembled a little, "It's cold and you need more clothes." 'Chen Han really couldn't let go of himself.Xu Xiaoquan felt happy for a while, what should he reply to Chen Han, "You too, thank you for your concern..."

Before he finished writing, a hand came over. Xu Xiaoquan looked up and saw that it was an English teacher who took the phone away cruelly.

"Xu Xiaoquan, come to my office after class."

Xu Xiaoquan sighed, at least wait until I finish sending the text message.

Chen Han waited for half an hour, but Xu Xiaoquan didn't reply to the message. He was a little disappointed. Maybe he was in class.

After class, Xu Xiaoquan came to the office,

"Xu Xiaoquan, you didn't do well in English in the mock test last time. If your English could pass the test last time, you would be number one in the school. Do you understand?"

"Well, I understand. Teacher, I have my mobile phone, can you give me back? I will study English hard."

"The phone will wait until the next mock test, and I will give it to you if you are excellent in English."

"Teacher, I..."

"Okay, stop talking, go back to study"

Xu Xiaoquan walked back to the classroom helplessly, why did he text Chen Han back... There is still one month before the next mock exam, and I feel a headache when I think about it.

After returning home from school, Xu Xiaoquan picked up the landline and wanted to call Chen Han, but it would be embarrassing, he probably wasn't ready to talk to Chen Han.What to say, Xu Xiaoquan hesitated.

After a while, Xu Xiaoquan still called Chen Han,

"Hi, hello." It was a girl's voice

Xu Xiaoquan did not speak,

"Hello, are you looking for Chen Han? He is busy. If you have anything to tell me, I will tell him."

Xu Xiaoquan hung up the phone. If he heard correctly, it should be Li Qinglan's voice.

☆、You never seem to need me.

Chen Han was washing vegetables in the kitchen, Li Qinglan came over and said

"Your cell phone rang, and I answered it, but the other party didn't speak."

"is it?"

"kindness".

"It's okay, I'll go back later, you can take out the washed dishes."

"Ok."

Chen Han wiped his hands, took out the induction cooker, walked to the living room, and put it on the dining table, "Sure enough, eating hot pot in winter is the best." Li Qinglan said happily, "Yes, Xu Xiaoquan also likes it." Chen Han I don't know why I said Xu Xiaoquan's name, but I just blurted it out.

Seeing Chen Han's lonely expression, Li Qinglan couldn't answer the conversation, so she changed the subject, "Look, is the water boiling?"

"opened."

Chen Han and Li Qinglan were eating hot pot and chatting.

In other words, when Li Qinglan and Chen Han could talk, it was because Li Qinglan discovered Chen Han's secret.

National Day school started, Chen Han didn't go to class for two consecutive days, and Li Qinglan didn't answer the phone calls. Although she didn't answer her before, she still answered the phone. What's wrong?

Li Qinglan came to the place where Chen Han lived, rang the doorbell, but the door did not open after several rings, Li Qinglan became anxious and knocked hard on the door.

"Chen Han, are you there, Chen Han..."

Suddenly the door opened, Li Qinglan looked at the person in front of him, is it Chen Han?Wrapped in a quilt, unshaven, smelling of alcohol, how could he be so decadent.

As Chen Han entered the room, there were wine bottles and cigarette butts all over the floor. Li Qinglan felt that she almost didn't know Chen Han. "What's wrong with you? What happened?" Li Qinglan asked, "It's none of your business."

After finishing speaking, Chen Han picked up the wine bottle to drink again. Li Qinglan stepped forward, trying to grab Chen Han's wine bottle, but it was useless. Chen Han threw the bottle to the ground, "What are you, why do you care I."

Li Qinglan stared at Chen Han fiercely,

"Yes, I know I'm nothing, but I'm not as decadent as you."

Seeing the group photo of Chen Han and Xu Xiaoquan on the ground, Li Qinglan suddenly felt that everything became clear, "Do you love Xu Xiaoquan? How can you do it?" Li Qinglan shouted, "Why not, why not?", Chen Han pushed Li Qinglan, and Li Qinglan's hand landed on the broken beer scum, and the shards were embedded in his hand, and blood flowed out.

Li Qinglan didn't feel any pain at all. It turned out that she really didn't feel pain when she was desperate to a certain extent.

When Chen Han saw Li Qinglan's bleeding hand, he suddenly became sober. He picked up Li Qinglan and ran outside. Fortunately, he lived on the first floor, and there was a small clinic in the community.

Li Qinglan's hand was stitched twice, leaving scars. Although it hurts, it's not as painful as Li Qinglan's heart.

You used to be all I wanted, but you never seemed to need me.

☆, every time you mention it, your heart will hurt once

After that incident, Li Qinglan and Chen Han became friends. Chen Han felt guilty, but Li Qinglan didn't take it seriously. There was a scar on the palm of his hand, but he felt special. It might be the best choice to be friends with Chen Han. You can see him You can understand him and be by his side.

That day, when Chen Han called back, it was his grandma who answered the call. Grandma called Xu Xiaoquan to answer the phone. Xu Xiaoquan said he was busy, but actually didn't know what to say to Chen Han. Grandma and Chen Han said a few more words, then hung up. up.

Chen Han felt that Xu Xiaoquan might have misunderstood, but he also felt that there was no need to explain, because after all, it doesn't matter now, does it?

In a blink of an eye, it's time for winter vacation, and the head teacher is talking about the precautions for winter vacation on the podium.

Xu Xiaoquan was lying on the table, the sun shone wantonly on Xu Xiaoquan's face, Xu Xiaoquan always felt that Chen Han was watching him beside him, just watching him quietly, with a doting smile, he would caress To smooth out the wrinkles on my forehead, I will hug myself gently and say I love you.

Xu Xiaoquan breathed out towards the window, and silently wrote down Chen Han's name. It was very cold this year, Xu's father came to pick up grandma and Xiaoquan, and asked grandma to go to Xu Xiaoquan's house for the New Year. Xu Xiaoquan felt that his ears hurt these days , I thought it was freezing, but I didn't take it seriously.

Xu's father drove to pick up Xu Xiaoquan and grandma. As soon as they walked to the gate of the community, they saw Xu Tianyi. Xu Tianyi had grown taller.

As soon as Xu Tian waved his hand, Dad Xu stopped the car,

"Brother, brother, grandma, grandma..." Xu Tianyi shouted happily.

"Xu Tianyi, you've grown taller, get in the car." Xu Xiaoquan said, "No, brother, my mother asked me to buy soy sauce, why don't you go with me." Xu Tianyi said coquettishly, "Okay, Dad , Grandma, you go back first, I will accompany Xu Tianyi to buy soy sauce."

"Well, come back early, it's cold outside." Grandma said.

"it is good."

Xu Xiaoquan got out of the car and pulled Xu Tianyi over to compare his height.

"Xu Tianyi, look at you, it's almost reaching my chest, why are you growing so fast?"

Xu Tianyi is almost 9 years old, and his height is almost 1 meter. He is growing up a bit fast.

"Mom drinks milk for me every day, hehe, brother, I am much taller than Chen Siwen."

"Looking at you, why do I feel that I am old?"

"No, brother is always young."

"Oh, your mouth is so sweet."

Xu Xiaoquan took Xu Tianyi's hand and went to the supermarket.

On the heavily congested overpass, Chen Han was sitting in the back of the car thinking about something, Li Qinglan, who was sitting in the co-pilot, glanced at Chen Han, wanted to say something but didn't say anything, this scene was seen by Chen Han.

"What do you want to say?"

"Thank you for accompanying me to Sanya this time, I had a great time."

"Not this one."

Li Qinglan smiled helplessly,

"I really can't hide anything from you. Do you want to meet Xu Xiaoquan when you go home this time? What are you going to do?"

Chen Han looked out the window and didn't say anything, and Li Qinglan also wisely didn't say anything.

Chen Han felt the thorn in Xu Xiaoquan's heart, every time he mentioned it, his heart would ache, so painful, so painful, the piercing pain made Chen Han feel that he was truly alive.

☆, once you touch it, you can no longer avoid it

When Xu Xiaoquan came home and lay on the bed, he still had the familiar smell. Even though his mother had washed it many times, it still smelled like Chen Han. Everything about the cold.

"Xiaoquan, come out to eat some fruit." Mother Xu shouted

"kindness."

Xu Xiaoquan's family sat on the sofa, and Xu's mother said while eating

"Chen Han is coming back today too."

"is it?"

"It is said that he went to Sanya with the deputy mayor's daughter. Look at Chen Han, he has a bright future."

"Our family Xiaoquan is also very good. After the new year, study hard and get into Peking University and Tsinghua University." Xu's father said that Xu Xiaoquan smiled and did not speak. Sure enough, Chen Han was still with Li Qinglan, Xu Xiaoquan felt a little relieved. th.

"Tomorrow, let's have dinner and get together. Let's go to our hot pot restaurant. It's been a long time since we got together." Xu's father said, "Okay, I'll go and tell Chen Han's mother."

Xu Xiaoquan suddenly remembered that Xiao Qi was about to come out. He said that he could come out years ago, and he should go to Grandma Xiao's house tomorrow. He hadn't been there for a long time, and he didn't know how he was.

Just as Xu's mother was about to go out, she came back again.

"Xiaoquan, let's go together. Your aunt has been asking you when you will come back every day these days. She also misses you."

"I……"

"go Go."

Before he finished speaking, he was pulled up by his mother.

Chen Han and Li Qinglan's car came to the door, and Li Qinglan got out of the car with Chen Han.

"Let me go with you to visit my uncle and aunt."

"No, my parents must have misunderstood that we are together when they saw you. You go back and be careful on the way."

"Okay then, hey, then I'm leaving."

"kindness."

As soon as Xu Xiaoquan entered the door, he saw Chen Siwen.

"Brother Koizumi." Chen Siwen called out sweetly

"Hey, Wenwen in our family has also grown taller."

Mother Chen was very happy to see Xu Xiaoquan coming.

"Koizumi, you've lost weight again."

"You're not skinny, Auntie."

"Yes, I'm all thin, eat some fruit."

"it is good."

"Xiaoquan, study hard, you will definitely do better than Chen Han in the college entrance examination tomorrow." Father Chen said, "Yes, good." Xu Xiaoquan said with a smile

At this time, Chen Han came back.

"Are you back?" Chen's mother was so happy seeing Chen Han come back from ear to ear.

Chen Han became darker, more handsome, and no longer immature. Chen Han raised his head and met Xu Xiaoquan's eyes. Chen Han felt that Xu Xiaoquan wanted to attract iron stones. Once he touched them, he could no longer avoid them.

☆、Suddenly want to hug Xu Xiaoquan

"Why are you looking at only one person, where is Lan Lan?" Chen's mother asked Chen Han's gaze was still on Xu Xiaoquan, and Xu Xiaoquan also looked at Chen Han.

"I'm asking you, why are you the only one, where is Lan Lan?" Mother Chen said again, "What is she doing here? She's gone back."

"You child, what did I tell you? I forgot, I told you to bring Lan Lan back." Mother Chen scolded.

Chen Han was a little impatient,

"Mom, I have nothing to do with her, okay?"

Mama Chen just wanted to speak, but Mama Xu smoothed things over and said

"Hey, look at Chen Han, he's handsome again, he's just like an adult, he's matured."

Everyone laughed, Xu Xiaoquan also laughed.

Chen Han took the suitcase into the room, went out and sat on the sofa opposite Xu Xiaoquan, the atmosphere was extremely awkward, Xu Xiaoquan buried himself in eating fruit.

"You two haven't seen each other for a long time." Father Chen said

"It's been a while." Xu Xiaoquan returned

"If you have nothing to do, go to the house and chat. There is no point in sitting here."

Xu Xiaoquan suddenly didn't know what to do?What are we talking about, what can we talk about?Xu Xiaoquan felt that Chen Han probably didn't have anything to say to himself.

"Mom, didn't Xu Tianyi say he was hungry? Let's go home and cook."

"That's right, it's time for dinner, okay, I'll go back and cook, let's get together tomorrow on 29."

"well."

Xu Xiaoquan felt that he resolved the embarrassment wittily, Xu Xiaoquan seemed to be able to feel Chen Han's gaze wandering over him, but so what?

Chen Han was leaning on the window sill, the snow was still falling, the lights outside were bright, it really was the atmosphere of Chinese New Year, he and Xu Xiaoquan hadn't seen each other for half a year, that guy lost weight, but he was much handsomer, so he still loves that guy, right? , despite being heartbroken.

Xu Xiaoquan went back to his room to review after dinner, but he couldn't bear it any more, and suddenly wanted to go for a walk. Xu Xiaoquan put on his coat, took his mobile phone and went out.

Chen Han suddenly saw Xu Xiaoquan's figure, so late, where is he going?Chen Han took his clothes and went out.

Xu Xiaoquan came to that alley as he walked, the alley was so quiet, Xu Xiaoquan leaned against the corner, and suddenly burst into tears, crying like a child, those youth, stories, and happiness that belonged to him, now, all are worth it It existed, and the past that I tried to forget, was wiped out the moment I saw Chen Han.

Chen Han was at the corner, heard Xu Xiaoquan's cry, and sat on the ground paralyzed, Chen Han felt that he was about to give up, his heart ached so badly, he suddenly wanted to hug Xu Xiaoquan, hold him tightly, needless to say anything, just Hold tight.

But in what capacity?

☆、But, are you waiting for me now?

Chen Han lit a cigarette and smoked it, but he still didn't have the courage to walk over.

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