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A month has passed in the blink of an eye, and I have never met him. Is it really like I thought, was it just a joke?

"Hello." A sweet voice suddenly pulled me out of my thoughts, and I looked up at a girl I was somewhat familiar with, but it was only because I had some impressions in a class.

"Hello, what's the matter?" I said.

"My name is Shi Ya. You don't need to introduce yourself. I know your name is Lan Ke." She chuckled and continued, "Actually, it's nothing. I see you are in a daze all day. I don't know if there is something on your mind."

I shook my head and said, "No."

Shi Ya sat down next to me, looked at me and said, "Well~ I don't believe it, there must be something on my mind, but if you don't want to say it, forget it, everyone has their own secrets."

"Well, thank you."

"Don't be so polite, then we'll be friends from now on, shall we go to the garden behind the school tonight? I'm afraid of the dark by myself," Shi Ya said.

I wondered: "Why do you want to go at night if you are afraid of the dark? It's fine if you don't go during the day." Shi Ya seemed a little shy and said: "It's not lively during the day. It is said that there are many couples in the back garden at night. I am curious and want to see it." Look, I dare not go alone." Although it was a bit strange, I agreed to her.

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"What!!!!" When I told Feng Lvle about this, he roared immediately.

I stopped him and said, "Why are you reacting so much? You should learn from Yan Jie and Zhuge Xuhan's calmness."

"Cut, they don't call it calm, they just pretend to be deep." Feng Lvle pouted, "I said, is your kid a log or a log? Everyone invited you to the garden, and you still don't understand?"

"Understand what?"

Feng Lvle put on a senior look and said: "It means that she is interested in you. You are so stupid. It seems that you will be the first person in our dormitory to leave the bachelor. Hey, what's the reason, I think I'm handsome, It is popular among thousands of girls. Why is there no good thing that comes to your door automatically, brother, I envy you, Lan Ke."

"Come on, less poor. Maybe others really just want to see what the garden looks like at night, and they are too embarrassed to go alone. Just ask me for help, don't think too complicatedly."

"If you don't believe me, you can tell that other people like you anyway." Feng Lvle said disdainfully.

In the evening, Shi Ya called me and said that she was already waiting for me downstairs.So he casually tidied up his attire and went, leaving behind Feng Lvle who was whistling provocatively.

Shi Ya's voice could be seen from a distance, and it was a bit indistinct under the street lights of the school.Seeing me coming, Shi Ya ran over bouncingly, then took my hand and walked towards the garden.

I have to say, I'm not very clear about feelings.What is the feeling like, I don't know, what does it feel like?What form?Or what kind of rhythm?I can only choose to be pulled in confusion.

Soon we came to the garden behind the school. Like two voyeurs, Shi Ya and I scanned the couples around us who were holding hands, embracing and kissing.Shi Ya took me by the hand and watched almost all the couples in the garden. Sometimes when I peeked at other people kissing, I was discovered by others and ran all the way.It's really like being a thief, but seeing the unabated smile on Shi Ya's face, it can be seen that she is very happy to do so.

After a while, Shi Ya said she was very tired, so she found a stone bench and sat down.Shi Ya asked me: "Lan Ke, what is your family like? I don't think you like to talk much."

"My home? Well, there is my father, and there was a grandfather before, but he left when I was a few years old. There is also a mother who I haven't seen a few times since I was in junior high school. I heard from my father that he is going to I went to a farther place to work, and I haven’t come back yet.”

"Oh, sorry."

"It's okay." I said.

Shi Ya giggled and said, "Let me tell you my story."

I nodded.

Shi Ya went on to say: "Actually, I have lived with my grandparents since I was a child. My parents both work in other places. I can't remember what they look like now. I heard from my grandparents that they send living expenses over every month, but they basically don't Come back. I still remember that it has been 3 years since I last saw them. Do you think they don’t like me and don’t want me?”

"No, they are working hard to make money outside, just to make your life better."

"Really? But I don't want to live such a good life, I just want them to stay by my side." Shi Ya began to cry as she spoke.

I never knew that there is such a fragile heart under such a cheerful appearance.In comparison, I don't know what to do, I don't know how to comfort her.But I still watched TV, knowing that girls need comfort most at this time, so I also imitated the way of caring for my sister on TV and stroked her hair with my hands.At this time, Shi Ya suddenly put her body close to my arms, I couldn't tell whether this feeling was love or not.I'm afraid of this feeling, what the hell is it?