It turned out to be a handsome man.

After holding back, I realized that I actually didn't want to laugh at all.

Hongji fiddled with the food in the bowl with his chopsticks, and suddenly felt a little empty in his heart for no reason.

——I'm...lost something...

"Hey, brother," Huixian ate the food, changed the subject, and the address at the beginning of the sentence naturally changed from "Hongji" to "brother".

"……Well?"

"Do you know the showbiz?"

Hongji was slightly taken aback, "The showbiz? Why do you ask this suddenly?"

"My friend Bai Enxi...is a star now! Although she is still a newcomer, I think she will develop very well," Huixian put her chin out with one hand, giggling, "and there are seniors from BM and ANJELL. Brothers help her, we, Enxi, will definitely be popular!"

"Crackling".The sound of chopsticks falling to the ground.

Hongji widened his eyes, looked at Huixian in surprise, stood up suddenly, crossed the table, and grabbed Huixian's shoulder: "What did you just say?!"

"Ah?" Huixian was startled by his sudden action, "I...I said that Enxi would be very popular..."

"No!" Hongji interrupted her ending, "The first sentence!"

"Uh... the seniors of BM and ANJELL. will help her... that's it?"

"... ANJELL.?" Hongji read in a soft voice with complex and confused eyes, as if dreaming.

"Well, ANJELL., have you heard of it? It seems to be very famous in Korea. That Jiang Xinyu brother is very nice! Their dormitory also has a cute dog named Jolie~"

——ANJELL..

——Jiang Xinyu.

—Jolie.

Familiar nouns flooded into my mind, full of swelling, occupying all my thoughts.

Hongji let go of Huixian, and pressed the back of his head with his right hand, the heart-piercing pain kept coming in waves like tides.

"Brother! What's wrong? Is your head hurting again?"

"Jolie~Jolie~my friend~Jeremy loves Jolie~"

"Jeremy, you really don't grow up."

"Jeremy you bastard!"

"The usual Jeremy is the most handsome."

"Huang Mao~ lend me my motorcycle!"

………………

—Who is Jeremy...?

"Just one hour, let me like you."

——Whose eyes am I watching the back of that short-haired girl with heartache?

"Are we still friends?"

—Why don't you turn around?As long as you look back, you will find how reluctantly I smiled.

——It’s like a fool, why do you want to laugh when you don’t want to laugh?The more heartbroken you are, the more you have to smile brightly, and replace sad words with bright smiles.

——Is that me?

—A fool who only hides his sadness with a smile.

--that's me?

"Brother, what's the matter?"

The pain subsided slowly, Hongji focused his scattered eyes in a trance, and saw Min Huixian in front of him with a worried expression on his face.

He lowered his head, putting his hands on the ground.

"Huixian."

"Ok?"

"I really want to remember something."

The night is deep.

Min Huixian tossed and turned.

He pulled the quilt over his head, trying to force himself to fall asleep, but his mind was sober that he didn't feel sleepy at all.

Min Huixian simply sat up, wrapped in the quilt and holding her knees in a daze.

Turning his head and looking at the sliding door of the room, the space on the other side of the door was silent.

——Have you slept already?

She tentatively called out in a quiet voice: "OPPA?"

Unexpectedly, Hongji responded clearly from the other side of the door: "What?"

"Is brother still asleep?"

"No." Such a short and calm answer was out of his character.

"Just now I said what I remembered...what the hell is it?"

Hongji didn't answer, and the other side of the door fell silent.

——Still don’t want to say it?

Huixian buried her face in the quilt and sighed inaudibly.

——I don't have the qualifications and obligations to care about him, do I?

"I...I often think of a girl recently."

Hongji's magnetic voice sounded again after a long silence, Huixian almost thought it was her hallucination.

"...Huh? Girl?"

"Hmm..." Hongji paused, as if he was thinking about something, "She has short hair and looks silly, but she is very warm and makes people want to hug her."

"But... I can't remember her appearance, it's just a very vague figure."

Huixian pursed the corners of her lips, wanting to laugh, but she didn't know why she couldn't.

"No...it's someone my brother likes, right?"

"...Maybe," Hongji put his hand on his chest, but Huixian couldn't see how sad his expression was, "When I think of her, my heart hurts."

Huixian was stunned, and half lowered her eyes, inexplicably, an unknown emotion slowly overflowed in her heart.

"Is that so..."

Speechless for a while, a door seemed to cut off the space where the two were.

"Huixian."

"Ok?"

"Let's chat~ I won't be able to sleep for a while~" Resuming his usual tone, the childish Li Hongji seemed to have suddenly returned.

"What are you talking about?"

"Let's talk about the past~" Hongji smiled, pretending to be distressed, "Ah~ But what should I do, I can't remember the past!"

"You are too treacherous ==! You just want to rely on your amnesia and listen to me alone, right?"

"Hey~ Huixian, tell me about it~ Let's just talk about your family, I've never seen your family before~ Tell me about them!"

"……family?"

"correct."

"Do you really want to hear it?"

"Yeah, tell me."

Min Huixian lay down and looked at the ceiling: "Actually... I don't need to tell you this at all... But since you asked, it's not a secret to keep, so... it's okay to tell you..."

"Did I say it? My father is Chinese and my mother is Korean. When my father came to Korea to study, the two met because of the tea ceremony, and then fell in love and got married. My father is very kind, and my mother is very gentle. After marriage, they are also very affectionate. First, My brother was born, and then me."

"But... I don't have much memory of my father and mother, and even less of my brother." Hui Xian squinted her eyes, recalling the memories backwards in her mind.

"Huh? Why?"

"Dad, mom, and my 16-year-old brother died when I was six."

Li Hongji was surprised.

Huixian's tone was calm, and she couldn't hear the ups and downs of her emotions.

"Originally, the whole family went to Hawaii for vacation and rented a speedboat to go out to sea. Mom and Dad seemed to want to take better pictures, so they drove the speedboat out of the safety line of the seashore. Suddenly, a storm broke out and then disappeared. Didn't come back either."

Hongji didn't know what to say, he didn't want her to continue talking, but he didn't know how to stop it, the atmosphere suddenly became heavy.

"I, because I lost my temper before getting on the speedboat, I willfully stayed in the children's playground on the beach and refused to go with them. I didn't expect to survive like this." Min Huixian smiled, but the smile didn't reach her eyes. When my mother left it in the Children's Paradise, she still complained a little in her heart...Why couldn't she stay? If I stayed and continued to persuade the self-willed me instead of insisting on going to sea because I couldn't bear to spoil the interest of my father and brother...I wouldn't die Ah..."

"Huixian..." Hongji sat up, frowned slightly, and called her name.

"Father, mother... and my brother, just disappeared, and I can't even find the body... Do you know how scared I was when I was only six years old? They are all engineering designers, so they left a lot of money for Me. But...money or something...I don't want it...I don't want money...I just want them back..."

"Among all the relics, only a few are meaningful. A necklace was worn by my mother. When my mother was out at sea, she was afraid of losing it, so she untied it and put it in my small bag. What my mother really left... Only This necklace is just..."

Min Huixian subconsciously touched the necklace on her neck.A simple but beautiful cross pendant with diamond chips around the edges and a central blue crystal shining like a teardrop on the verge of falling.

"...My grandma in China came to Korea to take care of me until I was 17 and died of illness, and then I was really the only one left in this family..."

"It turns out that the house we live in is very big, but because it is too big, I often feel very scared. Every time I stand alone in the big empty house, I feel very helpless. There is nothing to rely on. .That kind of feeling, even thinking about it makes me chill." Min Huixian clenched the corner of the quilt tightly, her eyes slightly sore.

"So... I moved to this small apartment, working and studying at the same time, I want to make my life busy and fulfilling, so that I won't feel lonely often..."

"But... Even with Encai and Enxi by my side, I try my best to put all my thoughts on my studies and not think too much. Every time I sleep on the ground alone at night, I still feel very scared... "Buried her face in the quilt, warm liquid dripped out of her eyes uncontrollably, slipped through the corners of her eyes, flowed to her ears, and finally wet the pillow cover.

"No one can be by my side all the time, so that I can see it when I turn my head, so that I can rely on it when I need it... At night, I feel very scared, shrinking in the quilt like a coward and going crazy Missing my father, mother, brother, grandma... this feeling...is really uncomfortable." Huixian's voice gradually softened, and was finally covered by crying.

"Hongji... I have selfish intentions in taking you in, even if I don't know who you are