please keep me quiet dude

The most rare thing about a love affair is to get out and let go, flying to the sky and fleeing to the ground but not escaping from the tarsal shackles. I thought that such things as being stubborn and stupid for one person would never fall on me, because I am Xiao Xiaoyan, and even The master of magicians that even the emperor fears, thousands of troops and horses are like ants in my eyes, but I never thought that from the moment I was tempted, I could not escape this fate.

In a relationship, the most regrettable thing is not that you can't get it, but that you can't keep it when you get it.I admit that the reason why she and I have come to this point is because of my deception.Because of feelings, half a grain of sand cannot be tolerated.And I, understand too late.

When I got the news of her death from the Mobei military camp, I was so sad that I was so angry that my whole body collapsed and I was only one step away from that hell Shura.If it wasn't for others' healing, I'm afraid I would have gone to the underworld to see her right away.I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid that when I am in Shura, she will be in a beautiful place that I will never be able to touch.Just like the two sides of the Bianhua, they will never see each other.

So, I was cowardly, so I lived in this world like a walking dead, until one day, Xiu knelt down in front of me, holding the Forgetfulness Gu that she was going to use on me before she left, and asked me to make a decision, I It was the end of a life that was worse than death.

Hehe, Wangqing Gu, what a Wangqing...

But why should she?

Because I cheated on her, will she punish me by feigning death?If this is the case, then I have nothing to say, but why do you want to use Wangqing Gu on your own initiative?Could it be that for her, that relationship is just something she can erase if she wants to, and it doesn't matter if I, the client, cherish it or not?

So I hate, hate her, hate her but can't bear her.When I lost my calm and broke the ring she left me because of anger, I accidentally found the note she left for me. When I saw the content on the note, I completely recovered my calmness at that moment .

It's like falling into a millennium cold pool, the whole body and even the blood are tinged with cold.The hatred for her was also submerged in the fear of losing her, the undercurrent was surging, and he didn't know where to dodge.But how did I know that all of this is just the beginning, and the more painful ones are yet to come.

I never thought that when we meet again, it will be in the palace.It took me a lot of effort to make myself not pay attention to everything about her, to make myself look more indifferent than I imagined, because only in this way, I would not be seen through the disguise by her.

Seeing the intimate conversation between her and the national teacher, the content on the note was like a magic barrier, jumping out all the time to remind me of the possibility that she might leave me forever at any time.But I am not a person who is willing to let fate play tricks. When I saw her dodging my eyes, I knew that she still had feelings for me.And at that moment, this chase scene began.

I fulfilled her wish to make her think that I have forgotten my love for her, but I also created all kinds of chance encounters to drive her crazy.I thought everything was well planned, but I forgot to estimate people's hearts.I never thought that she, who is so thin and looks useless, is so popular with girls, not only the maids in the palace love her, even the princess of Mobei is affectionate and righteous to her.

Oh, what a loving and righteous person!

For her sake, the princess not only helped her avoid me, but even lied and acted to deceive me.And she, for the sake of the princess, even poisoned the generals of the Xijing Kingdom, although I don't care, but if she was for the princess of Mobei, it would be a different matter. If they unite to deceive me, they find it hard to control themselves.Especially when she saw her looking at her so engrossed, her heart was filled with sourness, but she felt ashamed that she would have such feelings.

So I went to another place to calm myself down, but when I came back to calm down, I saw two people on the ground, hugging each other intimately.Especially the princess, everyone understands the affectionate eyes. At that moment, my heart burned with anger, and I almost, almost killed her.But in her grinning expression, she didn't know how much patience it took me to control myself not to hurt her.

What am I to you?

Feelings are up to you to forget and forget, now, with the princess's favor, will you completely erase me?

No matter how uncomfortable I was, I could only hug the wine and hide in the corner alone, with all kinds of bitter emotions tossing up and down. The sad thing is that she didn't know that I had fallen to this point.Because she has decided that I don't remember her, so she is unscrupulous, she has no worries, so she will never know what kind of torture I am suffering, I think, this is God's punishment, for me ignoring her heart Punishment, so I gritted my teeth and survived, but I still underestimated the so-called fate.

It was originally designed to let her go to the Buddhist hall, originally I wanted to play a play, seduce her, and let her not forget her feelings for me, because I have always been good at this, just like how I made her fall in love with me back then, but I didn't want to almost let her fall in love with me. She lost her life and even induced another soul in her body.The moment I knew the truth, I regretted it so much that I wanted to kill myself. If it wasn't for Xiu's sacrifice of my arm, I'm afraid I would have hurt myself so badly.

Later, I learned that she and the national teacher came from the same place, from a world I had never known, and her real name was originally Li Qi.Li Yuanchun is full of splendor in the sky, are the treasured trees of Qiyu flying like swallows?But I decided early on that whoever she was, she was just my monkey.my dude.Who dares to hurt her, I will make her pay a thousand times the price.

But God's will is really hard to violate. When Hou Jing told me that she only had a few days to live and then left me completely, my whole world collapsed.I haven't let her come back to me, haven't told her that I want to hold my hand for the rest of my life, how can she leave first?

The feeling of being overwhelmed with pain is still unforgettable to this day.If I knew that loving someone is so painful, I really shouldn't touch it, let alone touch this demonic obstacle that I can't get rid of in my whole life.But, that is irreparable.

When I confessed everything to her, I didn't expect her to really forgive me, so when I came back, I had given up any hope, but I didn't expect that she would come to me in the end.When she emerged from the rain and grinned in front of my window, God knows how much patience it took me not to cry in front of her at that moment.

I said disgustedly, a monkey soaked in rain is so ugly, but no matter how ugly you are, you are my monkey too.I couldn't tell her this one.

She is not the only one who is not good at expressing emotions, and so am I.And there are some things that can never be said.

Seeing the scars on her body that could not be erased because of me, I couldn't help but kissed her with a tenderness I had never experienced before.I know that her body is trembling because of my touch, it would be great if the kiss could erase all the damage, but I know that I was expecting too much.

Some injuries, even if healed, will form scars, which cannot be erased or forgotten, let alone all caused by me.Therefore, the deeper the feelings for her, the more painful it is, and she has no way of knowing all this.

No matter how reluctant we are, it is still the last parting.That part of the road, I wish it would never come to an end, and the warmth on her back would never disappear, but in the end, I was just dreaming.A door separates each other in two worlds, she is outside the door, in the rain, crying to love me, and I am inside the door, keeping a promise that can never be fulfilled, even one sentence, I love you too I can't say it, I'm afraid that if I say it, I have to face the cruel scene of seeing her leave me with my own eyes.

I don't know how I got through that night, I just know that when I came to my senses, it was already morning.And she finally knocked on the door, I wish the person who greeted me was her, but when I knew from that concise sentence that she was not her, I was overwhelmed by disappointment, I really couldn't hold it anymore .

Why didn't you abide by the agreement with each other, why didn't you come to me, why didn't you keep the agreement...

It was no longer her who answered me...

I was exhausted by the series of painful punishments she had given me, starting with the barracks.At the moment I fell down, I finally knew that this world really has retribution.The sins committed by oneself can only be borne by oneself. People should pay the due price for their actions. It is only a matter of how long the price will come.Fortunately for me, all this is finally coming to an end.

After she left, Xiu told me her doubts. She said that she did not leave.For Xiu, I don't really believe it. After all, she once blocked my relationship with her so much, so I won't believe any words, but I may still hope that she is right, even if this is just a little Yi. broken dream.So at night, I deliberately pretended to be asleep, but she really came quietly to my bed and held my hand, and the moment I felt the warmth of her palm, I finally believed Xiu's words, and she really didn't leave.

Even though I had all sorts of doubts, wondering why she wanted to cheat, I pretended nothing happened until I found the national teacher and used some means to get the so-called truth out of the national teacher's mouth. It turned out that all of this was just Hou Jing. It's just a trick I set up before leaving, and she lied to me just to keep the agreement with each other.

Facing her deception, I was relieved.There have been too many insignificant misunderstandings between me and her to delay each other's time, and I don't want to waste it on such things anymore, so I am not angry at all, but completely relieved.

Going around, going around, you are finally... still by my side...

It doesn't matter if you want to play, next, I have the time of my life to accompany you...

It's just that I can't let you succeed so easily, my monkey...