Paranoid tyrants always doubt life every day

Xu Gaoang: "Of course."

Jiao Li slightly shook the hand holding the mobile phone, and then he heard someone talking to Xu Gaoang over there, and vaguely heard them talking.

Hearing the sound, Jiao Li asked: "Is there something else? Or, you should go and do it first!"

After waiting for a second, Xu Gaoang said, "Well, then... I'll call you back when I'm free."

The phone hung up, but Jiao Li didn't put down the phone directly, but just kept that action for a while.

Every minute of waiting for the results seems to be like the eve of the trial.

When checking the results the next day, everyone was very nervous.Several other people in the dormitory also comforted him and said, "You usually have good grades. Didn't you work hard during this time? Don't worry."

Chen Xing also agreed: "That's right, Zhao Hai and I should be more worried about grades than Jiao Li."

Jiao Li also kept comforting himself.Thinking about this period of time, he has worked very hard to make up for it. He doesn't expect to have the previous grades of the original owner, but the passing line should be fine.

Except for Sheng Le, everyone sat at their desks and used their computers to check their results.Jiao Li took a deep breath, then held the mouse and clicked on the webpage where the results were announced.

Zhao Hai clapped his hands excitedly: "I passed!"

Sheng Le walked over and took a look: "Okay! It seems that the rain these days has not been in vain."

Zhao Hai felt strange when he heard this, but he couldn't tell where the problem was.

He turned his head and asked Chen Xing: "Chen Xing, how are you doing?"

Chen Xing leaned back on the chair, heaved a sigh of relief, and said with a smile, "I almost turned into a widowed frog."

Both of them were very happy and relaxed a lot, but Jiao Li'an sat there quietly without saying anything.

Zhao Hai turned around again, put one hand on the back of the chair: "Jiao Li, how much score do you have?"

Jiao Li didn't answer, a few people were a little surprised, so they all walked over to have a look, but everyone was silent.

I saw that Jiao Li's score was lower than Zhao Hai's, failing.

Zhao Hai licked his lips and said: "Is there something wrong with the system?"

Sheng Le whispered: "It is indeed his name."

Chen Xing: "Maybe it's smoking? Or, why don't you call and ask?"

Jiao Li loosened his grip on the mouse, then smiled and said to them: "It's okay, it doesn't matter."

With that said, he stood up and changed the subject: "Where are we going to relax tonight? Have you decided where?"

Zhao Hai: "Barbecue or hot pot?"

Chen Xing: "I heard that there is a self-service restaurant that is also very good, with unlimited refills for drinks."

Zhao Hai: "If you help yourself, there will be a lot of people at night, right?"

Sheng Le: "Since we want to drink, the atmosphere in the bar must be better."

Several people discussed it and decided to go to the place Sheng Le said.

Jiao Li originally thought that Sheng Le would take them to the bar that he and the original owner used to go to, but it turned out that it was not the case.

And Sheng Le didn't dress up as she did in the nightclub before, she was well dressed.

The bar is not big, but the decoration is not bad. When I walked in, the voices of several people were drowned by the sound of music.Sheng Le didn't ask, and took them directly to the lobby, saying that it would be fun only in the lobby.Sometimes there will be activities and some small rewards.

There were many men and women in the hall, and some of them could be seen as students from nearby schools.

Several people were led by the waiter to the booth next to them, and after they were seated, they began to discuss what to drink.

The consumption of this store is not high, and the fruit plate, snacks and drinks are ordered together, which is not too expensive.After listening to the waiter's introduction, Jiao Li noticed that Sheng Le probably came here to take care of Zhao Hai and Chen Xing.

When the stuff was ready, several people held a bottle and touched it.

Zhao Hai: "Playing dice?"

Jiao Li seemed to be very interested in replying: "Okay!"

With the atmosphere, several people quickly had fun.Jiao Li was actually playing dice for the first time, but he knew the rules, and he shouted boldly when playing. In the end, he seemed to be on the bar with Zhao Hai, and shouted away as soon as he reached him.As a result, he drank a lot of alcohol instead.

"Go!" Jiao Li shouted again this time.

Zhao Hai couldn't help laughing: "I said you can do it? Are you playing quiz with prizes? My brother will give you another chance, do you really want me to do it?"

"Yes, I want to draw a prize with you today." Jiao Li didn't let go, but when he opened it, he really won the prize.

Several people laughed loudly, Jiao Li also hecked twice, and then said to Zhao Hai: "See, persistence is victory."

Zhao Hai picked up the wine glass in front of him and was about to drink when Jiao Li suddenly touched him with the wine glass: "I'll accompany you."

Zhao Hai also touched the past: "Brother Jiao is interesting enough."

A few people were drinking high, Jiao Li didn't even notice that the phone rang.Chen Xing, who was still sitting next to him, asked: "I seem to hear something ringing, is it someone's phone?"

After this question, everyone took out their mobile phones one by one, only to realize that Jiao Li's mobile phone rang.

Jiao Li looked at the caller above and was silent for a while, then Chen Xing came over to take a look and said, "Aren't you going to answer?"

"Oh, it's too noisy here, let me pick it up outside!" Jiao Li said, stood up and walked out of the bar.

The phone kept ringing and ringing, and it stopped for less than two seconds and then came again.

Jiao Li stood at the door of the bar, the night wind was a bit chilly, and there was no one outside at this hour.

Jiao Li pressed the answer button and put the phone to his ear: "Hello?"

"Busy? Why did it take so long to answer the phone?" Xu Xu on the other end said with a high voice.

Jiao Li hooked the corner of his mouth: "Sheng Le and Zhao Hai and I came out to play."

Xu Gaoang, who was driving, glanced at the time: "It's so late? In a bar?"

Jiao Li: "Well, come out and relax."

Xu Gaoang frowned slightly: "Have you been drinking?"

Jiao Li: "Well, I drank a little, but don't worry, I'm not drunk."

Xu Gaoang: "What's the name of the bar you went to?"

"Name?" Jiao Li looked up, and then told him.

The two were quiet on the phone for a while, then Jiao Li suddenly said, "Xu Gaoang, do you miss me? You should miss me the same way I miss you, right?"

Xu Gaoang: "Of course."

"That's great." Jiao Li said softly.The smile on his face also dimmed with the light.

He looked down at the road, and then said softly to Xu Gaoang on the phone: "Xu Gaoang, it's very dark here, and there is only one streetlight that doesn't shine very well. I'm standing under the streetlight at the door right now!" "

Xu Gaoang: "Are you alone?"

Jiao Li hummed softly: "All this time, I was the only one walking through the alley with only one street light. I was waiting for my mother to come back."

Xu Gaoyang couldn't help frowning, thinking that Jiao Li was probably drunk now.

Jiao Li continued: "Xu Gaoang, do you also think that I'm bad?"

Xu Gaoang: "You are fine."

Jiao Li: "I'm afraid of the dark and I'm afraid of death. I can't hold back my tears when I'm excited. I hate myself for being like this, but I can't change myself."

Jiao Li said, looking up at the empty street, his thoughts seemed to drift back to the past.He said: "Do you know why I am so timid? When I was young, my family was poor. I didn't know who my father was. My mother and I could only rent that kind of shabby little house. The house was very broken and often had power outages, and I Because my mother has to support me, she comes back very late every day. The sound insulation of the house is not good, and I can always hear someone talking through the wall."

Jiao Li's tone was very calm, as if he was telling a short story.

"One time when we moved, there was a lunatic nearby, who often ran out of the house. Once I was delivering food to my mother after school, and I met him on the way back. I wanted to go over quickly, but he suddenly grabbed me. They kept telling me that someone died, and the body was hidden in the wall of my house. I didn’t dare to go that way again. I’ve been very timid since then.”

Xu's high-pitched heart seemed to follow him: "Jiao Li..."

Jiao Li didn't respond to him, but continued on his own: "I didn't have much communication with my mother, even when she was seriously ill and hospitalized, she told me a lot, and she told me to study hard and get into a university. So I always thought that as long as I went to college as my mother expected, our family would be fine. As long as we persist, we will usher in victory. It's just..."

Jiao Li's eyes continued to stretch forward, and he didn't know where he was looking in the distance. He took a deep breath and pretended to be relaxed: "It's just... the night before I received the admission letter, she I passed away. I took the admission letter and didn’t dare to open it. I bought a tomb for my mother with the savings my mother saved for my tuition fees, and I didn’t go to the school to report.”

Jiao Li was silent for a while and asked: "...It's cowardly, isn't it?"

Xu Gaoyang: "Jiao Li."

"This is the real me." Jiao Li lowered his eyes, and his eyes were red: "But even if I am like this, I think as long as I can become better, even if you find out someday, I won't be afraid anymore. .”

"But... just such a thing, I can't do it." Jiao Li smiled wryly, his eyes moistened, and he felt unwilling.

Jiao Li: "For some things, it seems that persistence will not lead to good results."

"No, Jiao Li." Xu Gaoang on the other end anxiously gripped the steering wheel, increased the horsepower, and drove towards where Jiao Li was.

He tried to comfort him: "I know, Jiao Li..."

"Xu Gao Gao..." Jiao Li interrupted him, sliding his Adam's apple with difficulty: "If I were not Jiao Li, would you still like me?"

Xu Gaoang: "Yes! Of course! Jiao Li, don't think about it, don't get excited, go back and stay with Sheng Le and the others."

Jiao Li ignored what he said, but continued: "I am...not Jiao Li at all, I just look like him and have the same name...I am just a fake, although you may know It feels absurd, but I think, maybe...the person you like..."

"Jiao Li, listen to me, I have never held anything against you, nor have I thought anything bad about you."

Jiao Li: "But...you don't really care..."

Xu Gaoang: "Jiao Li, you go back first, don't stay alone, it's not safe."

Jiao Li was silent and did not answer.Xu Gaoang said again: "Okay, then don't hang up the phone."

Jiao Li blinked, and Xu Gaoyang said again: "Aren't you afraid of the dark? If you hang up the phone, won't you be even more afraid? So, don't hang up, you know?"

"...Hmmm" Jiao Li on the other end was silent for a while before agreeing to him.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-08-2020:01:55~2021-08-2318:42:55期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Yuluo Qianshan, Xuanji LL1;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!