fishing for fame

Zhong Siyan's family situation is similar but not similar to Fang Songyu's.His parents are not strange middle-aged men like Fang Shijun.Zhong Siyan's father used to be a university teacher. Later, because of his connections and his wife's background, he invested in various industries such as hospitals. The industry grew bigger and bigger, so that the two of them didn't have to spend time at work. Most of their lives Gave a relaxing vacation.

Both Zhong Sinuo and Zhong Siyan were born after their mother was 30 years old, even Zhong Siyan was born when his mother was 35 years old, and she was pregnant by accident, and her body was injured, so she reluctantly gave birth.

The two have a very good relationship, so they prefer to live in a world of two. The two children are in a state of being "abandoned" at their grandparents' house. They come back occasionally to take them out to play, and there is nothing else.

There is no feeling of home, no breath of life, only aunts who cook and clean, go to get off work from time to time, and find a place to play by himself after finishing his homework.

His sister didn't like to play with him when she was a child, maybe because she thought he was annoying, or maybe because she thought he was a boy who couldn't share girls' skirts, lipstick, and those intimate topics. In short, she didn't feel like home.

In Zhong Siyan's imagination, home is that kind of completely intimate discourse system, someone listens to what he says, and someone confides in him, they will have intimate companionship, and nothing can tear them apart.

So he is very greedy for every moment when Fang Songyu is by his side, and he cares about the feeling of sharing the same air.There must be Fang Songyu in his space, this is his paranoia.

Could it be someone else?I haven't thought about this question for a while, and I don't bother to think about it.

How Zhong Siyan grew crooked, he can't say well.He is not a person with too much emotion, but he is a person with a strong desire to control. He remembers that when he was a child, his father used the time for planning homework, and lost his temper with his father.

Since then, Zhong's father and Zhong's mother have seldom disciplined the child. In their view, as long as Zhong Siyan has his own plans and interests, Zhong Siyan will succeed in whatever he does. There is no need to restrict too much. Be more encouraging.

For example, Zhong Siyan likes to watch documentaries about dissecting mice, and they will think that they have inherited the genes and talents of Zhong's father, and they are born to study medicine.Zhong Siyan went with the flow to study medicine.

Zhong Siyan was very sleepy, but his consciousness was clear, as if he was floating in the snow, full of thoughts.He didn't know why he thought of the stories of watching medical documentaries when he was a child, watching giants, stumps, and so on, which didn't scare him. He just sat in front of the TV and watched in a daze, and then there were footsteps beside him. Come, his father sat cross-legged beside him and asked, "Does Xiao Yan also want to study medicine in the future?"

Zhong Siyan read a lot of messy popular science literature, and learned that a person's personality is most likely determined by genes, such as xyy chromosomes, that is, people with supermale syndrome have a higher criminal crime rate than ordinary people.So, are some of his ideas that are different from ordinary people endowed by his genes?

Did this gene come from his father who also studied medicine, or his mother who was also pampered and studied art, or was it a mutation?

No one can tell him the answer.

Fang Songyu followed the navigation instructions and drove on the expressway to Tongcheng. After driving for a long time, there were no snowflakes, and there were only cloudy clouds.When he found that Zhong Siyan was asleep, he didn't think about his yearning for the New Year any more, leaving Zhong Siyan a quiet space for him to rest.

Zhong Siyan came back in such a hurry, did he have another conflict with his family?Otherwise, why do you suddenly want to see him so much?

Why do you quarrel with your family again?Is it related to him?

He carefully reduced the speed of the car and drove into the speed bump of the toll booth, trying not to make Zhong Siyan feel the bumps.But Zhong Siyan, who was sleeping on the car window, suddenly asked him: "Do you find me annoying?"

Think I'm too controlling, think I'm...not normal.

Zhong Siyan has always been aware that he doesn't fit in.When doing biological experiments, he can dissect live animals calmly with some excitement, but most students who try it for the first time cannot do it.He is even obsessed with the joy of destroying a life...but besides the pleasure of instinct, there is also the constraint of group morality, for which he needs to restrain his instinct and obtain a reputable social identity.

However, obeying group morals...is it worth it for him to abide by?

Zhong Siyan wanted to find a reason for himself to abide by, for example, he has a family and schoolwork... But so what if he loses it, it doesn't seem to be a big deal.

Fang Songyu said casually: "It's okay, what do you hate? Except for the occasional excessive desire to control, it's actually okay."

"Really?" Zhong Siyan's eyelids gradually closed again, and Fang Songyu said, "When I go back... I want to sleep."

"Then you sleep in the car." Fang Songyu said, "Put the seat back a little bit, it's a bit uncomfortable, but it will take seven hours to get home."

Zhong Siyan shook his head slightly: "No... No, I want a real estate certificate with your and my names written on it, and then, I want to lie on the bed and see you when I open my eyes."

His voice was not loud, even a little hoarse, but Fang Songyu could hear it clearly.

"As far as I remember, I slept alone." Zhong Siyan pretended to be relaxed, "I don't feel safe when I open my eyes and see other people. So I moved the bed to the wall and leaned against the wall, thinking that this would make me feel better." OK."

"I really want to hug you to sleep." Zhong Siyan said, "I'm so tired...Jiang Yiyun didn't even say hello to me. Anyway, we also had dinner together, but I should have said hello to her and said hello to you." Take it away, but I'm too tired..."

It's too tiring to restrain myself with morality and law... He was wondering if Fang Songyu could become his cage and lock him up forever.

There must be some reason to continue, Fang Songyu is different from the crowd, besides the love at first sight for this face, there must be some other reason, let him continue to chase.

Fang Songyu didn't know which weakness of Zhong Siyan he had touched, and it was rare for Zhong Siyan to be honest about his feelings.If Zhong Siyan didn't say it, in retrospect, Fang Songyu seemed to have never heard Zhong Siyan say such an expression.

Zhong Siyan said that he was too tired.

While the car in front was charging, Fang Songyu stretched out his hand to smooth Zhong Siyan's brow, and coaxed him, "Then go home and take a hot bath, and we'll go to bed and sleep."

"I don't want a house, I don't have any particular idea about a house."

"Good dream on New Year's Eve, if you can't watch the year, I wish you happiness in your dreams."