i'm in love with the sentinel who wants to kill me

"If he's here... I won't be in pain. ——Season finale "Irrelevant Records""

At the beginning of the season, he returned to the border area.

He didn't seem to tell his mother that Ji Mo deliberately forced him to come back from the border area.All he said was that something had happened to his adjutant and that he had to go back and stay there for a long time.

Before leaving, mother held Ji Chu's hand tightly and hugged him reluctantly.But this time, the beginning of the season did not say to the end of the season, "Take care of mom and be good."

He didn't even give Ji Mo a look.

Ji Mo stood at the gate blankly, watching Ji Chu get into the car, gradually go away and disappear.

Ji's mother turned around and hugged her youngest son, and couldn't help crying: "Xiao Mo, you can't do this anymore, you scared my mother to death."

At the end of the season, he gently promised: "It won't happen. Mom, I'm sorry."

Ji's mother made an appointment with a psychiatrist for Ji Mo.

At the end of the season, he cooperated with eight times of psychological counseling. In the end, the psychiatrist assured Ji's mother that the child was mentally normal and had no suicidal tendencies. Only then did Ji's mother feel more at ease and live as before, but watching the end of the season Tighter.

I didn't mind at all at the end of the season.Rather, this was the price he had expected to pay for forcing his brother back to make trouble.It is worthwhile to save my brother's life at the expense of hurting my mother and brother's feelings.

——But at the end of the season, he never thought that his brother's adjutant would die.

The little Ding that the elder brother said was more like his own younger brother than himself. He was his brother's adjutant, his right-hand man, and his life-and-death acquaintance.

To save one, kill another.

At the end of the season, he couldn't figure out whether it was worth it or not. He couldn't figure it out.

If Xiao Ding hadn't died, then at the end of the season, he might muster the last bit of courage and say to his brother: "Maybe you think I'm crazy, but I'm here to save you."

But no if.

Ji Mo knew it well, and even if Ji Chu knew all this, he would never want this kind of result. The elder brother is a man who would rather die by himself than sacrifice his brother.

——I selfishly and accidentally made the decision for him.

At the end of the season, he continued to go to school and go home calmly and indifferently at two points and one line.

When he is alone, he often thinks of what the psychiatrist said, he understands the truth, and those words are really nice.In order to reduce trouble, and to keep his mother from worrying, he lied about all the psychological scales at the end of the season, and perfectly achieved the result he wanted: from mild depression at the beginning to completely normal at the end.

He himself didn't want to look at the answer he would get by answering the psychological scale according to his heart-his self-destructive tendencies were gradually going to extremes.But at the end of the season, I don't care at all.

What is there to care about?

Every time I confide my heart to the psychiatrist, it is a prepared belly draft in advance. A calm expression and a polite smile are the armor of deception, which is handy at the end of the season.

It's so easy to cheat.

As long as you work hard enough, you can prevent anyone from discovering the clues at the end of the season.He coaxed his mother well, and seeing the reassuring smile on his mother's face, he knew he had succeeded.

It has been almost half a year since Ji Chu left home.

At the end of the season, if my mother and my brother were on the phone affectionately, I would sit quietly and listen to my brother's voice that leaked from the receiver.Sometimes Ji's mother would ask Ji Mo if he wanted to say a few words to his brother, and he would just wave his hand, and in the next second, Ji Chu on the receiver would say, "Suddenly something urgent, hang up."

The elder brother will no longer want to talk to himself.

If possible, he would never want to see himself in his life.

Ji Mo rested her chin beside her mother, calmly thinking that when she went to college and lived on campus, and her brother couldn't see her at home, maybe she would be able to come back from the border area to see her often.

It's good to be a semi-disabled guide who can't control his mental body.At least he can go to university in peace and health, otherwise, if he goes to the border area, he will make things difficult for his brother.

After dinner, Ji Mo sometimes goes out for a stroll.The place he frequents most is a deserted playground, hidden behind a field of weeds half the height of a person, where almost no one goes.

At the end of the season, I started to swing on the swing. The breeze at the end of spring is no longer cool, and the wind shaking the swing is so gentle that it makes people enchanted.At the end of the season, he remembered last summer, one day the power went out, and he met a sentry in this playground.

I don't know if he is good or not.I haven't seen him again for so long.

Ji Mo was thinking about this strange sentinel in his heart, he seemed to be the same age as him, but he couldn't tell for sure.He loosened the iron chain of the swing with both hands, and pedaled lowly with his feet.

At that time, he hadn't figured out how to drag his brother back from the border area.He didn't have anyone to discuss with, so he would cry secretly by himself when he was anxious.

When he was met by the sentinel, Ji Mo was desperately thinking why he should have this ability. It would be better not to know anything.If my elder brother will die too, and my parents will die too, then I might as well die myself.If it weren't for their own predictive ability, they might not have anything.

The suicide note to the family at the end of the season was not fake.Inside are his true words.But in the end, even the psychiatrist said that his predictive ability was just a psychological obstacle under pressure, and he didn't refute it.

Just treat yourself like a lunatic.Rationally, unbelievably, go crazy alone.

At the end of the season, he was not sure that he could force his brother back from the border area with a suicide note.It was only then that he knew that if his elder brother really died that day, then he didn't want to live anymore.No one believes, and nothing can be done, what are you doing alive.

When he left home, he didn't bring any electronic communication equipment, only some water and food, and ran to an unfinished building and hid for five days without shelter.

Although those five days were inhumane, he didn't have the prophetic dream that his brother died on December [-]th during the five nights.

This unfinished building is the place where my brother brought his buddies to play games when he was a child. The end of the small season followed him a few times, but they were all kicked out by the beginning of the season.

I don't know if my brother can remember this place. At the end of the season, I looked out from the forgotten unfinished building.This is one of the few shared memories of the brothers.

However, the elder brother did not come to look for him.Ji Mo thought, maybe my brother was looking for him elsewhere, maybe...he never came back.

So he needs to be sure.

The moment seen in the precognitive dream at the end of the season was eleven past three.If it's past eleven past three, my brother really didn't come home.

At the end of that season, he would turn around and return to this unfinished building, jumping off the roof.

At the end of the season, he walked towards home.He deliberately disguised himself, was disheveled, and mixed in with the crowd, the police couldn't recognize him at all.

When he walked into the southern part of the city, he heard a person calling: "Hey, Ji Chu, I asked all my classmates to post missing person notices, and I have found everyone who can come out to look for them. Don't worry, I will let you know as soon as I have a letter." .”

At the end of the season, my heart suddenly pounded.

He looked at that person and recognized that it was his brother's junior high school classmate, who had played at their house.

At the end of the quarter, I looked down at my watch, it was already 11:30.

My brother is talking on the phone.

Brother is still alive.

Ji Chu burst into tears.

Like a real madman, he ran, cried and laughed, and staggered home like this.

***

On Tuesday night, at the end of the quarter, I will go to University A to give lectures as usual.Modi wanted to go with him on the grounds that he had already enrolled and had to complete the full credits on time.At the end of the season, they said "whatever you want", packed their briefcases, and when they were about to leave work, someone suddenly knocked on the door of their office.

Ji Mo and Modi looked up at the same time.

It was Lu Qing who came.As soon as she met Ji Mo's eyes, she became a little unnatural again.However, she was not as shy as usual, but mustered up her courage and looked straight at the end of the season: "Ji, the end of the season, hug, sorry to disturb you, may I have a word with you alone?"

Ji Mo nodded, then led Lu Qing into the small reception room of their department, and shut Modi out.

"Please sit down." Ji Mo walked towards the sofa.

Lu Qing sat down at a loss.

At the end of the season, he asked: "What's the matter?"

Lu Qing took a deep breath, and the eyes under the thick lenses began to steam.

"My sister...is critically ill."

Lu Qing hoarse, haggard and sad. "Before she dies...she wants to see you."

At the end of the season, he looked at Lu Qing's face carefully, and his brows gradually frowned.On Lu Qing's face, he saw a familiar shadow.

In the silence where the needle fell and heard the sound, Ji Mo asked softly: "Your sister, is that Lu Jie?"

Lu Qing nodded, and tears fell.

"Yes."

At the end of the quarter, he walked out of the reception room and gave Modi the bound lesson plans and courseware usb in the briefcase. "It's okay for you to substitute a class for undergraduates. I know you took this class when you were a master's student."

Mo Di felt a little wronged: "...how about going to the classroom together?"

Ji Mo glanced at him. "Don't think I don't know that Baibu has already dropped you from University A, so you can concentrate on working for me."

Moody shut his mouth resentfully.

At the end of the season, he picked up the work permit on the table and walked away. "I have something urgent. If you are willing to take the class, you can do it. It doesn't matter if you don't want to. Call the teaching secretary and help me temporarily cancel tonight's class. Thank you."

Modi sighed, and glanced at the lesson plan in his hand, it was okay, he could teach it.

On the way to the hospital by taxi with Lu Qing, Ji Mo looked out the window at the scenery.

Eight years ago, he rescued Lu Jie in winter when he was only 16 years old.It's late autumn now, and when winter comes, Lu Jie may not be around anymore.

Lu Qing whispered: "I have been looking for you since my sister told me that you saved her. I didn't find you from the surveillance screen until I came to work in the tower four years ago."

At that time, she asked her colleague what the handsome guy's name was in the surveillance, and only then did she know that this was the end of the season that saved her sister.

"Xiaojie has always wanted to thank you personally, so she has kept me from telling you all these years. She always looks forward to getting out of bed when she is in better health, but... this is simply unrealistic."

Ji Mo listened quietly, without words.Lu Qing began to cry again.

"She was critically ill once yesterday. After waking up, she finally accepted her fate and asked me to come to you. Before she leaves, she wants... to see you."

There was a long silence at the end of the season.

There was only Lu Qing's low sobbing in the car.

"She...how is she doing these eight years?" Ji Mo didn't look at Lu Qing, as if he was asking about the air, or talking to himself.

is she happyDid you cause irreparable things because of your meddling, just like the beginning of the season?

Lu Qing was stunned for a moment, and then smiled with tears in his eyes.

"She's fine, very nice."

Lu Qing sniffed and added: "I wanted to thank you a long time ago, but she just refused to let me. Now I can finally say thank you to you."

"Thank you for saving my sister and letting her stay with me for eight more years. Really... thank you."

At the end of the season, the eyes were closed, and the tears were closed in the eyes, but they could not flow down.He wanted to touch the spotted-necked pika in his breast pocket, but couldn't.He was startled first before realizing that he left in a hurry and left his mental body in the office.

Maybe it's going to disappear again, thought the end of the season.He dropped his hands from his pockets, his voice normal.

"you are welcome."

When he arrived at the hospital, Ji Mo suddenly felt a warmth around his body.At the end of the season, I didn't think much about it, I thought it was just mood swings and my body was a little hot.He followed Lu Qing into the ward.

Lu Jie closed her eyes on the hospital bed, and the sheets undulated slightly, showing her remaining vitality.

When I saw her at the end of the season eight years ago, she was still a little girl with long hair, but now that long hair has disappeared, and she has become a round bald head.At the end of the season, he stood quietly, waiting for Lu Qing to wake up his sister.

Lu Qing bent down and whispered in the ear of his sister who was covered with tubes, "Xiaojie, the end of the season you want to see is here. Talk to him."

Lu Jie opened her eyes with difficulty.She was on a ventilator, breathing heavily as she woke up.Lu Qing shook her bed.

After eight years, Lu Jie finally saw Ji Mo.

When he came home at the end of the season, Morty had already made dinner at home.The once deserted house is now warmly lit and the aroma of food is overflowing.At the end of the season, he put down his bag and changed his shoes at the entrance.Maudy, in his apron, was carrying food from the kitchen to the table.

Ji Mo stood in the porch and admired it for a while, but couldn't hold back, and still laughed.

Moti wore a huge bright yellow silk scarf with many layers of pleats, which didn't suit him very well.

This way of wearing a silk scarf is very old-fashioned, but it is often seen on women wearing a slim coat and stepping on high heels.Modi's wheat-colored skin was almost covered with a layer of gold because of the dazzling bright yellow, like a farmer boy who had just finished work in the wheat field.The hood of the sweater was bulging in the back, the ripped jeans stood out from under the huge silk scarf, and—

He also wore an apron in front of him.

When Mo Di saw Ji Mo, his eyes lit up. "you are back!"

At the end of the season, she hooked her lips, "Yeah."

He watched the Sentinel with too many elements coming towards him, as if he was staring at the sun.At the end of the season, the warmth around him was even greater, and this sense of security accompanied him to the hospital and back home.

Before the end of the season asked, "Where did you come from this silk scarf", Modi's silk scarf collar rustled.

Ji Mo stared at the side of Modi's neck in astonishment, only to see two small paws protruding, the spotted-necked pika grabbed the silk scarf, and rubbed its plush head against Modi's neck.

The eyes widen at the end of the season.

"This……"

Mo Di reached out and took out the mouse rabbit, and handed it to Ji Mo.

"It has to be close to me so it won't be afraid. I can't help it. I made a small pocket for it."

The author says:

Modi: Honey, let's post.Flesh next to flesh.

Spot-necked pika: Tie Tie ~ suffer ~ what ~ ~ (*ˉ︶ˉ*)

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