i'm in love with the sentinel who wants to kill me

"Tame me. I put the reins in your hands, don't let go. - Modi "Recovery Diary""

Ji Mo smiled ghostly, with the point of the knife pointing down, motionless.The scissors were pointed at Morty's chest, and the sharpest part was no more than three centimeters from his skin.

"You stabbed me once, and I will stab me back anyway." The lingering sound of these words echoed on Modi's eardrums as it hit and bounced.Mo Di seemed to be dragged to the execution ground, kneeling in front of the guillotine.

After avoiding it for a whole month, he dared not bring it up at all, and the fact that he had to shut Ji Mo's mouth whenever he said something similar at the end of the season-was finally revealed.This history, which both of them knew well, was firmly buried unilaterally, but a hidden danger was finally buried, and at this moment it exploded like explosives.

Modi's muscles were as hard as steel, but he didn't resist.

The executioner Ji Mo held the murder weapon firmly, and smiled as he watched the light in Moody's eyes gradually go out.The strongest sentinel lay flat on the bed without any movement, letting others slaughter him.Those fearsome black pupils wiped out all the threats at this moment, looking at the end of the season without a moment, there is no pain or unwillingness, only the reluctance to lose one glance.

Modi is like a death row prisoner who has finally waited for the execution. Because the probation period is too long, he has the illusion that he can escape from death; he has imagined this scene countless times in his subconscious mind, and now he is facing it. , Modi breathed a sigh of relief.

the.

He owes the quarter-finalist a knife.

That's what should have killed him at the end of the season.

Morty even felt hopelessly content at this moment, watching his lover hold something over him that would kill him, hoping timidly that maybe it would undo a little bit of the damage he had done to the end of the season.He couldn't help but think of the moment when he did the same thing towards the end of the season—the moment when he was controlled by HC wave, the moment when he was ordered to kill his lover with his own hands—what kind of mood did he feel at the end of the season?

At the end of the season, he was not in a hurry to stab the scissors into Morty's chest.He rode on Moddy's belly, thinking it was fun, opened and closed the scissors, closed and opened them again, and looked at Moddy slyly, as if sharpening the knife.

The sound of the two sharp blades opening and closing was very subtle, but it instantly set off alarm bells in Modi's ears.

He suddenly remembered the fact that they were already physically united.

——If he dies, the end of the season will die with him.

Modi's Adam's apple slid with difficulty, his vocal cords were like rusted bellows, and he finally spit out a sentence: "You...will die..."

He didn't finish what he said, but in this situation, the end of the season must be able to understand what he meant.

Ji Mo heard it, but his eyes were bent, and he smiled even more happily. "I know."

He bent down again, stroked Moddy's hair with one hand, and opened and closed the scissors by his ear with the other.

"——I want to die with you!" He shouted in Modi's ear, although his voice was still slightly hoarse and lazy after the affair, but listening to Modi's ears could only highlight how casual Ji Mo was.

Modi's body trembled, as if he was really frightened, he shivered.

His eyes were full of pain, his eyeballs were covered with bloodshot eyes, and tears began to rise. He said to the end of the season: "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I shouldn't... combine with your body... I'm really sorry..."

He had expected that the end of the season would try to kill him.He is willing to pay for the end of the season, but he doesn't want to let the end of the season be buried with him.

It shouldn't be.At the end of the season, there should be a chance to kill himself and live well.

Hearing this sentence at the end of the season, his face sank instantly.He clamped his legs tightly and made Moody lay down to watch him, but Moody went on and on--I'm sorry for joining him physically, sorry for joining him mentally, sorry for making the pika black, sorry for giving him the pistol Dagger, I'm sorry I didn't notice his strangeness earlier, I'm sorry I stabbed him, I'm sorry I couldn't resist HC Wave's control, I'm sorry I proposed to him, I'm sorry I struck up a conversation with him in the coffee shop...

Co-authoring their love story was a mistake from beginning to end.

Modi’s apology is endless, but the central idea can be summed up as: kill me, it’s all my fault; our bodies are combined, and you will pay the price for it, and I’m not guilty amnesty.But you can do whatever you want, I'm all at your disposal.

At the end of the season, Modi's eyes were red.

"Change the way of death." Ji Mo said suddenly.

He still had a smile on his lips, shook the scissors in his hand nonchalantly, then grabbed Moody's neck, and stroked the aorta in Moody's neck with his thumb.He dragged the cold scissors all the way up Modi's body, from his chest to his neck, and the skin he touched was extremely stiff immediately.

Ji Mo held Modi's throat with one hand, and rubbed his lips against his chin.The sharp blade opened and closed again, making a life-threatening sound.

"Be mentally prepared." Ji Mo sucked Modi's Adam's apple, grinding the cartilage with his teeth, and whispered.

Moti raised his head and finally closed his eyes, tears streaming down quietly, ready to be slaughtered.

The cold scissors pressed against the side of his neck.

Hold your breath.

Heartbeat paused.

"Crack."

Morty lay straight on the bed for a second, two seconds, three seconds.

There was no expected pain.

But there was something itchy gliding across his face.

After skating for a while, the person lying on his body laughed "puchi".

Moody finally opened his eyes—

Ji Mo was drawing circles on his face with a strand of neatly cut long hair, and after laughing, he pursed his mouth as if revealing his secrets, forming a slightly pouting arc.

He tilted his head to look at Modi, and then flung himself down with claws and claws, and then "click", "click", "click", and Modie's long hair was cut into a square inch.

At the end of the season, he pulled the cut off long hair to the ground, then held Modi's head, and observed from left to right: "The craftsmanship is still not very good... It's only a little better than a dog's gnawing, but short hair is still pleasing to the eye."

Mo Di couldn't catch his breath, he stared blankly at Ji Mo, still feeling cold all over.

Ji Mo sighed, then threw the scissors to the ground, wrapped his hands around Modi's neck, and buried his face into the other's neck.

"You fool..." Ji Mo said, "Are you just waiting for me to tell you these words one day, and then settle the score with you?"

Suddenly, Modi's eyes became unbearably hot, and an uncontrollable sob came out of his throat.

At the end of the season, the hug was tighter, and the two bodies were close to each other without leaving a gap—they were both used to the sense of security brought by this skin-to-skin contact.

"How many times have I wanted to talk to you, have you given me a chance, huh?" Ji Mo said sullenly, his tone becoming more and more aggrieved, "I have to be like this to talk properly, right?"

"Every time I want to say something, you just..." Ji Mo complained with tears in his voice, "You can't go too far when you think about it! You just handcuffed me!"

Modi finally put his trembling hands on Ji Mo's back, and he hugged the guide on his back, weeping uncontrollably.

At the end of the season, I felt the back of my neck become moist.He lightly thumped Modi's chest, "How can you say sorry for combining with my body, sorry for proposing to me...you can't regret it..."

"You didn't apologize to me..." Ji Mo whimpered, his spine trembling slightly, "You can't say that..."

"There are many things you don't know, compared to you..." Ji Mo bit Modi's neck, leaving a tooth mark mixed with tears, "It's me..."

But he couldn't finish his sentence, because Modi held Ji Mo's face, and his lips covered it tenderly.

A pair of lovers who have gone through hardships embrace each other tightly in a deep underground and airtight secret room.Cheek to cheek, chest to chest.The cry was low and hoarse, and the tears were wanton. The two of them were like newborn babies. At this moment, they finally reached a reconciliation with themselves, with each other, and with life.

"You dog nose." The end of the season suddenly said something without beginning or end.

He propped up his upper body, and pinched Modi's cheek, "I've changed my breath for so long, you can still smell Brother Luo coming."

Morty remained silent guiltily.

Ji Mo withdrew his arm and fell into Modi's arms again. "I didn't mean to hide it from you. Every time I mention him, you look crazy, and I have to think about how to tell you."

Modi cleared his throat, "You can...slowly...tell me. I will listen." After saying this, he choked up again, and hugged Ji Mo tightly.

At the end of the season, there was an "um" with a faint smile.He lay on top of Morty for a moment, then patted Morty on the biceps. "Get up and eat. I made dinner yesterday, and I wanted you to come back and ask me to eat together, but I slept until morning. It's still in the refrigerator now."

Mo Di asked in a daze, "Did you make it for me?"

At the end of the season, he frowned and looked at him: "Otherwise? There is a third person besides us in the underground maze?"

Morty's blood warmed up and rushed to his limbs.His joy was beyond words, and he almost shed tears.

This expression is inexplicable at the end of the season. "...I thought it would be too tiring to cook after you went to fight Baozhi, so I did it. You haven't eaten my cooking seriously. It's not bad..."

Mo Di put Ji Mo's arms around him and sat up, and wanted to kiss him again, but Ji Mo stopped him with a finger.

"Stop. Eat."

The two got out of bed and got dressed, and took out the document bag under the mattress.Modi's eyes were immediately fixed on it and could not move.

Ji Mo took Modi's hand, "I'll tell you later."

On the narrow table, there was one meat and two vegetables, and a small pot of rice.

"Let's make do with it." Ji Mo took a bite first and said to Modi.

Modi stared at the simple meals on the table and his eyes were red again.He didn't move his chopsticks, instead he found a mobile phone that someone didn't know was left here, and slapped left and right at the pile, and took a long time before he sat down and picked up the chopsticks.

At the end of the season: "...I will cook more in the future."

Mo Di choked on the rice, gave a choked up "Yeah", and then said: "No, I will cook at home from now on, you can just eat."

Season End: "..."

The two hungry people who hadn't eaten last night ate for a while, and opened the file bag at the end of the season.

He first pulled out a piece of paper that had been plastic-wrapped, torn and glued together.

At the end of the season, put your fingers on the plastic film, and the movement is extremely gentle. "This is...the reason why my brother wanted to go back to the safe zone and celebrate my birthday for me."

This piece of paper is a copy of the "Former HCJH-Targeted Drug Experiment List", which is the confidential document that Ji Chu's adjutant Xiao Ding copied and hid before his death, and was finally found by Ji Chu.

"This is my brother's word..."

Ji Chu used his own means to gradually dig out the information of the Kuroshio Project in the liaison group at the confidential place, and pieced together a truth that he couldn't accept by himself.

Ji Chu, who was closely watched by Zhao Yun, had to be cautious even when he collapsed.Holding all the information, he gritted his teeth silently at night.

He thought, his parents are gone, but he still has a younger brother.

The only younger brother who he bullied and looked down upon since he was a child.He has been wronging the end of the season.

Before embarking on a difficult quest for revenge, he wants to mend his relationship with his brother.So he went back to the safety zone on vacation, bought a birthday cake, planned to celebrate the end of the season's birthday, and apologized to him.

Zhao Yun found this piece of paper from his office after Ji Chu's death, and tore it to pieces in a rage.

However, for some unknown reason, he glued the pieces together bit by bit, and wrapped them in plastic wrap—maybe because Zhao Yun deluded himself into thinking that as long as the documents were still there, Ji Chu would keep his promise at the time, from the safety point of view. The district came back to settle accounts with him.

But at the beginning of the season, he couldn't come back.Zhao Yun couldn't wait for him to take revenge.

"So... it's all my fault..." Ji Mo looked at Modi quietly, with tears in his eyes, "But it's useless for me to regret what happened now. Back then... I was really... I wanted to die, so I made a series of..."

Ji Mo bit her lower lip, took out a tissue and wiped her eyes.

Modi held Ji Mo's hand, but was gently pushed away by Ji Mo.

"Including... I'm gradually planning to let you kill me." Ji Mo looked at Modi with tears in his eyes. Although his whole body was trembling, he continued without flinching. "I have had countless opportunities to confess to you, or try to change, but I really want to be free."

"Especially when I realized that our sixth event was the premonitory trigger of the destruction of the world, I even...don't want to live."

"...Actually, the relationship between the destruction of the world and whether the sixth event is a trigger is not necessarily what I thought, but I was at that time..." The end of the season became more and more choked up, and finally couldn't speak, and burst into tears .

Modi's face was also crystal clear, he got up and hugged Ji Mo into his arms, "Don't cry, don't cry..." He patted Ji Mo's back to comfort him gently, took out a tissue to wipe Ji Mo's face, and After wiping their faces, it took a while for the two of them to relax slightly.

At the end of the season, he finally said what he wanted to say most: "I'm sorry, Modi."

"I'm sorry... woo woo woo..." He hugged his sentinel tightly and said incoherently, "I'm sorry Modi... I love you... I'm sorry..."

Mo Di couldn't bear it anymore, he pinched the back of Ji Mo's head and kissed his lover.

Breathing and smelling each other, tears blending together.

There is no need to say all the words, because the love is too strong to give birth to countless sorry.

"Stop saying 'sorry'..."

Modi bit the lip at the end of the season, "From now on, just say 'I love you'."

The author says:

The next chapter, at eleven o'clock tomorrow morning, will end the main text.