faint star

Xu Zhiwei talked about some of his own private affairs, but the names of the characters were withheld when narrating.Su Pei didn't know who the person who let Xu Zhiwei down was before. In his impression, this person was a loose person who would have a "twice and ten minutes" pastime in the studio.

Unexpectedly, Gu Heng blew himself up as that ex-boyfriend.

Although Su Pei has experienced a lot, it is also the first time he has experienced the Shura field of gay couples-although they have broken up, there are still undercurrents surging in it. There are too many pasts, and it is difficult to break up happily.

As a friend, he had to stand on Dr. Xu's side. He didn't pursue Gu Heng's "explosion", as if he had heard a common thing.

"Then it's really a coincidence that we met today. I should be leaving soon, how about you, Zhiwei?"

He looked at Xu Zhiwei, fortunately Xu Zhiwei was calmer than he thought.Xu Zhiwei also gave him a knowing smile: "I'll walk with you."

Gu Heng wanted to grab his ex-boyfriend's hand, but Zhiwei lightly turned to Su Pei without looking at him again.

Su Pei and Gu Heng said: "It seems that we don't have time today, let's talk next time we have a chance."

Seeing that he couldn't keep him, Gu Heng could only say: "I'm leaving already. Please sit down slowly... Didn't the cigars just be lit?"

He pointed this out sourly, and then said to Xu Zhiwei: "Zhiwei, congratulations on your success in the doctoral exam."

Xu Zhiwei raised his eyelids to look at him, but said nothing.Gu Heng could only leave.

After he left, Xu Zhiwei said to Su Pei: "Let's continue talking."

After smoking the cigar, Xu Zhiwei and Su Pei left the restaurant.When they went to check out, the cashier told them: "Mr. Gu has already paid."

Xu Zhiwei didn't expect Gu Heng to be like this, but he didn't feel anything.

He and Su Pei went home in different directions, so they said goodbye at the intersection.He took the subway home alone.

It was windy tonight, Xu Zhiwei couldn't help wrapping his coat tightly when he came out of the subway.Although it was already late April, the strong wind at night was still a bit caught off guard.

After entering the community and walking downstairs, he found that someone was waiting for him——Gu Heng greeted him as soon as he saw him, carrying a bag.

Xu Zhiwei had no interest in what he took, and was even more upset that Gu Heng appeared twice in one night, spoiling his mood like a stalker.

"Zhiwei, I have something for you. Can we go up and talk?" Gu Heng said seriously.He didn't drink, but he was so emotional at the moment, he didn't want to wait another day.

Xu Zhiwei thought, it would be good to speak clearly.

They go upstairs together.As soon as Xu Zhiwei opened the door, Gu Heng was stabbed in the heart again - this house was smaller and older than the apartment that Xu Zhiwei rented alone, not to mention their apartment.

At that time they broke up in such a hurry, Xu Zhiwei didn't have time to look for a house.

"Sit down." Xu Zhiwei only said this lightly, he took off his coat, went to wash his hands, poured himself a glass of warm water, but didn't care about the excess

A person who came.

It's just that the kitten Mai Mai came over curiously, circled around Gu Heng's feet, and meowed twice.

Gu Heng rubbed the cat: "Do you still remember me?"

He rubbed the cat, but his eyes were fixed on Xu Zhiwei.Zhiwei's every move is so natural, if it weren't for the obvious temperature difference, Gu Heng would almost have the illusion that they haven't broken up yet, this seems to be an ordinary day.

Seeing a suitcase in the corner, he seemed to be about to move again, so he asked, "After you finish your Ph.D., do you still live here, or do you live in a dormitory?"

Xu Zhiwei chatted casually with him: "I can save a lot by retiring to the dormitory here."

"How is the dormitory condition?"

"It's okay, I'll apply for a better double room."

"Can I have a cat? If not, I'll take care of Mai Mai."

"It can be raised, Maimai is good enough. I will take it with me, as long as the roommate is okay."

After the conversation, both of them were silent for a while.

"You and Teacher Su often play together recently?" Gu Heng carefully probed.

Xu Zhiwei was holding a cup to drink water, he glanced at Gu Heng: "Teacher Su is a straight man."

Gu Heng heaved a sigh of relief in his heart, but also faintly felt a glimmer of hope.He said: "There are too many rumors in the entertainment industry, and it's hard to tell the truth from the fake. Recently, there are a lot of messy news about me, all of which are too nonsense."

He also refuted the rumors himself.Because of the popularity of the movie, it was rumored that he was with the male lead, and he was worried that Zhiwei might misunderstand.

Xu Zhiwei looked at him strangely: "What are you talking about? This is what you want to say?"

He didn't know about Gu Heng's recent gossip on the Internet.

Gu Heng quickly said: "It's best if you don't know, anyway, now I..."

He opened the bag, took out a box inside and handed it to Zhiwei: "I want you to take a look at these."

Xu Zhiwei reluctantly cooperated, he put the box on the small dining table and opened it, the moment he saw the contents clearly, he stopped for a moment.

Inside the box lay some old photos, sketches, some cards, notes, and an old mobile phone on top.

The photo was taken by Gu Heng when he was in high school, the sketches were all drawn by Gu Heng, and the cards and notes were all left by them reviewing together at that time.The old mobile phone was a gift given to him by Gu Heng more than ten years ago, when they broke up, he left it in the movie theater of Gu's house and returned it to Gu Heng.

This is a relic of the youthful time ten years ago.

Gu Heng picked up the Nokia phone and opened the flip: "Look, it's still usable, and you can see the text messages from that year."

Xu Zhiwei finally raised his head: "What does this mean?"

There was finally a hint of excitement in his tone.

Gu Heng finally went straight to the ball: "I've kept them all the time. Because I felt a long time ago that I couldn't lose this memory with you. Now I'm even more sure that I just want to be with you. Zhiwei, give me another chance. "

Xu Zhi lowered his eyes slightly, looking at the box.

He was excited just now, not because he was moved, but because he was angry.He would rather Gu Heng said at this time, give him all these things, and return to the road from now on, instead of using these thoughts to impress him and talk about compound nonsense.

He whispered, "Did you give me everything?"

"Yes."

Gu Heng's voice just fell.Xu Zhiwei grabbed those things, walked to the trash can, and threw them in.

"Zhiwei!" Gu Heng jumped up, grabbed the trash can, and hugged the contents.Fortunately, there are only some waste papers in the trash can, which is not considered dirty.

"I don't need these things anymore. If you return them to me, I can only deal with them in this way." Xu Zhiwei said.

Gu Heng did not despair, as long as Xu Zhiwei responded to him and was willing to chat with him, it would be fine.

He said: "Zhiwei, I broke up with Shen Lian. I told him that I only like you. I was obsessed with him before, and I didn't even see my own heart clearly. I have always cared about you."

Xu Zhiwei shook his head.

Gu Heng continued to speak even more eagerly: "Believe me, after breaking up with you, I have not been sad for a day, and this sadness is increasing day by day. You are my most important and precious."

He put down those old things, walked up to Xu Zhiwei, held Zhiwei's shoulders with both hands: "I was wrong, I know I was wrong. Zhiwei, I know..."

Xu Zhiwei's black and white eyes looked at Gu Heng, the man he almost fell in love with at first sight when he was young, and had been infatuated with him for so many years.He just quietly watched him confess.

After Gu Heng finished speaking, he asked: "Are you really breaking up with Shen Lian? Don't lie."

Gu Heng immediately replied: "Really."

"When?"

"Last November."

"Why? You don't like him anymore?"

The hope in Gu Heng's heart expanded a bit: "Yes, I think he and I should be just friends. But after going through all this, I think it's best to cut off ties with him. Just like what you asked me to do at the beginning, I don't have a relationship with him. keep in touch."

There was a slight smile on Xu Zhiwei's face, but it wasn't a happy smile, it was a kind of unbearable feeling, knowing that some things in life were "destined to be like this".

He said, "Look, that's the problem."

Gu Heng suddenly became inexplicably nervous.

Xu Zhiwei's voice was calm and quiet: "Shen Lian was once your Bai Yueguang, and you were my Bai Yueguang. After so many years, you finally found that Bai Yueguang was nothing more than that, and finally had the opportunity to be together, but it was boring. I am the same Yes... I've been through so much, I've been on and off with you, I thought it was impossible to let go, I couldn't forget. In fact, I have already done it by turning around. You have disenchanted Bai Yueguang, and so have I. "

Gu Heng seemed to be slammed against the door, and the little flame of hope that had just ignited in his heart was blown away.

"It's different, I know you're disappointed in me..." Gu Heng was still trying to save it.

Xu Zhi

Wei said again: "There is no difference. People are selfish, and love is even more selfish. I think clearly, maybe you are sincere when you say you want to get back together. But so what? In the end, you just want me Go back and continue to satisfy you.

"After you broke up with me, you spent half a year with Shen Lian and had close contacts with him. You used this half a year to make a real comparison, so you chose me."

"Have you ever thought about my changes this year, do I want to get back together? Do I want to satisfy you?"

Gu Heng's hands dropped down.He was literally hit.

He realized a terrible thing - Zhiwei was right.

He wanted to justify himself: No, he had been miserable since the first day of the breakup.

But if he said that, then Xu Zhiwei would definitely ask: "Then why didn't you seek to get back together on the first day?"

He couldn't argue.

Xu Zhiwei looked at Gu Heng's face, and he added: "Don't think I'm criticizing you. I just want to make my words clear. If you have any developments in the future, you don't have to come to me to report. We're done."

Gu Heng only felt that if he left like this, the distance between him and Xu Zhiwei would grow further and further.

"Zhiwei, no matter what you say, even if you don't accept it now, it's okay... no matter how long it is, I can do it, as long as you let me stay with you."

He didn't even realize his voice was choking.

Xu Zhiwei shook his head lightly: "How long? If it's eight years, ten years, are you going to sleep with someone else while looking at me? Farewell, I don't want to be involved."

"No!" Gu Heng was excited.

Xu Zhiwei wasn't moved, just the expression of being disturbed by him.

He said: "Gu Heng, don't you understand? In my heart, it's over with you, it's over. I used to wonder why my parents had such a good relationship when they were together. Unfeeling. Now I understand, because I am also like this, and I am the same to you now, I just want to get rid of it."

"I'm really my parents' child, and I'm a lot like them in that."

For a moment, Gu Heng thought of Xu Zhiwei's parents.They were indeed so cruel, because their hatred of each other even affected the innocent Xu Zhiwei.

As long as Xu Zhiwei has half of their heartlessness, he will be sentenced to death.

"When you go downstairs, can you throw it away for me?" Xu Zhiwei pointed at those old things and said.

Gu Heng silently put away his things, and when he left, he said, "Zhiwei, if..."

He didn't go on.There are too many ifs between them, but none of them make sense at the moment.

The wind at night made the trees rustle and the catkins danced wildly in the wind.Gu Heng walked out of the community and walked to his car.The driver was startled when driving for him: "What's wrong with you?"

Gu Heng covered his eyes, tears still overflowing from his fingers.

"It's nothing, catkins are blind."

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