faint star

"You will forget me, because I will forget you too."

Xu Zhiwei said this from the bottom of his heart, not trying to show off.Don't talk about showing off, he doesn't even have the strength to pretend to be himself now.

In the two days just after we broke up, it was okay when he was busy, as long as he was alone, the conversation between Gu Heng and Shen Lian would immediately pop up in his mind.The friendly tone of their conversation and the content of their speech are all extremely clear.

Obviously only heard it once, but it is clearly engraved in my mind.For the first time he suffered from a poor memory.

After the sadness of being trampled on the bottom line at that time passed, Xu Zhiwei recalled the conversation between Gu Heng and Shen Lian, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that breaking up was an extremely correct choice.

Shen Lian will work in Beijing for at least two years.During this time, Gu Heng can "reminisce" with him as he likes.

As soon as Shen Lian came, he persuaded Gu Heng to shoot an advertisement for their company without much effort.Gu Heng didn't care how busy he was usually.It was foreseeable that he would take care of Shen Lian in various ways in the studio.

Shen Lian and his wife fell into a cold war.The problem of infertility is a fatal blow to a family eager to have a biological child.Living apart from his wife in two places at this time is already a precursor to divorce.

When Xu Zhiwei thought about this, he felt that it was the right time, place and people for Gu and Chen.If he persists, what will happen?What's the point?I'm afraid that in the end he will be left alone and become a clown.

He stayed in the chain hotel for three days, and soon found a house near the hospital.He doesn't pay too much attention, as long as the facilities are complete, he can quietly review and prepare for the exam after work.

That night, Xu Zhiwei couldn't sleep, so he took some sleeping pills, and finally fell into a deep sleep.

During this forced sleep, he had a long dream and knew he was dreaming.

In the dream, he didn't see Gu Xin, and he wasn't arranged to hear the conversation between Gu Heng and Shen Lian.But on a peaceful day, Gu Heng told him: "Shen Lian is here, and he took the initiative to contact me. Let's have a meal together."

Gu Heng in the dream is still very handsome.Xu Zhiwei was not as angry as when he was awake, anyway, it was just a dream, he let it develop, he actually agreed: "Okay."

So the three of them met and had dinner together.Shen Lian treated him like an ordinary friend, but Gu Heng's eyes were full of love.When Shen Lian left and only he and Gu Heng were left, Gu Heng pushed him on the dining table to enjoy.

He couldn't help asking: "Why didn't you treat Shen Lian like this?"

Gu Heng smiled and said: "Shen Lian is not ready yet. Before he is ready, I have no choice but to find you."

The details in the dream were extremely real, and their usual postures and movements were all repeated in the dream.Only this time, Gu Heng didn't say "I love you, Zhiwei" or "I like you" like in the past, but became a straightforward sentence after another.

"It's comfortable with you."

"Actually, it is enough for me to have Shen Lian mentally, but I still want someone to hug me."

"When Shen Lian is ready, you can leave."

"I thought you knew in your heart that adults get what they need."

Xu Zhiwei hugged Gu Heng in his dream.This man is so bad that he doesn't hide it.Anyway, in a dream, Xu Zhiwei kissed him and asked: "Gu Heng, apart from being on the bed, did you ever really love me and think that I am important, even more important than Shen Lian."

In the dream, Gu Heng lit a cigarette: "If I lied to you, would you believe me?"

The smoke in the dream lit up a wisp of gray ash, Xu Zhiwei said, "I believe it."

So in this long dream, he continued to indulge in Gu Heng's lies.Seeing Gu Heng and Shen Lian getting closer and closer, but unable to break free.Shen Lian and Gu Heng attended the reception together, he can pretend not to know.Gu Heng sent the drunk Shen Lian home, but he didn't complain.

He was more considerate and gentle to Gu Heng than before, and he only wanted to use this method to keep him.

Until one day, Gu Heng told him: "You can go."

In the dream, he exhausted all his patience, but nothing changed.He could only watch Gu Heng go away with his real Bai Yueguang, laughing at his stupidity and humbleness.

"No... not..."

Xu Zhiwei struggled to wake up from the dream.It took him a long time to come back to his senses, and his mouth was full of bitterness—the situation in the dream was so real that he was even angry with himself when he woke up.

This dream made him feel like he had undergone a desensitization treatment, and now he was fully awake.

When it was over, he had nothing to say to Gu Heng.After moving the computer tables and chairs, he took Mai Mai away.Gu Heng behaved as usual, at the last moment, he didn't get entangled, remained polite, and even showed a bit of tenderness.

Xu Zhiwei saw what he wanted to say, and only prayed that he would stop bringing it up.

Unexpectedly, Gu Heng actually said yes, I will never forget.

If it was ten years ago, Xu Zhiwei would have believed it, and even been moved.At that time, he had just graduated from high school, and he was trying to find a way to give Gu Heng an unforgettable memory.He also firmly believes that he will never forget Gu Heng.

Now he understands.Expired affection is a burden, not forgetting is suffering, he still has a long way to go.

There was only one thing he needed to remember—they broke up.

Gu Heng watched Xu Zhiwei take Mai Mai away.He went back into the house and walked around again.

He didn't know what he was looking for, but he was looking for something.He opened the cabinets in the study and opened every drawer in the room to have a look.

After searching for a long time, he finally got something.

He found two books, a hat, a thermos, and a pen.These are all things that Xu Zhiwei has used.Books are old textbooks.Hats and thermos cups are common daily necessities.The pen is more meaningful. It is a gift received by Zhizhiwei graduate students when they graduated.Maybe it was because I was in a hurry, I didn't pick up some bits and pieces, and accidentally left them behind.

Gu Heng put these things away, thinking that he should send them to Xu Zhiwei when he has time.

He suddenly noticed that the living room was still

Hanging a photo of Xu Zhiwei, the person on the fragrance is smiling.

He thought this photo should also be sent to Need Zhiwei as a souvenir.

For some reason, he couldn't think about Xu Zhiwei's expression and words when he left just now.

From the bottom of his heart, he knew what Xu Zhiwei said was right.This time their breakup is different from the last time, this time they should really forget about each other.

But this night Gu Heng suffered from insomnia again.He couldn't sleep, so he could only write new scripts in his study.No matter how he wrote this script, he felt that something was wrong.But tonight he was stimulated, the script suddenly became extremely smooth, and he could clearly see in his mind how the story should develop and how it would end.He finished the final part overnight.

The next morning, he lay in bed and couldn't get up. For the first time, he had to skip work because of a fever.

He called his assistant: "I'm not going to the studio today, I'm working at home, if I have anything to say in the group."

The assistant asked him, "Manager Shen will be here this afternoon. Boss, can you come? Do you want me to notify them to change the time?"

Only then did Gu Heng remember that there was another meeting this afternoon, and Shen Lian would also come over.He said hoarsely, "Well... I will tell him myself."

The author has something to say: Seeing everyone's comments, I really want to spoil it, but someone said that because I knew in advance that I would break up, there was no surprise

it's hard

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