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"We'd better not see each other again in the future."

After Yan Xiaoqing finished speaking, she stopped and looked at Xu Zhiwei, as if waiting for a response from her son whom she had not seen for many years.

But Xu Zhiwei didn't say anything.

He didn't expect that after sitting down and chatting for a few minutes, Yan Xiaoqing said so bluntly: Don't see you again.

He was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to respond.

Yan Xiaoqing saw Xu Zhiwei froze, and she said: "Actually, I have thought of you all these years, what will I become when I grow up? But when I left at that time, I made up my mind - from now on I will rely on myself, don't I hope that when my son grows up in the future, he will be successful and rich, and I will rely on my son to enjoy the blessings."

Xu Zhiwei understood what she meant.

She was saying - "I don't expect you to retire, so you don't expect anything from me".

Yan Xiaoqing added: "I thought, you just need to be a down-to-earth person. It's good to see you today. You have a good job now and live a good life. I'm done with you..." One suspense, knowing you're all right, will do."

Xu Zhiwei said, "Me too, I just want to see you."

His emotions gradually cooled down, and he knew that Yan Xiaoqing didn't want to have a long-term relationship with him.He laughed at himself in his heart, when he was looking for someone, didn't he just want to meet and know that she was doing well.

It seems that Yan Xiaoqing is in good spirits today. He should be satisfied with his career and family.

But he still wants to talk for a while.

He talked about his college entrance examination: "At that time, I didn't know why, so I wanted to take the test in Beijing. Fortunately, the score was enough, more than 100 points above the first line, and I passed the test smoothly."

He knew that Yan Xiaoqing had a daughter now, who should be only in her teens.For parents of this age, talking about the college entrance examination and grades will always arouse their interest.

Sure enough, Yan Xiaoqing's expression relaxed slightly, and she said: "Over 100 points, it's still very good. You must be working hard."

Xu Zhiwei asked cautiously, "Do you have any children in school now?"

Yan Xiaoqing said, "There is a little girl who is in junior high school."

When she said the word "little girl", she showed affection, as if she was talking about the cutest person in the world.

But she quickly said: "She is now in the third grade of junior high school, which is the critical time. Adolescent children are very sensitive... She doesn't know that I have been divorced, and always thinks that I am fighting for my career so I will marry and have children late. So I said that we are the best It’s best not to meet again. When you have your own family in the future, you will understand this feeling.”

Xu Zhiwei said: "If it's because of worrying about affecting her, then wait a few years for her to be admitted to university..."

Yan Xiaoqing interrupted him: "It's not just because of this."

Xu Zhiwei looked at her quietly.

Yan Xiaoqing avoided his sight, just this look made her restless, she said: "You are too much like your father."

Xu Zhiwei understood.when she left home,

He is still a toddler.Goodbye now, he is already a young man, the age when his parents were talking about marriage.

Just looking at his face reminded her of Xu Wenkang and all the unpleasant memories from the past.

Gu Heng walked around outside the coffee shop, and suddenly saw Yan Xiaoqing pressing the elevator and leaving with her bag in a hurry.He looked at his phone, counting everything. It took only 13 minutes for Yan Xiaoqing to sit down and leave, and that included the small talk between him and him.

"Wipe." Gu Heng cursed in his heart, and immediately returned to the coffee shop.

Sure enough, Xu Zhiwei was still sitting there alone, silently watching the street scene downstairs outside the glass window.I don't know what I'm thinking, it seems like I'm in a daze, and it seems like I'm in deep thought.

Gu Heng sat down beside him: "Zhiwei, is she gone?"

Only then did Xu Zhiwei come back to his senses, and said dryly, "Let's go."

Gu Heng didn't ask how their conversation was going - Yan Xiaoqing left in such a hurry, and Xu Zhiwei had such an expression, why bother to ask?

Seeing the bag on the table, Gu Heng asked, "What is this?"

Inside the bag was a box and a large, bulging envelope.

Xu Zhiwei said softly: "The things she brought me. It's considered... to be finished."

After he finished speaking, he drank the cold coffee in front of him in one gulp: "Let's go."

The two left with the bag.

It happened to be noon, and they were looking for a place to eat.Gu Heng took Xu Zhiwei to a nearby restaurant, the restaurant was not big, only the gourmets knew about it.

After ordering a good dish, Xu Zhiwei asked, "Is there any wine?"

He ordered a bottle of beer for himself and Gu Heng.

It was the first time that I drank at noon, but today's mood should be drinking.

"It's good to meet once, otherwise it will always be a matter of concern." Gu Heng said.

Xu Zhiwei said: "She gave me [-] yuan, and said it was an early wedding red envelope for me."

It sounded like if Xu Zhiwei got married, she would never show up.

Xu Zhiwei laughed at himself: "Fortunately, I won't get married. It feels like I earned nothing."

Gu Heng could only pour wine for Xu Zhiwei: "Drink it, don't talk about it. Let's go to the bar for a drink after drinking it. Today is going out to drink."

But they didn't make it to the bar.When the two of them came out after dinner, Gu Heng saw that Xu Zhiwei's face was not in a good mood and turned pale.It may be that after drinking, and being blown by the cold wind, the person is a little swaying.He immediately supported Xu Zhiwei, letting him lean on himself: "What's wrong?"

Xu Zhiwei grabbed Gu Heng's arm, and his stomach hurt again.This wave of pain was so severe that he couldn't walk: "Stomach..."

Gu Heng simply took off his coat, wrapped it around him, half hugged and half supported: "First find a place to rest."

Xu Zhi was in a cold sweat from the pain, and let Gu Heng lead him in a daze.

Gu Heng went back to the hotel just now and got a room.Luxurious big room, expensive, but also very comfortable.

He helped Xu Zhiwei to lie down on the bed, covered him with the quilt, and asked for another

Hot drink.

Xu Zhiwei curled up under the quilt, hunched over, tossing and turning to find a comfortable position.Seeing his pain, Gu Heng couldn't just sit idly by, wiped his face with a towel, leaned on the side of the bed, and said in a low voice, "If I had known this, I shouldn't have let you drink."

Xu Zhiwei said with difficulty: "It's not the wine..."

He couldn't help humming in pain.

"Isn't that what a doctor should say?" Gu Heng gently brushed away the hair on Xu Zhiwei's forehead, and Xu Zhiwei held onto his hand tightly.This is the first time since the reunion, Xu Zhiwei took the initiative to grab him.Gu Heng understood instantly in his heart that it was Xu Zhiwei's most vulnerable partner at this moment, whether it was mentally or physically, that's why he caught him.

There was a trace of deep joy of "finally" in Gu Heng's pity.

Finally, he could taste Xu Zhiwei again.

Gu Heng didn't hesitate anymore, he hugged Xu Zhiwei from behind, wrapped the thin ex-boyfriend in his arms, and warmed him with his own body.

"Is this better?"

Xu Zhiwei knew that the distance between the two of them had broken through the edge of ambiguity at this moment, but he was in too much pain - his whole body was in pain, even alcohol could not numb the pain, and he didn't have the strength to leave this warm embrace, even if he was drinking poison to quench his thirst.

Xu Zhiwei finally fell asleep from exhaustion.

When I woke up, it was already three or four in the afternoon.Xu Zhiwei slowly opened his eyes, the curtains in the room were drawn, he couldn't feel the time, his body calmed down, but there was a feeling of burnout after a fever.

Gu Heng walked over holding a cup of hot water, turned on the bedside lamp, and handed him the water: "Don't rush to get up, you can rest for a while."

Xu Zhiwei sat up and drank some water, leaned against the bed, and said thoughtfully, "I want to see the photo album."

Gu Heng brought the bag over, took out the photo album inside, sat on the side of the bed, and looked at it with Xu Zhiwei.

The photo album was the most common style more than ten years ago, and the airtightness was not good. As soon as you opened it, you could see that the photos had turned yellow.

The first one is a mug shot of the baby.

"Wei Wei commemorates the [-]th day." These words are written under the photo.

Gu Heng couldn't help laughing and said, "So your nickname is really Wei Wei."

Xu Zhiwei fell into a mood of nostalgia. He remembered that when his mother was in a good mood, she would call him "Wei Wei".

Turning the page, it was Yan Xiaoqing and Xu Zhiwei, who was about two years old, in a local park.Yan Xiaoqing was wearing a dress that looked outdated even now. She was young and beautiful. Xiao Zhiwei was standing by the flower bed, her eyes narrowed with a smile.

"What a silly expression." Xu Zhiwei commented by himself.

Time is condensed in this photo album page by page.Soon dozens of photos were flipped through.Inside are photos of Yan Xiaoqing and Xu Zhiwei, some alone and some together.But there is no Xu Wenkang in these photos, nor is there a group photo of the family of three.There are some slots in the album that are empty.It seems that Yan Xiaoqing threw away all the photos that appeared in Xu Wenkang.

Xu Zhi was slightly disappointed, but it was reasonable—he

Like my family, I have never seen a group photo of the three of them.

There are no photos, no evidence, and the "they used to have a good relationship" told by others has become an illusory story rather than a real history.

Gu Heng flipped through the photo album again, and suddenly said, "Zhiwei."

As he said, he gently took out a photo from the album: "There is another photo in the middle..."

He pulled out the photo that was hidden between the two photos.

In this photo, there are Yan Xiaoqing, Xu Wenkang, and Xu Zhiwei.The three of them were sitting on the cruise ship. Xu Wenkang hugged Yan Xiaoqing affectionately and looked at her with a smile.

Their eyes are full of love, and they will never think that one day they will grow old and die without seeing each other.

The little Xu Zhiwei next to them was holding a cone in his hand, his face was full of flowers, and he was carefree.

Xu Zhiwei looked at this photo and said softly, "That's great. I don't even remember. This is the Lijiang River? It turns out that my parents and I went to play on the Lijiang River."

He held back tears.

Gu Heng hugged him and let him bury his head on his shoulder.

Xu Zhiwei murmured: "I'm their child too... I'm jealous of her daughter, she won't even say that she's my sister, as if she's afraid that I'll disturb that little girl, and won't even let her know of my existence."

He finally broke down in tears.

Gu Heng stroked his back, and after a while, he held Xu Zhiwei's face, wiped his tears with his hands, and kissed Xu Zhiwei's lips.

It was a gentle kiss, Xu Zhiwei finally raised his head and complied with this kiss.

After the kiss was over, Gu Heng's hand was already caressing the smooth back along the inside of the clothes.

"Zhiwei, as I said, you still have me."

Xu Zhiwei didn't believe it, he pushed Gu Heng away: "You are no different from others. The most important thing is someone else, for Shen Lian, you can give up on me at any time. I don't want to experience this kind of thing again."

Gu Heng hugged him and blurted out: "I love you, I will not abandon you."

He didn't know why he said that, he only knew that he had to seize the best opportunity at this moment.

Xu Zhiwei looked into Gu Heng's eyes, and asked word by word, "What did you say?"

Gu Heng no longer hesitated, he said: "Zhiwei, I regret it... I regretted it when I was in Australia... I love you..."

He said it so much that even he almost believed it, and slowly pressed on Xu Zhiwei.

This time Xu Zhiwei didn't push him away.

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